father - home

Realizing what he was going to do, I jumped up, grabbed his arms, and called, "What do you want?"

"Like what you did to me just now." Zhao replied solemnly.

"no!"

"why?"

I still grabbed him and stared at him, not knowing how to express my pity and love.

"Why you can, I can't. I know it's fun, it's comfortable, and I want you to be happy too."

"I know, I know." Facing this deep love, my heart ached. "But not now, you just dislocated your jaw, I can't let you do it, wait until you're fully recovered, okay?" I know how pleasant that is, how much I want it.But I also know how tiring that is.My cheeks are still numb and I haven't fully regained consciousness yet.

"But, maybe there will be no future..." Zhao knelt in front of me with tears in his eyes.

"It will, baby, it will." I hugged him and kissed him.

"Maybe tomorrow, or the day after tomorrow, the result of the retrial will come out, and I may have to leave." In Zhao's voice, I couldn't hear the slightest joy.Why?Is it because you want to leave me?

"Isn't that what you expected? You'll be free in no time, and you can go home."

"Go home." Zhao said blankly.

"Yes, go home. You should be glad you've waited so long."

"But……"

"It's okay, baby, we will have a chance to meet again. You are free, what can stop us." Speaking of this, I was suddenly at a loss for words.Can we really be together?That's just talk.

The candles were all extinguished.The eyes couldn't adapt to the darkness all of a sudden, and I really couldn't see my fingers. Only a glimmer of light penetrated through the gap in the curtains.Fortunately, Zhao has been in my arms.I lay down with my arms around him and groped for the quilt.

Zhao faced me.I can feel his lips against the skin of my neck.He didn't kiss, just put his lips there.He became very quiet, and the naughty boy disappeared with the dancing candle.

I put my arms around him, leaned against him, and wrapped the quilt tightly around his back.His body was losing heat, and he began to shiver slightly.I don't know how long it will take for the sequelae of frostbite to heal.

"Oh, yes, baby, retrial, they may ask Babel, you have to be mentally prepared, she is likely to stick to the original testimony."

"It doesn't matter. It's just that I don't understand why she hates me so much. She didn't seem very angry when I rejected her the other day."

"That's because you don't understand girls." In fact, I didn't understand either, and I didn't understand when Verma ran away.When we men love each other, we have never vowed to each other, and we have never expected to stay together forever. Why is the love of girls so overbearing.But maybe we don't dare to count on it, it's just a kind of helplessness. "She told me that what she can't tolerate is that you cheated on her."

"I lied to her? I never said a single lie to her. How could I have lied to her?"

"She said, you shouldn't tell her you like boys and make her love a laughingstock."

"boy?"

"She said she saw you kissing a Chinese boy."

"She said? Marty, you won't..." Zhao broke away from my arms. "You know, you're the only one I like, the first time I feel..."

My eyes have adjusted to the darkness, and I can see his outline.He straightened up and looked at me.The black shadow, I actually saw the surprise and pain.

Unknowingly, the intention of my speaking has changed, I didn't even notice it myself, but Zhao heard it.In the back of my heart, there has always been a little bump, it's so small, I can't even feel it, but it's there, it's real.If I had known, I would never have allowed myself to think or say this.No one has the right to doubt Zhao, including me.

"Baby, I didn't mean that. I just..." I hurried to explain, but the explanation was so pale and weak.

"I understand." Zhao lay down again, no longer sticking to me.

His head was still resting on my arm, but I dared not touch him again.We were lying side by side, the quilt was not big enough, I moved the quilt to Zhao's side as much as possible, and half of my body was exposed outside.

"He is also an international student. I met him on the way to Germany. He is from Zhejiang, and I am from Jiangsu. We are close to each other, and we can be regarded as fellow villagers. We became good friends immediately. He is learning to fly, and the academy is in the outskirts of Berlin. Usually, we always play together, either I go to his place, or he comes to the military academy, and the relationship is very good. At that time, there was a dance in the military academy, and he came to play again, and there were many more, and Babel was also there. When we were alone When we were together, he told me that his roommate was gay, and he would take his partner back to the dormitory for the night. He would be embarrassed when he went back, and asked if he could stay with me for the night. I said the military academy had strict discipline, no. He said Ask me if I am disgusted with homosexuality. I said no at all, but I appreciate that kind of feeling. Two people are together just because of love. Although it is different, it is pure and great. Maybe he misunderstood me, After that, he confessed his love to me and kissed me without saying anything. Probably this kiss just happened to be seen by Babel. She only saw the kiss, but didn't see us fighting."

"fight?"

"Yes, I hit him. At the time, I didn't know who I liked, a boy or a girl, but I knew that, just like with Babel, I didn't have any special feelings for him."

I turned to Zhao and tentatively touched his belly with my fingers. "Forgive me, baby. Forgive me for not intending to hurt you. My heart is always full of you. Nothing you have carried, nothing you have had to bear, you deserve. I hope, I How I hope that my love for you can become a shield in your hands, help you resist all these attacks, and give you enough strength to persevere."

"Enough, Marty." Akio rested my head on his own chest, running his fingers through my hair. "I'm sorry I was so scared of losing you, but now, not anymore. I know you'll always be with me."

I kissed the hollow of his chest, where his heart beat. "I don't know how I would live without you."

We lie in darkness, but our hearts are full of light.