This parent is a bit cold

That year, Ji Ming was eight years old and Gu Ruoqing was seventeen.

During the summer vacation, when the farming is busy, the trapezoidal seedling fields in the mountains look like greenery all over the earth from a bird's eye view.Ji Ming stepped on the ridge of the field, humming a little tune, facing the summer wind, and ran towards home under the scorching sun.

Wheat is harvested in summer and rice is harvested in autumn. Whenever there is a good harvest, the faces of the villagers are always filled with satisfied smiles.

Ji Ruomin was fertilizing the seedling field, and Ji Ming went home to help her get water to quench her thirst. As soon as she arrived at the door, she heard a strange cry from her aunt Gu Ruoqing.

The voice fluctuated from time to time, as if someone was covering his mouth, revealing a panic that he had never experienced before.

Through the crack of the door, Ji Ming saw the back of his father, Ji Huaming. He pressed his aunt on the kang, as if tearing her clothes.

Ji Ming panicked and didn't understand what he was doing, but knew that Ruoqing was hurt.

Because she was crying, she kept shouting: "No brother-in-law, no brother-in-law, please."

In a hurry, Ji Ming poured a bowl of hot water in the main room, opened the door quietly, and poured it directly on Ji Huaming's back.

"Ahhh." Ji Huaming was only wearing an undershirt, and he screamed from the heat, which also quenched his animal-like desires. Gu Ruoqing took the opportunity to get up and fasten the stripped school uniform shirt.

Ji Huaming smelled strongly of cigarettes all over his body. Years of smoking made him smell of fetid smoke all over his body.This taste became the shadow of Gu Ruoqing's life, and it also accompanied Ji Ming's nightmare childhood.

"You damn girl." Ji Huaming was so burned that he lost his mind. He seemed to have forgotten that the little girl in front of him was his own daughter. He only knew that his back was so painful that he was so angry that he directly hit Ji Ming on the head with the scissors.

Ji Ming's scalp was numb from the heat, and soon he felt pain and dizziness, and his consciousness became blurred. Ji Huaming raised his hand again as if out of control.

"Ah Ming!" Gu Ruoqing reacted quickly, and when he yelled, he rushed to Ji Ming's side, hugged her, and protected her from danger.

Even a momentary attack by the burning scissors would scald the skin.It landed on the back of Gu Ruoqing's neck, leaving an indelible mark in his life.

Just like Ji Ming's wound hidden in her hair, it is also the eternal pain of her childhood.

If Ji Ming hadn't weakly called Dad a few times at the end, allowing Ji Huaming to return to his humanity, the consequences would have been disastrous.

Gu Ruoqing endured the severe pain and sent Ji Ming to the health center in the town. Because of the head injury, Ji Ming was in a coma for three days and three nights before waking up. After waking up, her personality changed drastically.

No matter how beautiful the scenery on the ridges of the fields, no matter how many interesting things happened in childhood, they couldn't make her happy.

The same is true for Gu Ruoqing, no matter how clear the sky in the mountains and how pure the water in the stream is, she can only see filth.

She even felt that she was dirty, most of her clothes were torn, she had nightmares every day, and she always had the idea of ​​suicide.

After this incident, she never went to her sister's house again, and lived alone in her parents' bungalow.

Gu Ruomin didn't know the truth, so she sent it over in person for food and clothing. She also believed what her sister said, that Ji Ming was careless and she wanted to study hard.

Oh, what a helpless lie.

Although the matter was over, Gu Ruoqing could no longer communicate with people normally.

From college to work, she walks alone, does not talk about feelings, and rejects all those who try to approach her.The humiliation and scars branded on her body, like the "hell flower" tattoo on the wound, will follow her for the rest of her life.

Originally, according to her and Gu Ruoqing's current abilities, they could find a way to get rid of Ji Huaming.The sad thing is that Gu Ruomin, who was born in a traditional family, was obsessed with some kind of demon. He was sincere to Ji Huaming.

If she knew that Ji Huaming was not dead, the situation would only get worse.What's more, if Ling Weixiang used some tricks, they might not be able to escape.

Gu Ruomin is on the top, Ling Siji is on the bottom, and Ji Ming is caught in the middle, and has long since lost the right to choose.

Therefore, her decision has no room for thinking, no room for relaxation, only compromise, helpless compromise.

When they chose to flee and hide back then, when they heard of Ji Huaming's death, they all breathed a sigh of relief.Although Ji Ming felt sad for a moment, thinking about the past still killed the last bit of compassion.

Who ever thought that all these were just appearances, and they were played around by fate again.

What can be done?Ji Ming couldn't think of any other way, if Ji Huaming came back to pester her again, it would be another endless ordeal.

When the time comes, what will Ruoqing do?

She can't kill her father.

In the ends of the earth, is there really no shelter for the three of them?

The sound of waves one after another swept Ji Ming's heart.

At the end of the sky and the sea, the sunset lingers greedily, trying to spread the last bit of light on the sea.

Holding the ring that he wanted to give to Ling Mo in his hand, Ji Ming looked at the distant scenery and laughed dumbfoundedly: "The bloody setting sun..."

She clasped her inner fingers tightly, and was about to throw the ring into the sea when she raised her hand, but was grabbed by someone.

She turned her head, it was Gu Ruoqing.

"Keep it, it's a pity to lose such a beautiful ring, give yourself some leeway in everything." Gu Ruoqing's face was dull, and he spoke weakly.

The pair of rings and even the two wedding dresses were chosen by Gu Ruoqing and Ji Ming.

She can see Ji Ming's heart more clearly than anyone else.

"Since I have made up my mind, I have nothing to miss."

"You never planned to reunite with her or even get back together, but why did you order a ring and two wedding dresses?" Gu Ruoqing raised his mouth weakly, took out the ring from Ji Ming's palm, and helped her put it on: "If in this life , I can’t even keep my sincerity, what’s the point of living.”

"Ruoqing..."

Gu Ruoqing sighed deeply: "Sometimes I think that if I hadn't been your aunt, maybe these things wouldn't have happened, and you wouldn't have to be coerced by Director Ling for me."

"Don't say that, I said that we are one, there will always be trade-offs in life, I am not that important to Momo, she is still young, and she will have a new life, we are people from two worlds." Ji Ming recognized the reality, and was forced to face it calmly, and was forced to be frank, but when she said these words, her heart had already cooled to ice, and perhaps no one in this world could melt herself.

Another wave of waves rushed over, and then turned around, the setting sun had sunk into the coastline, and the footsteps of the night slowly approached.

Why is the day always so short and the night always so long without end?

After returning to Tianhai City, no matter whether it was Ling Mo or Cheng Siyan, contacting the two of them was unsuccessful.

Ling Mo even stayed at Ji Ming's house, but failed to watch her come back, and even contacted Ling Jie, but to no avail.

She couldn't help but wonder, the Spring Festival was going well in Haixi, why was it suddenly so cold?

Before the end of the winter vacation, the teachers went to the school for a meeting to prepare lessons ahead of time, and Ling Mo was called by the principal to talk, because Ling Siji, a child in Class 1, was going to transfer to another school.

Ling Mo couldn't believe his eyes, the transfer application was sent directly to the principal without even going through him.

The sudden change caught her off guard. First she lost contact and then transferred to another school. Is this to sever ties with herself?

Just when Ling Mo couldn't figure it out, Ji Ming took the initiative to ask her out.

The place where the two met was Tianhai Teachers College. The campus in early spring was full of new things, and the new shoots on the branches were trying to bloom. Next to the buildings full of age, there were lush green plants.

Under the century-old tree, a few rays of sunlight scattered sparsely on the ground, and the mottled light and shadow, like a quiet time, witnessed every reunion after a long absence.

Ling Mo saw Ji Ming from a distance, under the old sycamore tree they used to meet often.

"Ming Ming."

Hearing the voice, Ji Ming raised his eyes and saw Ling Mo coming. The shallow shirt and blue pleated skirt added a touch of brilliance to the spring garden. All the scenery was just icing on the cake, and only Ling Mo was in Ji Ming's eyes. Left a strong stroke.

"Ming Ming, where have you been the past few days? I've been looking for you for a long time." Ling Mo came trotting, stepped forward and took her by the arm.

Ji Ming's arms trembled slightly, her fingers moved a few times, she pushed her hand away, and said, "You should have seen Siji's transfer application."

Ling Mo's smile faded away, and her heart faintly panicked, "You asked me to come to talk about this?" She thought she would hear the answer she was expecting.

She also had many uneasy intuitions, and she wished that those messy guesses were all her own thoughts.

"Momo, let's start here and end here. I won't leave without saying goodbye like last time. I want to put an end to this relationship that ended without a cause."

God knows how painful it is for Ji Ming to say these things, like self-mutilation with a dagger in his hand, gouging out his heart one by one until he cut himself into pieces.

Ling Mo seemed to hear a "boom", that was the sound of the world collapsing.

"Ming Ming, what are you talking about? End? Put an end to the relationship? You came to me today to talk about this?" She couldn't believe her ears. The lingering in Haixi Inn seemed like yesterday, and today suddenly Become so indifferent, how can she accept it?

"In the past few days, I have been thinking about this by not answering your messages or calling. Now I have the answer, so I will tell you. Love at the age of 20 is different from staying together at the age of 30. We haven't seen each other for eight years. Let's meet again I thought I still had the same feeling in my heart, but it’s not. You are no longer who you were back then, and I’m not who I was at the beginning. We’ve been walking on different paths for so long, so how could we meet again? We’re people from two worlds. , don't fit together at all."

"You're talking nonsense. I understand you. If you really thought that way, you wouldn't respond to my kiss that night, you wouldn't force yourself to calm down, and you wouldn't accept my approach. Your body's reaction is the most real." Ling Mo couldn't accept it. Such an answer, this is not what she wants.

"Then treat me as a momentary distraction. When I'm old, it's normal to be teased by you to have physical needs. I think I will find a female partner who is similar to myself in the future, but that person is definitely not you." Ji Ming Turning his face away, light and shadow swept over, making the sad streamer in his eyes even brighter.

Ling Mo didn't believe it, she didn't believe it came from Ji Ming's mouth, it was like a script that she was reciting and acting out for herself.

"Is it something that happened after I left Haixi? Tell me, and we will face it together." Ling Mo will never give up easily. She has waited for eight years, and what she wants is not the current ending. Even if some difficulties can be foreseen, she I will also try to solve it.

She can change and overcome the external cause, but if it is the internal cause, it is their own problem, Ling Mo has nothing to do.

Ji Ming frowned lightly, the pain in her heart made her feel painful even when she was breathing.

"It's nothing, I just know more about what kind of life I am suitable for. I've come to the end of my words, you can do it yourself, don't contact me in the future." She can't continue to talk deeply, if she looks at Ling Mo more, she will fall, and if she says a word, she may be on the verge of death collapse.

The abyss is ahead, she doesn't need to be pushed, she jumps into it by herself.

The riverside not far away is pink and willows are green, colorful flowers are blooming in the wind, but without Ling Mo, everything Ji Ming sees is black and gray.

"Ming Ming, don't make impulsive decisions. I said that I can give you time and I can wait for you. Don't tell me these things so quickly." Ling Mo didn't want to listen to her anymore. She even wanted to beg Ji Ming to shut up. These words are enough to cut her into pieces, like a mountain of knives and a sea of ​​flames in a fierce prison, she is tormented.

"I'm not impulsive. This is my decision. Don't look for me anymore. I've sent the things at home to Mr. Cheng for you. That's it." Ji Ming's resolute attitude broke Ling Mo's heart, and her eyes were filled with tears He hugged her from behind who wanted to leave, and begged: "Ji Ming, let me tell you, I'm not afraid of anything, what I'm most afraid of is you like this, you want me to give up, unless you give me a reason to give up, otherwise I will not give up."

"Don't be stupid." Ji Ming broke away from her, and said sharply: "Let's get together and break up? Do you want to make your face red?"

Ling Mo stared at her blankly, bit her lips and wept, her tears were never disappointing in front of Ji Ming.

Ji Ming's heart is like a knife, and she just hides her emotions habitually so that she doesn't look sad or happy.

"Ming Ming...do you know? I don't have another eight years to wait for you." After saying these words, Ling Mo broke down and burst into tears.

Ji Ming had a sore throat, gritted his teeth and said, "That's the best."

"Okay...okay..." Ling Mo took a few steps back, distanced himself from Ji Ming, and smiled wryly.

Before Ji Ming could leave, she turned around first.

She didn't see Ji Ming crying into tears, nor did she see Ji Ming crouching on the ground unsteadily.

All she knows is that Ji Ming must have a hard time.

She only knew that Ji Ming must be forced to do this.

She's going to investigate and find out the whole story.

It's impossible for her to give up.

The author has something to say: Happy weekend, the weather has been fine these two days, and I went hiking in the mountains, it’s rare to slow down the pace of life, it can be considered a kind of rest, and I will work overtime next week

This article is not long, and it is expected to be completed in mid-April. Of course, I will update as much as possible if I have time, let alone every two days. Comments