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Cheng Yanbai didn't understand why Shi Yu was so angry about becoming addicted to smoking.

In order to better integrate into the decadent circle, for a higher status, for them not to be underestimated because of their birth, and for Shi Yu to successfully hold his own art exhibition, he had to learn to smoke instead of pandering to others.Because I participated in many such occasions, I naturally became addicted to smoking.Because he felt that smoking was absolutely necessary for his own development in all aspects, so he couldn't understand why Shi Yu was so angry.

Shi Yu's temper has always been good, but this time he was really angry. He had a cold war with him for a long time, and he didn't talk to him when he met him, and his attitude was very firm. Du Shiyu flatly turned down the opportunity to exhibit his works.

Because he felt awkward and uncomfortable with a hot face next to a cold butt, Cheng Yanbai also started a cold war with Shi Yu, went to the bar every day to smoke and drink with his friends, and deliberately pretended to accept people who admired him, and went out with them for the night .

Alcohol and tobacco can numb all worries and worries, Cheng Yanbai has always felt that such a relaxed state is what he should pursue.But every night, he would think of Shi Yu Minglang's smile.I think of the mischievous smile he saw when he woke up in the morning, the reproachful smile he gave after being covered in paint by himself, and the uncontrollable laughter late at night because of his teasing and teasing.

The eyes and the corners of the mouth are bent into such a cheerful arc, it is a smile that is brighter than a sunflower.His eyebrows were completely stretched, his expression was full of optimism and joy, and it felt like a warm current rushing towards his face.

Cheng Yanbo, who always felt that most of the names came from the expectations of his parents and had nothing to do with himself, had never felt that a person lived up to his name.

Just like his name, he is cheerful, sunny, and overflowing with warmth.

Only when thinking of these things, Cheng Yanbo would suddenly realize that when he was addicted to tobacco and alcohol, he was actually accompanied by a sense of suffocation, like lying in the lavender bushes, he thought he was very relaxed smelling the fragrance of lavender, But in fact, the overly dense lavender covered him, covering him tightly. The overly strong smell made him dizzy, and the purple petals rushing towards his face were like a pair of hands trying to suffocate him.Only when he thought of Shi Yu's smile did he feel that the flowers in front of him had been pulled away and he saw the blue sky.And at that moment, he felt that he could suddenly catch his breath.

He realized that smile was indispensable to his life, and only by remembering this smile would he not fall into the abyss and suffocate from too much pollen.

But he followed others to act recklessly in superficial love for too long, and gradually began to not know how to be soft, especially during the cold war.

What he couldn't stand the most was when Yu smiled at others during the Cold War. In fact, he couldn't accept it usually, but he felt a little relieved when he thought that he saw more smiles of different types.But it was different during the Cold War. I couldn't see it once, but others could see it every day. Obviously, I was the closest person to him, so why should others?

Every time he saw Shi Yu's smile on others during the cold war, Cheng Yanbo felt that his whole body was as irritable as air turned into wind (1), his headache was splitting, and there was a feeling that he just wanted to keep Shi Yu and tear his eyes open Everything feels.He has dreamed countless times of a world with only him and Shi Yu, and every time he has such a dream, he feels very happy for some reason.In order to alleviate the depression and anger in his heart, he went to drink and smoke, but he was not relieved at all, so in the end he had no choice but to rush to Shi Yu's studio to question him directly.

When he pushed open the door vigorously, Shi Yu was sitting upright in front of the easel, holding a paintbrush and dipping paint. Even though he realized that Cheng Yanbai was coming, he didn't react at all, and still focused on his own affairs with his head down.Seeing his reaction, Cheng Yanbo immediately became more angry, he walked over quickly, opened the easel rudely, and asked loudly why Shi Yu treated him like this, why did he have such an attitude when he loved him so much? treat him.

Shi Yu didn't react when he heard Cheng Yanbai's yelling, he just touched his ears, raised his head and asked him calmly, "Don't you think it's noisy?"

"What?" Cheng Yanbo, who was furious, was stunned when he heard this sentence, followed by surging and deeper anger.

Before he could vent, Shi Yu put down his paintbrush and asked him, "Cheng Yanbai, you always say these words very loudly, but do you love me?"

When Cheng Yanbai was about to question why Shi Yu called him by his full name, he was stopped by Shi Yu's next sentence.

"Such superficial and superficial words, don't you find it very noisy?"

While talking, Shi Yu stood up, stared at Cheng Yanbai who was trying to take a deep breath to calm himself, and said: "Those who claim to be 'love saints' see a man who loves another with a cigarette in his mouth and a wine bottle in his hand, shaking his head Running in front of you, reciting your most famous and explicit poem aloud, yelling that they love you love you love you, pulling your clothes and asking you to sleep with them, you will not feel that they Are you noisy?"

"They only know your poem and shout that they love you and appreciate you. Don't you think they are noisy?"

Shi Yu sniffed and asked him: "They went to find other people on the second or third day, and said the same love words to them, don't you think their voices are noisy?"

When Shi Yu said this, he bit his lips tightly, as if he was enduring something, but in the end his eyes were still red.

He stretched out his hand to take Cheng Yanbai's hand, pressed it to his chest, and said in a crying voice: "But their place is empty, don't you know?"

"... Or do you treat me the same way? Is your place empty too?"

At the moment when Shi Yu burst into tears, Cheng Yanbai felt the crazily beating heartbeat of his subordinates, and he felt as if his brain had been hit hard suddenly, and he was suddenly rescued from the verge of death.

Shi Yu seldom cried in front of him, and Cheng Yanbo, who didn't know how to deal with it, became flustered, he could only raise his other hand in a hurry, and while wiping Shi Yu's tears with his sleeve, comforted him incoherently, "You... ...don't cry..."

Cheng Yanbai, who had been hanging out in the bar all this time, couldn't think of any other way to stop Shi Yu's expression that made his chest hurt except leaning up to kiss him, but Shi Yu blocked him with his hands, and then continued to ask him with a crying voice:

"Can't it be the same as when I was a child?"

"I can't ride my bike home together against the wind after school like before, stop at the bakery at the corner of the street to buy delicious bread, drink iced cola to do my homework at home, climb to the rooftop at night to watch the beautiful flower shop owner across the street tidy up the bouquets , and then listen to your favorite song while watching me draw your favorite night scene, and whisper in your ear late at night, saying that you look forward to riding uncle’s brown van through the jungle to see the sea together in summer?”

Shi Yu held Cheng Yanbai's hand, raised his head and asked him, "Can't you do this?"

"Do you have to go to other people's house drunk every day? Do you have to smoke with others and 'talk about love' with others?"

Hearing this sentence, Cheng Yanbai felt a dull pain in his heart, leaned forward and kissed the corners of Shiyu's eyes, and said softly: "No, I won't be like this from now on. Okay? I won't be like this from now on, huh?"

Shi Yu pushed him away, eyes flushed and said, "You're going to lie to me again."

Cheng Yanbai moved away a little, took Shi Yu's hand and put it on his chest, shook his head, stared at him and said, "I'm not lying to you." After speaking, he leaned forward to kiss his lips again, but Shi Yu avoided it again. , tightly covering his mouth.

"what happened?"

Shi Yu opened a finger with his mouth covering his mouth, and said in a muffled voice, "No, I'm very angry."

"What?" Cheng Yanbo, who was rejected again, was stunned.

"I'm very angry that you are with someone else."

"what......"

"I'm going to run straight to scold you."

Seeing Shi Yu's rare temper tantrum, Cheng Yanbai wrapped his arms around his waist and asked:

"You'll be mad to see me with other people."

"Of course, I'm super angry!" Shi Yu puffed up his cheeks and said, "I'll ignore you if you smoke and turn your teeth yellow."

"It turns out that you despise me!"

"Of course!" Shi Yu whispered after a while, "I can't even feel your warmth when you kiss me while you're smoking."

When Cheng Yanbai heard this sentence, his brows relaxed suddenly, and he laughed, his shoulders also trembled.

"Why are you laughing at me?" Shi Yu asked, punching his chest lightly.

Cheng Yanbo raised his head and bent his eyes and said, "Because you're weird." Cheng Yanbo paused, raised his hand in a smoking gesture, and said, "They all say that smoking makes a simple kiss more charming, and saying smoke means saying no. The words of love that were exported, "

"But you think that the smoke will cut off the temperature, Xiao Xiang, you are so romantic."

Shi Yu pouted, patted Cheng Yanbai's hand in the smoking pose with a bit of resentment, and said, "It's just an addiction to smoking and I'm just making excuses."

Cheng Yanbai smiled softly, leaned closer, held his head and asked him: "But they say I look good when I smoke, what do you think—" Before Cheng Yanbai finished speaking, Shi Yu said sullenly: "I don't look good."

"Is that so." Cheng Yanbai backed away with an exaggerated look of disappointment on his face.

Seeing Cheng Yanbai joking, with an indifferent expression on his face, Shi Yu emphasized again: "You don't want to smoke anymore."

Cheng Yanbai smiled, and asked him back: "But what should I do when I am addicted to cigarettes?"

Shi Yu immediately held Cheng Yanbai's hand tightly, and said loudly, "Hold it too!"

"But when I'm addicted to smoking, my whole body feels uncomfortable," Cheng Yanbai said while putting Shi Yu's hand close to his lips, "especially the mouth."

Cheng Yanbai raised his eyebrows at this point, and lightly bit Shi Yu's finger.

The moment Shi Yu was bitten, he withdrew his hand and asked him, "What are you doing?"

"I can't help it, because someone doesn't want to use his lips to relieve the addiction, so I can only use his fingers to bite the addiction."

Shi Yu thought for a while, and asked, "Can this really stop smoking?"

"Yeah." Cheng Yanbai nodded while suppressing a smile.

"So you don't smoke?"

"Of course, I don't even have to think about which one you choose for your lips or cigarettes."

"...I just really don't like the smell of smoke."

"Well, I see. In the future, you will directly feel my temperature."

"What? No, I didn't mean that, um──" Cheng Yanbai forced Shi Yu to feel the temperature on his lips before he finished speaking.

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When Shi Yu was about to fall asleep, Cheng Yanbai hugged his waist with a smile, kissed his ear, and called out: "Xiao Xiang."

Shi Yu, who was weak all over, moved, and responded vaguely: "Huh?"

"Then you agreed to participate in the art exhibition?"

Shi Yu, with his back on his back, didn't know whether it was because he was still angry or because he was sleepy, so he didn't answer.Cheng Yanbai moved closer, rubbed against his back and said, "It's hard for me to lose my face and come back. For the sake of my hard work, can you show me some face?"

While talking, Cheng Yanbai saw the mark on Shi Yu's neck, couldn't help but buried it in the pit of his neck and kissed him again, and said, "Promise? Huh?"

Shi Yu's neck was very sensitive, so he immediately stepped away and said, "It's so itchy."

Shi Yu's dodge not only did not stop Cheng Yanbai's pranks, but he went too far.

"Promise? Huh?"

"But I don't think I can draw well..."

Cheng Yanbai kissed Shi Yu, and said, "How can you not draw well?"

"I don't think it's enough to put it in an art exhibition, and I feel that I will be scolded by visitors..."

"How do you know if you don't try?" Cheng Yanbai felt hesitant when he said this, so he launched an offensive again.In the end, Shi Yu couldn't bear the hands of the people behind him, so he patted Cheng Yanbai behind him vigorously and said, "Got it! You are not allowed to smoke any more!"

Cheng Yanbai nodded with a smile and said, "Okay, I don't smoke, I'll kiss you."

-

Waking up in the morning, seeing the sleeping faces of the people around him and the waistlines exposed by kicking the quilt at night, and seeing the full sunlight, Cheng Yanbai felt that he no longer needed cigarettes and alcohol. addiction.

So for a while after that, he didn't go to the bar to hang out with those people again.

But only two weeks later, the collection of poems he had decided to publish a long time ago was returned, and the newly released manuscripts were also rejected for publication due to poor quality. Suddenly occupied by others.

He realized that in order to protect that smile, there were some things he seemed to have to do.After that, he was always afraid that if he couldn't catch the light, he wouldn't be able to catch him.

"Yanbai, what's wrong?"

Sitting behind the easel, carefully selecting his own paintings, Shi Yu, who was working hard to prepare for the exhibition, saw Cheng Yanbai's expression, frowned and asked him worriedly.

Cheng Yanbai shook his head, cleaned up his expression, and answered him with a smile:

"It's nothing. Have you picked out the paintings? Which ones do you plan to put in the exhibition?"

I will make your ideal come true, no matter what, including myself.

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(1) Air and wind, a wonderful metaphor quoted from Titus Lucretius Carus "DeRerumNatura"