fifth year of divorce

I used to think that depression was a very elegant disease.

This word is not used well, how can we talk about the word elegance?

I didn't understand it at the time, and I didn't think it mattered when I heard other people talk about depression and so on.

If young people are not depressed and anxious, they are ashamed to call themselves young.

This disease is neither painful nor itchy, how can it be considered a disease.

Only when I got it did I realize that this is probably the most inelegant disease.

I thought it was nothing more than insomnia and anxiety, and it was not without it.

But I was wrong.

It was a kind of psychological devastation.

Like a poisonous poppy, it eats away at your desire bit by bit. Is a person still a human being without desire?

I gradually went from depressed to feeling useless.

I used to be top class, this is not a derogatory term, this is my glory.

I stood there, the beam of light focused on me, and I swore that I would coexist with the breeze and live up to my glory.

As if it just happened yesterday.

I don't regret it, I hate it.

This place kills without blinking an eye.

What they killed Jiangling was life, what killed me was original intention.

So day and night I felt helpless and hopeless.

I actively cooperated with the treatment, I don't know if it will work or not, I just want to reassure Qin Weiji.

He put down almost all his work to accompany me, and occasionally went out to buy me a few books for fear that I would be bored.

I looked at the "Laughing Cat Diary" in my hand. Although it is not suitable for me to waste my brain now, I wouldn't read this kind of children's literature, right?

I bit my lip, "Brother Qin, why don't you buy me "Andersen's Fairy Tales"?"

He smiled, "I'm afraid you will be sad to see the mermaid princess dead."

I put my hand on my chin and watched "Laughing Cat Diary" all morning. When Qin Weishao came back at noon, I opened the door and saw me crying bitterly, throwing tissues all over the floor.

Qin Weiji was stunned, "Baby, isn't this a laughing cat? Why are you crying?"

I pursed my lips, tears streaming out, "The dachshund is dead... and the tiger cat can't be found..."

"Brother Qin is wrong, shall we not read it?" Qin Weiji hugged me, frowned and glanced at the book on the bed, "How can a book for children make people cry?"

I put my arms around his neck, sniffed, and said in a nasal voice, "I want to eat hot pot..."

I don't want to eat anything, the desire for food has become negligible to me, I just want to act like a baby.

Sure enough, Qin Weiji rubbed my hair lovingly, "Be obedient, you have to avoid eating."

I rubbed against his neck, "Can I eat you then?"

He smiled and shook his head, "No, the doctor said we have to stop having sex."

I snorted twice and couldn't help sobbing, "Brother Qin, how long has it been since you touched me?"

Qin Weiji bent down and kissed my neck, "I'll bear it, don't provoke me..."

I opened my teary eyes, "Don't bear it..."

His breathing gradually increased, and finally he sighed helplessly, and said softly, "Yaoyao, be good, the doctor said no."

Seeing him really uncomfortable, I stuck it in Qin Weiji's ear, "I'll help you with my mouth..."

The weather is getting colder, I can't sit on the balcony for a long time, I feel cold all over after sitting for a long time.

I was really unable to prepare for the cattery, so I had to leave it to Chen Nian. She has recently brought in two newcomers and is becoming more and more like a manager.

At night, there was only one standing lamp on in the bedroom, and I just nestled in Qin Weiji's arms and read a book.

While watching, he murmured, "Snape is my favorite, what about you, Brother Qin?"

"Dumbledore." Qin Weiji glanced at me, "Are your eyes tired?"

I shook my head and turned a page back.

"I'll buy you a Chinese version tomorrow, and you'll have to worry about reading the original version."

I rubbed into his arms, "Don't worry, I just read books to pass the time in England. I have read "Harry Potter" three times."

Qin Weiji raised his eyebrows, "Then why didn't the fans take a picture of you in the library, but took a picture of you in the bar?"

I pursed my lips guiltyly, then raised my head suddenly, "Did you see that photo?"

Qin Weizhi nodded, "I see, there was no information about you at that time, only that photo."

I froze for a moment, suddenly thinking it was me, there was no news from Qin Wei, only this photo, I looked at it over and over day and night, it was like a dream.

If it weren't for An Tang, I might never come back.

The word regret, I'm afraid it has been fused into my blood, so that I can't hear anything about the past.

I was a little sad when my phone rang suddenly at this moment.

It broke the warmth, and it was extra harsh in the room. It's not a good thing so late.

Qin Wei sent the phone over, glanced at it and handed it to me, "Why is Chen Nian calling so late?"

I frowned, "Maybe it's about the cattery, take it."

Qin Weiji turned on the phone and put it hands-free by my side.

"Mr. Xie, are you asleep?"

I heard her voice was a little anxious, and her heart was beating a little uneasy, "Not yet, what's the matter?"

"Something happened to Mr. Zhou..."

Hearing the word accident, my stomach started to feel sick.

Qin Weiji frowned, "Xiao Chen, you are tired, Mr. Xie, please tell me tomorrow."

I held his hand, "what's wrong?"

Chen Nian hesitated for a while before slowly opening his mouth, "I was arrested for taking drugs..."

I was unexpectedly calm and responded, "I see."

When the phone hung up, Qin Weiji was a little worried about me, "Don't worry, I'll ask someone first."

I shook my head, but I didn't have much emotion, "No need Brother Qin, sooner or later..."

I lowered my head and continued to flip through my book, but what I recalled in my mind was the hasty time of more than ten years. When I thought about it, I felt that Baiju was not above his knees, why did my old man change his appearance?

It seems like yesterday I just received the script for "I Shouldn't Love the Sun".

Zhou Kong paid three visits to the thatched cottage for me, which really terrified me.

I looked up and looked out the window.

I don't know who will ring the death knell of the entertainment industry next.

Mr. Qin and I remarried.

Maybe we shouldn't have been separated in the first place. We love each other so deeply, and even those who don't love can barely work together. Why did we have to go to the point where we fell apart in the first place?

Qin Weiji took me to take wedding photos.

In the past, we were all busy at work, and we didn’t have time to hold a wedding and take wedding photos when we got married. Besides, I was very generous and didn’t demand these so-called rituals.

In fact, he pays more attention to these things. He remembers my birthday, holidays, and wedding anniversaries more clearly than I do.

I think it's funny, it's not easy to meet such a careless person like me, but he still has to make things difficult for himself.

The designer took out the suits that had been ordered. These clothes could not be ordered in a month or two on a whim. Qin Weiji had already started preparations at some point.

I looked up at him, and he smiled, "Do you like it?"

I nodded happily, looked at me and smiled, Qin Weiji's eyes seemed to be filled with water.

The designer took out the two suits, the most conspicuous ones were the buttons on the suits, which looked like a peacock's feathers.

She handed me a box and opened it to reveal two brooches, a golden peacock with eyes and feathers inlaid with onyx.

I feel a little surprised, Qin Weiji and I are not extravagant people, except for the brooch he gave me on my birthday, almost all jewelry like this are endorsement jewelry, and I have never made such a special order. .

He leaned close to my ear and said slowly, "Today you can open your screen as much as you want."

After changing into the suit, I came out of the fitting room and looked at Qin Weiji in front of me for a few seconds.

I rolled my eyes, "Do I look good, Brother Qin?"

Probably I am naturally charming and charming, even if my complexion is not very good, it is just two points of frailty in addition to the charm, which is harmless and has its own beauty. "nice."

Not to mention my Mr. Qin, no matter how expensive his clothes are, he can't hide his bookish air. We are mortal bodies, and he is the bones of immortals.

"No matter how many years have passed, you are still better than the thousands of books I have read." He gently wrapped his arms around my waist, and looked at me affectionately, "You are more expensive than a golden house, and more beautiful than Yan Ruyu."

This compliment made me not vulgar at all, I blushed, I really couldn't afford such a high praise.

When taking pictures, the designer brought up a tray with a rose gold crown on it, which was inlaid with diamonds, luxurious and gorgeous.

Qin Weiji took the crown from the tray and gently put it on my head.

I stretched out my hand to stop it, and said in a deep voice with my mouth curled up, "No, girls only wear this kind of thing..."

Qin Weiji put the crown on me in a funny way, and whispered, "This is for men, my prince..."

I blushed and looked sideways at the mirror. It really complemented me and matched me very well. Brother Qin's vision is always so good.

The crown was a bit heavy, and I raised my head unconsciously, revealing my slender neck.

Qin Weiji suddenly leaned over and kissed my neck with his head sideways. The photographer dedicatedly raised his camera and took several pictures.

I raised the corners of my lips, "Teacher Qin has always been prudish?"

Qin Weiji smiled and looked at me, "I'll keep it private and not show it to others."

I didn't know that Qin Weiji had such a bad taste, and forced me to accompany him to take a few more photos with gradually increasing scales. A thick-skinned person like me could still be blushed by Qin Weiji's torment.

"Brother Qin, the photographer is still here..."

He hugged me and whispered in my ear, "I love you..."

Later, Qin Wei sent the most serious photo and posted it on Weibo.

The text matches,

【The rose will wither eventually, and the love will overflow forever. 】