fifth year of divorce

After returning from the hospital, my filming state was unstable, especially when I was in a scene with Qin Weiji, the filming state became worse and worse.

Director Zhou threw the notebook away, "Xie Yaoyin, can you act? If you can't act, I will change actors immediately!"

Sometimes when Mr. Zhou gets mean, I really want to quit.

Qin Weijiu glanced at me and waved to Zhou Kong, "Director Zhou, let's rest for a while."

I walked out of the studio silently, leaned against the wall in a corner and lit a cigarette.

Recently, I have a serious smoking addiction. When I have a smoking addiction, I can't sleep in the middle of the night.

In the past, many staff members secretly came to smoke in this corner, but after bumping into me here, everyone gradually stopped coming, and I didn't have to chat with them awkwardly for a while with a smile on my face.

Sorry to make so many people wait for me alone, I quickly finished smoking a cigarette and entered the set.

The staff saw me coming in and laughed at me, "Mr. Xie went to the secret base again?"

I smiled, "It's still called a secret base after you all know it?"

These people are used to observing words and expressions, and they can't tell that I am in a bad mood.

Brother Qin always said that my emotions are on my face.

The passing of time can really change people completely.

When I was at my worst in emotional regulation, the most important scene in the whole movie came, An Tang jumped off the building.

This is a one-man show of mine.

It took three days for the entire crew to set up the scene, and the importance is self-evident.

Here is the climax of the whole movie.

I was out of shape and the stress came with it.

Not to mention such an important scene, even an ordinary scene has been very difficult for me to shoot recently.

When I was nervous, I felt a little anxious, flustered and chest tight, and my face looked bad.

I had a conflict with this scene, and I couldn't even speak when I was filming this scene during the audition.

"what happened?"

Qin Weiji's gentle and indifferent voice reached my ears, like a gust of cool wind blowing, and I felt a little more at ease in my heart.

"It's okay, I'm just a little nervous that I can't get into the show."

Qin Weiji frowned lightly, "Why is your nervous face so ugly?"

I shook my head and looked at him, "I don't know, I just feel something is blocked in my chest and I can't breathe."

"You..." Qin Weiji hesitated to speak, his eyes were uncertain, "Did you see a psychiatrist again after that?"

I was stunned, and looked anxiously at Qin Weiji, "I'm fine, brother Qin, I've recovered from my illness."

Qin Weiji pursed his lips, and his expression returned to indifference, "After the filming of this movie is finished, let's go and see it."

My eyes dimmed a bit, and my voice lowered, "I'm really fine."

Qin Weijiu glanced at me, his voice softened, but he could hear his anxious words, "Yaoyao, you can't keep your illnesses secret, and you can't..." just because of a role..."

I looked at Qin Weiji suspiciously, wondering what he was going to say.

But he didn't say any more, turned his head a little sadly, and then returned to a waveless clear water.

"I contacted the original author of this script for you. She came to chat with you. It's no problem to get into the play." Qin Weiji's tone was gentle and slow, "But the play depends on you."

I stared at him blankly, when will he contact the author for me?

"The author of this book is the author of "I Shouldn't Love the Sun". Her pen name is a painter, and she is a friend of Director Zhou and me." Qin Weiji explained, "She hardly participates in the filming of movies, and her job is not about it. , but after all, it is my own works that must be very profound to understand.”

I nodded, "It's hard to make an appointment, isn't it?" Qin Weiji paused, "She agreed very readily, so you don't have to worry about it."

"Thank you, Brother Qin."

Qin Weiji was stunned for a moment, but didn't speak.

I pursed my lips and felt a little embarrassed. I never said thank you to him after we got married. It seemed that everything he did for me was taken for granted.

In those three years, I said I love him, how did I love him?

I need to be cherished by others, does he deserve to keep giving?

Probably God couldn't see it anymore, so he told us to leave quickly.

"Teacher Qin, I have your friends."

Qin Weiji raised his head, and I followed suit. The girl who came in was wearing a simple windbreaker, with a very unique temperament, and I looked very familiar.

The girl I bumped into at the gate of Epic during the audition!

"Film Emperor Qin." She beckoned and walked over. "She's the 'painter.'"

"Sister Yao!" She ran over with a smile, "Do you still remember me?"

I smiled and shook hands with her, "I just didn't expect the little fan to be a writer."

She smiled brightly, "I'm not a writer but a painter."

I froze for a moment, Qin Weiji smiled and said, "Her university and postgraduate majors are fine arts, and now she is teaching at Lu Xun Academy of Fine Arts, so she can be regarded as half a painter."

"What is half a painter? I am a painter."

Unexpectedly, this pseudonym was not chosen casually.

She approached me and whispered next to my side, "Are you reconciled?"

"I'll let you know when you're reconciled."

"Prevaricate me again with words." She curled her lips.

I smiled and didn't speak.

Zhou Kong heard that the painter was coming, so he hurried over, "Little girl, aren't you in Shenyang?"

"As soon as I heard Yaomei needed me, I flew here overnight."

"It's only because he has such a big face that he can invite you here." Zhou Kong gave me a blank look, "This little bastard has been in a bad filming state recently, and I want to replace him immediately."

"It's no wonder you could change him."

"I really don't believe that you can't get into the drama, you are more and more like An Tang now." She looked at Qin Weiji, "Didn't you notice? The temperament of my sister Yao is An Tang himself. "

Director Zhou glanced at me, "What kind of temperament does Tian Tian have in life?"

"It's this kind of temperament, it looks like a lifeless flower, lifeless, but more moving than a fake flower." The painter's expression became a little serious, "Sister Yao, An Tang belongs to you, but you don't belong to An Tang , nor can we live in peace.”

My heart trembled, and I didn't dare to look up into Qin Weiji's eyes, so I could only joke, "Then write more Sunshine characters."

"Let's talk, let the assistant call me when the shooting starts." Qin Weiji turned and left.

Brother Qin is terribly sensitive to my participation in and out of the play.

After Director Zhou left, the painter sat next to me, "You and Qin Weiji don't feel very well."

I smiled faintly, "Are you still working part-time as a bosom sister?"

She sighed, "I'm sorry for you guys, the couple that will be made tomorrow will have to confuse the fate."

Talking about Qin Weiji, I feel physically and mentally exhausted and powerless. They all say that our fate is superficial and they want me to let him go.

"Do you know why I like to write?"

I smiled, "I heard that writers prefer the feeling of controlling other people's fate."

"No." She gave me a look. "I've never been in control of any of my characters."

"You actors need empathy for acting, and we also need empathy for storytellers. Do you think our characters will come to life as soon as they lift their pens? It's actually very difficult. I just live for them." She said seriously, "When they laugh, I laugh, when they cry, I cry, and when they die, I feel like I have died once."

"So, actors and writers are paranoid and sick."

I suddenly felt that there was a resonance between the painter and me, we are both bright and dark, sometimes we are characters and sometimes we are ourselves.

"If you get into the drama too much, it's like living a life that you know is hopeless. It's very painful." The painter patted me on the shoulder, "So you have to tell yourself at all times that An Tang is An Tang. , you are you."

"You can't die for him, and he can't live for you."