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"Reduced to a 'poet' who is too timid to submit a finished poem to a publishing house, and a teacher who is nervous even in class..." Song Shihe laughed at himself.

"Why don't you dare to deliver it to the publishing house?" Darcy asked him.

"...Because I feel that my poems are not good enough." Song Shihe said this sentence in a tone that was a bit like a question, but also a bit like an affirmative sentence, so Darcy asked again: "Is it just because of this?" ?”

Song Shihe was silent for a while, and then said: "Also... Maybe I still think that the current poetry world is dominated by decadence, and my poems will definitely not be selected for publication."

Darcy thought for a while, and said a little strangely: "But wasn't it also like this before? But Mr. Song has always persisted and published many collections of poetry?"

"In the past... I seldom thought like this..." Song Shihe fell silent after he finished speaking. He didn't know when it would start, but he suddenly lost the hope that he could change something as long as he persisted. , and become someone who fears rejection and being betrayed with all his heart and soul.

When he was thinking this way, Darcy asked him again: "Does Mr. Song know when he started to have this idea?"

Song Shihe thought about it carefully, and said: "I don't really know, but I suddenly hesitated when submitting the works, and suddenly thought, what if I was rejected, what should I do? I would be very worried about it."

Is it because you were dismissed from the university?

No, it seems that it should have been earlier, every time the publishing house called for essays, and when I attended poetry conferences, I had this mentality.

"Sudden fear of rejection...why?" Darcy asked him.

"Hmm..." Song Shihe fell into deep thought.

Seeing that Song Shihe had no idea, Darcy asked, "Maybe it was because he was rejected by some important person or publishing house?"

Speaking of being rejected by someone important, Song Shihe suddenly froze because he suddenly remembered that rainy day five years ago.

At that time, he was still ridiculed for a round before entering the arena, but he didn't care, because he knew that he only cared about the people who were coming.

He thought about the outfit for that day for a long time, and tried thousands of ties in front of the mirror at home like a person who fell in love in the summer, trying on all kinds of colors and styles, just for the surprise of the moment they met, There is also the extravagant wish that the moment of seeing each other can make the other party's heart beat.

The flowers in the garden were also blooming beautifully, and he felt that he would be able to give Shengsheng an unforgettable Midsummer Night.

Everything is ready, but unfortunately the protagonist misses the appointment, so all hopes and expectations are impossible.

The exchange meeting was very lively, with singing and dancing, and he stood alone outside the door in the rain waiting for his life.From the heat all over his body to the coldness of his fingertips, and finally to the fact that it was almost summer, but he couldn't stop shaking like in winter, and his whole body was drenched.From joy to anxiety, and finally to disappointment and worry.

When it was time to end, he didn't wait for Ji Yusheng either.The tears seemed to be mixed with the rain, dripping down to the ground one by one.But this time it was different from the rain that Shengsheng hid together, because the rain fell into the pool and there were no flowers, as if they were saying that their feelings would not be taken over.

The waiter standing near the gate seemed a little impatient, so he brought him a glass of wine to warm up.

But that glass of wine seemed to add insult to injury, he only felt that the fine wine he enjoyed was bitter, as bitter and astringent as if he had eaten a golden bell.He couldn't help thinking that maybe the rain in May was the last rain between him and Shengsheng.

The same is true for the later art exhibition, because it is a special exhibition about "romantic love in a lifetime", so only two people are allowed to enter the venue, and it is said that as long as the two people finish walking together, they can be like the paintings in the exhibition, from young to old, staying together Whiteheads.He also wanted to introduce Pierre-Auguste Court's "The Tempest" and "Spring" to Ji Yusheng through this exhibition, confess his heart, and ask him if he would like to run through the storm with him and arrive again spring.

As long as you know that spring is by your side, all the storms are not terrible, because they will all become beautiful memories.

But at that time, he was blocked from the door, staring at the five big characters of "Rose's Honey Kiss" outside the exhibition, and was pointed at and laughed at by people passing by with his lover.

At that time, he was thinking that he might never have the opportunity to enter this exhibition in his whole life.Because apart from Shengsheng, he has no one who he wants to spend his whole life with.If you reject him, then there will be no one else who can accompany him.

But when he thought about it, he felt that it was impossible if this was the reason.He has always been a person who is not easy to be influenced by others, Ji Yusheng shouldn't have such a big influence on him, if so, even he would be surprised at how madly he loves Shengsheng himself.

So he shook his head and said, "... probably not."

"Is that so? I thought it was because of such an incident, and then you left some scars or something."

Song Shihe smiled in a low voice, and said a little amusedly, "It's not like making a movie."

Darcy said cheerfully: "Isn't there a saying that everything must be cured at the root? If it is really because of this, you only need to find out the root cause and you can solve it!"

"Hahaha, you are like a psychiatrist!"

Darcy waved his hand and said, "Oh, don't laugh at me, I'm trying to help you find a way!"

"Really? Isn't it for the script?" Song Shihe laughed in a low voice and said jokingly.

"of course not!"

Song Shihe put away his joking tone and said, "I know, thank you."

Darcy didn't speak any more, just recalled him with a smile.

The happy time passed quickly. After the meal, Song Shihe raised his hand and called the waiter to pay the bill. "L'addition, S'ilvous pla?t."

When saying goodbye after leaving the restaurant, Song Shihe thanked Darcy again.

"Thank you, Darcy."

Darcy shook his head with a smile and said, "You're welcome. I also thank you for your hospitality. This meal gave me a reason to come to City Y again!"

"Next time you come, I will take you to taste other delicacies." Song Shihe said.

"Okay!" Darcy blessed him before leaving, "I always think that the person who always gives love selflessly deserves the highest and most sincere love." She looked up at Song Shihe and said, "Mr. Song is such a person , so I sincerely hope that Mr. Song can be loved, so come on!"

Before Song Shihe could react, Darcy turned around and left. Song Shihe stood there blankly and froze for a long time.

Until Darcy's figure completely disappeared, Song Shihe came to his senses, remembered Cheng Yanbai and Darcy's words, and made up his mind.

That night, Song Shihe booked a ticket to go to City X a week later, because he decided to accept what happened five years ago, to accept the light and stains that life will face, just like accepting heaven and hell at the same time exist like that.

So this ticket may not just be a ticket to X City, but a ticket to actually reach heaven.

He was glad that he answered with silence at that time, instead of rejecting directly.

Looking at the night when the sunrise was about to usher, Song Shihe thought, maybe he had already made his decision at that time.