dear dreamer

Deng Tingge has always had some inexplicable worries in his heart.

Now the relationship between Luo Hengqiu and himself is very simple and direct: he likes him, he likes him, nothing else is mixed in it.

But Zhong Xing's words made him think otherwise.

Luo Hengqiu is Huatian's boss, but also his lover.Deng Tingge knew that he cared about the unequal career between Luo Hengqiu and himself, but at this moment he really realized what he was thinking in his heart: when he cared about Luo Hengqiu's identity and was afraid that Luo Hengqiu's help would deteriorate the relationship between the two At that time, he was already imagining what help Luo Hengqiu could give him.

This thought split the chaos in Deng Tingge's heart like a bolt of lightning.

He is too aware of the role that senior brother can play in his career, but he is also afraid that this will make him a person dependent on Luo Hengqiu, so he subconsciously denies the possibility of Luo Hengqiu's side.

What Zhong Xing said made sense.Deng Tingge has seen too many talented but unlucky people.They are more miserable than Yin Tianqiu who have no talent: they watch their talents being wiped out in the depressing and boring life and work day by day, but they still refuse to let themselves go, insisting that they can turn around and start again Opportunity.

Deng Tingge thought of the three-year agreement between himself and his parents, and the embarrassment of being ignored when he even took the initiative to chat with others at the banquet hall, and thinking of Qin Guan's frankness that he publicly said that he could praise him, his heart was confused and confused. confused.

So I lost sleep that night.After returning to the crew and starting work, the busy shooting routine left him no time to think about these issues, and instead he became much calmer.

The filming of "Long Yuan" has been going on for more than a month, and the publicity work has officially started, and many reporters have come to visit the set one after another.

Yan Fei and Chen Yiping are the ones who get the most attention, while Lu Zhixia and Deng Tingge are not well-known, so most of the time nobody cares about them.Hearing that these two were actually the male and female protagonists, the reporter showed decent surprise and politeness, but since he didn't know much about them, he couldn't ask any questions.

Chen Yiping once said that the actors only need to cooperate in the promotion work. At present, it is mainly the overall promotion of the crew and the film.After the independent promotional videos of the main characters come out, it is the time for them to perform.Deng Tingge and Lu Zhixia had no idea about these matters, and Yan Fei was already familiar with the key points of dealing with the media, so he mentioned them when he had time.

Four-fifths of the script has been filmed, and the rest, except for some make-up shots, is the highlight: the death of the three protagonists.

Yang Chunxia's death was the most tragic.There was blood all over the ground, and the sound of wailing.Jiu Yuan knelt beside her corpse, his face twitching, as if he wanted to cry but didn't dare.He hugged Yang Chunxia's body, covered the wound on her head with his hand, and yelled loudly.

This section is not difficult, but it will give Deng Tingge a few close-up shots, which put forward high requirements for the control of his facial expressions.

After the shooting, even Chen Yiping couldn't help saying "OK".

From the beginning of the filming of "Long Yuan", I have to talk about the scene several times each time, and now I can go through even the main scenes, and the period is only more than a month.Deng Tingge's growth rate surprised Chen Yiping.

Deng Tingge on the monitor hugged Lu Zhixia, frowning and about to cry, but raised his head in horror and quickly glanced at the crowd.This detail was added when Deng Tingge was thinking about it before, and it was also agreed by Chen Yiping.Jiu Yuan must be terrified: he is under the surveillance of others day and night, so that he has unconsciously formed a habit of looking up at other people's eyes at any time.If the other party is full of anger, he must be prepared to be beaten and protect himself.

The crowd around him were panicked, indifferent, and urged him to go back to work.The man hugged his dead fiancee, looked at the blood on his hands, and finally shed tears.

Both Deng Tingge and Lu Zhixia were very depressed during filming.After finally finishing it, Lu Zhixia's own roles are all over, and Deng Tingge will continue with the more important climax: Jiu Yuan's suicide.

According to the timeline of the story, Zhu Baihua died first, followed by Yang Chunxia's accident and Jiu Yuan's suicide.But during filming, because Zhu Baihua's suicide and Jiu Yuan's death echoed each other, Chen Yiping decided to film together, first filming Yan Fei and then Deng Tingge, in order to smooth the emotional connection of the actors.

Zhu Baihua's suicide note to Jiu Yuan was finally transcribed.Yan Fei wrote beautifully with a pen, and he himself copied the suicide note written by the screenwriter team word by word.Although everyone knows that this part of the suicide note is very likely to be cut off, but the creation is still meticulous.

They referred to Zhu Baihua's prototype, the diary owned by the translator named Zhu Lu.The words written in German in the diary are very cryptic, but the love, longing and depression revealed in it are fuller because of this.The suicide note did not completely copy the words in it, but only used some of them, and the rest was written by the screenwriter team according to the writing habits and feelings of Zhu Lu's diary.Zhu Lu's nephew had no objection to the crew's arrangement.He didn't know about Zhu Lu's feelings for Jiu Yuan, he only knew "very good, very good, he is a very powerful person, he should be filmed and let other people know".

When filming the scene of Zhu Baihua committing suicide, Deng Tingge sat quietly by the side.

Zhu Lu died when his ribs were trampled on and the rescue was not timely.Zhu Baihua in the movie chose death on his own initiative.

His "sin" is lighter than Jiu Yuan's, so he can return to his home after a day's work.Zhu Baihua washed his face, the cold water hit the wound on his face, causing him to frown in pain.He took the stick, crawled under the bed and dug somewhere at the foot of the bed, and took out an iron box he had hidden.After taking off his dirty clothes, Zhu Baihua rummaged through the box to find a coat that was clean enough to put on, then sat cross-legged by the bed and opened the box.

Inside the box were a dozen sheets of letterhead, half a bottle of ink, and a pen.These things were secretly hidden by Zhu Baihua under his bed, and the pit was dug deep, so they were able to be preserved.He got up and went to the stove to find a fire. After searching for a long time, he couldn't find anything to light the fire, so he had to go back to the bed and sit on the ground.

Desks and stools were split and dedicated to the collective as firewood.He used the bed as a desk, and read the letters one by one.The letters were full of words, and Deng Tingge didn't know what they wrote, but Yan Fei copied them one by one.

Zhu Baihua laughed for a while when he saw a picture.There was a wound on the corner of his mouth, blood oozing, he couldn't smile too much, but he was really happy in his heart, and his brows and eyes became gentle.

After reading one sheet, he tore it up carefully and swallowed all the notes.

This paragraph was very long, and Chen Yiping didn't stop it.Yan Fei sat on the ground, read the letter, tore up the paper, and swallowed it devoutly.Motes of mud dust in the house danced in the remnants of the twilight.The gradually sinking night can be seen outside the window without any shelter.

Zhu Baihua finally read all the letterheads.The last piece of paper was only half written, so he carefully tore off the part with words and ate it, picked up the pen to absorb the ink, and wrote on the other half without words.

"My death has nothing to do with anyone.

Long live the proletariat, long live Chairman Mao, long live the future!

A room is poor, and only these three or two slogans still have some weight, if you want them, take them all.Just burn some candles and paper money for me, the ground is so dark, it's easy to walk with some light.

I have a big, big mistake in my heart.Although it didn't affect anyone, I knew that I was the dregs of society, a crime that death cannot wash away.These sins have nothing to do with my loved ones.They are honest and kind, never knowing that I have so many bad thoughts in my stomach, and I deliberately hide it from everyone.I don't hate Chen Xiguo and Pang Dayong, they reported me to protect themselves and their family.I was wrong and I should be accused.

Sister, I'm sorry, I'm leaving first.

Ah Jun, uncle is bad, and his heart is rotten.Don't learn from me, you should be a good person.You can be a good person.

Xiaoxia, I wish you and Jiuyuan's children grow up healthily.The child must be like you, a very good person.I will bless you forever elsewhere. "

He wrote very calmly, only pausing when he mentioned his sister.Ink smeared on the paper, a small ball.

He paused for a long time at the last sentence.The tip of the pen landed on the paper and lifted, raised and lowered.The ink blots remained on the paper little by little, and penetrated deeply.Zhu Baihua finally wrote it down.

"Jiu Yuan, meeting you is worth many good things in my life."

Deng Tingge watched Yan Fei calmly put the half piece of paper into his pocket, took off his shoes and arranged them calmly, and sat on the bed.He tied the two shoelaces together, took out the cloth strips that had been secretly hidden these days, and tied them with knots one by one.The long rope is ready in no time.He lay down, tied one end of the rope firmly to the iron bar on the window, and wound the other end around his neck, pulling it tighter by little.

Although Deng Tingge was sitting on the side, he was infected by the grief and despair revealed in Yan Fei's every move.

The half sheet of paper was not seized.The first person who found Zhu Baihua's body was the child who passed by his window in the morning, Zhu Baihua's nephew A Jun.The boy was already sensible, and after crying for a while, he saw Zhu Baihua's hand tightly clutching his pocket, and immediately took out the suicide note from his pocket.

A Jun hid the suicide note and slipped it into Jiu Yuan's hands on the day Yang Chunxia was buried.Neither he nor his mother could read and write, so they only knew that this should be a very important thing. After thinking about it, there was only one person Zhu Baihua knew who could read and write, Jiu Yuan.

Looking at the letter, Jiu Yuan cried out.His tears kept streaming down, and he knelt in front of Yang Chunxia's small grave and kowtowed, his head was covered with blood.He tore the suicide note in half, leaving only the two lines with Yang Chunxia and his own name on it, and returned the rest to Ah Jun, asking him to keep it safe.When committing suicide by burning charcoal, Jiu Yuan put the two sentences written by Zhu Baihua in his breast pocket, close to his heart.

He died peacefully, with much less pain, and the expression on his face could even be called serene.

After the filming, Chen Yiping let out a sigh of relief and did not speak, watching the clips of Yan Fei and Deng Tingge's performances repeatedly.

In fact, it is as if it has passed.

While changing clothes, Deng Tingge received a call from Chang Huan.Chang Huan told him about the audition time for "Gu Dao Warm Heart", and asked him a question as if he couldn't help being curious.

"Do you know the producer of "Gudaoxinchang"?"

Deng Tingge: "I don't know."

Chang Huan: "He asked you by name."

Deng Tingge: "... roll call?"

Chang Huan: "Yes, that's what Zhong Xing told me. Did he help you out behind the scenes?"

Deng Tingge thought for a while, Zhong Xing was probably not the one who was active in the mind, but he didn't know what to say, so he said sullenly: "I don't know about these things."