fifth year of divorce

By the time we left the set, the rain had stopped.

Some water accumulated on the ground, reflecting the moonlight, making passers-by seem a little brighter.

Qin Weiji and I walked side by side on a small road, silent and timid.

I lowered my head and watched Qin Weiji's shadow lengthen and shrink under the street lamp.

Qin Weiji stretched out his hand and gently held my hand. His hand was cold and had no warmth and tightly clasped my hand. I was shivered by the wind.

Qin Weiji stretched out his hand to hold back my clothes, looked at me and frowned, "Why have you lost so much weight..."

I smiled, seeing that he didn't look away, "Brother Qin, I'll take him back after staying for two more days."

Qin Weiji looked down at me slightly, and said with a smile, "Well, then I will stay for two more days."

I looked up, eyes shining, "Aren't you leaving today?"

He nodded and said softly, "I didn't intend to leave today, I didn't want to cheat him by having dinner with him."

I raised the corners of my lips, hugged Qin Weiji's arm and leaned gently on him.

"Brother Qin."

"Ok?"

"Can you stop calling me by my nickname in front of others?"

Qin Weiji paused, and looked at me funny, "Why?"

I raised my head, frowned and whispered, "I'm also in my early 30s, shy..."

Qin Weiji reacted, and joked, "Yes, Mr. Xie is a big boy."

My face was red, and the cold wind was blowing on my face, and the warm feeling remained undiminished.

He sighed without a trace, stretched out his hand and pinched my face, "Since I've grown up, I'm not allowed to leave without saying a word, huh?"

I held his arm tightly, feeling a little sour in my heart, "Never again."

He reached out and rubbed my hair, his voice was low and pleasant, "Is it difficult to be in the group?"

"Don't worry, I can take care of things in the crew."

Qin Weiji looked down at me, the light from the street lamps reflected him, outlining a lonely arc, "I want you to be the same as before, if you don't like it, you will quit."

"I'm different from before..." I smiled and looked up at him, "I'm already sensible."

"You don't have to be sensible."

I shook my head and watched as my eyes dimmed, "I can't bear to torment you, Brother Qin."

Qin Weiji reached out and rubbed my hair, and a slight sigh came over, "I don't want you to be bullied, you used to be self-willed but you wouldn't let yourself be wronged, I can coax you endlessly, It's better than feeling sorry for you endlessly now."

"It's just a villain who bullies others, and I'm not wronged."

"People in the circle use their power to bully others, but I am also your power, and you can also be proud of being favored."

"They don't deserve it." I settled down and looked at Qin Weiji, "Lan Jing, Wang Jin, Li Tong, and Director Wang, no matter who they are, they don't deserve to be remembered by me, let alone Brother Qin. Move your mind."

Qin Weiji pursed his lips, looked at me blankly, his eyes were a little sad, "How did you live the few years when I wasn't with you?"

I raised my head to meet his gaze, and said in a low voice, "I'm very nice, Brother Qin, I just miss you."

Missing is endless. For me in those few years, it was the missing of Qin Weiji that kept me going, and it was also the missing that made me suffer the most day and night.

And it's a longing that can't be comforted. I don't know where to put the longing. There is no end and no hope.

Qin Weiji felt a little distressed, looking at me speechless.

After an unknown amount of time, he said lightly, "Yaoyao, do you know where I first met you?"

I looked up, "Teacher Zhou's crew."

"No." He shook his head and smiled, "It was at an awards show."

I was taken aback, the first time I saw Qin Weiji was in Zhou Kong's crew, and I had never interacted with him before.

"You just won a newcomer award at that time. I have seen too many newcomers win awards, and none of them are as beautiful as you. Your frivolity makes people feel itchy."

He smiled and leaned down, "To be honest, I thought at the time, how can there be such a good-looking person, who is more beautiful than a book..."

Looking at the waterlogged road in front of me, I gently held Qin Weiji's arm, and said in a melancholy tone, "Brother Qin, I didn't realize that the circle is changing rapidly until I came back from England. I'm gone..."

"I also thought that what I love is your scenery..." He said in a low tone, "But then you became more and more unhappy, and you cried and told me that you didn't want to make movies anymore, so I was reluctant to let you go again , the company doesn’t know how many people object to it and I don’t listen.”

He looked at me, "I just realized that others want you to be beautiful, but I only want you to be safe and happy."

My eyes were red, I put my arms around Qin Weiji's waist, and lowered my voice, "Brother Qin was attracted to me at that time. I was only 20 years old when I won the prize, and I was in full bloom. Why don't you hurry up and chase me?" Woolen cloth?"

He hugged me with a smile, "It's not too late, I'll trick you when you're 22."

"It's late, I feel a pity that it's a day late."

"There is ample time..."

I laughed softly and whispered in his ear, "I can't wait until tomorrow...Brother Qin, I'm already thirty, the need for that is too strong..."

"How strong is it?" Qin Weiji's breathing gradually increased, and he gritted his teeth, "Can I still satisfy you?"

I smiled and murmured, "It's very strong, no one can satisfy me except you..."

Suddenly, Qin Weiji grabbed my wrist and pulled me into an empty alley. Before I called Brother Qin, Qin Weiji bent down and pressed my lips.

The lips and tongue are intertwined, and the atmosphere is warm.

He put one arm around my waist and the other on my head, and I leaned against the wall to respond to him.

In the darkness, desire makes a fool.

I put my arms around Qin Weiji's waist and lowered my voice, like acacia flowers blooming in the night, "Brother Qin is getting more and more wild, can't wait to go back to the hotel?"

Qin Weiji's voice was cold and lust mixed, and he slowly stretched his hand down, "Well, I just want to be here."

I chuckled lightly, held his hand and whispered in his ear, "Good brother, you love me dearly, my waist can't stand being here, I'll go back to the hotel and let you handle it."

Qin Weiji let me go slowly, looked at me under the moonlight, and whispered bitterly in my ear, "Is Teacher Xie so soft to everyone?"

"Only for Teacher Qin..."

......

After a sex session, I was so tired that I couldn't even lift my eyelids, Qin Wei sent me to take a shower and hugged me in his arms.

I hugged his neck sideways, closed my eyes and said desperately, "Brother Qin, did I sound good just now?"

Sure enough, Qin Weiji pinched my waist hard, and I cried out in pain and opened my eyes and looked at him complainingly.

He bowed his head and said in a deep voice, "Back then, I cried and shouted that I wouldn't let him touch me, but now I dare to die..."

I bit my lower lip, buried my head in the quilt and moaned, "Brother Qin, you have changed. You loved me before, but now you will torment me hard."

Seeing that I was the villain who complained first, he lifted the quilt to expose my head in a funny way, "Stop messing around, hurry up and sleep for a while..."

I stretched out my arm, and wrapped Qin Weiji's arm sideways in his arms.

Qin Weiji looked down and saw a hideous scar on my wrist, no matter how time passes by, this scar will never disappear.

He trembled, held my wrist, and looked at it for a long time.

I slowly opened my eyes, only to see Qin Weiji's red eyes looking at my scar.

I reached out to wipe the tears from the corners of his eyes, and said distressedly, "Brother Qin, it's healed, it doesn't hurt anymore."

He took me into his arms and hugged me tightly, choking with melancholy, "I...shouldn't have left you alone that night..."

Then he felt his fingers gently caressing the scar, and a faint voice came over, "If you don't go..."

"Brother Qin, I really don't feel pain anymore, and I don't love Jiang Zhishen either."

Qin Weiji trembled, the movement of his hands stopped, his eyes were absent-minded, he looked really pitiful.

I put my arms around his waist and leaned my head on his shoulder, "Although I am sick, I know you are not Jiang Zhishen, and I am not in love with Jiang Zhishen."

Qin Weiji stretched out his arms and hugged me slowly, with an erratic tone, "I almost thought that you married me because I played Jiang Zhishen...Sometimes you also think that you want to treat me as him, so that's him, right? , anyway, he is dead and I am alive..."

My tears fell on Qin Weiji's shoulders, I felt aggrieved, and my heart ached, "I don't love him even if he's alive, I can't beat the son of the secretary of the provincial party committee."

Qin Weiji laughed, and whispered in my ear, "You are so powerful, are you afraid you won't be able to snatch it?"

I leaned back and looked at Qin Weiji, "If Brother Qin, I would have snatched him even the son of the Heavenly King Lao Tzu."

Qin Wei sent a kiss on the corner of my lips with a smile, "You don't need to grab it, it's born to be yours."

I buried myself in his arms and slowly fell asleep. The blackout curtains in the hotel didn't work very well, and the sun shone brightly in the room.

I really didn't know how much I loved someone before.

I am an only child. I lost my father when I was young and lost my mother when I was young. I have no brothers, sisters, or relatives. I don’t know how to love, but I have no one to love. As time goes by, I forget how to love.

After marrying Qin Weiji, I feel that I have no worries in my life, and I can sing in peace from now on.

It's not that I haven't used his power before, I have no dust in my eyes, and I don't understand the world.

Love him, love yourself more.

The longer you stay in the circle, the more indifferent you become.

If I hadn't met Qin Weiji, I would be nothing more than a person in Vanity Fair today.

If there were no five years of separation, how would I know,

Loving someone will never take care of loving yourself.