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I lay on the bed, listening to the clinking of bowls and chopsticks and the splashing of running water. The sound was like the most beautiful concerto, and it sounded so pleasant.

"Washed!" I watched him walk in and asked quickly.

"Okay!" He replied while taking off his clothes.He took out the pajamas from the cabinet sideways, put them on, lifted the quilt, and got in.I leaned forward proactively and lay my pillow on his chest.

"I'm sorry, I didn't eat much tonight!" After venting just now, I felt a lot more relaxed, and said apologetically.

"It's okay!" He moved towards me and kissed my hair.I seemed to hear a vague sigh.Arms wrapped around his waist even more forcefully.

"Can you tell me what happened back then? I didn't know what happened to you before, but, Lu Chao! Now that I know, I can't pretend that nothing happened, especially now that I know what happened to you What kind of life is it, I want to know what happened back then?" I looked at Lu Chao longingly, and now I really can't stand not knowing his living environment these years.I long to know everything about him.

"You didn't go in because of me, did you?" He looked at me suspiciously.I even had the illusion that he snapped my neck as soon as I nodded.I shrank my neck and leaned hard into his arms.He quickly shook his head, "How is it possible! I'm not stupid." I smiled pitifully and innocently.

"You'd better be like this, if you let me know, just wait and see!" He raised his fist threateningly.It looks like a paper tiger.I shook his arm amusedly, "Really, how dare I lie to you!"

He didn't speak, one hand rested under his head, his eyes were vacant, and he looked at the roof in silence for a long time.His eyes seemed to see through the roof, seeing the pain of all these years.The fluctuations in the eyes are like a stone thrown into the water, causing ripples in circles.

"Xiao Hai, tell me, do people still have a soul after death?" His voice was so pale that no emotion could be heard, and I couldn't figure out why he would ask such a question.

"I don't know, but I don't feel it. When a person dies, the body is burned by a fire, and there is only a handful of ashes left. The soul has no place to live and is blown away with the wind. How can it exist? "

"No, Xiaohai, I feel that there is still a soul after death. For so many years, I have always felt that the souls of my father and mother are around me, watching me all the time. I know they are blaming me! You Do you know? Xiao Hai, I feel like they are blaming me!" His voice raised suddenly, his eyes could not conceal the madness, his body trembled like a helpless leaf in the bleak wind, fluttering Precarious and helpless.I hugged his cold and trembling body tightly.

"Lu Chao, how could uncles and aunts blame you? They love you so much. They will forgive you even if you do something wrong. They won't blame you. They really don't. They love you the most in the world. People who love you! You think too much! Don't think so, really...they don't blame you..." I said these powerless words over and over until his eyes slowly returned to clarity.

"Yes, you are right, they love me so much, how could they blame me!" He half sat up tremblingly, fumbled to light a cigarette, and smoked silently.

I even regret mentioning these things.Now I only know that he has been in prison for these years and that it was Ren Xiyang who killed him, and I don't know anything else.I don't know what else happened to him?What kind of injuries have been suffered, why did my aunt die, and why did my uncle commit suicide again.I don't know how this immature boy experienced all these years, and how he survived the long dark night of life.I want to know all of this, and I want to share some for him, even if I really can't share the slightest pain of him, at least I can know why he is sad when he is sad, and then be sad with him.But I can't do anything now, I can only watch him in pain, and say some insignificant words of comfort beside him.I hated my incompetence and powerlessness.

"Well, Lu Chao, don't think so much, the matter is over, and all the pain will be over, I will always be with you." I hugged his shoulders and put his head on mine "It doesn't matter if you don't want to say it, as long as you are always happy, nothing else matters."

"En!" He promised.I looked at his painful expression with distress, and couldn't bear to mention these things again. I should know, and I will know sooner or later.As for Ren Xiyang, I know that everything is rooted in him in the final analysis, but I have no background, no background, and I don't know how to help Lu Chao.I can't do anything about anything, I can only feel a little better when I am sadder than him when he is sad.

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