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I saw Lu Chao again five years after we graduated from high school. If Xia Wei hadn’t called me that day and asked me to accompany her to the gold store to buy an engagement ring with her, I would never have gone out with her on such a hot day. of.

Xia Wei is my girlfriend, but I don't like her at all. It's not that she is a bad person. On the contrary, she is very beautiful. She is the kind of person who can be seen at a glance on the street. She is tall and tall. The eyes, the straight nose, the sexy lips, the soft lines of the face, really, really beautiful.I believe that if I like women, she must be my ideal lover.

But I don't want to get engaged to Xia Wei at all. If my parents said that if I didn't get engaged to Xia Wei, I would be sorry to Lie Zong and Liezong, and I would be sorry to future generations. What, I really don't want to agree.

In fact, Xia Wei is very good to my parents, and also to me. Apart from being a bit self-willed, the most important thing is that I don’t care who I marry, because my heart has disappeared from me for many years. Ever since Lu Chao left without saying goodbye I can't find it anymore.

It's a bit far-fetched, Xia Wei and I made an appointment to meet at the gate of the gold store that day.I packed myself up, and when I drove to the gold store, Xia Wei was already waiting at the door, she was always so punctual, with the standard attitude of a strong woman.

'You are finally here, I thought it would be late at night, hurry up, sea orange. Xia Wei said a little angrily, I know she was impatient to wait, so I hurriedly said with a smile, "I'm sorry, dear, I came as soon as I received the call, but there was a traffic jam on the road, sorry, don't be angry, okay?" , I will take you to choose the most beautiful ring later. 'Although I don't like Xia Wei, since I have decided to marry her, I am still willing to treat her well. She has been wronged to marry a GAY like me, not to mention that I have been keeping this matter from her, so in I prefer to coax her in big and small matters.

'Okay, then it's settled, I must choose the most beautiful and most expensive one, okay, my dear. ''I listen to you......' I said with a smile

'Welcome, is there anything I can do for you? '

'We're going to choose an engagement ring. 'Xia Wei said gracefully

'Please follow me, we have the latest rings in our store, if you don't like any of these styles, we can also tailor the most suitable style for you. '

'oh?It can also be customized, my dear, how about we customize one that suits us best? Xia Wei said to me coquettishly, she always knows when to use what tone to make me agree to his request. 'What you say is what it is. ' I said with a dull expression, Xia Wei happily followed the waiter to choose the ring.

My eyes shifted to the young man in the security uniform in the store, who was bending over with his head bowed and concentrating on playing with the laptop in his hand.Thin figure, slightly dark skin, fine hair wet with sweat, sticking to the face, that face...that is the face I am dreaming of, my heart is beating thumping, the long-lost heartache Climbing to the center of my heart, I felt that my heart was quietly recovering, and the bone-piercing pain filled my whole body.

I'm sure it's Lu Chao, the figure who appeared in my dreams countless times, made my pillow wet with tears countless times, and couldn't sleep at night countless times.The pain and resentment tormented my body and mind, and my sanity slowly disappeared. When I woke up, I had already grabbed Lu Chao's arm.I saw Lu Chao raised his head suddenly, and the disbelief and surprise in his eyes stimulated my nerves inexplicably.

"Haizi, you...you are Haizi? Why are you here? You...I'm so happy to see you, Haizi." I saw Lu Chao's slightly dark cheeks, and his slightly dull eyes stood out on his skinny cheeks. The big, unnaturally crossed hands, and the awkward look made me angry and distressed.Where is he these years, what kind of life has he lived, and why does he look like a twilight old man at an age when he should be full of vigor and courage, looking lifeless and vicissitudes-ridden. The age of 25 seems to have gone through 52 years of life.Except for the occasional flashes of surprise in his eyes, he can vaguely see the vigor and demeanor of that year.

"What? Can't I be here?" I said angrily.Although his current appearance makes my heart tingle, but when I think of Lu Chao leaving without saying goodbye when I needed care and comfort the most, and letting me face so many sufferings that should have been faced by two people, There was a wave of resentment in my heart hitting my reason.

"No, no, I didn't mean that, Haiju, I....I was just so excited to see you...I didn't expect to see you here..." He explained nervously

"Really?" I raised my voice unnaturally.

"Yeah, I was thinking of going to your house to look for you in a few days, Haizi, I haven't seen you for so many years, I really miss you. Why did you appear here?" I saw Lu Chao's eyes Sincerity and excitement, I was confused for a while. Could it be that it was not because of me or our love that Lu Chao chose to leave without saying goodbye?

"Really? I accompanied my girlfriend to buy an engagement ring. Are you really happy to see me? Do you really miss me? You haven't seen me for so many years and thought you forgot me?" I sarcastically Speaking of

"You...accompany your girlfriend...you...are you getting married?" Lu Chao's face turned pale in an instant.With trembling lips, he asked me uncertainly.The undisguised sadness and sadness on the face hit my heart, and the pain and doubts hit my heart. I had an urge to hug Lu Chao into my arms, and the resentment towards Lu Chao seemed to have disappeared.

"Yeah, we're going to get engaged in a few days." I said helplessly and painfully, why?Why let me meet Lu Chao again now?I admit that I still have the deep love for him now, even though he is no longer as beautiful and elegant as before.

"Then... Congratulations, Haiju, you must be happy in the future." Lu Chao said in a trembling voice, as if he was trying his best to control his emotions.When I heard Lu Chao wishing me happiness, I felt nameless anger burning in my chest. I thought he would be the same as me, and his love for us would still be so hot.But the reality is obviously completely different from what I imagined.

"Wish me happiness, hum... Lu Chao, don't you have anything to say to me? Don't you want to tell me where you have been these years? Don't you have anything to tell me?" I suppressed my heart I was so angry that I wanted Lu Chao to tell me what happened back then.I want to know why he left without saying goodbye. If he told me what his reasons were, I would definitely tell him how much I miss him all these years, and tell him that I still love him now, but Lu Chao’s words made me fall into the trap instantly. Abyss of pain.

"Oh, you said this. At the beginning, I was tired of school life. I didn't want to live the life of being judged all day long, so I dropped out of school. I went to work in another city. I just came back a few days ago. I have nothing to worry about. That's what I said, oh, yes, I wish you happiness, this is what I want to say." Lu Chao said indifferently, the ruffian in his words was exactly the same as before, full of ruffian, it almost made me fall into the memory swirl.

"Then...then why didn't you tell me back then, if you said you knew I would definitely leave with you without hesitation, Lu Chao." I begged

"I thought you knew that back then we were just young and frivolous, impulsive, and just having fun, didn't you? You wouldn't tell me that you were really emotional back then, Haiju, you're not such a spoiled person huh?" he sneered.

"Then you said just now that you missed me very much and wanted to find me?" I was so anxious that I wanted him to tell me that what he said just now was not true and that he was lying to me!

"Yeah, I still miss you and want to find you. I feel that you are the most exciting person among the people I have known for so many years, and I have the best understanding with me. I want to find you to relive my old dreams. Don't you want to? Hai Ju, I miss you so much..." Lu Chao approached my face ambiguously, his lips blowing in my ear, my body shuddered, and I reacted shamefully.Sure enough, I still can't resist the temptation brought by Lu Chao

"Fuck you... Lu Chao, you are a bastard..." I punched him in the face and shouted at him angrily

"Ah...someone has been beaten. Come here...someone has beaten someone..." The scream of the waiter rang out in the whole hall and I was immediately surrounded by others. At this moment, I didn't feel the embarrassment of being surrounded. There was nowhere to vent my anger, so I punched Lu Chao.He curled up to bear my beating, and did not resist.I said sarcastically, "Why, are you old? You can't hit anymore, weren't you very good before? Why are you scared? Get up... aren't you good at hitting?"

"Ah, Haiju... What's the matter with you, how did you start fighting?" Xia Wei screamed and ran over, pulling me hard, and gradually returning to my body, I kicked Lu Chao hard Without looking back, he turned around numbly, squeezed away the onlookers and walked towards the door with red eyes.

"Wait a minute, Haizi... I wish you happiness... I'm sorry..." Lu Chao struggled to get up and spit out the blood in his mouth and said to me, his voice trembling, I don't know if it was because of the pain or something else.

Without turning my head, I strode out of the gold shop. I heard Xia Wei behind me yelling for me to stop. I was extremely bored, angry and heartache filled my heart. Feel suffocated.Now I don't want to see Xia Wei at all.Start the car and drive away.

"Xiao Hai, didn't you go to buy a ring with Wei Wei? Why did you come back so soon?" My mother scolded her head and face as soon as she entered the house, "Did you not go? Did Wei Wei go by herself, or you?" Did you leave Weiwei on the road? Ah... talk to me."

"Mom, I'm so bored. Don't ask if it's okay, I'm very tired now, can I go and rest for a while?" I impatiently interrupted my mother's nagging, and closed the door with a slam.The tears that I held back all the way are now raging on my face, "Xiao Hai, tell me, did you quarrel with Weiwei? You can't bully her, Xiaohai...Xiaohai..." My mother nagged tirelessly outside the door.

I'm really fed up, put the quilt on my head, the pain in my heart is tearing my soul, eating my body, why, why?Lu Chao, if you want to do this, did you clearly say that you would love me and would be by my side no matter what?Why do you want to say something now? It was just for fun.

You said that I am the ocean, you are the land, you are in me, you are in you, do we want to stay together?Why are you treating me like this now?

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The memory goes back to the year when Lu Chao and I met. It was a hot summer and sunny noon. We would sleep on the desk for a while to cope with the boring classes in the afternoon. I was lying on the desk The fragrance of sleep, suddenly a heavy Chinese dictionary flew towards me from the back row of the classroom. When I realized it, the dictionary had already come into close contact with the back of my head, and I turned my head dizzily. I saw a boy running towards me in a panic. My last thought before I passed out was that this boy was really beautiful, yes, he was beautiful.Just like a girl's big eyes, long eyelashes, firm chin, thin lips are sexy, fair skin, sunshine, without losing the publicity of a boy, it will definitely not make people feel like a girl just because she is beautiful.

I never thought that this smash would change the rest of my life, everything about me...

The author has something to say: I mustered up the courage to write the first novel in my life. This is a memorable moment, and I want to remember this day.hey-hey……