couple life

"I was really smart back then!" Zhan En sighed.

Now Zhan En is so pampered that she doesn't bother to use her brain, she doesn't even know how to tell a lie.In the past, Zhan En was a lot of smarts. Although he couldn't think calmly and calmly when encountering things, he wouldn't just dodge like he is now!

At that time, I and Yan Fan had established a relationship, and I didn't communicate with Yan Fan at all about coming out of the closet. I just thought it was a matter of time, and I had to get out of the closet sooner or later, so I did it resolutely .

Zhan En communicated with Zhan Qin in advance. Zhan Qin was in a neutral state on homosexuality before, so he didn't know much about it.It wasn't until Zhan En called suddenly that she started to pay attention to this matter.

At that time, Zhan En and Yan Fan hadn't shared the same bed. At that time, Zhan En couldn't sleep at night when he tossed and turned. He got up, sat against the wall, and dialed Zhan Qin's phone nervously.

"sister."

"Xiao En, it should be late at night with you, why haven't you slept yet?"

"I want to confess one thing to you." Zhan En felt his little heart beating violently, and the sound of the heartbeat shook his eardrums, thumping.

"What's the matter?" Zhan Qin sensed that Zhan En's tone was not right, and immediately it was the topic.

"I'm gay."

"Gay? Homosexual?" Zhan Qin was slightly shocked.Although my younger brother is not a burly man, he is still a man who can be seen at a glance!Shouldn't all homosexuals be sissies?

"Do you feel ashamed?" Do you feel ashamed that your younger brother is gay?will you hate meZhan En was extremely nervous, he seemed to feel the flow of air.Because of his nervousness, Zhan En sweated finely on his forehead during the time when both sides were silent.

"There's nothing to be ashamed of. I'm just scared by you. No matter how I look at it, I can't see any difference between you and normal men." Zhan Qin hurriedly comforted Zhan En.Zhan Qin can feel Zhan En's mood, because he has been like this since he was a child. Once he is afraid, he will not speak and remain silent.

In the short tens of seconds of silence, Zhan En almost hung up the phone and chose to escape again!He has been avoiding this question all the time, but this time it is different, he has someone worth fighting for.

He has lived with Yan Fan under the same roof for more than a year, and he has not forced himself. As long as he disagrees, he will stop. Sometimes Zhan En feels that he is hypocritical.

Once, the two of them were naked to each other, and Yan Fan inserted a finger into Zhan En's body. Zhan En tried his best to resist the pain. Yan Fan finally gritted his teeth and walked into the bathroom angrily.

As long as he doesn't want to, he won't force it. How many men can treat their lover like this? !

"Sister, thank you." Zhan En felt that his throat was tight and he was about to choke.

"Go to bed early, don't stay up late and get tired, and then neither men nor women will want you." Zhanqin joked to liven up the atmosphere.

"Ah."

After Zhan En hung up the phone, he felt a lot more relaxed.Then that night, I had a beautiful dream. In the dream, I was walking down the street holding hands with Yan Fan, and the faces of the people around me were filled with blessed smiles.

"You didn't sleep well?" Yan Fan said while eating breakfast.

"Fortunately, I had a very good dream."

"Dreamed that I was doing business with you?" Otherwise, where would the dark circles come from...

"Get out! Don't talk nonsense with you, I still have class today." Zhan En ate quickly, and after telling the secret in his heart, he really felt a lot more relaxed!

After Zhan En left, Yan Fan cleaned up the dishes and discussed with Liu Tao and his group about starting a company.Liu Tao's family is richer than Yan Fan's. Liu Tao's father is the director of the bureau, and his mother is the second shareholder of a listed company.

Zhan En, who has nothing to do, feels happy in everything he does. Even listening to this very boring English class, he feels that the instructor has become a lot more handsome today!

Time passed quickly, and the weather became warmer. It was the season of animal estrus, and the temperature of spring was warm and flowers were blooming.Zhan En, who is a male, and Yan Fan, a male, naturally rolled the sheets...

The first time really hurts!Zhan En's tears came out in pain, Yan Fan wiped them for him with some distress, and moved carefully in Zhan En's body.Kiss and whisper in Zhan's ear to make him relax, too tight will hurt him!

Zhan En felt that she was going to be torn apart, that she was going to die...

Afterwards, Zhan En lay motionless on the bed, humming, feeling like he was dying!

If there is a skin-to-skin relationship once, there will be a second time, and if there are two, there will be three. In just a few short months, Zhan En and Yan Fan have become the model of newlywed couples.Every time it is Yan Fan who takes the initiative, Zhan En dodges, after all, besides the pleasure, there are still pains, Zhan En does not particularly want...

Until one time Zhan's mother came without warning and saw Yan Fan hugging Zhan En's waist intimately, talking and laughing like a lover.Especially Zhan En, who smiles like a child.

Mother Zhan didn't catch up immediately, but took out her mobile phone and dialed Zhan En's mobile phone.

"Where are you now?" Mother Zhan asked hurriedly.

"Mom, what's the matter?" Zhan En made a silent gesture to Yan Fan, and this gesture also caught Zhan's mother's eyes.

"Who's the boy next to you?"

"My classmate, no, Mom, are you nearby?" Zhan En's face showed a look of fear, his lips trembled a little, and he couldn't speak clearly.

"Who is he?" Zhan's mother felt her hand holding the phone tremble.

"Mom, I'll tell you when I get home tomorrow."

"Okay, I'll wait for you." After Zhan's mother hung up the phone, she supported the tree beside her, holding it so that the sun was so dazzling, it was too dazzling, making people dizzy!

Zhan En felt that he could hardly breathe. He leaned against Yan Fan's arms and stood there for a while before recovering.

"Maybe you will collect my body tomorrow." Zhan En smiled miserably.

"Your mother knows?" Yan Fan frowned slightly.

"No, something happened at my house, I have to go back tomorrow." Zhan En forced a smile.He didn't want to involve Yan Fan, this was his business!

Yan Fan asked with concern: "What happened?" Look at your face, so gloomy!

"You can't help me even if you say it, if you can bring the dead back to life."

"No such thing."

"That's it, let's go home and have dinner." Zhan En emphasized the word "go home".

Since you don't want to say it, then I won't ask. Anyway, I guessed it. You are so stupid and want to lie like others. I really don't know whether to praise you for being studious or expose you.

When Yan Fan was cooking, Zhan En hid in the bedroom and called Zhan Qin.This is something that Zhan En has always been afraid of, but he didn't expect that when it was time to face it, he was not so afraid.

It should be said that I have already made up my mind to go to the battlefield to die, and my heart is much calmer.

"sister."

"What's wrong?" Zhan Qin said with a strong nasal voice.

"Sorry for disturbing your sleep." Zhan En quickly apologized. My sister, I still understand, she is angry to get up!

"Tell me something!" Zhan Qin said angrily.

"Can you come back tomorrow?"

"what?"

"Collect the corpse for me." Zhan En sighed.

"What's going on? Could it be that my brain is short-circuited, why can't I understand what you said." Zhan Qin rubbed his messy hair, his tone full of impatience.

"My mom knows I'm gay."

"What?!" Zhan Qin's drowsiness disappeared instantly.A stone stirred up thousands of waves, and the sound of water was loud.

"I'll go back tomorrow, you come and pick me up."

"Okay." After Zhan En hung up the phone, he walked back to the living room as if nothing had happened, and watched TV.

When Zhan En knew that she was gay, she wanted to come out to her family more than once, but in the end she chose to bear it.But Zhan En bought some magazines with pictures of men, and deliberately put them in a conspicuous place in his bedroom.I also frozen half of the gay movies I saw, and deliberately showed them to my mother who cleaned the room.In addition, Zhan En specially bought the CD of Farewell My Concubine, and took his mother to watch it together.

Zhan En still remembered that her mother turned her head to look at herself after watching Farewell My Concubine, and asked sympathetically, "Is this the fault of the times, or is it their own fault?"

Zhan En didn't know how to answer the question. Is it the fault of the times?Or are they a fault in themselves?Zhan En has never thought about it. Every time after watching Farewell My Concubine, Zhan En just feels aggrieved for Chen Dieyi and feels worthless for Chen Dieyi.

Zhan En didn't dare to think about it, so she hurriedly shouted that she was hungry, and coaxed her mother to go to the adults to cook.But thinking about it now, if it is a mistake to admit their existence, wouldn't that also negate the value of their own existence?