I was attacked by the cubs raised

Li Qiu originally still had anger in his heart, but when he saw Yan An's appearance, he let it all out.He walked quickly to Yan An's bedside: "Tell brother, what's wrong?"

Yan An turned over and jumped down, embraced Li Qiu, and buried his head in Li Qiu's shoulder.

Li Qiu thought for a while, felt the trembling of the other party, and lightly put his hand on his back and patted him.

Yan An slowed down for a while, and let go of Li Qiu's arms.It took Li Qiu a long time to understand why Yan An was hiding from him, and felt distressed and funny at the same time, so he took him to the hospital and prescribed medicine before returning home.

He was afraid that Yan An would do something tricky again, so he asked someone to sleep with him.

It was only then that Yan An figured out the thoughts in his brother's heart, and knew that he preferred to be like a child, without having to be prudent all the time.But he didn't want himself to be the younger brother who needed to be taken care of forever in Li Qiu's heart, so he was also entangled between the two.

Before he could find a balance point, life forcefully helped him make a choice.

The peaceful days lasted for more than half a year. In the summer vacation when Yan An was about to enter the third year of high school, Li Lin fell ill.

Since Xie Xingyu's death, Li Lin has lost all vitality. This time, she got sick like a mountain, and the attack was menacing - she didn't know when she got lung cancer, and it had a tendency to spread.Li Qiu spent almost all his savings, and after half a month of conservative treatment, he finally got better.

When Li Qiu came to the hospital again, Li Lin was sitting in the ward talking to Xie Cheng, and seemed to be fine.

Seeing Li Qiu coming, Li Lin threw a bag of things to him: "Let's go."

Li Qiu vaguely knew what was going to happen, but he still asked, "Where are you going?"

"Go home." Li Lin said, "It's dead."

Xie Chenghong glanced at him.

Li Qiu frowned, walked up to her, and put down Li Lin's packed things: "Why don't you cure it?"

Li Lin remained silent.

Li Qiu: "Don't worry about the money, I have it. Even if I don't have the money, I will try to heal you."

Li Lin glanced at him: "Are you rich?"

Li Qiu was about to say something, but Li Lin suddenly sighed.

"Money can't cure it."

In the end, Li Lin still couldn't win over Li Qiu, and stayed in the hospital for another month.Li Qiu fulfilled his promise and took out all his property except the house to treat Li Lin.Even if he sold some things, he still couldn't make ends meet.Another course of medicine was used up, and Li Qiu didn't have that much money for the time being, and when he was about to make a negotiation to pay it back at the end of the month, the little nurse on duty said that someone had already paid for it.

Li Qiu thought for a long time but could only think of Cheng Xue and Chen Ci.However, it is not Cheng Xue's style to pay in advance without telling him, and Chen Ci has already lent him a sum, and there is no reason to borrow it again.But he couldn't think of a third person for a long time, so he simply put this matter aside and concentrated on his own affairs.

Li Lin's disease was discovered late, and treatment can only slow down the spread, but cannot cure the root cause.Li Qiu couldn't be with him all the time because of his work, but there were too many checkups to be done, and he could always run into them once or twice.

When Li Qiu accompanied Li Lin to do a bronchoscopy for the second time, he saw with his own eyes the slender tube protruding from Li Lin's throat, and all he could do was to support Li Lin who was retching constantly after that. , Wipe away the spit and saliva for her with paper.Li Lin never got sick when she was young, it was killing her, she couldn't control herself to keep her tears from seeping out, she almost broke down and grabbed Li Qiu's hand: "It's not cured, it's not cured, you let me I'm leaving as fast as I can!"

Perhaps it was because of the deep pain in Li Lin's eyes that Li Qiu couldn't fall asleep that night.He lay beside Li Lin's bed for a while, and when he heard Li Lin sobbing softly in the middle of the night, his heart was twisted into a ball.

But what can I do?He couldn't convince himself that he would die like this, although he also knew that the current treatment would only treat the symptoms but not the root cause, but Li Qiu still comforted himself, what if?

The next day Xie Cheng came over with the cooked porridge, Li Lin reacted flatly, ate a bowl, and suddenly said: "Aren't you very strange, I had a good time with Lao Xie back then, why did we suddenly lose contact?"

Li Qiu and Xie Cheng secretly exchanged glances, but said nothing.

But that action was discovered by Li Lin, so she smiled self-deprecatingly, raising the wrinkles on her face: "It seems that I know everything."

"When you were very young, you were often bullied by the children in the alley." Li Lin looked at Xie Cheng, "They don't play with orphans who have no father or mother, and they always exclude you. Old Xie was very angry when he found out, and went door to door. I searched for their parents, some apologized, and some felt that a powerless old man like Lao Xie had nothing to care about, so they made fun of it for a long time instead."

Xie Cheng clenched his hands slightly.

"Old Xie was afraid that you would feel inferior because of such things when you grow up, and he didn't want anyone to squeeze you out in the future, so he simply took you to a household, and said to the outside world that you were the seed brought back by his daughter who married far away, and he took care of her. But He has never been married in his life, how could a daughter appear out of thin air? In fact, everyone knows it well, just to stop those broken mouths."

"But Qiyang happened to have a policy at that time. Unmarried old people living alone could get monthly financial subsidies. Old people who had retired after teaching in schools could also live in the government-built nursing home 'Sunset Red' for free and enjoy personal and medical insurance. Lifetime. Such opportunities are limited. He and I studied in the No. [-] Middle School when we were young, and then taught in the No. [-] Middle School when we grew up. The school reserved the places for us."

"You were young at that time, and you didn't remember much. Xie Xingyu didn't want you to know that he picked you up, so when the school investigated and returned, he kept insisting that he had a daughter who was wandering outside. At that time, the household registration management was not strict. , so his chance was gone.”

"This kind of welfare is very powerful, but he gave it up. I had a big fight with him because of this matter, and he refused to change his life. In a fit of anger, I told him that he would never have any contact with each other." Li Lin smiled. Tears flickered, "Actually, thinking about it from another angle, if Xiaoqiu needed it at that time, I would have made such a sacrifice. I was just angry that he didn't tell me this decision, and when I went to him again, he was just silent."

"How much face do I need? As long as he is willing to give me a step down and come over and make amends, won't this matter be over? But he is stubborn, and he will never give in to what he thinks is right. So... it became This is what it looks like now."

Xie Cheng took a breath: "Grandma, I know all about it. After Grandpa got sick, I read his diary, and I..."

Li Lin put her hand on his head and rubbed it: "I should have brought these words into the tomb, but every time I have dreamed in the past few months, it was this incident from that year. I don't know how much you know, and I know it may not be easy to say these cruel words, but Xie Xingyu is a good grandfather. He has suffered all these years and has been alone for more than ten years. I don't want no one to know. Orange, you can forgive grandma for her selfishness, huh?"

Xie Cheng grabbed Li Lin's hand tightly: "Grandma, I know, I know, I don't blame you."

Li Lin breathed a sigh of relief, with tears in her eyes: "Take grandma home, I don't like the smell of disinfectant, I don't like the hospital... When I wake up in the middle of the night, I always feel like I'm lying on the same bed he used to lie on, it's too miserable."

Xie Cheng looked up at Li Qiu.

Li Qiu didn't make a sound.

After a while, Li Lin whispered, "I want to go home."

The word "go home" touched Li Qiu's paralyzed nerves.His fragile stomach reacted at this time, and he almost rushed out of the toilet, retching in the toilet.However, nothing came out, but the tears couldn't stop falling out.

Li Qiu finally took Li Lin back.He didn't want to see Li Lin's appearance again in his life. Such an expression was more uncomfortable than cutting him into pieces.

She stopped doing those torture projects and just took some medicine prescribed by the hospital.Since the demolition of the house, Li Lin wanted to give Li Qiu more freedom, and never lived in the new house.The home she returned to now was not the shabby courtyard before. Although the environment was good, it only made her feel strange.

Li Qiu has to go to work in order to make ends meet, and Yan An has to go to school before the summer vacation.So most of the time there is only Li Lin in the family.

In fact, most people are like this, looking back suddenly, all the old friends and confidantes are gone, and only myself is left in the world.The younger generations grow up gradually, playfully go far away, and write the history of the next era.The seniors stopped and stared, but they still couldn't cross the gap, couldn't stay and couldn't go back.

Come alone and go alone.If the white horse is too short, it will be all of a sudden.

When Li Qiu and Yan An are away, Li Lin often turns on the TV and tunes to her favorite drama channel.When she was young, she liked to sing very much, and she even went up to perform in the year of the school celebration.But in fact, only Li Lin knew that when she first liked to listen to operas, it was only because one day she accidentally saw the young Xie Xingyu listening to the radio while sitting on the playground.

And that day, Kunqu opera was playing on TV, and the old artist on the stage opened his voice leisurely and sang, "I have seen the jaspers in the Jade Palace in Jinling, and the flowers in the waterside pavilions in the Qinhuai River bloom early, who knew it would be easy to melt—"

Li Lin smiled lightly and made up a few words.

Seeing him getting up from Zhulou, seeing him entertaining guests.

Li Lin didn't know, but one day someone asked Xie Xingyu why he suddenly fell in love with listening to operas. The young man hurriedly turned off the radio, smiled shyly, and didn't answer.

That year, Xie Xingyu waited to play as a substitute because of his height advantage.He wasn't very interested in basketball, but he still waited obediently by the side.

A team member fell in love with the girl in the class next door, so whenever she passed by, he would squeeze his head and show off his skills.His golf skills were not that good, and the ball flew out without paying attention, and was about to hit passers-by.

The girl wore an armband, and Xie Xingyu knew her.Her name is Li Lin, and she is the disciplinary committee member of their class.Li Lin was timid, and when the ball was about to hit her, she was so frightened that she didn't move.

Xie Xingyu dashed over and caught the ball in the air.

He let out a slight breath and smiled: "Ah, classmate, have you been hit?"

The two were very close, and the girl's skirt was lifted by the midsummer breeze.Li Lin lowered her head: "No, thank you for blocking the ball for me."

That afternoon, Xie Xingyu heard a Kunqu Opera on the radio for the first time - "Peach Blossom Fan".

Li Lin closed her eyes, listening to the familiar voice on the TV, she suddenly felt that Xie Xingyu was right in front of her eyes.They have not been separated by long and difficult years, without illness and suffering.She was only 17 years old, and she was almost hit by a ball when she was passing by the playground, and she has another person in her heart ever since.

Xie Xingyu stretched out his hand towards her, facing the light.He still looks like a teenager, a little dull, but in her eyes he is extremely dazzling.

Xie Xingyu said: Come on, come home with me.