I was attacked by the cubs raised

The chat with Blues ended with the nurse calling him over to sign.Li Qiu was still immersed in the last sentence of Lan Tiao, until Yan An tugged his sleeve.

Although Yan An didn't say anything, but his heart was still in suspense, he took Li Qiu for an examination forcefully, and he was not relieved until the result came out.It was already late when they came out of the hospital, they found a restaurant for a casual meal, and spent the night in a nearby hotel.

The hotel is not big, there is only one single room left at night, Yan An was still a little dazed when lying next to Li Qiu - in his memory, he hadn't slept in the same bed with Li Qiu for a long time.

Li Qiu didn't have a good rest for a few days, and almost fell asleep with the pillow on his head.Yan An stared quietly at Li Qiu's back in the darkness, and listening to his breathing, his heart finally calmed down, so he also fell into a deep sleep.

Yan An's biological clock is very accurate, no matter what time he can wake up at 06:30.When he got up, Li Qiu was soundly asleep.Recalling his mental state when he just saw his brother, Yan An settled down, got out of bed extremely slowly and carefully, went out for a walk after washing up, and brought back some breakfast.

He wanted Li Qiu to sleep a little longer, but not long after he came back, Zhang Tong's phone call woke Li Qiu up from his sleep.Li Qiu answered the phone, Zhang Tong asked him where he and Yan An were now, and hung up the phone in a hurry.

A quarter of an hour later, Zhang Tong arrived in a hurry, carrying a fruit basket in his hand, the same as what Yan An saw downstairs.As the person in charge of this project, Zhang Tong was full of spring when he came, but now he is haggard.I also want to know that his immediate boss had an accident in his research project, so it's no wonder he can laugh.

"Brother Li, I'll come and see you." Zhang Tong handed the fruit basket to Yan An, nodded and smiled at him, and sat down beside Li Qiu, "How is it? Are you uncomfortable?"

"No, it's pretty good. Where's Chen Ci?"

"Boss woke up and had breakfast. His friend has been watching over him, nothing happened." After Zhang Tong finished speaking, he looked at Li Qiu, "Brother Li, I have really worked hard on you this time. I didn't expect the signal on the mountain to be cut off at that time, and I'm really sorry for keeping you there for so long."

"It was an unexpected situation, so I can't blame you. As long as it's okay, don't worry, Chen Ci is not the kind of person who will hate you because of this." Li Qiu patted him on the shoulder to reassure him, "Speaking of it, it's okay. It's not because we wanted to go there on a whim, and it has nothing to do with the project. He didn't find any problems when he went to the orchard before, and we exchanged opinions, and we are all satisfied with your site selection."

Li Qiu's words were first to comfort Zhang Tong, and second, to tell him that the project would not be cut in half because of such an emergency.When Zhang Tong heard that his hard work might not be in vain, he immediately became more energetic, and when he was gone, he came in with a slightly sluggish look, and rushed over to give Li Qiu a big hug.

Li Qiu had a good relationship with him, so he hugged him tightly with his backhand for a while: "It's alright, let's work hard."

Zhang Tong slowed down and calmed down.Their project research has basically been completed, Li Qiu is not a formal member of this group, and he does not need to participate in the follow-up things, so Zhang Tong told him that he can go back early.

Li Qiu was physically and mentally exhausted after going through such a thing, so naturally he didn't refuse.

He sent Zhang Tong away and finished his breakfast under Yan An's supervision.He has already bought the round-trip ticket, and according to the plan, he should leave here in two days like Zhang Tong.Li Qiu was thinking of changing his flight to today or tomorrow morning, but Yan An disagreed, because Li Qiu was tired from traveling all the way, so there was no need to be in such a hurry.

Li Qiu thought it made sense, so he followed Yan An's suggestion.

The city where the town is located is just a prefecture-level city without an airport.Li Qiu's ticket was at the airport of the provincial capital, and there was really nothing interesting here, so he took a high-speed train with Yan An to the provincial capital after taking a rest.

Compared with the small town, it looks much more prosperous here.It was only seven or eight o'clock in the evening when the two arrived, and the lights were just on, creating a lively scene.Li Qiu first booked a return flight ticket for Yan An with him, and then went shopping with him, and found a special restaurant to taste the dishes here.

The locals are addicted to spicy food. Li Qiu claims that he is not afraid of spicy food, but he was intimidated by the fact that half of the dish is half of chili peppers.Before he took a few bites, he was choked by the chili seeds and coughed, tears came out.With tears in his eyes, a glass of water was handed over.Li Qiu looked up and saw Yan An looking at him.

Li Qiu took it, and accidentally touched Yan An's with his fingers.Immediately, there seemed to be an electric current passing through the place where the fingertips touched, and Li Qiu's heart beat suddenly a little faster, shaking unnaturally.Yan An didn't notice Li Qiu's abnormality, so he turned to him and beat his back gently.

Later, Yan An called the waiter to serve two lighter side dishes, but Li Qiu refused.Originally, he ordered quite a lot, and he didn't want to waste more dishes.Yan An knew what he was thinking, so he didn't insist anymore, he just asked for a bowl filled with warm water.

Yan An put the meat slices into clear water to wash off the pepper on the surface, and then put them into Li Qiu's bowl.He knew Li Qiu's preferences very well, so he picked up some dishes that he ate a lot before.

His movements are familiar and his expression is focused.Li Qiu looked at him quietly, seeing Yan An's eyelashes drooping slightly, his eyes glowing, and the corners of his lips slightly pursed, but somehow it made people feel gentle.

Yan An seemed to feel something in his heart, and turned his head to look at him, with an obvious smile in his eyes, and his mood was a joy visible to the naked eye.Li Qiu was taken aback for a moment, but forgot to look away.

Fortunately, Yan An didn't say anything, just lowered his head and concentrated on eating, as if Li Qiu was the only one who was disturbed.He coughed lightly and put the washed vegetables into his mouth. The moment he lowered his eyes, he didn't pay attention to Yan An, so he couldn't see his trembling hands.

During this period of time, Li Qiu saved some money, which can be regarded as a small savings.Thinking that I didn't spend much time with Yan An after the college entrance examination, I felt a little guilty.Most of the summer vacation is over, and Yan An will go there soon. This time it is rare to go out with Yan An, so he is willing to spend money. After staying in the local area for one night, he took him to a special scenic spot. Just took a taxi to the airport.

Ticket collection, boarding, everything went smoothly.The next morning, they went downstairs to the community.Li Qiu didn't bring many things with him, and he was in a hurry when he left. Some of them were left in the small town and were not brought back, so they were all kept by Zhang Tong, so he only had one backpack at the moment.

Yan An carried it all the way, and Li Qiu was not tired.After the two arrived home, Li Qiu packed up his things first, and Yan An went to wash his clothes first - he left in a hurry and didn't bring a change of clothes, Li Qiu couldn't help the smell of sweat all over his body, when he was shopping at the night market I bought him a new body, but the dirty clothes still have to be dealt with first.

The two took another shower, and it was already twelve o'clock when they sat on the sofa.Seeing that Yan An was tired and wanted to get up to cook, Li Qiu felt sour and held him by the shoulders to prevent him from getting up, and rarely forced him to wait on the sofa.

Although Li Qiu doesn't cook all year round, he is not as good as Yan An in this aspect, but he can do it anyway.There was no one at home for a few days, no fresh ingredients, and Li Qiu was too lazy to make complicated things, so he cooked two bowls of noodles, fried eggs on the noodles, and brought them to the coffee table.

Li Qiu hasn't cooked the noodles for a long time, and he was distracted by frying eggs. He didn't control the time well, the noodles were a bit lumpy, and the soy sauce was less, so it was still bland.Fortunately, Yan An was not the one to be picky, so he started to eat the noodles without saying a word.

Li Qiu is not picky about food, but he also thinks this noodle is not very tasty.He took salt and added some, but Yan An didn't add any more.He ate slowly, with a particularly cherished expression.Li Qiu looked at it, and suddenly remembered that Yan An seemed to have this expression when he ate his dishes all these years.

Those little details that were usually buried very deeply were suddenly discovered one by one.Li Qiu thought of the way he looked at him, the tone of his voice, his attitude towards Chen Ci...Those things that Li Qiu once had doubts about and then put aside were unraveled bit by bit, everything had only one direction.

Yan An liked him all the time.

From this point of view, everything can be explained.Those pasts went through Li Qiu's mind like a rush, and he suddenly found that he couldn't pinpoint the exact time period when Yan An started to like him.

Looking at it this way, Yan An didn't seem to be acting on a whim.

At this time, Li Qiu was in a dilemma.Originally, he wanted to let nature take its course, but after so many years of "going with the flow", he failed to straighten himself, and instead grew more and more crooked.Any fool can see how much Yan An cares about him.If he tries to escape with the excuse of letting nature take its course, it will probably only make him sink deeper and deeper.

At least, Li Qiu thinks that he has already started to fall into it.

He never forgot what happened to that senior, Li Lin's words were still in his ears.However, at this moment, the clearest thing is actually the words before Lan Tiao left.

Can brothers really become lovers?

To a certain extent, he admires the blues, admires him for daring to face up to the pressure that homosexuality will face, admires him for daring to break through the original relationship without being restrained... admires him for being able to express his love generously in front of others.

When he came out of the hospital, he had been thinking about this - which option is the best solution?He didn't dare to bet, and he couldn't tell.

When he was feeling melancholy, he suddenly received a call from the person in charge of the cemetery. The person in charge was probably very busy, so he hurriedly said, "Hello, is this Mr. Li?"

Li Qiu hummed, and then he continued quickly: "Excuse me, Ms. Li Lin and Mr. Xie Xingyu haven't paid the maintenance and management fees. It's been a while. Let me remind you."

Li Qiu's heart suddenly snapped.

All hidden emotions collapsed at this moment.Li Qiu asked about the fee, but the other party hung up after reporting a number.

Twelve thousand...

How much money do you have left after paying the money you just saved?

There is nothing left.

There is still a large amount of money owed to Chen Ci, Yan An...how can Yan An pay for his studies?

"Brother, what's wrong?"

Yan An spoke suddenly, breaking the silence.Li Qiu set his eyes on Yan An, and found that Yan An was looking at him with concern.He paused, and suddenly felt sour on the tip of his nose.

Just this once, just this once.

Li Qiu leaned forward and hugged Yan An.

Yan An was taken aback by Li Qiu's sudden movement, almost panicked: "Brother, brother...?"

Li Qiu suddenly had a strong urge in his heart, wanted to kiss him, wanted to tell Yan An that he liked him too.He took a deep breath, but he held back in the end, and only pressed his forehead against his.

But it's also a very intimate gesture.

"Yan'an, Yan'an." Li Qiu rarely called him by his full name, and kept repeating it, almost whispering.

Yan An's limbs were stiff, and when he heard his elder brother calling his name, his voice was low and gentle, as if it was a sweet dream he had a long time ago.

The moment he put his hand on Li Qiu, the person he had been thinking about suddenly let go of his embrace, the dream was shattered, and everything was nothingness.

Li Qiu took half a step back, his eyes slightly wet.

Everything was slowed down, Yan An knew what Li Qiu was going to say, his heartbeat accelerated suddenly, and he was so flustered that he couldn't restrain himself.Yan An wanted to change the subject, so that Li Qiu would not continue, but he felt stuck in his throat and couldn't make a sound.He saw his brother's mouth opening and closing, saying——

Xiaoan, those things that shouldn't be there should be broken.

☆, parting

Empty streets.

The summer in Qiyang is not long at all, the dog days have passed, and it rained for a long time, dispelling most of the summer heat.On the small road, the reflections in the shallow puddles are all over the sky, and the clouds are covered with gold rims sprinkled by the setting sun.

Yan An walked silently, and saw his own shadow two steps away from the puddle.

He raised his foot and walked over, splashing sporadic water.The reflection suddenly shattered, and there were circles of waves on the water.

Yan An returned to the place where he used to live with Li Qiu.

The development of Qiyang is changing with each passing day. The small place like a village in the city has disappeared in the long river of time.The newly built road occupies their former home, and next to it is the residential area that has been built up one after another.

It's funny to say that ten years ago, this was a slum where most of the children couldn't go to school, but now it's being developed into a wealthy area.

The old houses in the old street silently stared at the gatherings and partings, joys and sorrows of too many people, and the evidence that witnessed the existence of all these things will eventually disappear. Yan An believes that within ten years, people will forget the past. look like.

The new area is still under planning, and the original residents have already moved out, so at night, the place looks extremely desolate.Yan An walked along the alleys that hadn't had time to be demolished. It seemed that every street had his and Li Qiu's past stories.He remembered which street he often walked on the way to school, how Li Qiu took him by the hand and sent him to study, and how Li Qiu taught him to ride a bicycle in a certain wide dam...

In fact, what Li Qiu said that day was right, he couldn't quite remember the taste of that plate of fried rice with shredded pork and green peppers.But Li Qiu was wrong in one thing, although he couldn't remember the smell, he still remembered the feeling of every moment when he was with him.

What Li Qiu said to him is still vivid in his memory.Yan An is so smart, he understood why Li Qiu said that almost immediately.For the elder brother, there are enough burdens on his shoulders.He couldn't get over the hurdle of Li Lin, so why didn't he bear the invisible burdens brought by him?

Yan An unconsciously rubbed a bank card in his pocket, which was given to him by Li Qiu after speaking yesterday, and his living expenses will be charged to this card in the future.And his money was saved bit by bit by his elder brother.

The road ahead became more and more familiar. When Yan An saw the surrounding environment, he knew that he had subconsciously walked to the place he used to go to after school.He and Cheng Ran had just reconciled at that time, and he didn't like to see her very much, but she could always find him among so many people after school, and walked home with him for a while with a smile.

The alley is still so familiar, but a little strange.In the quiet narrow alley, Yan An faintly felt that something was missing.

He didn't think much, just walked over.In front of him was the fruit shop he often went to.

He used to come here to buy persimmons for Li Qiu when he was in junior high school, but he didn't come here much after he moved away.This time I came here for a walk, and I also want to come here to have a look.While thinking about the past, I also want to meet the owner of the shop—the old couple.

In Yan An's not-so-bright childhood life, Li Qiu was almost the only light.He was young at that time, and his whole heart and mind were tied to his elder brother.For him, most of the life away from Li Qiu is boring, but only the old man can make him willing to stop and talk for a while.

To this day, Yan An doesn't quite understand why he likes this place, but he did come here often when he was a child.When he was alone without walking with Cheng Ran, he occasionally helped them sell fruit, but most of the time he sat on the old man's stool and chatted with him.

Yan An liked watching him get along with his wife very much—the old lady who grew up with him had a high fever when she was a child and could never speak again.He remembered Cheng Ran's rash words when he found out that the old lady was strange when he first came here, and he remembered that the old man was not angry, but looked at his lover with a gentle and kind smile.

The old man said that he always loved her as long as she was by his side.

The memories that are usually stranded, all surfaced when revisiting the old place, so the past became clear, and everything seemed to be a long scroll.Yan An took a deep breath, inexplicably feeling a little timid because of his closeness to his hometown—the old man once regarded him as a grandson, and often gave him a persimmon or two, but he never came here again. Would it be too abrupt?He just came here on a whim and didn't bring anything with him, would it be bad?

He thought about it, and went in anyway.There is no one in front of the store, and the fruit is still fresh.Yan An looked around, and suddenly a middle-aged man came out of the room, which he had never seen before. His facial features resembled those of his grandfather.He wiped his hands and asked, "brother, what do you want to buy?"

The man was probably the old man's son.Yan An nodded: "Come here and buy some persimmons."

While picking two persimmons into the bag, he asked casually, "Hey, where's the previous owner?"

"What? This store has always belonged to my family."

"Two or three years ago, I often came here to buy fruit, and the shopkeeper at that time was an old man." Yan An stopped moving, "Is he okay now?"

"Oh, you mean my dad. He passed away last year, hey."

"What about grandma?"

"She also left last year. She has been in poor health. Brother, you should also know that my mother... is dumb. She becomes confused when she gets old. We often don't understand what she means. Only my dad understands. Hospitalized My father was exhausted from time to time. When my mother left, my father followed suit." The man sighed, "For two whole days, I kept it from others, didn't eat, and followed my mother."

Yan An suddenly remembered the conversation between Cheng Ran and the old man that year.

——"Then... aren't you tired?"

——"I grew up with her and liked her since I was a child. She developed a high fever when she was seven years old, and it took half a month to save a life, but she couldn't speak anymore."

"I'm alive, and having her is enough. As long as I have her, I won't be tired no matter what."

Yan An's eyelashes drooped slightly, hiding all his emotions.He said a few polite words, and provoked the persimmon again.The man looked at Yan An for a while, and suddenly said: "Brother, you didn't choose the right persimmons. You have to pick the soft ones, and the hard ones taste bitter."

Yan An kept moving his hands, and he smiled politely at the man: "It's okay, my partner likes crispy ones."

"That's not okay, don't look at the yellow skin, the meat inside is still astringent. If you eat the uncooked ones, you will vomit, and you can't even eat a bite." The man scratched his head, thought for a while, and said, "Your daughter Friends like crispy ones?"

There were some problems in the man's address, Yan An didn't correct them, but just nodded: "Yes."

"She likes 'crispy persimmon', right? That's the name for that thing. It's crispy and not astringent after a long time. This is an ordinary persimmon. When it's crispy, it's unripe and very astringent."

Yan An was taken aback.

He knew that Li Qiu liked to eat persimmons since he was a child, so he always saved up money to buy them for him.He hadn't eaten persimmons much, didn't know there were so many ways to eat them, and later he was even more reluctant to eat them because Li Qiu liked them.

The softest part of the heart seems to be pulled out by life in an instant and rubbed hard.When choosing persimmons, he only knew to choose hard ones, but he didn't know that those persimmons would taste harsh.

Seeing him in a daze, the shopkeeper took the initiative to help Yan An pick out the bag.

Yan An thought for a while, shook his head, and said, no need, this one is fine.

It was completely dark when he walked out of the shop. Yan An silently looked back at the shop for the last time, as if the old lady was still leaning against the door but fell asleep, as if her lover and she were there, and her orange cat was beside her. She was basking in the sun beside her, and behind her was a smiling lover walking towards her with a thin blanket.The laughing children in the alley slowed down, greeted the old man quietly, and ran happily to the next intersection.

However, it was already dark, and the alleys were deserted, without laughter.

The childhood sweethearts of the previous generation and the childhood sweethearts of this generation have all left this alley.

Yan An suddenly felt the taste of "people go to cool tea".

He took a persimmon out of the plastic bag.This persimmon was big and plump, with a yellow skin. In his opinion, it was already ripe, and it should be crisp and delicious.

He wiped it lightly, then took a bite.

The moment his lips and teeth touched the pulp, he felt a sharp soreness, and the astringency made him almost want to spit out the persimmon flesh in his mouth immediately.He secretly tightened his hands holding the bag, and ate the whole persimmon in silence.

When I was young, I knew that my elder brother liked to eat crispy persimmons, so I saved half a month's pocket money to buy him a bunch, and insisted that he keep it for himself to eat.After many years, I discovered that not all persimmons are crispy and delicious. The hard persimmons taste very astringent, but my brother picked them up and ate them every time as if to make him happy.

Eating and walking along the way, at some point, Yan An suddenly felt a little sour.

Maybe the persimmons are too unpalatable, or maybe the wind and sand are too confusing.

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Li Qiu went back to the bedroom after talking with Yan An.He lay on the bed, tossing and turning but couldn't fall asleep, his mind was full of Yan An's face.He looked very calm, and he didn't refute his own words, and he seemed to have listened.

Everything seemed to be back on track, but Li Qiu couldn't let go of his tone, he just felt inexplicably disappointed.

After talking about that, he didn't dare to face Yan An for a while, so he didn't go out and didn't eat dinner all afternoon.Yan An was probably the same as himself, he didn't ask him to eat, I don't know if he ate.

After reading for a while, Li Qiu realized that he couldn't do anything, so fortunately he just lay on the bed.

He didn't know how he fell asleep, and when he woke up, it was already the next day.Li Qiu was going to work, so he had to face Yan An anyway.He dressed neatly, took a deep breath and pushed the door out.

There was a bag of persimmons on the coffee table, Li Qiu's gaze paused for two more seconds, and his frown suddenly relaxed.Li Qiu turned his head and saw that there was still a prepared breakfast on the table, just one serving.

The fried eggs are a little cold, but the milk is still warm.Next to the dinner plate is the card he gave Yan An, and there is a piece of paper under it, which reads:

Brother, I'm leaving, don't miss me.