Xu Kaici's hair is green or not

Until he completely lost consciousness after the anesthesia was inhaled, Xu Kaici was still immersed in grief and hatred. The few glances he saw Cheng Hangyi in the corridor earlier were not enough to offset the damage brought to him in just a few hours.

The shadowless lamp shone indifferently on his head, it was ridiculous to say that Xu Kaici didn't feel like a human being, he felt like a piece of meat from a butcher's stall.Life and death, and where to go are not up to you to decide.It can only be slaughtered and manipulated by others.

Perhaps it is said that I am not even as good as a piece of meat, at least at the butcher stall, a piece of meat can be exchanged for the same value, and I don’t need any reason to be at the mercy of others.

Xu Kaici just fell into a deep sleep in paleness, and woke up in paleness again.

In fact, before Cheng Hang came in, he had already convulsed once.At that time, I was still in the intensive care unit, and the shadowless lamp above my head was replaced by ceiling and ceiling lamps.

There is no one around, only the instrument is ringing non-stop.

The unspeakable fear and tension fell into convulsions in the next second, and dense pain hit the limbs, Xu Kaici bit his lip in pain, not knowing what to do.

Until his mouth was filled with warm fishy sweetness, until a medical staff came in to check his postoperative condition.Only then did someone realize that he was trapped in his own fear and tension, and he was almost tormented to the point of passing.

The doctor suggested to give Xu Kaici a sedative so that Xu Kaici can sleep well.Looking at the recovery of the patient after the operation, he needs a peaceful mind and sufficient rest time. It is a good thing for him to have a deep sleep.

But Xu Kaici refused. Through the oxygen mask, he said weakly that he didn't need a tranquilizer, he just needed to stay by himself for a while, and he would be fine after a while.

In fact, Xu Kaici really wanted to sleep for a while, he felt very tired, and knew in his heart that he had just walked through the gate of hell.But not now, he can't sleep yet, there is no one around him, if he relaxes his vigilance and closes his eyes, he will really be at the mercy of others.

After being transferred from the observation ward, Xu Kaici endured the pain and struggled to keep his eyes open.This state is like a warrior in ancient times, and he doesn't know where this state of alert comes from.

Obviously very weak, obviously useless.

Regardless of whether it was the gentle Cheng Hangyi who came in the next second, or the Xu Chunye whom he never wanted to see again in his life, he was powerless to resist.

But keeping his eyes open and facing the fear of the unknown is the last bit of decency he can give himself.

At least Xu Kaici thought so.

But the time was too long, passing too slowly, so slow that he could listen to his own heartbeat, one by one, one second by one.

So slowly that he felt that maybe no one would come in at all.

Perhaps the string he was tightening was meaningless at all.

This life is to be lived alone, come alone, and go away alone.

In fact, Xu Kaici lived this kind of life. In the year when he and Cheng Hangyi separated, he was alone every day, lying alone, suffering alone, and facing the long night and day alone.

But just because a person has survived this kind of life, he will feel more painful when facing it again.

Whether the ancient warriors would collapse before waiting for reinforcements, Xu Kaici didn't know, but he felt that he had already collapsed.

Later, he even felt that the person who came in was a doctor, or Mei Jing, even Xu Chunye, as long as he came in alone, as long as someone came in to accompany him.Anything is fine, anything is fine, as long as you don't let him lie on the bed like a piece of rotten meat, nothing can be done.

So, Cheng Hangyi, where have you been?Are you scared too?Don't be afraid, I've come back to life, I've already listened to your words and come back to life, why haven't you appeared yet?It's not what you said, as long as I wake up, you will never leave me again, will you stay with me all the time?

Probably the soldier never waited for reinforcements, he died before daylight broke.

The same is true for Xu Kaici, his eyes that were originally wide open have begun to slacken.

At this time, there will be no extra thoughts. Looking at the ceiling is just looking at the ceiling, and looking at the ceiling lamp is just the ceiling lamp. Those hideous fantasies have all dissipated.

Dissipated together were his last bit of fighting spirit and the decency he wanted to leave for himself.

So much so that he didn't even notice the movement Cheng Hang made when he opened the door and came in, he was still staring at the pale ceiling and the ceiling lamp that flickered from time to time.

—— "Cheng Hangyi, think of a way, I can't make it through."

——"Cheng Cheng...don't leave...It's really hard to be alone..."

It turned out that when the same words were spoken by the same person, Cheng Hangyi would experience different pains.

As soon as Cheng Hang knew that Xu Kaici had made all the preparations to meet the death and liberation that he had been thinking about for a long time, he could only open his eyes involuntarily to face the matter of being alive.

He couldn't imagine what Xu Kaici was thinking after opening his eyes during the long time when he had a high fever and was haunted by nightmares.Has it collapsed countless times, is it still remembering what happened yesterday, is it afraid that he will be left alone again.

I can't get family affection, and I can't meet the liberation I want. I don't even have the so-called lover by my side. I can only look at the pale ceiling and endure the pain and loneliness.

Thinking of this, Cheng Hang couldn't bear it any longer, and leaned over to kiss Xu Kaici's forehead.

His forehead is full of cold sweat, is it painful?Or is it brought about by inner distress?

Is it still hurting now?Are you still afraid?

"Don't be afraid, I'm here, I'm always here, and I won't leave in the future. Xu Kaici, don't be afraid, I will always be with you and love you from now on. Don't be afraid, take a good rest, I'm right by your side Go, I'll cover you if you're scared, okay?" Cheng Hang whispered softly in Xu Kaici's ear, stroking Xu Kaici with his warm and dry hands, wiping the sweat from his hair, The brows are smoothed a little bit.

Xu Kaici closed his eyes, and his wrists were still rubbing against the quilt slightly. As soon as Cheng Hang knew that he could hear him, he hadn't fallen asleep yet.He whispered in Xu Kaici's ear over and over again not to be afraid, as if he was coaxing him to sleep, but also as if he was cheering himself up, showing his determination.

Until Xu Kaici's breathing became gentle, the ups and downs of his chest no longer looked like sobs, but rose and fell gently with his breathing.

Now Xu Kaici really fell asleep, but his brows were still frowning.Cheng Hang breathed a sigh of relief, and gently pulled the chair over to sit beside the hospital bed.

When Xu Kaici really fell asleep, Cheng Hang stood up cautiously, went outside to the nurse's station and asked for some medicine and cotton balls.

Cheng Hang lifted the quilt lightly, pulled Xu Kaici's foot into his arms, and applied medicine on the scratched area for Xu Kaici.

Xu Kaici has been seriously ill these past few months, and everyone's attention is on his illness, trying to persuade him to have an operation.These minutiae things were ignored naturally, so that after careful inspection, I found that Xu Kaici's feet were drooping much more than before.

The heel has degenerated into a small one hidden behind the Achilles tendon with almost no sense of existence. No wonder the shoes fell off when I picked him up and ran faster yesterday.

The scrape is now swollen, and it is red on the white and tender feet. The original small wound should have scabbed long ago, but Xu Kaici has a special body, and it takes a long time for a little wound to heal. The medicine can overflow a little bit of blood.

Although he knew that Xu Kaici would not be in pain, Cheng Hangyi foolishly blew gently on Xu Kaici's feet, trying to make himself feel better psychologically.

After applying the medicine, Cheng Hangyi quietly hugged Xu Kaici's feet and rubbed them for him, rubbing away those chubby toes that were curled up.After the potion dried up, Cheng Hang opened the bag of luggage that Meng Xinci had sent, took out a pair of tabi socks and put them on Xu Kaici's feet carefully.

After putting on the socks, Xu Kaici's feet looked strangely funny, but also quite cute. Cheng Hang stared at these softly drooping feet, and couldn't help but lower his head and smile.

Turning around and looking at Xu Kaici, who was soundly asleep, there was an indescribable sadness as if a thousand sails had passed away.

"Go to sleep, sleep a little longer, the pain won't hurt when you fall asleep..."

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In the next few days, Xu Kaici almost slept.He only wakes up occasionally for a while, but he rarely speaks, only those beautiful eyes turn around to look around, and when he sees that he is still in that ward and Cheng Hangyi is still guarding him, he sleeps peacefully again went back.

Most of the time, and sometimes in the middle of the night, I don't know what I dreamed, and I will open my eyes in panic, and keep calling Cheng Hangyi's name.Either because of the phantom pain, the pain is so painful that I can't speak, and I keep roaring or groaning in a low voice, and it takes a long, long time to get back to calm.

But in general, every time the doctor checked, he said that he was slowly recovering, and sleeping was also a kind of self-healing for him, let Cheng Hangyi not worry.

Cheng Hangyi wasn't worried about his postoperative recovery. This hospital was considered top-notch in Shanghai, and Xu Kaici had a high chance of recovering after undergoing surgery.

What he was worried about was Xu Kaici's mental state. He was afraid that it was not the so-called self-healing that he kept falling asleep like this.

During this period, Cheng Hang rejected all the visitors, and even Ning Wang came to welcome him with his carefully stewed tonic soup, only the closed door of the ward.

The door of the ward was tightly closed, and Cheng Hang was alone with Xu Kaici, even if Xu Kaici didn't speak, he would babble endlessly.

He always felt that Xu Kaici was listening to him, and he didn't sleep so deeply all the time, so he didn't talk about those heavy topics, but picked funny and interesting things to talk about.

He tried his best to clean up Xu Kaici's body when he was asleep, scrubbed his body and washed his face every once in a while, and was always ready for Xu Kaici to face himself clean and fresh when he woke up.

This sleep was too long, Cheng Hang counted seven days with his fingers.

It wasn't until the eighth day that Xu Kaici woke up slowly, no longer in a daze.

He felt like he had a long, long dream, in which there was nothing but a long, endless road, and he was walking alone, with gravel cutting his ankles and blowing He couldn't keep his eyes open for the hurricane.

But he could only go forward, he couldn't go further, and he wanted to turn back.But the road behind was darker and darker. When he was in a dilemma, Xu Kaici heard someone calling him not far away.

That person's voice was all too familiar to him, very brisk, with a little southwest accent.

"Brother, come here quickly, go ahead, I'm waiting for you, brother, come here quickly, come here, I will walk with you for the rest..."

He tremblingly replied to his lover in the distance: "Cheng Cheng, I can't walk anymore... Don't wait for me, can you walk by yourself?"

The voice was hidden behind the light, Xu Kaici couldn't see Cheng Hangyi's face clearly, but he could imagine Cheng Hangyi's anxious appearance.

He jumped up anxiously, rushing towards Xu Kaici through the dazzling light.

"No, I'm going to take you back, you have to be with me!"

(There are extras in the story)