Fate replacement

A face similar to myself gradually became clear in the darkness, but that person was not me.

His figure seemed to be covered with a layer of tulle, and it was no longer getting clearer, but he could still get a general idea.Subconsciously trying to erase the figure of the other party was in vain, the figure grinned.

A smile that seemed to be ironic about himself twitched in front of his eyes.One, two, three, four, the same face was growing around me in the darkness, I crouched crouching down with my head in my arms.

Xu Zhi.

Stop, stop, stop, stop, stop!

It's all about him, constantly laughing at his own failure, at his own powerlessness and self-satisfaction.

"Just because you look like me, do you think he loves you?" 』Words like this kept coming from all around, I could only cover my ears and listen to him laughing at me and kept crying, and I couldn't do anything.

Suddenly, the dream stopped like a VCR being paused, and I woke up.

The cold sweat made me very uncomfortable, and the other person next to me looked at me worriedly, "Finally woke up... Are you okay? Had a nightmare? I just called you for a long time..." His concern was clearly expressed in his eyes , but I feel that what he looks at and cares about is not me, but Xu Zhi.

"It's okay." Turning his head coldly, he found that the sky outside the window had darkened. He took out his mobile phone and checked, it was four fifteen.

The sky in winter darkened quickly, and now this kind of gloomy vision is almost the same as night.The bustling lights flickered in front of my eyes, and I felt that the car started to start again. Haku probably decided to let me calm down because of my resistance.

In fact, it was not far from the destination just now, only about 10 minutes by car. I didn't fall asleep and dared not sleep again, for fear that I would return to the nightmare and continue to collapse and reincarnate.

"Here we are." He took off his seat belt and turned to smile at me. I silently took off my seat belt and opened the car door. A big mansion came into view.

I was a little stunned, and looked back at Haku who came out of the other car door in a daze, "What does your house do?" Why do I think this house looks familiar?

He scratched his cheek and said to me embarrassingly, "Our family is a famous family, the Yu family. It is the Yu family who invested in many different blocks..." This was the first time I wanted to swear so badly.

It's no wonder you don't know what kind of face to take back. This kind of famous family is generally not allowed to have family scandals, let alone homosexuality?And the Yu family heard that people of the older generation are still healthy and alive... How could they accept it!

"Is it too late to regret it now?" A sense of powerlessness hit my body, and I really wanted to regret it. "It's too late." He walked up to me with an innocent face, took my hand and walked towards the mansion that seemed to be eating people.

"Brother, young master!" Just as he was approaching the iron gate that exudes a cold atmosphere, he heard an old voice, "Old Mo..." Haku called out, and the gray-haired old man gradually became clear in his sight, looking at him She is dressed like a housekeeper. "After so many years, you're finally back!" The housekeeper named Mo Lao patrolled Haku up and down with a happy but worried contradiction.

But when I heard this, I felt even more powerless. Why should he be the young master?eldest son?How could it not be opposed!I really regret it, if I had known that joke earlier, I wouldn’t have said it!

"Heh, Mr. Mo, I'm fine. Go in quickly. It's not good to be blown outside all the time." Haku smiled lightly, and Mr. Mo opened the door for us without asking who I was from the beginning to the end. I think he didn't want to ask more questions.

Following Haku into the gate of the mansion, I saw a long corridor just after entering the gate. Looking at the decorations in the mansion, I found that it was not as magnificent as I imagined, but with some simple feelings. Very elegant, giving people a comfortable feeling, let yourself relax unconsciously.

Haku, who was walking in front, suddenly stopped, and he couldn't brake enough to hit it, "It hurts...!" Haku looked straight ahead as if he didn't feel it, and called out in a low voice: "...Grandma."

"So you still recognize me as your grandmother?" The cold voice passed over Haku and entered his ears, and he looked around behind Haku, and it was no accident that he should have arrived in the living room.

"Mu'er dare not." Haku held me back with one hand, and walked forward slowly, "He is?" Walking into the living room, I saw Haku's grandmother, with a stern look in her elegance that made me a little bit Dazed.

"Do you remember why I left home seven years ago?" Haku took a deep breath and suddenly asked this sentence.

Hearing these words, Haku's grandmother suddenly became furious, "You still have the guts! It would be nice to let you into this house now, do you have the guts?" Looking at Haku, his expression was a little stiff, "I I never thought there was anything wrong with me, I just fell in love with people of the same gender, the same person, what is wrong? You have only been bound by the name of ethics, morality, and your so-called aristocratic reputation!" Haku Roaring as if he was going all out, he probably just wanted to escape.

To escape from this home, this prison that bound him tightly.

"You──" Before the old man finished speaking, Haku interrupted him, "Which time have I not listened to you since I was a child? Only this time I can't easily give up listening to you, are you going to be so angry? I don’t understand why you all object? I don’t want to admit it but I have to admit that the reputation of the family is more important than your own grandson.”

I was a little surprised by what Haku said. He spoke a little too seriously. I could tell how angry the old man was from peeping at the old man’s expression and demeanor, “I can live well without relying on my family for the past seven years. , I am not afraid of more difficulties in the future, if you want to make things difficult for me, just come, I will not be at your mercy anymore. I am not your puppet, let alone a little pet kept in a cage by you.” Haku said firmly , Every word is sonorous and forceful, as if to prove that I am not just talking casually.

"He is my lover, we will have a good life in the future──Thank you for taking care of me for more than [-] years!" He pulled me over and hugged me tightly, saying this to his grandmother... No, Wait, what's not right?

I wanted to say something but he pressed him tighter into his arms, so I stopped struggling.He didn't say anything more to the old man, he just pulled me around and prepared to walk out of the living room, "Yu Mu!" The old man's voice echoed throughout the living room and corridor, Haku paused, pulled me over and kissed me My mouth and nose are full of his smell, his kiss is a bit aggressive, but not too much, just to play in front of his grandmother.

This kind of thing doesn't make any difference to me. Anyway, I have been kissed by someone who doesn't love me for six years. Is there any difference in this kiss that doesn't hurt?

After a while, he let go of my mouth, looked back at his grandmother and pulled me out of Yu's house.

Back in the warm car, before I said anything, he hurriedly started the car, his face was as dark as ink, and he had to swallow the bitterness in his stomach silently.

The car was driving very fast, but I later found out that this was not the way back to City A. I didn't know where he was going, and I didn't want to disturb him. After all, he didn't feel well in the situation just now──Although the victim was Own.

After the car stopped, I looked out the window and saw a piece of gray blue, which was the sea in the dark night.Pick up the mobile phone and look at the little light in the dark night, it's seven fifteen.I didn't speak or move any more, I just quietly looked at the sea outside the window.

How long has it been since I saw the sea?Countless days made me unable to feel the passage of time, and I couldn't remember all the good memories before I met him.

"...I'm sorry." The loneliness and embarrassment spread in the cold car, and his sudden words broke the rigidity in the car, "I'm sorry for what?" He asked him back with an unclear tone.

"Suddenly forced you to come with me, and then kissed you. Somehow your words yesterday gave me the courage to try to come, but I messed up."... I don't know how to answer him , only a cold sentence, "Anyway, I have been kissed by someone who doesn't love me for six years, what's the difference with you?"

"I'm sorry, I──" the voice suddenly disappeared halfway through, and I slightly turned my head to look at him, his pale face biting his lower lip, making it feel like he was about to faint. "Why do you say sorry." I turned my head and stared at him, and his teeth seemed to be clenched even tighter.

"I seem to remind you of him again." He stopped biting his lower lip, but still felt a little uncomfortable, "Well, your face reminds me of him. But I think it should be each other."

"...That's right." He smiled wryly. Needless to say, I understand how he feels, because I am the same.

Looking at his side face, the conversation suddenly changed, "You and your family are completely torn apart, what are you going to do?" I don't know how he lived after leaving home, but without a famous background, it is still very important in many ways. inconvenient.

Hearing these words, his face became less bitter, but more determined, "I have been able to live well without relying on my family for the past seven years. I believe I can do the same in the future." His expression is like A ray of light shone lightly on my dark heart because of losing him. I didn't understand this kind of throbbing at the time, but when I looked back and thought about everything, I actually already had the answer.

"Well, let's go back then." Let's go back... After I finished speaking, I realized that I didn't know if I was talking to him or to myself, let's go back—how long has it been?How long has it been since you went home?How long has it been since you saw your loved one's face?Question marks floated in his mind, he bit his lower lip unconsciously, and there was some kind of beast called pain biting his chest noisily.

I left home in anger for him, just to be with him.

But what do I get at the end of the day?

──Nothing.

His heart, his people, not even his lies, got nothing.In the end, the only thing he held on to was the chilled air and overflowing sadness that he left behind.

But what can I say?Can't say anything.Because I knew it a long time ago, but I just didn't want to poke him.

The car didn't start, and he interrupted his increasingly disintegrated thoughts abruptly, and looked at him suspiciously, "Are you okay?" His sudden question stunned him for a while, "Your expression has changed from just now to It’s always been gloomy now.” A simple sentence breaks my doubts, it’s gloomy… isn’t it.

I lowered my head and raised the corners of my mouth mockingly. I didn't say anything, but his words scared me again, "You go home too." What did he mean?Surprised, she raised her head and looked at Yu Mu, "When you return to a home with relatives, you are different from me. I think your family may have already understood you, or they will tolerate you unconditionally. You have not gone back for so many years, and they also Are you worried? Besides, communicating with them will be much better than me." He touched himself with a bit of a bitter smile, maybe he was right. "You should let go and try. They are your family members, not your enemies. Give yourself a little more courage and go back." Suddenly, I felt a sense of relief in my heart, feeling like a butterfly about to break out of its cocoon, seeing the future bright.

He gave himself courage and gave himself a chance.Looking back, I found that in fact, I was just evasively escaping before, and it wasn't that I couldn't do anything.

"Thank you." The feeling of relief made me smile sincerely, which was the first time in a long time.He waved his hand to me and said no, "Are you going? Where is your home?" His expression returned to normal, showing a very relaxed smile.

"...G City." Hearing that he wanted to drive me there, I originally wanted to refuse, but now I am on a remote road looking at the sea, I don't have a car and I don't want to go back, anyway, he arrested me to accompany him , so why not let him take a ride?

He started the car quickly, reversed the car, and drove straight to a road without even confirming the direction. He should come here very often──the car moved forward without hesitation, bumping and shaking all the way, I always felt that I saw something different The future is in front of me, as long as I reach out and grasp it.

Consciousness faded away, and I fell into a deep sleep again.

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