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It was the second autumn when Gong Ming came back to her, and it was very cold.

On that dark night that seemed to have no lights, she just ran out of the operating room, and for the first time watched a life go by her hands, and felt like a huge rock was pressing on her heart, heavy, but also helpless by fear. breathe.

After leaving the operating room and condolences to the patient's family, Chen Jingfeng hurried out of the hospital door wearing a coat.It was raining, not too heavy, but it looked very cold with the early autumn weather.Her heart was in a mess, and she rushed into the night in the rain.

The cold rain fell on the body, wet the shoulders, and wet the eyelids thoroughly.

Dazed and hurried back home, when he opened the door, it was unexpectedly bright.

Gong Ming sat on the sofa, followed the sound of the door opening, and turned to look at herself.At that moment, Chen Jingfeng was in a daze.With hair wet by the rain and wrapped in a cold coat, Chen Jingfeng stared straight at the people sitting in the living room, and felt something rushing up from his heart. For a moment, his nose was sour and his eyes swelled.

It seems that many, many years ago, it was the same weather, and it was also this person, and this room was also with the lights on, waiting for me to come back.

It's been too long, and she has forgotten how she felt at that time, but when she thinks about it again, she is full of heart-wrenching pain.

Seeing the girl walking towards her with a surprised face, like the worried look in her memory, she suddenly wanted to reach out and hug this person, wrapping all the helplessness and sadness in her heart.But that person walked up to him and asked anxiously, what's going on.With his blurred eyes, he finally couldn't see her appearance clearly.

Barely suppressing the throbbing in his heart, he clenched his hands into fists and replied lightly, it's okay.

Like many times before, I can only pretend to be okay and cover up all my emotions.

It's just because, at this moment, she can't find a reason to hug this person.

Taking off his wet coat, Chen Jingfeng stood at the door of the bathroom with the clothes in hand, seeing this man busy up and down for himself, his panicked heart immediately calmed down.Letting the other party push her into the bathroom, she took off her clothes, she was submerged in the water, let the hot water soak her tired body, and closed her eyes heavily.

As soon as he closed his eyes, he seemed to see the woman on the operating table again, her eyes widened.

Blood, blood everywhere, red blood, green surgical gown, silver scalpel, shining white on the woman's black hair.For a moment, as if hearing the sound of a baby crying, his eyes widened suddenly, and with a splash, the water in the bathtub was stirred, and he sat up.

She raised her hand helplessly, and put it in front of her eyes. Her breathing was unsteady, and for a moment, she was overwhelmed by fear again, and tears almost came out of the corners of her eyes.

This was the first time she cooperated with a gynecologist to perform an operation on a congenital heart disease patient who was seven months pregnant.

In fact, before that, Chen Jingfeng had performed an operation on that woman. In order to ensure the woman's life, she originally suggested removing the child.But this patient was very stubborn and wanted to give birth to the child no matter what.The doctor who performed the operation had no choice but to compromise to ensure that the two had a [-]% chance of success.

But I didn't expect... After so much hard work, it still failed.

Chen Jingfeng covered her face, thinking of what she said to the woman before the operation, she said, "When you wake up, you will see your husband and child, I promise."

As a result, her promise was not fulfilled, but the worst ending, yin and yang were separated.

Standing in front of the operating table, looking at the woman who was gradually losing her heartbeat, Chen Jingfeng raised her hand and suddenly felt scared.She looked at her bloody hands and took two steps back. Unbelievably, she felt that her hands were trembling.

If it wasn't for the teacher who had been leading her by the side to reach out and support herself, she would have fallen down.The teacher said, "Go out."

The voice was flat, without sadness or joy.She took a deep breath, clenched her fists, and followed the teacher out of the operating room.

She thought that she was used to birth, old age, sickness and death.Every year, there are countless examples of patients suffering from pain and dying.It's just that this time, he just sent a life away on his own operating table, and fear and fear are inevitable.

I originally thought that when I got out of the operating room, I should be able to calm down those abnormal mentalities with the psychological quality I have cultivated for many years.However, she overestimated herself a bit.

When she saw the crying man after hearing the teacher's announcement of the death result, she suddenly thought that this was a farewell about someone else, but it was in her own hands. She could no longer maintain her original calmness, and suddenly wanted to call The crowd fled in haste.

She was afraid, afraid that the husband would ask where his wife had gone, afraid to see his heartbroken face, and even more afraid, thinking of everything she had promised to that woman before the operation.

As long as she closes her eyes, she can see that the delicate woman is sitting on the head of the bed, stroking her swollen belly, and there is a soft light gathering on her pale face.

That gentle, soft-spoken woman always likes to pull her to talk about her young husband intermittently when she goes to check her body.

Said that their childhood sweethearts were childhood sweethearts, that when she was in poor health, the other party always took care of her, and would carry her home where no one was looking.Talk about their love for each other, talk about their steadfastness, and talk about their daily love.

Every piece, every time you talk about it, that delicate little face will always shine with happiness.

That young man was very handsome and had a bright smile. Every day when he got off work, he brought soup to the hospital and stayed in the hospital at night.

Sometimes it was late, and when I came to the hospital, I was always sweating profusely.More than once, Chen Jingfeng had seen a petite woman sitting on the head of the bed, asking the young man beside the bed to bend down and reach out to wipe the sweat off his forehead.

There is always a gentle smile on the woman's face.The man grinned and grinned, like a big boy who would never grow up.

A very loving couple indeed.

The people who took care of their young couple all thought so.

Thinking of the sweetness between them, Chen Jingfeng seemed to see his bloody hands again, and sighed heavily.

As soon as her mind turned, she seemed to see the gentle pregnant woman again, looked at herself and said seriously, "Sister Chen, I know that I don't have a long life, and being able to marry him is enough for this life. If the operation fails, I think Leave it to the child, at least, let him remember me forever. Can you help me?"

Every time, every time, the woman was always worried about what the young man would look like after she was gone.She said he was like a child, without her, he probably wouldn't be able to take care of many things.

She had said a lot, and it all said that if she could only have one child, then she would choose a child. She knew that she would not live long, at least, she wanted to leave something in this world for the other party.

But Chen Jingfeng never told her that during the first operation, the man stood in his office with red eyes, begging.He said that no matter what, he must keep her.And he blamed himself over and over again, that he shouldn't have promised her to keep that child in the first place.

As far as he is concerned, that gentle woman who is always weak and weak is the most important thing in his life.

But this time, there is no need to worry between them anymore, because that woman...is dead...already, no longer in this world...

Covering his face, tears that he hadn't shed for a long time wet his palms and rolled down.

Chen Jingfeng thought of the woman's smiling face lying on the operating table, and their warm and bright smiles in the ward, and felt like a knife was twisting his heart.

She thought that she was strong enough to face all life and death, but she never thought that in the end, after experiencing things, she was even more vulnerable than she imagined.

In a daze, she thought of herself lying on the white hospital bed that year.

It was just a small appendix operation. When I called 120, I was in pain and vaguely thought of Gong Ming's appearance.When being carried on the stretcher, Chen Jingfeng seemed to see Gong Ming's smile again in a daze.

When she was 14 years old, when she was 11 years old, when she was ten years old, when she was eight years old, when she was seven years old... until the day I first met her, her chubby little hands were holding onto her fingers and she was smiling softly.

Staring at the white ceiling in a daze, thinking over and over again, when the anesthesia came, the last thing she thought of was that winter, when Gong Ming grabbed her collar and burst into tears.

The white light flickered, then went silent for a moment.

At that moment, she knew what was the last thing she could lose in her life...

She knew in her heart that it was just a small appendix operation, and there was nothing to be afraid of. She had been a doctor for many years, so how could she be afraid of such things.But the moment the anesthesia came on, she still felt scared.

Because at that moment...the moment she fainted...she felt...she was going to die.

If you die, you will never see her smile again in this life, and the crying you brought her will never be smoothed over in this life.

At that moment, she was not afraid of death, but was thinking, what would happen to Gong Ming if she died?

Just like the woman on the operating table, she was deeply worried about her loved one.

Chen Jingfeng thought for a while, and Gong Ming's greeting came from the door.When I recovered, I realized how long I had been sitting in the bathroom, even the water was cold.

Hastily wiped away tears and body with a towel, changed clothes, took a deep breath, and Chen Jingfeng walked out of the bathroom.

Fortunately, fate has not been unkind.In the changes of the years, you and I are always there.It's just that when you are moving forward, you accidentally go the wrong way, and when you turn your head, you find that you have lost you unknowingly.

Fortunately, there is still a chance, and there is still a chance to chase it back.So this time, she turned her head without hesitation, walked to the origin, and slowly chased up along the road where Gong Ming was.

Never again, let go of your hand.

Drinking the bowl of ginger soup with added sugar, Chen Jingfeng raised his head, looked at the charming woman, with red eyes, and called out, "Gong Ming..."

"Huh?" The petite woman looked up, confused.

Chen Jingfeng looked at her and said nothing.After a long time, a smile appeared on his lips, and everything was said in silence.

She just wants to tell you that she is very glad, very glad that you are still by my side.want to tell you:

I want to love you well, until the moment of death, and will not stop.