as you meet

"How lucky."

To be able to pull the heartstrings and resonate when we meet for the first time requires the right time, the right weather, and a heart that is looking forward to love. How rare and lucky that is.

He suddenly remembered his first meeting with Song Shihe. At that time, they first met on a rainy day with lightning and thunder.Thinking about it now, everything at that time seemed inappropriate, so their ending was already doomed.

"Indeed, I seldom fall in love with dolls at first sight. Even JeffKoons' BalloonRabbit, it took me some time to learn to appreciate the contradictions and resistance hidden in it, or I calmed down to analyze it after I knew it was JeffKoons' work. The meaning inside." Song Shihe looked at the doll, shrugged and said:

"Maybe it's because I prefer to appreciate art than to appreciate artists. After all, whoever is labeled as an artist has a lot of people who overestimate their abilities.

"But just as flowers bloom in the dust in spring, ordinary people can also create beauty. Beauty is free. No one can keep beauty in captivity, but everyone has the opportunity to feel and show beauty."

Ji Yusheng has always liked to chat with his husband about some personal insights into art, but now all his attention is on Song Shihe's so-called love at first sight, and he has no extra energy to think about other things.He hesitated and remained silent for a long time, and finally said:

"Sir... so it was love at first sight for that doll?"

Song Shihe nodded and said:

"Although it is a bit exaggerated to say so, when I saw it, I thought it was simple but very, very beautiful, just like some oriental modernist works, very simple but very attractive, so I immediately said that I would buy this Doll."

So is it because the work also has a good impression on the person who made it?Ji Yusheng suddenly hated that he had no artistic talent at all. If he could draw beautiful pictures, would my husband have a chance to like him.

But what is a foregone conclusion, he cannot change.

Ji Yusheng swallowed his saliva, and said bitterly:

"It's late, but congratulations, Mr. Song."

Song Shihe turned to look at Ji Yusheng with some doubts.

"what?"

Ji Yusheng raised his head, held back the surging emotions, looked straight at Song Shihe and said:

"I believe that your children will become very good artists, after all, they are Mr.'s children."

Song Shihe was stunned for a while, then nodded strangely and said:

"...well, thanks."

"...I'm going to hang the book to dry first."

Ji Yusheng felt that he could no longer look directly at Song Shihe, otherwise he would think of the kiss that day and the regret now, so he wanted to carry his wet schoolbag to the bench and take out the books to dry.

"Okay, do you want help?"

"No, no need." He felt that he could no longer see Mr. Song's appearance, or he might collapse.

"Okay. Then you can rest after drying. Your room is the same as mine. It has its own bathroom, and you can use it as you like."

The whole living room fell silent, only the sound of pages turning.With the sound of pages turning, Ji Yusheng's mind was full of what Song Shihe had just said.

Thinking of this, he suddenly remembered that the room he had just changed and was about to rest in had the same structure as Mr.’s room, meaning it was the master’s room. He also remembered that he smelled a perfume as soon as he entered that room Smell, there are many similar dolls in the glass cabinet above the bed, so is it possible that that room is her room?

"I'll sleep in the living room tonight." Ji Yusheng said aloud after putting away a book.

Song Shihe, who had just turned his head to look at the computer, paused, then turned his head again,

"what happened?"

Ji Yusheng turned his back to Song Shihe, shook his head and said in a low voice:

"It's nothing, it's just that it seems impolite to use it casually without saying hello to the master."

"What master?"

Hearing what Song Shihe asked knowingly, Ji Yusheng twitched the corners of his mouth and said:

"They have gone out temporarily. It seems that it is not good to use their room without authorization."

"them?"

"Well... Although they don't live here now, it will be uncomfortable if they come back and find that someone has lived in their room?"

"who are they?"

Ji Yusheng put down the book he took out of his schoolbag vigorously, and said in a deep voice:

"Sir's lover and children."

"Lover? What do you mean?"

"Is the gentleman asking knowingly?"

"You fell in love with that girl at first sight in the handicraft shop, and you have children one by one"

"I have no lover." Song Shihe interrupted him expressionlessly.

I don't know why Ji Yusheng felt a bit of resentment when he heard this sentence. If this is the case, don't deny that you have misunderstood him. He turned around and said:

"Then what is that doll? Isn't the kid you're so close to on the main computer screen Mr.'s kid?"

"It's my sponsored child."

The book tightly held by Ji Yusheng suddenly slipped and fell to the ground with a "pop". Song Shihe ignored the loud noise and continued:

"At that time, it was a charity doll-making workshop. The child's mother made money by sewing dolls so that the child could study. I happened to see her sewing dolls when I passed by. I thought it was very special and beautiful, so I just bought several. Later I heard that the kid liked art very much, but he was not eligible to apply for an art development scholarship, so I decided to sponsor him. It also made me feel that the process of making money is more meaningful.”

Song Shihe reached out and took several letters from the drawer, and said:

"After sponsoring him, he always wrote to me from time to time, telling me some recent developments, and showing me his paintings. He made progress every time, and I was always happy for it. His mother knew that I liked it very much. The cloth dolls she made are often given to me for free in order to thank me for taking the extra time to sew. The dolls look very simple, but in fact every step needs to be very delicate, which is very energy-consuming. Every one of her dolls is It’s about caring and caring for the children.”

Song Shihe put down the letter in his hand and said:

"I have no lover and no children. But I consider him my own son."

Hearing this explanation, Ji Yusheng didn't react for a while, and just looked at the letters closely.After the air was silent for a while, before he could make a sound, Song Shihe stared at him gravely and said:

"Since then, it seems difficult for me to fall in love with others."

"No, more precisely, I no longer have the ability to love, because I always know that there is only one result of falling in love irresistibly,"

"The chances of swimming together are very low, more likely to be drowned, and I just feel heartache and out of breath."

Seeing Ji Yusheng stunned, Song Shihe asked him a little funnyly:

"Don't you know best?"