Fate replacement

"sorry. 』The blurred face of the man appeared in front of his eyes, and the hot words burned a deep red in his heart, and he woke up suddenly.

Touching my face, there are still tears that have cooled down and have no temperature at all. It is this dream again... How long has this dream haunted me?It's been a whole year now.

Nightmare wears me down.

Turning out of bed and looking at the alarm clock not far away, it was only three o'clock in the middle of the night.

After dating that man for six years, it was only at the end that I realized that he never loved me.

He just used himself as a stand-in.

So he could turn his head and leave gracefully at any time, but he was left standing still, at a loss.

I went into the kitchen and made a cup of coffee for myself, then went back to the dining table and sat down, took the laptop beside me and turned it on, the dimly lit screen light in the dark kept trying to bring warmth to the world, but was still swallowed by the indifferent world.

The bright light of the computer is actually very dazzling in the dark, but after getting used to it, I don’t want to leave the position to turn on the light. Maybe I just want to calm myself down in a dark corner, but I don’t want to make myself so uneasy, so I turn on the computer Bar.

The mouse is drifting, I originally wanted to do some work for tomorrow to make it easier to go to work, but the mood is really not suitable now, so I turned off the word processing program.

I opened the browser and clicked on the forum after a long time, because I was so busy with work that I had time to hang around for a long time. Although it was an accident this time, it made me feel commendable.

The world of information is so vast, even at three o'clock in the middle of the night, there are different people posting some interesting things on the forum, watching one unnutritious topic with a relaxed mood, and the mood gradually improves.

Until a topic came into view, the title was "Alternatives", which was a statement just now... It was classified in the top topic.

I clicked in unconsciously, and carefully looked at the contents inside──

"A lot of things have happened recently, and the one that hurt me the most is breaking up with my lover.

But it wasn't until the day we broke up that I realized that what he loved was never me, but another man who looked very similar to me.

I have been with him for so many years, I have given him all my love, but the result is this, I don't know what to say, what else to say.

Because we are gay, there was a lot of hard work and pressure when we first got together. I will accompany you to face the world's remarks and discrimination against us, but those pasts all dissipated like bubbles.

I know I can't save you, but it's still very painful. Without you in the room, there is a lonely monster roaring. I really hope you come back, but you can't come back.

I wish you happiness and hope you will see, G. ──Haku. 』

Such content made me unable to respond to him, "Seeing such content reminds me of what happened to me a year ago. It is very similar to you, and it can even be said to be the same."

I'm gay too, I broke up with my lover a year ago.

His expression at that time made him want to erase the previous memory, but in vain, only his face was successfully erased.

He said sorry to me guiltily, and left without any responsibility. I only know that he never loved me, but another man.

He just used me as a substitute, so he can turn around and leave at any time, even though we have been dating for six years.

I always thought we were in love, until the day it was completely broken.

I don't know what to say, and I really hope he comes back, but I think even if he comes back, I won't accept his love anymore, because I know he doesn't love me and can't fall in love with me... like that The pain makes me still have the nightmare of that day, when he said sorry to me.

I can only say I wish him happiness and hope he can find someone he loves. ──Hana. 』

Less than 3 minutes after the remarks were made, I received a letter from the forum.

"Hana, I didn't expect someone to answer me, hehe.You are really similar to me, I can give everything for him, I overcome many obstacles for him, and I have blocked many setbacks for him. I quarreled with my family and never went back during the time I was with him, and now I don't know what face to go back with.What do you think I should do? ──The message is from Haku. 』

I froze for a moment, looking at this message in surprise, wondering whether I should reply or not.

In the end, he was still typing on the keyboard, thinking about how to answer.

"Haku, I didn't expect you to reply me with a letter from the station, haha.In fact, I have done similar things for him, and now I have nothing to do with my family, so I don't think I can help you.

But if you need me to accompany you home, I don't mind, haha.

I have to say that love is really mysterious. When it doesn’t want to come, it can’t be pushed back no matter how hard it is, but when it wants to leave, it just follows the wind and sweeps away without leaving any clouds, and then the dark clouds come, and the original world is broken up.

I have been entangled by nightmares for the past year and I am exhausted. I think it is me who wants to ask you what I should do. ──The message is from Hana. 』

After pressing the send button, I realized that I had typed many things that I hadn’t confessed to others in the past year, and somehow I typed them up. It’s hard to describe, this feeling.

It was like the echo produced by meeting someone like myself, and the stone in my heart seemed to be much lighter after I finished speaking.

In less than 3 minutes, he sent another reply letter. This time, the content made me jump up in fright, because it was just a joke.

"Um? Hana-san's invitation is so warm, so I have no choice but to be respectful rather than obedient?Please Hana-san accompany me home?

I live in city A, and your IP address seems to be in city A just now, so we will make an appointment at the coffee shop at the corner of A1 street, at [-] o'clock tomorrow afternoon, see you on time.

The following words will come back to you when I meet tomorrow. I should go to bed. I just woke up with a start. Good night. ──The message is from Haku. 』

One o'clock tomorrow afternoon... or something, is he trying to scare me?Just when I thought so, another message came, "I'm not bluffing you, you didn't come and I had to squat in front of the store until the next morning."Really good night, otherwise I won't be able to get up tomorrow, ha ha. ──The message is from Haku. 』He looked at the message speechlessly, not knowing what to say.I didn't reply to him either, whether I will go tomorrow or not depends on work.

After being teased like this, the originally relaxed mood became turbulent again, but it was more relaxed than before. I quickly turned off the phone and rubbed my sore eyes. I knew I should turn on the light.

Closing the computer screen and slowly walking back to bed, it was rare to sleep well.

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