distance between red and green

"Buzzing buzzing", the alarm clock on the mobile phone set to vibrate rang, Lin Ran quickly took it out from under the pillow and pressed the stop button.

It was just dawn at five o'clock in the morning in summer, and the soft sunlight shone through the curtains on Su Qing's delicate face. Lin Ran had never observed her so closely before.The fluffy black hair sets off her fair skin, thick black and slightly curled eyelashes, the corners of her mouth are slightly raised, she must be having a sweet dream.Lin Ran looked at her lazy and quiet like a docile kitten, couldn't help but leaned forward, kissed Su Qing's forehead lightly, and then got out of bed cautiously.

After changing her clothes, Lin Ran walked out of the ward with a thermos bottle in her hand, stretched her waist, and felt full of energy. She hadn't slept so peacefully for a long time. It was a dreamless night.

Su Qing opened her eyes, she had already woken up when Lin Ran's alarm clock rang, touched her forehead, and smiled silly.I started to sleep alone when I was very young, and developed the habit of not liking to share a bed with others. Even my own mother, but sleeping with Lin Ran was so solid and slept very well. fragrant.

Li Xingyan came early, bringing soy milk, fried dough sticks, and buns.

"Lin Ran said that I can't eat too greasy food now." Su Qing said in a neutral tone, not noticing the change in Li Xingyan's face.

"Since when did you become a good girl, you haven't heard much from your parents. Now that you listen to Lin Ran's words like this, she will do whatever she says. She gave you some drug."

"Don't talk nonsense." Su Qing was a little embarrassed.

"Hmph, when she comes later, I want to ask her what kind of medicine she put in your meal to make you so obedient."

"Don't mess around in front of others."

After a while, Lin Ran brought porridge and salted duck eggs.

"Finally, I don't have to just drink plain porridge today."

"I see that you let her drink porridge every day, and she is also happy." Xingyan is still brooding over Su Qing's failure to eat the breakfast she bought.

"If she is willing to drink it every day, I still can't bear it."

Li Xingyan looked at these two people, almost choked on the soy milk, the words were intimate.

Lin Ran went to work, Li Xingyan watched a movie, Su Qing read a book, another day passed like this.

In the evening, Lin Ran brought some more dishes, and after the three of them had a feast, Li Xingyan went back.

"Didn't you ask Li Xingyan to bring you your little bear?" Lin Ran asked.

"Uh, well, Xingyan asked me if I wanted to bring it, and I said no."

"why?"

"Because I have you as a big bear." Su Qing stuck out her tongue and said mischievously.

"Okay, tell me who is the bear." Lin Ran reached out to scratch Su Qing's itch, this little girl wanted to show her some color.

"Ah, help, I was wrong, you are not a bear, you are not a bear." Su Qing repeatedly begged for mercy.

"Then what am I?"

"You are..." Su Qing looked at Lin Ran, held her hand, her eyes were full of warmth, "You are the one bestowed on me by God."

Lin Ran was stunned for a moment, her face flushed a little, and just about to speak, the phone rang suddenly, it was Qin Feng, who got up and went out to answer the phone.

Five minutes later, Lin Ran entered the door.

"Boy friend?"

"Well, I told him that I would come to take care of you these few nights."

"I interrupted your date." Su Qing didn't look at her.

"It's okay, he's not that stingy person, I can forgive you."

"Well, I'm sleepy and want to sleep." Yes, she has a boyfriend, this is an indisputable fact, Su Qing's heart seemed to be pricked by a needle.

Lin Ran looked at Su Qing strangely. She was laughing and playing around just now, and her face turned gloomy in a blink of an eye. I really don't understand.

Lin Ran lay next to Su Qing, Su Qing just put his arms on Lin Ran symbolically, without the enthusiasm of last night at all, Lin Ran arched into Su Qing's arms, but still didn't respond, either because he didn't want to, because he didn't dare, Su Qing wanted to hug Lin Ran tightly, but she was afraid that she would be rejected if she showed her heart. After all, homosexual love is not acceptable to everyone, and she might not even be able to be a friend by then, and she was even more afraid that she would be rejected by herself. It messed up her originally peaceful life, if she really stayed with her, the road ahead would be extremely difficult, and she didn't want to see Lin Ran sad.In this case, let's bury this love of yours, and take the tenderness of only a few days as a memorial to your love.

Su Qing looked at Lin Ran who seemed to have fallen asleep in her arms, and then hugged her into her arms, thinking of Tagore's poem "The furthest distance in the world is not the distance between life and death, but the distance I stand In front of you, but you don't know that I love you; the farthest distance in the world is not when I stand in front of you but you don't know that I love you, but love to obsession, but can't say I love you; the farthest distance in the world The biggest distance is not that I can't say I love you, but that missing you hurts my heart, but I can only bury it deep in my heart..." I closed my eyes, and a tear fell from the corner of my eyes.

Love comes quietly when you are not prepared, and when you find it is too late, it has already sprouted in your heart, how beautiful and colorful the flower of love is, how exciting it is Longing, but now it takes so much courage and cruelty to destroy such a delicate flower with one's own hands.All of this is my own fault. If I had just paid back the wallet at the beginning, it would not be like this now.But there is no if in this world, if there is, I am afraid I will still do that, many things are just in the blink of an eye.Perhaps at the moment she turned around, I was fascinated by her.Life is very long, every day life is similar, and it is only those few important moments that can really change the trajectory of one's life.

Lin Ran, you are the first person that I, Su Qing, have attracted me so much in the past 20 years. How much I want you to be the only one in my life, but, without you knowing, I We must bury this love.

For your tenderness at that moment, I was deeply involved; for my decisiveness at this moment, I burst into tears.The decision is made, but what should I do so that I can stop loving you and stop being sad, and can people's feelings really be controlled by myself?