as you meet

As soon as Ji Yusheng entered the poetry meeting, he saw Song Shihe, whom he hadn't seen for a long time, standing alone on the stage with his head down, just like the bird left until the end of the season when winter comes after autumn, standing On the branches that are gradually freezing, she stands firmly with her wings tightly covered.

But in Ji Yusheng's eyes, it seemed that it was about to fall at any time and melt into the first snow.

After only a while, he heard Minto's voice from the manor. He praised Song Shihe to the sky, saying that his words are worth a thousand dollars, and made the whole manor come to listen to Song Shihe's speech.But from people's scornful expressions, Ji Yusheng knew that these words of Mintuo were more ironic than sincere compliments, and the whole paragraph of compliments probably had to be put in quotation marks to match what he really wanted to express.

After everyone got together, Song Shihe standing on the stage took a deep breath as if he was very nervous, and said:

"First of all, thank you Mr. Liu and Mr. Mingtuo for your invitation."

As soon as Song Shihe opened his mouth, Ji Yusheng felt that his voice was a little strange, low and soft, with a hint of hesitation and fragility, which was completely different from the confident voice in the lectures back then.The branches seemed to shake violently, and Ji Yusheng suddenly felt a little uneasy and apprehensive.

And the trembling of the branches and the unease became stronger and stronger as the speech progressed.

When Song Shihe was giving a speech, instead of listening carefully to his introduction and appreciation, the people in the audience were whispering, and some even pointed at Song Shihe with their fingers.

When Song Shihe talked about his previous works, some people snickered from the bottom, and occasionally a few words such as "Jianglang's talent is exhausted" came out, and the voice was so loud that Ji Yusheng had to feel that they did it on purpose.At the same time, Ji Yusheng also saw that Song Shihe's hand holding the work began to tremble a little on the stage. He finally clenched his fist, took deep breaths, and tried to continue his speech.

When Song Shihe mentioned the development of romantic poetry, some people showed disdainful expressions, and some even secretly made bad gestures to Song Shihe in the audience.Ji Yusheng also began to tremble a little when he heard Song Shihe's voice, which seemed to be mixed with a trace of pain.

When Song Shihe mentioned the importance of romanticism and art, Ji Yusheng heard someone call him a hypocrite, Song Shihe was sweating profusely, and his hands were shaking badly.When it came to the final communication session, everyone kept asking questions like hungry wolves. Before Song Shihe could respond, they continued to humiliate Song Shihe, ridiculed him for his lack of talent, and talked wantonly about his love life.Song Shihe stuttered halfway through his speech, and finally became speechless with his mouth open.After several attempts to no avail, Song Shihe finally pressed down the microphone with trembling hands, got off the stage with a blushing face and bowed his head, and left quickly.

Ji Yusheng also immediately wanted to follow Song Shihe away, and wanted to rush up to help him, but the crowd was crowded, and there seemed to be four seasons between them, and there were all kinds of rumors in his ears. No matter how hard he tried, he couldn't push away the crowd, as if he couldn't run away. Can't run over.

When he finally squeezed to the door, he found that Song Shihe had already left.

The flying bird trembled and fell from the branch, but I still didn't have time to run over and receive it into my warm embrace.

It was true a few years ago, and it is true today.

At this time, the weather was not good, and after the sound of lightning and thunder, it even started to rain.But the people in the manor suddenly became excited, some danced and cheered, some took off their coats and dragged their hands and rushed out, and ran to hug, play and kiss under the rain.

The lights outside the manor even flashed different colors of light, and the whole manor suddenly became a dance floor.

Some of the people who ran out of the manor lay on the grass to feel the raindrops, and some jumped into the fountain to play in the water. All of them were smiling brightly. Only Ji Yusheng was alone, his face was full of worries, and he was letting go of all the people enjoying themselves Shuttle in a panic.

Ji Yusheng ran all over the garden in anxiety and embarrassment, saw many unsightly scenes, kept bowing and apologizing, was drenched all over, his suit was absorbent and heavy, and he didn't see Song Shihe, he was thinking Did Song Shihe leave this manor? After all, this manor with ghostly lights is so annoying.

After searching around for Song Shihe to find the gate of the manor, Ji Yusheng found that there were two roads connected outside the manor, one was a road along the artificial lake to enjoy the lake view, and the other was a dark road with overgrown grass and trees.The tree-covered road leads to the direction Minto just pointed out, and behind it is the purchased orchard.

The lake water is clear and the lake scenery is beautiful and pleasant. People can't help but think of the narcissus boy looking in the mirror by the river, but the other road is eerie, as if walking in it will cause you to lose your way.

While hesitating, Ji Yusheng suddenly remembered that his husband had mentioned before that he didn't like man-made things that deprive nature of nature, so he gritted his teeth and ran towards the overgrown road.

Perhaps the previous owner of the orchard remodeled this road for his own convenience. Relying on the extremely bright lights of Muir Manor, after walking through a weed-covered road, Ji Yusheng vaguely saw an avenue with tall trees planted on both sides of the avenue. , intertwined trees.

While walking this dark road alone to find Song Shihe, thinking about what Mingtuo said just now, Ji Yusheng suddenly remembered the day after Song Shihe left him a few years ago.

Not long after he and Song Shihe said goodbye downstairs at home, Ji Yusheng heard a female voice calling him:

"Ji Yusheng!"

Ji Yusheng turned his head to look at the person who came, his blushing face immediately became as pale as if it had been painted with white paint.

Didn't mother see their kiss?

Fortunately, Li Jieying walked up to him and just asked:

"Why don't you go home? What are you doing here?"

According to Li Jieying's usual personality, if he found out about their kiss, he might not be so calm, so Ji Yusheng felt a little relieved.

"Go back now."

"Who was that person just now?"

Hearing this question, Ji Yusheng's heart suddenly sank again, and he pretended to be calm and said:

"he is my friend."

"When did you meet friends?" Li Jieying asked forcefully.

"It's a friend I met at an event in the Economics Department."

Li Jieying just nodded, but after a while, she raised her eyebrows and asked again:

"Where are you going in June?"

If he was telling the truth, Ji Yusheng knew that his mother would scold him angrily again, so he could only lie and say:

"Ah...nothing..."

Li Jieying looked at him suspiciously and said:

"It's best that it's really nothing. You are busy looking for a job in June, so you don't have time to do other things." After that, he waved the key and went upstairs.

When I went upstairs, I found that Ji Yusheng had been silent and did not answer. Li Jieying pressed again:

"What are your plans for graduation?"

"I want to one by one." Before Ji Yusheng finished speaking, Li Jieying interrupted him and said:

"I checked, if you don't want to be a professor, or study economic policy research and economic analysis, there is no need to take the postgraduate entrance examination, so you might as well come out and work directly. But after graduation, the career competition of economics and finance is very competitive. Undergraduate students are not easy to get in, and in the end they have no choice but to continue their studies. I was thinking that it is better for you to go directly to take some qualification certificates and become an accountant. Accountants are lucky, but they are promoted quickly, and it is easier to build good relationships Get promoted quickly. Your father knew a few people who had a lot of status in this field before he was alive, and then we will ask them out for dinner."

Li Jieying said so complacently, feeling that she has paved a bright road for her son.

"Mom, I have applied to schools before, so I am still considering whether to continue studying or come out to work one by one"

Hearing Ji Yusheng refute her suggestion, Li Jieying turned her head angrily and glared at him and said:

"What? Do you still want to continue studying? Gonna gnaw to the end?"

"No, I can work and earn money by myself and study at the same time."

"Forget it, graduate school in economics is useless for finding a job, and it's a waste of money, so you just come out and work!"

"I am one by one"

Seeing what Ji Yusheng wanted to say, Li Jieying widened her eyes and asked him, "Or do you want to be an idealistic waste like your father?"

Every time there was a quarrel, Li Jieying would bring up Ji Yusheng's father as an example of failure. She could not see his father's talent and strengths at all. In Li Jieying's heart, his father seemed to be just a waste of nothing.But because it's his mother, no matter what she says, Ji Yusheng doesn't want to and can't refute her with barbed words, to hurt her, because it's the mother who raised him with painstaking efforts alone, so he has to be able to listen to her, because of responsibility , because of blood, because of bondage.

Ji Yusheng is used to being belittled by his mother, but he can't accept this description of his great father after all.However, this was still in the corridor, and he didn't want to expose his family ugliness and make his mother be criticized in the neighborhood, so he could only shout in a low voice:

"mom!"

But Li Jieying just felt angry, and yelled in the corridor without any scruples and disregarding her image with disheveled hair:

"What are you calling? Don't think I don't know what you're planning!"

Ji Yusheng said weakly: "Okay, I'll listen to you, can I listen to you? Mom, let's go home first..."

These words not only did not persuade Li Jieying, she also rushed forward like crazy, pulled Ji Yusheng's schoolbag and said loudly:

"Open your schoolbag! Open your schoolbag!"

Li Jieying pulled his schoolbag vigorously. In order not to hurt Li Jieying, Ji Yusheng let go of his schoolbag. After Li Jieying got the schoolbag, he opened the zipper and poured out all the books inside.

"Mom? What are you doing? Mom?"

After all the books were poured out, on the top were a few art course reference books, two paintings to be studied for group and individual assignments, and a thesis written by Ji Yusheng.But just these few books and papers on these paintings were enough to arouse Li Jieying's monstrous anger. She was trembling with rage, picked up the two paintings with trembling hands and said:

"What is this? What is this!"

"Mom one by one"

Li Jieying crumpled the two paintings into crumpled paper balls and asked loudly:

"Tell me what it is! Say!"

Knowing that confessing will only make Li Jieying angrier, Ji Yusheng can only choose to remain silent.

"mom..."

"Don't tell me I'll go to school to ask! What the hell are you doing? What did you do at school?"

When he was in middle school, Ji Yusheng knew how crazy his mother would be to get him to study economics, so he had no choice but to confess,

"I signed up for a very short art course. It's really a very short course. It will end next week, and it won't be counted in the near-graduation gpa..."

Li Jieying's eyes turned red when she heard this, and she shouted like a huge wave on the sea:

"I knew it! I knew you were not going to study economics as a graduate student! What kind of graduate study! What kind of book! You just want to leave me and develop art without telling me!"

While yelling so loudly, she tore up the two paintings.The torn paintings are like butterflies with broken wings. The fragile thin wings fall powerlessly from midair, and then they are stepped on the soles of their feet, turning into pieces that can no longer be put together.

Ji Yusheng felt as if he was in the sea with huge waves, and the huge waves one after another made the sea water rush into his nasal cavity, making him breathless and about to suffocate.

Li Jieying pointed to Ji Yusheng who was bowing his head and said:

"What are you doing when you're graduating! Why are you looking at this distracting crap?"

"I'm doing it for your own good! I'm thinking about your future! Why don't you listen to me? You can't make the same mistakes as your father, you know?"

"Is it for my own good to deprive me of the right to choose?" Ji Yusheng, who had been silent throughout the war, asked suddenly.

Li Jieying was stunned for a moment, then her eyes turned red and she began to cry, she said:

"I have suffered so much to raise you by myself, are you treating me like this?"

"Your father abandoned his wife and children for nothing. Do you want to abandon your mother like him?"

"Do you think your mother is hurting you?"

"mom..."