fifth year of divorce

During this time, I always dream about things from five years ago.

Sometimes I dream that I am surrounded by bodyguards leaving the airport, and the fans around me are calling me, the voice echoes in my ears, and I can't breathe.

Sometimes I dream that I am still in Xingmeng, and the heavy workload crushes my spirit.

Sometimes when I dream of divorce, the overwhelming violence on the Internet splits my marriage with Qin Weiji every single word.

More often, I still dream of Mr. Qin.

With him in Fenghua, ear to ear and sideburns, intimate.

When I wake up, I often have trouble recovering.

Almost every time I woke up during those years in England, I felt that everything that was dear to me was lost.

Before I met Qin Weiji, I always wanted to see him.

After seeing each other, I am not content with the distance that is neither near nor far.

Once people have delusions, their hearts will be extremely tormented.

Besides, Mr. Qin belongs to someone else now.

Everything should start with love and end with courtesy.

Stop at ceremony?

It's a little funny, Mr. Qin and I want to stop at courtesy.

Qi Lianyu came to visit the class, bought a cart of fruit with his assistant, and delivered them to the staff one by one.

When Qin Weiji and I were discussing our lines, Qi Lianyu pushed the door open and entered.

After seeing me, I was stunned, "Mr. Qin, thank you senior, did I bother you?"

Qin Weiji looked up at him, and said softly, "Why are you here?"

Qi Lianyu smiled, "Seeing that the weather is too hot, I came here to deliver fruits to Teacher Qin."

"Director Xu called me and said that you performed well and that the new movie should be finalized."

Xu Ming is the only Director Xu who has friendship with Qin Weiji. Is it because I snatched the role of An Tang, so I used Xu Ming's movie to comfort my little boyfriend?

"Really? Thank you so much, Teacher Qin. I'm always afraid that Director Xu will look down on me."

Qin Weiji said softly, "You don't need to thank me, it was your own acting skills that caught Director Xu's eyes, and I didn't say hello."

Qi Lianyu smiled, and seemed to suddenly think of me in front of him again, and said quickly, "Thank you senior, what kind of fruit do you like to eat, I will ask my assistant to bring it to you later."

I don't hate Qi Lianyu, the person Qin Weiji likes is more or less not too bad, I'm just a little jealous, even if it's not Qi Lianyu, I would be jealous, jealousy will make people ugly.

"No need." I looked up and smiled, "I prefer to eat junk food."

What I said is true, since I was a child, I don't like to eat fruit, but I like to eat puffed food.

"Get him a watermelon." Qin Weiji said lightly.

"it is good."

Well, everything I say in front of Qin Weiji is fart.

I remembered when I hadn't divorced Qin Weisong, when I was sitting there playing games, there was a pot of tea, a plate of pineapples, and a can of popcorn in front of me.

Since I got married, I haven't had carbonated drinks at all, and I haven't had popcorn without pineapple.

I liked eating popcorn very much at that time. I went out and bought a big bucket, and when I came back, the bucket was bigger than my head. When Qin Weiji saw it, his face turned black and he confiscated it for me.

I found a small glass jar and said that after eating a plate of fruit, I can eat a small jar of popcorn.

After I finished eating, I held up the small jar and acted like a baby to Qin Weiji, "Brother Qin, have another jar."

Brother Qin eats my set, and if I can't do anything about it, just pour me another can.

Why did I love popcorn so much?

After the divorce, I found it boring to eat with a big bucket of popcorn.

I don't want to, what have I been thinking about the past.

The older I get, the more I love memories.

"Xiao Qi, sit down, you guys talk, I'll talk to Director Zhou about the script."

For the first time, I am proud of my age. 30 years old is really a stable age. You must be graceful and graceful, and you must be decent and decent.

I shook my head amusedly, it's a bit useless to have everything.

Otherwise, he wouldn't have sneaked out alone and hid in a corner to smoke.

I rubbed the cigarette with my index finger and thumb, but my heart sank little by little.

Qin Weiji and I have nothing to do with each other anymore, and our relationship is probably not as frank as he and Qi Lianyu.

Maybe when others mention me in front of Qin Weiji, they still have to watch their faces and keep silent.

When I returned to the set, Teacher Zhou had been looking for me for a long time.

"Don't you know that you have a show? Let the people in the group wait for you for almost half an hour!" Director Zhou shouted when he saw me.

I breathed a sigh of relief, smiled and bowed to the staff, "Sorry teachers, I've been waiting for a long time."

"Get ready." Director Zhou waved his hand.

There is only one scene in this scene, which is an eye scene, in which An Tang learns the news of his mother's death from someone else.

The people in the town pulled An Tang and said, "Xiao Tang, your father told you no, your mother is gone."

An Tang shook his head in confusion, he thought his short-lived mother was already dead.

"It is said that he died of illness, and he died at home without money for medical treatment."

An Tang didn't speak, just broke away from the man's hand and continued to walk forward.

"Sure enough, there are mothers who are not raised by mothers, and mothers don't cry when they die."

What is he crying for?Should he be moved?Moved by his so-called mother who left him in this place of wolves and leopards in order to keep him alive?

This is not great at all, it is better to let him die with her cleanly.

You don't have to go to hell after you die.

In the process of my first acting, the play came out.

I looked at the camera with a dazed look in my eyes.

I thought about when my mother died.

How old was I that year, fifteen or sixteen, I forgot how it felt like so long had passed.

That year my mother was diagnosed with cancer, hiding from me and crying every night.

Later, he passed out at home and was sent to the hospital.

The doctor said that if he was hospitalized at the first discovery, he could live for more than ten years.

But my mother was not cured, saying that the money was reserved for me to go to college.

Guess how much I hate the word university.

So much so that I deliberately pissed off my mother, so I just didn't go for the exam.

My mother was probably mad at me.

I hate her to this day.

I am only her relative, how could she make me an orphan just because of a university, and make me have nothing to rely on in this world?

I will never forgive her.

But I couldn't forgive myself even more.

I think my mother was killed by me.

During the ten years I grew up, there was not a single day that I grew up with her blood.

The day my mother left, the weather was quite bright.

She died on the operating table, under anesthesia, at the end of the day.

I really don't want to die in the hospital in the future.

I looked across the camera and looked at Qin Weiji who was standing aside looking at me, my eyes were red.

Now, I have lost my only true love.