canine boyfriend

For the first time, a man knew that he could still shed so many tears.I still have so many tears to shed.

He is not a person who is willing to cry, because he knows that since he was young, his eye sockets are shallow and cannot hold many tears, and he always holds back when he grows up.But even with such shallow eye sockets, I didn't shed a single tear for him the night I broke up with the boy's father.

It's not worth it, broken love is broken, men don't miss it, don't look back, it's useless to cry.Even if you shed tears, you can't bring anyone back. Instead of leaving crying, it's better to leave with a refrigerator magnet.But now, the man could hardly wipe away the tears on his face, the more he wiped, the more there would be.

He was sobbing, trying to hold back his tears, but he didn't know how to answer the phone to explain, so no matter how anxious he was, tears flowed out again.He quickly wiped and swallowed quickly, hoping to adjust his tone within a few seconds, remove the nasal sound, and calmly pick up the call, telling the boy in a mature adult tone that we are not suitable.

We are not suitable, no matter in terms of age or experience, identity or background, nothing can be justified.You should have a bright future, get into a good university, I can go back to my hometown to find a stable job, and spend the rest of my life with my parents in a down-to-earth way. Really, we are not suitable, we are together... It's outrageous.

But he couldn't say it, and when he thought of answering the phone and saying these words, he wanted to cry.I could only sit on the suitcase and wipe away my tears in vain, and clattered the plastic bag containing the refrigerator magnets.These refrigerator stickers are all evidence of self-deception, but now that he has a real relationship, he wants to let go.

In the end, the man still answered the call. He couldn't let the teenager be so anxious. The relationship must have a beginning and an end. He had to explain it to the young boy, at least tell him that there was nothing wrong with him in this relationship, so don't let him misunderstand He is not good.

So, the man swallowed desperately several times, and the tears flowed back through the nasal cavity, as if flowing to the root of his tongue, and he even tasted the bitterness of the tears.In order to make it sound like he never cried, he cleared his throat again, took a few deep breaths, and pressed on.

"Hey." The man knew that he had messed up when he heard the first word he said, the nasal voice was too strong, the breath voice was too strong, "I'm leaving, we are not suitable, let's..."

At this point, the man was about to say the words "outrageous" when he heard the boy sobbing in the receiver.

The man froze for a moment.

He only saw the teenager cry once, that was the day he found himself in the temporary rental house.Now he doesn't speak, neither does the boy, so stunned that the man forgot to cry, and only listened to the heartbreaking voice on the receiver.

With another sob, the man raised his drooping head.He seemed to hear a more real voice, heavy panting, sniffing, other than coming from the earpiece, it was more like... from behind.He turned his head sharply, and let out a hiccup with too much movement, and saw the high school student standing two meters behind him.

Today is his third mock exam for the college entrance examination, and he is still wearing his school uniform.This school uniform was washed and ironed by himself at his home that day. It is so clean, but it is already more than half wet with sweat.

The young man held the mobile phone, put the mobile phone against his right ear, looked at the man with both eyes, and tears flowed down again.He didn't wipe it, just let the tears flow down his nose and the corners of his mouth.His mouth looks like his mother's. It looks thin, but it is actually fleshy. The corners of his mouth are pressed down, with a very sad sense of fate, as if he is asking the world in a silent gesture, why me.

"You..." The man stood up from the suitcase, and the tears stopped before he knew it.It turned out that his tears could be stopped, and when he saw someone who was reluctant, he stopped all at once.

"What happened to your hand?" The man took a step forward and saw the boy's hand was bleeding.

The phone has not been hung up yet, both of them forgot to hang up.The boy still maintained the posture of answering the phone and the expression of answering the phone.

"Aren't you... taking the exam?" The man sniffed and took another step forward.He was careful, but he didn't know what he was careful about.Obviously he was the one who used scheming to escape, but he suddenly became the one who was fixed in place.

The boy still refused to speak, refused to wipe his tears, and refused to hang up the phone.He maintained this posture and shed tears stubbornly. Every tear was heavy, and the tears that came out were big ones. The sound of tears falling on the ground woke people who were taking a nap all over the world.

But he was afraid that he would not be able to wake up a person who wanted to leave him.

The man finally took a few steps forward. This time, he took the initiative to walk in front of the young man. He wiped away the young man's tears with his hands, looking at the eyes that were red from staying up all night doing homework.Just now he wiped his own tears with the back of his hand, now he wipes the boy's tears with the palm of his hand, the man dropped his phone in a hurry.

As soon as the mobile phone was dropped, the phone was disconnected. The boy put down his sore hand, and the mobile phone fell to the ground all of a sudden. "Why are you leaving..." He tried his best to ask this question fiercely, but he didn't know how pitiful he looked.

The man wiped his tears and sweat for him. He couldn't say a word of the well-made reason just now.

"It's not that I can't grow up, can you just wait for me for a few more years?" The boy asked again, frowning, wanting to stare, but his crying eyes only seemed anxious and angry.

Just such a simple oath, the man immediately believed it, not because he believed it easily, but because he wanted to believe it too much, he nodded and continued to wipe away tears from the boy, wanting to grab his hand to see how he was hurt.

"I didn't even take the exam, so I came back to look for you...I'm not afraid of being told, I just like you, can't I?" The young man really wanted to mature, and men cried for a long time. He should not cry, he should be stable, Tell him the moment he turns his head back how much he likes him.But the tears were disobedient, and the moment the man turned around, he couldn't control anything.

It turns out that you can pretend to be mature, magnanimous, and sensible in front of someone you don't like, but it's the hardest thing to pretend in front of someone you like.

"Say, are you going to leave in the future?" He finally made up his mind to question the man, slowly raised his arms, and quickly hugged him tightly. The man was very thin, and he hugged him as if he could hardly hug anything. Press his flexible body against his own bones.

"Don't go, don't go...don't go." The man shook his head desperately, he was crying too hard just now, hiccups came one after another.The boy's embrace was so tight that it suffocated him. The last time he disappeared, it was this person who found him. This time he planned to disappear, but he was found by the same person.The man fell into the arms of this crying teenager, but he felt a strange warmth, being needed, depended on, pampered...all together, it was loved.

The feeling of being loved.It turns out that I am loved, and I can still be loved.

"You are not allowed to go!" The young man hugged him even tighter like a frightened bird, biting the shoulder line of the man's T-shirt with his teeth, shaking his head fiercely, as if he was about to take him back to the house to eat, "You are not allowed to go... ..." His voice softened again, "You are not allowed to go...you would rather have refrigerator magnets than me!"

"I want you, I want you, I won't go, I won't go, I won't go." The man shook his head, he tended to swell when he got older, his eyelids were already red, and he buried his face on the boy's sweaty neck , belching embarrassingly.This time, I really can't go anymore.

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Wolfdog: Mature men shouldn't shed tears... cry out with a wow.