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When Chu Xun was 18 years old, he began to grow rapidly. He was almost as tall as him. Chu Xun seemed to have his own little secret. He began to secretly learn the guitar behind his back, and often stayed outside for a long time after school before returning home. Home, he thought, are you talking about your girlfriend outside?

That's right, when the child grows up, he wants to fall in love after all, but for some reason, he feels a little astringent and uncomfortable.

When Chu Xun talked about "Sweet Honey" to him on the guitar, he made fun of Chu Xun. In fact, he did it on purpose, because the emotions in his heart were too complicated at that time, and he even had the urge to hug Chu Xun, so He laughed out loud, trying to fight off those strange urges.

When Rao Heli told him Chu Xun's secret, he was shocked, he was angry, and he didn't even dare to face it, so he dragged on for a whole week before confronting Chu Xun. Chu Xun kissed himself, rubbed himself, and acted presumptuously behind him. He found sadly that he was hardened, and that he was hardened by Chu Xun! !

He was so angry that he turned around and tore off Chu Xun's mask, but Chu Xun said that he loved him.

Chu Xun loves him, Chu Xun has loved him since he was 13 years old!How can this be? !He is his uncle, he raised him since childhood, they are relatives, he promised Chu Chuan to take care of him, protect him, and give him a complete and ordinary life, how could he love him? !

Can't!Chu Xun can't love him, and he can't...he can't...

He sent Chu Xun abroad, but he was not at ease. How could he be at ease? Chu Xun hadn't left him for more than a day in the past ten years, so he asked Zhao Lei to go with him. Zhao Lei grew up with him and lived in Luocheng. He was the person he trusted the most, and he told Zhao Lei to take good care of Chu Xun no matter what.

Just like that, he sent the child in his hand away with his own hands, and Chu Xun left him.

When Chu Xun just left, he couldn’t sleep all day long, and the small building by the sea at night was dark and deserted, and he couldn’t hear any sound except the sound of wind and waves, and no one would call him “uncle” any more. ", and no one would nest into his arms and rub him with fluffy hair in the middle of the night.He often keeps his eyes open from dark until dawn.

In the dark night, he lay on the bed and called Chu Xun. Chu Xun begged him, uncle, let me go back, I don’t want to leave you, he bit his lip on the other end of the phone and said "no", after he finished speaking, he hung up the phone , raised his hand and threw all the things on the bedside table to the ground, and the glass shards shattered all over the ground.

He kept himself busy during the day, and suffered from insomnia all night at night. His body finally couldn't hold it anymore. Rao Heli said he would take him to the doctor and give him some sleeping pills. He didn't want to go, so he drove back to the small seaside building Finally, he went into the kitchen and found the rest of the calming tea, and made himself a big cup like Chu Xun did in the past. He looked at the light yellow tea with a bitter smile on his lips, and his already haggard face looked Even more morbid, he picked up the teacup and drank the calming tea in one gulp. He thought that he could finally sleep well tonight.

In fact, he has always been willing to drink that cup of tea, whether it was before or now.

His life was going on numbly, and after drinking the rest of the calming tea, he fell into insomnia again, and his appetite was not high. He often only ate one meal a day, and his whole body lost weight rapidly.

After hanging up the phone that time, he called Chu Xun and refused to answer it. He even lost the only chance to hear Chu Xun's voice, but he did it all by himself. He didn't blame Chu Xun, he I think Chu Xun should hate him very much, hate him as a hypocritical, selfish, hypocritical and cowardly uncle.

It will be Chu Xun's birthday soon, and he struggled with it for a week, but finally he couldn't make it through and boarded the plane to New York.He didn't tell Chu Xun, only Zhao Lei knew he was coming.

Chu Xun said that the winter in New York is very cold. In fact, he knows that he has been to New York in winter. The sky is full of snow, and the whole campus is covered in white. Chu Xun is teaching in the classroom, wearing a black high collar sweater, his skin turned dark, and his face became more and more indifferent. He and Zhao Lei stood together in the snow outside the window, staring at Chu Xun for half an hour.

Half an hour later he took the fastest flight back to Talosi Island.

On the birthday of the second year, he still secretly went back secretly. Zhao Lei once said, Boss, you can tell the young master. Although the young master doesn’t say anything, anyone can tell that he misses you like crazy up.

He lowered his head and said nothing, and after a while he said in a deep voice, "Don't tell him, don't say anything."

Zhao Lei told him that when Chu Xun had a fever and fell ill, he was fighting with Chi Zhi on the island, and there were countless things waiting for him to deal with every day, but since he received Zhao Lei's call, he had no intention of doing it anymore. Do anything.

After another sleepless night, he bought the latest flight and took a 20-hour flight from Hidden Island to New York.

Zhao Lei said that Chu Xun had already taken medicine and fell asleep. He had a fever of 40 degrees during the day, but now his fever has subsided a little, at 38 degrees.

He pushed open the door of the room and walked to the bed. Chu Xun's face was sunken in the white quilt, and he looked very haggard. Chu Xun seldom got sick before. In a place with a high temperature, it is impossible for him to have a fever, but on the other side of the Pacific Ocean, his child is haggard from the pain.

He stretched out his hand tremblingly, as if touching a broken treasure, and gently stroked Chu Xun's cheek. Chu Xun had lost a lot of weight, and his cheekbones were prominent, making the whole face look more three-dimensional.

So handsome, he thought, his little Xun had grown up and became a handsome man, but he pushed him away with his own hands.

Chu Xun seemed to have a sense, and rubbed his face against the palm of his hand, muttering: "Uncle...Uncle..."

At that moment, all his reason and forbearance were swept away, he lowered his head as if possessed by a demon, carefully cupped Chu Xun's face, and kissed Chu Xun's lips.

That obscure kiss was very short, and it was just a drop in the ocean in their decades of companionship. However, this tiny drop had the power to sweep everything, causing an unbearable and terrifying storm in Zhou Luo's heart.He opened his eyes and looked at Chi Chi's handsome face. Suddenly, his whole body shook violently as if being hit by an electric current. His own lips, he couldn't believe that he would make such a move.

He fled in a hurry and knocked down the clothes hanger in the bedroom before leaving.

Chu Xun was awakened by the movement, and opened his eyes in a daze, only to see that the door of his room was wide open, and the clothes hanger in the room was knocked over at some point. He thought it was Zhao Lei's frizzy masterpiece again , pulled the quilt over his head indifferently, and soon fell into a lethargic sleep.

If time could come back, if Chu Xun could wake up even one minute earlier, he would see the person he dreamed of standing in front of his bed in a daze, and he would hold his hand and tell him his endless love, He would crawl into his arms and act like a spoiled child, begging him to stay, or take him away.

In fact, you only need to give the two of them even one minute, and their whole lives will be rewritten, but the biggest regret in this world is that there is no if.

Time will always move forward, those who leave will never look back, and those who miss it can only wait for the next reunion.

Chu Xun will never know that on that winter night in New York, someone once held his face with great care, and put an extremely bitter kiss on his lips.

After returning to Taloxi Island, Zhou Luo completely cut off "contact" with Rao Heli.

In the middle of the night, he was lying on the sofa in the small building by the sea, and the "Sweet Honey" sung to him by Chu Xun was played on the phone over and over again. He smiled wryly while holding himself, imagining how Chu Xun kissed himself, The touch of Chu Xun's hand touching his body, finally he raised his slender neck, like a dying swan, let out a hoarse panting.

He lay on the sofa exhausted, laughing loudly, how ridiculous, he is not an innocent person, he has tasted those things early, but Chu Xun can be regarded as his first love.

A 28-year-old man's first love is a child raised by himself, what a fucking irony!

Smiling and laughing, a tear slowly slipped down the corner of his eye, and quickly disappeared in the hot and dark night.

Except Haifeng, no one knew what was on his mind.