father - home

"'The sun won't come out' is just today, I just said today." All day, all night, I kept repeating the words in my mind, as if he could really hear it.Maybe I was worrying too much, maybe it was just a bad, normal day in the camp for him.But when he left: his figure shook, looking so weak and tired; his head was lowered, no longer looking forward to the dawn; his answer was too calm, as if everything didn't matter.When he was being diagnosed and treated in the hospital, he would still be nervous, sad, and trembling, but now...

My heart kept pulling and shaking, and I felt like I was about to have a heart attack.I went to the lab as usual and shut myself in it.Because of the particularity of my military rank and work, no one would bother me except Ernst.Today, he happens to be busy with his own business and has no time to take care of me.I don't eat, I don't drink, I don't sleep, I can't work, I can't rest, I can't think, I can't judge, I have only him in my mind, only him in my eyes.Back in the dormitory, from dusk to dawn, I stood in front of the window for almost twelve hours, without closing my eyes for a while, without moving my feet, neither seeing him coming nor leaving.I became more and more frightened and uneasy.I was short of breath and sweaty.I pushed open the window and called out silently into the air: Where are you?The sun came out today, did you see it?Have you seen the sunrise today?

When I woke up, Ernst was sitting on the edge of the bed.

"Wake up! What's the matter with you? You scared me to death."

I tried to push myself up, and Ernst reached out to hold me down. "Don't move, just lie down."

"What's going on... What's wrong with me?" I looked around blankly, this is my dormitory, I was lying on my bed, but why Ernst was so nervous.

"What's the matter? You asked me? I still want to ask you. I passed the door in the morning and heard a 'clang' from inside. I wanted to come in, but the door was locked and I couldn't open it no matter how hard I knocked. Finally, I went to the sergeant. Boss, I got the key and opened the door. You know, I was terrified at the time, the windows were wide open, and the room was as cold as an ice cellar, and the chairs were overturned, and you were lying on the ground, unconscious. If I hadn't come in in time, you might have died here."

Ernst's words didn't scare me because I wasn't listening.

"Has this happened to you before?" Seeing that I didn't respond, Ernst became anxious and slapped my face repeatedly. "Hey! Hey! Marty! Wake up! Wake up!"

Following Ernst's slapping, I turned my head to him and looked at him absent-mindedly. "He didn't come, he didn't come to Shenk's place last night." I was so heartbroken and worried, with just this sentence, tears flowed from the corners of my eyes, slipped through my temples, and flowed into my ears and onto the pillow.

"Hi! Hi! Don't do this! My God! Is this still you?" Ernst wiped my tears with a handkerchief, while rolling his eyes in pretended ease. "I really don't understand you. Do you want him to go to Schenk?"

"That at least means he's still alive!" I shouted with all my strength, and my body bounced up accordingly.

Ernst quickly supported me, "Okay! Alright! Don't get excited! He's alive! He's still alive!"

"How do you know?" I grabbed Ernst like a life-saving straw.

"Lie down, trust me, he's really fine."

I lay down obediently, keeping my eyes on Ernst and asking him.

Ernst didn't lie to me. Looking at him like that, he smiled confidently and said, "I met Shenk this morning, and he left."

"gone?"

"Yes, I heard that his wife is about to give birth, and he asked for a three-week vacation. Later, I found out that something happened to you. I thought you must be worried about the Chinese, so I asked the 'professor', and he said that when the roll call was called early today , the Chinese are here, nothing happened."

Ernst's words made me feel a little relieved and moved, but... "No, if Shenk left this morning, why didn't he come last night?"

"Okay, Marty." Ernst was a little impatient, "I thought that same-sex love is more straightforward and straightforward than our opposite sex, but I never thought..."

I was also in a hurry. Before Ernst could finish speaking, I interrupted him and yelled at him: "This has nothing to do with the same sex or the opposite sex. This is forced. It's not that you don't know what happened to him. You don't know what happened to him." know my feelings."

Ernst must have been terrified by my appearance. While waving his hands to me, he said as if coaxing a child: "Okay, okay, my young master, don't worry, I won't talk, don't worry, I have asked the 'professor' to pay attention to the situation of the Chinese people, and he will tell me if there is anything. Don't worry, he is really fine, and we will know immediately if there is anything."

After Ernst finished speaking, he looked at me in bewilderment.I'm also a little embarrassed. It's been a long time since I acted willfully like this. I only had it in front of Joseph before.Finally, regaining my composure, I grinned at Ernst and held out my hand. "I'm sorry, Ernie, I should thank you. Without you, I don't know what would happen. I really can't even think about it."

Ernst was also excited, his eyes were moist, he held my hand tightly and shook it vigorously. "Don't say anything, Marty, although I don't have a habit of breaking sleeves, but I cherish this fate between us. Think about how many of our classmates can survive the war, and how many can survive the war." We meet again. Therefore, we are classmates, comrades-in-arms, and brothers. Don’t say anything.”

I nodded gratefully.

"Okay, listen to me, Marty, you know this is important, has this ever happened to you before?"

I know Ernst means my heart.I shook my head.

"Well, it's not too bad this time. Take a rest for a day or two and you'll be fine. But in the future, you must pay attention. You are under too much pressure. You haven't rested at all these days. You are too tired. You Haven't eaten yet?"

I nodded in acknowledgment.

"You are too careless about your body. In the future, if today's situation happens again, you must check it carefully. Okay, you take the medicine first, and I will send you some food later. You have a good rest." En Ster said, standing up, and tucking my outstretched arms under the covers.

"Enny." I called out suddenly.

"Ok?"

"You really look like..."

"what?"

"It's nothing."

"What!" Ernst deliberately elongated his voice. "You don't..."

"Where did you go, I mean, you look like my mother."

I couldn't sleep well. Even after taking the medicine, I kept waking up and dreaming.

There are white clouds floating in the indigo blue sky, as rich and eye-catching as the best Chinese blue and white porcelain; under the blue sky, there are snow-covered Alps, thousands of miles of glaciers, and thousands of miles of snow peaks.The Chinese are standing on the top of the mountain, dressed in military uniform.On the cap badge, the metal edelweiss badge (Note) is shining in the sun, as is the Iron Cross around his neck.

(Note: The theme song "Edelweiss" of the movie "The Sound of Music" spread the name of edelweiss all over the world. Most edelweiss is produced in the Alps. This kind of flower usually grows at altitudes above [-] meters, because it only grows in There are very few rocks on the surface, so it is extremely rare. Edelweiss symbolizes bravery, tenacity, and perseverance. The German mountain division uses it as its own logo, which has a profound meaning. The German mountain troops are the same as the German paratroopers and armored soldiers , is a well-known elite division. All of them wear the alpine edelweiss logo that symbolizes honor and courage. The German mountain troops were famous for their bravery and skill in World War II.)

I called him and waved to him.He turned his face to the side and smiled, my unforgettable rainbow smile.Immediately, the dazzling rainbow expanded between me and him, shining, dazzled my eyes, and covered his figure.I chased after it eagerly, and sat up from the bed...

I broke out in a cold sweat, not in the dream, but after waking up from the dream.I've never seen him in uniform, I didn't know he won the Iron Cross, and what I dreamed was not a familiar image, but... I felt dizzy, my chest was stabbed, and I fell back heavily on the bed.