dear dreamer

Due to spinal injuries and comminuted fractures of lower limbs, Deng Tingge will face an extremely long recovery and treatment process after returning home.The fracture has been internally fixed, and he cannot walk for the time being. Deng Tingge pinches his thighs and buttocks nervously every day.

More than a month ago, he would never have imagined that every touch of fingers, skin and muscles would make him fall into ecstasy.

However, this ecstasy was accompanied by a depression that he could not resolve.

The doctor said one year, and you will be able to walk in one year.The doctor also said that strenuous exercise such as running and jumping cannot be done casually even if you can walk. You need to give your bones some time to recover and grow.

When his parents didn't come, Luo Hengqiu's time away from home to work was very difficult for Deng Tingge.

He would have been used to turning on the TV.But I always see familiar faces in variety shows and film and television dramas on TV.Those healthy and happy people were running and jumping on the ground. Deng Tingge watched it for a while and then shut down silently.Later, he got more used to reading books and moved the wheelchair to the balcony to see the surrounding scenery.

The floors are relatively high, and the people passing by downstairs are very small.Deng Tingge actually thinks this is quite boring, but he doesn't know what else he can do, and he often looks at it for hours.

Luo Hengqiu would often take his work home to do, chat with him, and teach him what he could do.Because Deng Tingge's current activities are all completed in a wheelchair, Luo Hengqiu recently remodeled the kitchen and bathroom, installing low cabinets, wash basins and other things.After that, Deng Tingge can finish washing and cooking in the kitchen.

But Luo Hengqiu is tall, so it would be inconvenient for him to cook.

Luo Hengqiu wouldn't complain, and Deng Tingge didn't say sorry either.He knew that it would be too outlandish to say such things now, so he simply dug out all the recipes he had carefully collected before, and tried to make them one by one.

He is still not very happy.The limitation of limbs made his whole world seem to shrink, and his desire for a sense of security was stronger than ever.He will feel at ease when Luo Hengqiu hugs him to sleep, and he will be especially excited when Luo Hengqiu kisses him.

"I can't do it anymore." Once Deng Tingge said to Luo Hengqiu very suddenly.

Luo Hengqiu was cuddling with him on the bedside and watching a movie, and it took him a few minutes to realize what he was talking about.

Luo Hengqiu: "Oh."

Deng Tingge: "What to do, what to do if you can't do it in the future."

Luo Hengqiu couldn't laugh or cry.He somewhat understood why Deng Tingge cared about such things, and thought he was funny.But this cannot be laughed at.He patted Deng Tingge's head very seriously: "Still can't get up?"

"...No, not very good." Deng Tingge was very embarrassed, and blushed violently when he said these words.

Luo Hengqiu saw it in his eyes, and inexplicably found it very interesting.It was like the first time for the two of them, Deng Tingge was nervous, cramped, awkward, yet eager, expectant, and frank.

"No, I'll do it." Luo Hengqiu said pretending to be serious, "I can do it, you know."

Deng Tinge subconsciously looked under him.Covered by the quilt, I couldn't see anything.

——Oh yes, he has seen it, so of course he knows that senior brother can do it.Deng Tingge nodded to himself.

It should be strange or inappropriate to talk about such issues in this easily sad period, but Deng Tingge thinks this is very important.If he didn't tell Luo Hengqiu, who else could he discuss with.

Luo Hengqiu was actually joking.He has consulted many doctors, and although no one can guarantee him anything, everyone told him after reading Deng Tingge's medical records and current recovery status: there is no problem with the spinal cord nerves, and his lower limbs can fully regain consciousness.

But Deng Tingge obviously took it seriously.

"That's fine," he said. "Well, do I have to learn something first? Or can you just come?"

Luo Hengqiu: "..."

Deng Tingge is very serious.

Luo Hengqiu was stunned for a while, couldn't help rubbing his head in his arms, rubbing his chin on his hair: "You really..."

Deng Tingge: "...Brother, I'm serious! Are you kidding me?"

He was even more embarrassed immediately, his scalp was numb with tension.

Luo Hengqiu: "I listen to you, listen to you."

Not long after Deng Tingge came back, both Liu Haojun and Lu Zhixia came to see him.

Within 5 minutes of Liu Haojun's arrival, he hugged him and cried again.Deng Tingge was covered in oily smoke, let him hug himself tightly and cry.After Liu Haojun cried for a long time, Deng Tingge realized that he was not crying for himself.

"Nian Shuang, Nian Shuang promised me!" Liu Haojun cried and laughed, "We are together! We aim to get married!"

Deng Tinge: "...are you happy to be a father?"

Liu Haojun: "...No. Get lost!"

Deng Tingge left him and turned off the fire on two wheels.

Lu Zhixia's eye circles were also red when he came.During the days when Deng Tingge was hospitalized, she was very, very busy with work, flying back and forth for three days, and was unable to visit him, which made Lu Zhixia very sad.

Deng Tingge regards Lu Zhixia as a little girl, knowing that she has graduated now, and also knows that she has entered the provincial TV station as a host of children's programs, and is still filming, so he comforts her repeatedly that she is very good.

But he was quickly taken aback by the two of them.

First, when Liu Haojun finished crying and eating the stewed chicken made by Deng Tingge, he sobbed and talked about his own affairs. "I'm going to give up." Liu Haojun said, "I'm not going to do this script after finishing writing it."

Liu Haojun and Lin Nianshuang, the goddess he has pursued for many years, finally made substantial progress.Although the two had never confirmed their relationship, they had been ambiguous for several years. Once Lin Nianshuang agreed, everything would fall into place. Lin Nianshuang even brought him home and introduced him to his parents.When marriage and family are the goals, Liu Haojun's thoughts and considerations are completely different.

The script he is writing now is the story of soldiers and thieves, and it is his last attempt at marketization after he decided not to be a screenwriter.Liu Haojun wants to write this story well, and also hopes that the actors can act this story well.He's still writing scripts, treating them like a treasure, a promise to deliver to a loved one.

"What can I do?" He smiled, "I don't know what else I can do besides writing. I have written so many stories, but in the end I can't do anything. I feel ashamed to say it in front of you. I had to take advantage of my young age. Before it’s time to turn back, hurry up and choose another path.”

Besides Liu Haojun, Lu Zhixia also told Deng Tingge that he did not intend to continue acting.

"Filming is too hard, I want to be behind the scenes." Lu Zhixia obviously thought for a long time, "The current market situation is different, children's programs are getting more and more attention, and the country has also promulgated many policies to support and encourage excellent children's programs. This is a good opportunity, compared to filming, I actually prefer planning and coordinating work like this."

She was full of interest, and Deng Tingge saw a different brilliance from her face than before.

He is sorry.Whether it is Liu Haojun or Lu Zhixia, Deng Tingge is very aware of their abilities and talents.

But that didn't work.He is also in this circle himself, and knows the cruelty of this circle.There are too many talented people.Deng Tingge even suspects short-sightedly, is there any other field in the world like this circle that can gather so many people who are crazy about creating all the time?

Too much talent and too little opportunity.

Luck is not for everyone.He got it, and got a lot of it.Deng Tingge knew that while he was lucky, it also meant that many people lost their only chance to make their mark which was more precious to them.

Of course he is not guilty.This is the survival rule of this world, and he himself is experiencing this cruelty.

It's just that when he talked about Liu Haojun and Lu Zhixia with Luo Hengqiu, he still couldn't help showing some other emotions.

"Everyone is making choices, everyone is moving forward," he said, "Only me..."

Luo Hengqiu felt that one year was actually quite short, and it passed in just one click. He felt that the year-end bonus would be issued soon.But Deng Tingge felt that one year was too long: in 365 days, he could shoot three scenes, dub a lot of voices, read many scripts, go to many places, and participate in many programs.The freed up time was immediately magnified, and the pain and discomfort of rehabilitation training also doubled.

Luo Hengqiu said that I would like to replace you.But he can't.

After more than a month, Deng Tingge ushered in an unexpected visitor.

Liu Haojun came with his mentor.

The old man brought good wine and tea, and handed them to Luo Hengqiu.When Luo Hengqiu saw this elder whom Deng Tingge admired, he was inexplicably more nervous than meeting Deng Tingge's parents.After putting away the tea and wine, he excused himself and went into the study and refused to come out.

Liu Haojun: "Boss Luo is so shy?"

Deng Tingge: "...Because the teacher looks too fierce."

The mentor who had been blowing his beard and staring at him slowly calmed down at this moment.

"Are you fierce?" he asked. "I'm not known for being nice and friendly at school?"

Although amiable most of the time, he also showed subtle dissatisfaction with Deng Tingge's partner.Now that Deng Tingge has won the approval of his parents, he turned a blind eye to the teacher's dissatisfaction and asked him to sit down.

The mentor and Liu Haojun chatted with him, and Deng Tingge waited patiently for him to say what he wanted.

"Xiao Deng, do you still want to act in a drama?" The instructor wentssip for more than half an hour before finally opening his mouth slowly, "It's nothing else, just that I have a drama project in my hand, which is very good , the work and actors are very good, and the director and screenwriter are well-known figures. Are you interested?"

no other meaning.The instructor added another sentence without any hesitation.

Deng Tinge was stunned for a while, his eyes were a little sore.

"Interested." He said immediately.

His left eyelid twitched a few times when he woke up this morning.He asked Luo Hengqiu whether the twitching of his left eyelid was a good thing or a bad thing, but Luo Hengqiu didn't know either.

Now he thought, it should be a good thing, definitely a good thing.

"What project?" He suppressed the turbulent excitement in his heart and asked calmly.