Yan Lu Zhi Nan

Maybe Liu Jiuyue separated because he looked too much like a girl.Chu Yannan began to learn to comb her messy hair into a ponytail like most girls did, and replaced the heavy black-rimmed glasses with red-rimmed glasses.Changing overly baggy clothes into well-fitting tops in various colors made her look a lot brighter.

It's not that she didn't want to wear a pair of contact lenses like Wang Li did, but she couldn't put that strange thing into it.Picking up a skirt in the mall and gesticulating for a long time, I sighed and put it back after seeing the price.

"Chu Yannan, if you dress up a little bit, you'll be fine." Wang Li took out her phone with shiny stickers and took a selfie, "Come on, have a smile."

Chu Yannan smiled shyly. The mobile phone has a built-in photo function, but Wang Li only posted herself.

"This skirt actually suits you quite well, why don't you buy it?" Wang Li pulled up the skirt and looked at it.

"Poor." Chu Yannan sighed. In fact, as long as the clothes are clean and tidy, that's enough.

"Then why don't you find a boyfriend." Wang Li just asked casually, whether or not Chu Yannan has a boyfriend is none of her business.

"..." Chu Yannan lowered her head.

"Oh, it could be that you don't even have a first love." Wang Li took out a lipstick from her bag and painted it twice.

"Yes, don't look at me like I am a person who has been in love before." Chu Yannan retorted sullenly, her expression still serious.

"Ah, ah." Wang Li laughed, "You are so shy, don't you blush from head to toe when you talk about love?"

"Hmph, I always take the initiative to attack people I like, and I am shy when I treat people I don't like." Chu Yannan didn't want to continue this topic, it brought up her sadness.

"Since you are so active, why did you separate?"

"Probably because I can't give her what she wants."

"Why do you sound like a boy? You are a girl. It should be a boy who gives you what you want."

After hearing Wang Li's words, Chu Yannan felt a little sad, and Liu Jiuyue probably thought the same way. She wanted to let others bring her something, instead of trying to create something by herself.

"Why is your bag like this?" Wang Li sharp-eyed saw Chu Yannan's shoulder bag that charged the same water fee. "Don't you think those bags in the mall are very beautiful. Anyway, we are here to go shopping, so please accompany me to have a look."

Chu Yannan actually hated shopping the most. Those clothes made her dazzled and made her feel sick. She just wanted to find a seat to rest for a while, but Wang Li said so, she couldn't help it.

"Okay then." Chu Yannan coped with Wang Li's enthusiasm, she was already in a trance, just followed her mechanically, thinking about nothing.

She didn't buy anything in the first place, but Wang Li had shoes and clothes in one hand. By the way, Wang Li's taste was artificial, mixed with a northern accent, and Chu Yannan often directly ignored it.

"How do you have so much money?" Chu Yannan couldn't help frowning as she watched her frantically swiping her money. She didn't even swipe a credit card.

"It's very simple, because I have a boyfriend. This is a matter of course."

"Is this really good?" Chu Yannan was very puzzled, those things were other people's money instead of his own, and it was considered as a matter of course for something that was obtained for nothing?

"What's the matter, I didn't let him go shopping with me. It's good. Boys are such creatures. Asking him to go shopping with you is like beheading, so the object of shopping must be a girl." That's all."

Chu Yannan wanted to say that she actually hated shopping too, but she didn't say so, she just echoed Wang Li's point of view. She was always following other people's opinions instead of expressing her own point of view loudly.

"What kind of person is your boyfriend?" Chu Yannan asked, what kind of relationship is it with a man.

"Well, actually I don't know much about it, but he will buy me brand-name bags." She smiled, "And then there is the matter in the hotel, it's better you don't know."

Chu Yannan couldn't understand how two people who didn't understand each other fell in love. Could it be that the bond was only limited to the hotel.

Like suffering, Chu Yannan finally finished her shopping, she has no interest in those bright pearls, she just wants to have a quick dream, and spread her wings as she likes in the dream.

The cell phone that had been immobile for thousands of years moved in his pocket. It was a text message from Xiao Xiao.

"Tomorrow at [-] o'clock in the afternoon, the junior high school reunion will start at the KTV on the east corner."

The cold text seemed to be a group post, Chu Yannan turned off his phone and put it back in his pocket while thinking.She did kind of want to know what those kids were like now.

Boys have become more excellent, but girls have often become the kind of person he hated the most. Looking at his hands, Chu Yannan thought, he is about to become that kind of person.

Will one day be like those girls, wearing lipstick and makeup, spreading out the permed and dyed hair, and then swaying the waist to attract the eyes of men on the street.

Chu Yannan felt terrible, he could not fall into this black vortex called reality, the dream was where he should exist.

She doesn't think that she is a good person, a saint or a lotus flower that emerges from the mud without staining, it's just that she doesn't want to let herself fall deeper, or is she like Wang Li, accepting and enjoying all this calmly.

The close-fitting clothes made Chu Yannan feel insecure, and she ran away in a hurry to go home. In an instant, she began to envy Su Ling.She has a very legitimate reason to live in her own world, and she can love, hate, and even monopolize as she pleases.

For the first time, Chu Yannan felt that she was still a child who was not familiar with accidents and could not adapt to this cruel society, but Liu Jiuyue adapted and left herself.

She has always thought that the world is beautiful, that people are more or less kind, that couples stay together because they love each other, and that married people stay together for life.Only now do I realize that the world is full of incomplete beauties, everyone has a dark side, couples can stay together only because of money, and married people have been completely eroded by black mud.

Xiao Xiao, who she once thought was gentle and kind, was gone, and the kind and strong self she once thought was dead.What is contained in this body now is just a cowardly and uninitiated girl.

As an independent person, Chu Yannan looked down on herself from the bottom of her heart, and as a woman, Chu Yannan hated herself from the bottom of her heart.

How many people will come to tomorrow's class reunion?Chu Yannan hugged Yali and thought.In the past, she thought she would never forget the ridicule and bullying in the class, but now she has forgotten all of them. Looking at those memories, it is almost like someone else's story.

Yali still happily wagged its tail at Chu Yannan, it never seemed unhappy.

The next day happened to be a holiday, and Chu Yannan didn't know why it happened so coincidentally.She tried to choose a more beautiful dress to make herself look better, but the good life in the eyes of others was not her own good.

Looking at herself in the mirror, Chu Yannan finally didn't look like a middle school student listening to the teacher. At least she could tell that she was a petite and thin woman with a tall and straight figure.In this way, others will think that she is doing well, but she is not.

Chu Yannan has indeed become more cheerful and talkative, but it also means that she is more lonely in her heart.It is also an indisputable fact that Liu Jiuyue's existence has been gradually forgotten.She was erased from her heart like this, without leaving a trace.

Forgetting a person is not forgetting the existence of that person, but forgetting the feelings for her in the past. Those tenderness and nostalgia did exist in the past. Chu Yannan does not want to deny them, but whether tenderness or nostalgia, now It doesn't matter to her anymore, does it?

"Little Yali, take good care of the house." She smiled and patted the puppy's head. Yali was very smart, and lay down on the carpet as if she understood.

What kind of place is KTV? Chu Yannan has never set foot there, but she has tasted the taste of alcohol, and she doesn't think it's bad.

The environment inside was very dark, Xiao Xiao was already sitting there chatting and laughing happily with a few classmates with familiar outlines, a few bottles of beer were placed on the table, and there were ambiguous male and female students singing love songs in duet there.

Chu Yannan walked in, and a familiar person from the past greeted him,

"Hi, you're Chu Yannan, right? That guy had a crush on you." A carefree girl greeted her while pouring beer down her throat.

"We're talking about people we've had a crush on now, so you can talk about it too."

"I hate it. I have a crush on my elder brother in the first year of high school, and now he is my husband." Xiao Xiao said, she seemed to be a little drunk, and her expression was a little unclear.

Chu Yannan felt uncomfortable, so she had to sit in a corner and listen to the noisy singing, and drink beer by the way, she felt that the taste of the wine was like carbonated drinks.

"Don't just sit there and do nothing." A man said, "Chu Yannan, you are much prettier now. I had a crush on you back then. No one is singing now. Hurry up and sing a song." .”

Chu Yannan couldn't refuse, and didn't know what to sing, so he went up and clicked on a random song, and came up with just one sentence.

"Every revolutionary soldier must keep in mind the three disciplines and eight points of attention."

With such a yell, everyone in the audience was stunned, and then burst into laughter.

"Hahaha, Chu Yannan, what j8 are you singing?" Liu Jiuyue was obviously drunk, and laughed wildly as he patted the table.

"Three Disciplines and Eight Great Attentions, haven't you heard of it?" Chu Yannan felt a little aggrieved, isn't it just a little retro, as for that, apart from this, she will only sing one song about learning from Lei Feng's good example and one song Katyusha is gone, and then there is the song of the seven sons, except for these she can't sing anything.

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