Masahiro Akita

"Gah~ga~"

A crow squatted on the branch and screamed strangely, staring at me, as if I was about to become its food. The fog was filled, and there were old trees with no names around them. Distorted into a strange shape. The familiar boulder, the familiar mysterious man, I came here again, that blurred dream, the familiar one can’t be in the familiar dream. I don’t know how many times I have dreamed the same dream. And Every time I come here, I feel extremely dull and depressed inside.

At this time, I have given up, no longer want to get closer, trying to see his face clearly.Because I know that he will leave soon and disappear.

"Hey~ who are you? Why do you appear in my dreams frequently, and why don't you let me see your face clearly? I know you want to drive me away, I just want to see you, and I will leave after seeing you ,May I?"

I stood where I was, far away from him, not daring to approach him, and before he disappeared, I yelled at him loudly.

He turned around and looked at me quietly. I bit my lips tightly and stared at him with the most determined eyes. The fog gradually cleared, and his face gradually became clear. I was stunned by the sight in front of me. Yes! I finally saw his face, the face I've always wanted to see clearly, the face that has troubled me for so many days and nights. What I didn't expect was that the person in front of me turned out to be that photo Fat boy on!

At this time, he no longer had a blooming smile, and his dirty face was full of ferocity. He raised his hands again, and waved them desperately!

"Run! Leave me alone! Run!!!"

He opened his eyes wide and shouted hysterically, Shaya's voice pierced my eardrums directly.

His eye sockets were wet, and the tears rolled down his face, dripping into my heart, burning my heart.

The corners of my mouth were salty, and at some point, my cheeks were covered with tears.

I don't know why he is crying, and I don't know why I am crying, I only know that my heart hurts so much!

Is that voice calling me? Why did he tell me to run faster?

not good!

"Hey! You listen to me! Come here! Or you will be killed!"

Suddenly recalling his blood splattered scenes in previous dreams, I yelled at him almost crazily, trying to stop the death from calling him.

He looked at me lovingly, his eyes filled with infinite reluctance and despair.

"Sorry, I Love You."

After he finished speaking the last sentence, he closed his eyes lightly. There was a smile on the corner of his mouth, and he fell heavily on the ground.

"no, do not want!"

A dagger pierced his body deeply, the blood stained his clothes, and the blood flowed down the ground until it turned the entire space into a dark red.

"Ah~ why! Why did you kill him!"

At this moment, I was close to madness. I roared at the black shadow, as if my eyes were bloodshot.

The murderer looked at me viciously, pulled out the bloody dagger, and walked towards me.

My body was suddenly out of control and I couldn't move at all!

Death is getting closer and closer to me, and I seem to be able to feel the pain caused by the sharp piercing into my heart! My heart began to tremble, is he going to kill me!

"Don't! Don't come here! Ah~"

I finally opened my eyes, panting heavily, and the fat man looked at me anxiously.

"Saved!"

I wiped the sweat off my brow and let out a deep breath.

"Tian'er, what's wrong with you? Are you feeling unwell? Why do you look so ugly!"

The fat man wiped off the sweat on the tip of my nose with his hands, and asked with concern.

"Brother, I'm fine. I just had a nightmare. Someone wanted to kill me! It scared me to death!"

Afraid that the fat man will worry, I will answer truthfully.

"Brother, don't be afraid, I'm here! As long as I'm alive, I will never let anyone touch you!"

The fat man embraced me, patted my head, looked at me gently, but said firmly.

It feels so safe, so touching, as if no one can hurt me as long as I stay by his side.

I nodded lightly, and just sat in the fat man's warm embrace without saying a word.

And how much I hope that the brotherhood that Fatty has for me can be turned into a relationship between a man and a woman! It's a pity that this idea is just a kind of naivety of mine.

The warm summer heats up the whole village. The busy villagers have moist faces. The sun makes the skin dark under the scorching sun and scalds the dry and hard path. There are carefree old people gathered under the green shade. There are big trees in twos and threes, that one is talking about state affairs, young and frivolous. This one has two countries fighting, Chu and Han River. Most of them are dressed in cool clothes, a white vest, and a Jigong fan. Sometimes talking and laughing, sometimes fanning. The children in the river played naked in the water. In groups of three and two, they splashed happiness on each other. The splashes of water all over the sky wet their hair, and they laughed carefreely , hanging on every immature face.

"Check! Dead chess! Haha, old Wu, 3 to 2!"

"It doesn't count! It doesn't count! I don't see it! Slow down! Slow down!"

"Dou~ we're in the same group! Why are you splashing me!"

"I didn't splash you! Heizi did it!"

"Wait a minute! Stop the war first! Water got in the eyes!"

Carrying a bag of corn just picked from the field, I was walking home alone. On the way, I passed the center of the village, the busiest place.The sound of the game entered my ears and touched my heartache. On the left is a child of seven or eight years old, and on the right is an old man of seven or eighty years old. In the river and under the tree, I feel that both sides are so carefree , happy and happy, but only me seems so out of place, so embarrassing.

Ever since I found that dilapidated photo, nightmares have been haunting me unscrupulously, repeating the same picture again and again. Blood, tears, daggers. They tortured me constantly, forcing me to seek the truth of all this .

And what happened to the last sentence in his mouth, "I'm sorry, I love you."He loves me?He also likes boys?Then who is he? Could it be that I am already different from others?I like him?But is he still alive?

I don't know, I don't know anything!I want to find him, maybe he is the key to solve this puzzle!

"Brother! Why did you come back so early?"

Dragging a bag full of corn, I entered the house exhausted. Seeing the fat man sitting on the chair eating watermelon, I asked in surprise.

"It's too hot! Tell Fatty Li, and I'll be back first. Anyway, I'm not too busy these days."

The fat man took off his shirt, and his fleshy body was completely exposed in front of my eyes. The two small hills and one big hill were covered with sweat and oil, which made the already sexy figure even more attractive. There is an urge to rush over and hug him! Thinking of this, I swallowed unconsciously.

"Haha, hungry? Come and eat!"

After speaking, the fat man wiped the sweat from his chest.

Suddenly I felt my brain heat up, and my hair was smoking, and the little brother below raised his head in an instant! This fat man is too ruthless! He actually said such lewd words! I just wanted to hug him, but he actually Let me come to eat, is it because I am wretched? Impossible! I heard it clearly! But how to eat it! Could it be that there is milk in it? Is this a custom in the village! Looking at the picture, my eyes were fixed on his chest, and I couldn't help but swallowed again.

"What are you doing standing there stupidly! Come on! Let's eat together!"

As he spoke, the fat man rubbed his mouth with his hand.

What! He said to eat together! He actually said that we should eat together! I can’t take it anymore, I can’t breathe normally, and I feel like my nosebleeds are about to come out! There’s a dizziness on my head, looking at the temptation of the two swaying balls in front of me, let me Can't help but want to rush over to have a taste!

In the excitement, reason helped me sort out my emotions at the moment.How did I become like this? How did I have such thoughts? Is the temptation of the fat man making me lose control? Never mind! Ask first and then talk.

"What to eat?"

I covered my mouth with one hand and stammered with the other.

"Eat watermelon? I got it from Fatty Li's house, what's wrong? Then what else do you want to eat?"

The fat man pointed at the table with doubts on his face.Only then did I see that round watermelon lying there quietly, killing people without paying for their lives!

At this time, I felt like I was hit on the head by 1 watermelons! I hate my father and mother for making me without my permission, I hate the person who dragged me out of my mother’s belly, I hate myself Meeting such an idiot fat man, I hate that my brain has such a strange and wretched idea just now!Great God!please!At this very moment, give me a boulder, just smash me to death with one end!

"What's wrong? Why is your face so red?"

The fat man picked up another piece of watermelon and said.

"Ah~ It's too hot! My face turns red when it's hot."

I hurriedly explained. If the fat man saw what I was thinking just now, he would have to stuff my head into a watermelon!

"Oh~ By the way, Tian'er. Here is a letter from you, written by Xiaolu, here it is."

As he said that, the fat man handed the letter into my hand. Why do I feel that his expression is so unnatural!

"Brother, Xiaolu should be on summer vacation soon, right?"

I tore open the envelope and took out the letter.

"Well, I'll be back in a week, what's the matter?"

His third watermelon was also wiped out.

"Oh, nothing, just asking."

I replied and started to read a letter from my brother in my memory

When I read the last word, I was stunned! Is what she said true? What should I do? How should I face the fat man! Sad!Overwhelmed!

"What did you write?"

After the fat man ate the fifth piece of watermelon, he touched his fat belly with satisfaction.

"No~ what to write. Brother, I'll go back to the room and lie down for a while."

After finishing speaking, he took this piece of paper and went back to the house

[Xiaolu's letter]

The air is very stuffy tonight, the frogs outside the building make people unable to sleep late at night, the roommates are complaining about the difficult summer, but I am complacent, and my heart feels the coolness of spring, because I see a special star in the sky , he is shining above me, clear like your eyes.

So I thought, is that your avatar sent to protect me?

I don't know what you are doing at the moment, do you sneeze at this time every night? If you are sneezing, don't be surprised, because it is not a sign of a cold, but I am thinking of you!

how about you?Have you ever thought of me at this moment?

So I decided to write this letter of guarantee for you from my heart on this beautiful night. I have never had such a strong miss since the day I left you.

When you are in a daze, your heart will involuntarily float to your home, to the small river where you grew up. I really miss the days of chatting with you. There are only two of us, no falsehoods from outsiders, no disturbance from the outside world, you are like that The innocence, everything is so beautiful, I am very happy and happy when I am with you.

I always remember what you said. I listen carefully to the professional class every day. Now my painting level has improved! When I go back, I will definitely teach you well. I don’t know if you have learned the song, so I look forward to you singing it to me listen.

The most we talk about in the dormitory is our boyfriend, who is more handsome and considerate, and I will mention you every time, and then they will say that I am bragging, so I will take the last time I secretly photographed you Show them a photo, and after a while of surprise, they will all cast envious eyes at me. It feels wonderful and warm in the heart. I don’t know if you will mind if I do this.

In fact, there are many boys pursuing me in school, and I have received many love letters, but it is the first time for me to write to others.

Akita, do you know that I really like you, from the first time we met, every diary in my book is about you.

I like your mystery, your breath, your sadness, your cleanliness, and your deep eyes, all of which I can't forget.and you? do you like me?

Remember the song "Simple Love" in the mp3? I will be on vacation in just over a week. If you like me, sing it to me, okay?

Cherry blossoms are waiting for lovers, autumn leaves are waiting to fall, dead trees are waiting for raindrops, and I am waiting for you.

I believe there is a kind of encounter called fate. I look forward to your fate and your "Simple Love".

Xiaolu

Closing the letter in my hand, I lay quietly on the kang, read it several times, and still couldn't think of a way to deal with it.

I have a crush on Xiaolu, but it's just pure friendship, I never had any other thoughts about Xiaolu, she is like a blooming rose, I can only appreciate it and help me temporarily forget my sadness. If you can't take it off, the sharp thorns will hurt you, and if you leave the soil, the rose will wither. I am not her soil, I am just a flower admirer.

I'm so confused, what should I do?The person I really like is Fatty. I like his silly smile. I don't want to see him sad, and I can't forcefully take away his beloved.And what about Xiaolu?If I reject Xiao Lu, how much heartache will she feel? I am at a loss, what should I do?

"Sorry, I Love You."

The words he said in the dream suddenly echoed in my ears. What's going on?Is God guiding the path I choose?Suddenly a thought flashed through me, all these heartaches were entangled together, and finally I came up with a way to get rid of all the pain and leave

Mother, I'm sorry for you, I'm sorry for your concern and expectations for me for so long.

Brother, I am sorry for you, I am sorry for your care and protection for me for so long.

Xiaolu, I'm sorry for you, I'm sorry for your help and missing me for so long.

Fatty, I'm sorry for you, I'm sorry for your trust and love for me for so long.

But I have to do this, I have no other choice, only in this way, Xiaolu will stay by your side, and only in this way can Xiaolu get real happiness. Maybe I don’t belong here, don’t belong to this beautiful small village ,Maybe I don't belong here, I don't belong to the innocence and beauty here, it's time to leave, it's time to find my past memories, it's time to solve the mystery that has been perplexing me in my heart. There is a spell on me. A little light in the darkness, no matter what it is, has a strange power to guide me there. Fatty, mother, Xiaolu, forgive me

In my heart, I once had a dream that one day, I could earn a lot of money, take my mother and the fat man, and go to the big city Xiaolu said, without farming, eating fish every day, being carefree every day, and being free every day. Forever Together, never apart.

Today is Saturday, and tomorrow morning my mother will go to the town to sell the embroidery accumulated for half a month. And the fat man will also go to work in Uncle Li's fish pond. The opportunity is tomorrow, the day I leave. I feel like tonight The atmosphere was a bit dull, maybe it was because he knew he was leaving.

"Mother, let me wash your feet."

After entering Niang's room, I took a basin of footwashing water, adjusted the temperature of the water properly, and put it under the kang.

I've lived here for so long, and I haven't done anything for my mother. Today is the last time, and maybe I won't have another chance in the future. It's a little consolation for me being so irresponsible.

"Ah, you can go back and rest, mother can just come by herself."

Niang was startled at first, then surprised, and then a look of joy appeared on the corner of her mouth.

"Just let me wash it for you."

I looked up at my mother, forced a smile, but it felt uglier than crying.

"If you have this kind of heart, I will be satisfied. Go back to the house and go to bed early. My mother is not old yet, I can wash it myself. When I am old and can't move, Tian'er will help me wash it."

Mother touched my head, her tone and demeanor were always so kind.

I lowered my head to prevent my mother from seeing my face. Two streams of warmth flowed down unstoppably. Drop by drop, they fell into the basin and merged with the warm water. My heart felt so uncomfortable, as if my heart had been thrown into it. In a canning bottle, twist it tightly, tightly cover it, and never see the light of day. I didn’t listen to my mother’s words, and after calming down, I directly put my mother’s feet into the basin.

"Why."

Mother didn't say anything, it should be the default.

"Tian'er, do you have something on your mind? Why is it so strange today!"

The mother lowered her head and asked with concern.

"No, I just want to wash your feet suddenly."

I forced a laugh to make it sound more relaxed at close range.

"If you have something on your mind, just tell your mother, don't worry about it."

Mother said distressedly.

"En~"

I answered heartbroken.

After washing my feet, I helped my mother dry them, poured out the water, looked at my mother for the last time, and then went back to the back room.

"Tian'er, where did you go just now? Can you help me get an apple? I'm almost dying of heat!"

The fat man only wore a pair of underwear, and lay on the kang with his feet up.

"I didn't go anywhere! Here~"

I broke the apple in half and gave the extra half to the fat man, not because there was only one apple left, but because I wanted to share this fruit with the fat man for the last time.

"Why is it only half! I want to eat one!"

Pouring his lips, the fat man said shamelessly.

"I want to have one with you, okay?"

A pitiful look, I begged.

"Hey, okay."

After speaking, he bit off half of the apple in one bite.

"Well, it's delicious. The apple my brother gave me is sweet!"

The fat man's round face was full of smiles, and his small eyes were narrowed into a line again. He was invincibly cute!

However, after tomorrow, will I still have a chance to see how cute the fat man is?

"Brother, this is for you."

I took out the hanging ornaments I bought in town last time.It was a small wooden sign with a big autumn character written on it.It was for this reason that I fell in love with it at a glance.Although the wooden sign is ordinary, it has my name engraved on it.I like it, but after tonight, it no longer belongs to me, I want to give it to Fatty.Looking at cards is like looking at people. I want Fatty to always remember me and never forget me.

"Where did you get it? It has your name on it!"

The fat man played with the listing card in his hand, looking like he liked it very much.

"I bought it in the town a few years ago. Do you like it?"

I said lightly, with a smile on my face, a very sad smile.

"Hey, it looks good. Why did you just think of sending it to me now?"

The fat man asked strangely.

"Oh, forgot. Haha."

I made the worst excuse and hope the fat man will believe it.

"Is there something to ask me for? You are so good today!"

Sure enough, he still noticed the difference in me, but he would never have thought of this selfish decision in my heart, my leaving.

"No, it's getting late, go to bed!"

I turned off the light, changed the topic, and hoped that he would stop thinking about it.

The starless night sky, the sleepless night, seems to be the most difficult night I have ever experienced. In a few hours, I will leave this memory, this village, this home, and the fat man.How can I sleep like this.Lying next to the fat man, listening to the rhythmic snoring, I felt that tonight was particularly pleasant, and couldn't help but sneak up, kissed his forehead lightly, stayed for a while, and reluctantly left.This is the first time I kiss a fat man, but it can only be the last time.

Close your eyes, still remember your smile, appreciate it quietly, empty your soul, don’t think about anything anymore, because you dare not think about anything, until you are exhausted physically and mentally, until you slowly fall asleep

"Oh~oh~oh~"

The rooster crowed very late today. When I opened my eyes, it was already dawn. I turned my head to the side. The fat man was no longer there. He must have gone to Uncle Li’s house. I touched his blanket and the temperature. It seemed that he had just left.Thinking of what I have to do today, I suddenly feel uncomfortable.But no matter how uncomfortable it is, I have to do it!Now that you have decided, don't let yourself regret it!

There was no one in the room, only myself was left, washed up, put on my favorite clothes, touched the 200 yuan in my pocket, and let out a long sigh.I borrowed this money from Uncle Li a few days ago. I knew that without money, I couldn’t buy a train ticket, and I couldn’t live in the city, so I lied to Uncle Li, saying that the fat man asked me to borrow it, and I needed it urgently.Uncle Li was very forthright, and gave me 500 yuan without saying a word, and asked me to use it first, and then borrow it if it is not enough.But I didn't take all of it, I just took two hundred, because it made me feel ashamed.Now that I don't have any money, I can only make such a bad move. When I earn money, I will definitely pay it back!

I put the three letters and the mp3 prepared in advance in the most conspicuous place in the house, and put the photo that Xiaolu secretly took of me last time into the fat man's envelope.I looked up and took a last look at the kang we lived together, it was so warm and happy.It records the details of me and the fat man, so sad and sad.Tears dripped down again, and each drop was a cute smiling face of a fat man.

Thinking of the first time I woke up from a nightmare and found myself lying on this kang, the first thing I saw was the sleeping face of the fat man, comfortable and quiet.I remembered the first time Fatty slept next to me, lying on this kang, and when he woke up, his expression looked like a rascal but full of grievances.Thinking of the days when I was recuperating on the kang, unable to move, the fat man took care of me meticulously, gave me gifts, and made me happy.I remembered the stories that the fat man told me every night, I remembered the jokes and jokes with the fat man every night, and I remembered singing to the fat man every night, all on this kang.

I wiped away my tears, bit my lips, and glanced at the photo in my hand. My feet seemed to be filled with lead, so heavy, so heavy, so nostalgic, but I also walked out of the room with difficulty.

Goodbye Fatty, Goodbye Mother, Goodbye Xiaolu, Goodbye Village, Goodbye Night Here, Goodbye Good Time, Goodbye Xiaohe, Goodbye Nest, Goodbye Roof, Goodbye Dragonfly, Goodbye Laughter, Goodbye to rely on, goodbye to embrace, goodbye to all the good things here

[Letter to Mother]

Mother, I'm sorry, brother must have told you about my departure. Do you hate me, hate me for leaving without saying goodbye, hate me for not being filial.

I don’t know if you can forgive me, your son really has difficulties. The time with you is really happy, and every second will be engraved in my heart.

You don't have to worry about me, I will take care of myself, please rest assured, I will come back when I solve the puzzles entangled in my heart. I still want to eat you as a big fish! Really eat for a lifetime Not enough! I still want to see your embroidery! It is really the most beautiful craftsmanship I have ever seen! I also want to help you make dumplings! You can’t feel the warm atmosphere anywhere! I also want to wash your feet!When you are old and unable to move, I will wash you every day.

I'm leaving, you must pay more attention to your body, don't guard that heartless man anymore, he doesn't want you to do this for him, put him down, stop worrying about him, don't be so stupid for a person who doesn't love you anymore , Find someone you belong to, actually, Uncle Li is really good.

Mother, although I'm gone, my heart will always be here, take care of your body.

Your son, Akita.

[Letter to Xiaolu]

Xiaolu, I am very sorry to let you see this letter I wrote for you, because it means that I have left.

You are a good girl, but I am not suitable for you, please forgive me for saying so directly, because I have always regarded you as my best friend, the purest friendship.For you, I have no other thoughts, maybe I, a person with a memory disability, is not good enough for you.I know you like my brother very much, and my brother is the same, you are the most suitable couple, isn't that great?

There should be no me between you, and I should not have appeared from the beginning to the end. It was I who interfered with your love signals, and it was I who shook your mutual sincerity. I am redundant and more suitable to be friends. I I don't want you to be hurt too deeply. I don't want you to spend every day in sorrow like my mother. It would be better if there is no beginning, no end, and no more heartache.

I hope you can forgive me for leaving like this, I hope you can forgive me for making such a choice.Don't think too much, and don't blame yourself, my departure has nothing to do with you, it's just my wishful thinking. In the outside world, there is a mystery hidden, waiting for me to discover, wait for me to solve, I have to leave, I had to defect.

But don't worry, I have completed my mission, and I will come back. But I hope I can see you holding Fatty's hand, we are still best friends, and you are still the Xiaolu who chatted with me. I'll leave the fat man to you, but you can't bully him all the time!

It's a pity that you are sunny and I am not misty rain, but I am cold winter and you are not summer. Fate made me meet you, but fate has to make me leave you. Actually During your school days, sometimes I will think of you, unfortunately I am not the star that guards you every day, your fat man is.

In the vast world, thank God for allowing me to know you. It is said that lovers may not be together forever, but friends can last forever. Then let us go back to the memory of the last holiday, just like this happy life .

I will listen to the songs you let me learn every day, and I will try to sing a few lines. Now I have learned a few songs, but I can’t sing them to you face to face. But I still recorded a song in mp3 and gave it to you. But Not "Simple Love", but "Unfortunately Not You".

It's a pity that it's not you, but you are the one who is grateful. Bless you and wish you happiness.

Sorry

Your best friend, Akita.

☆、[Fat Man]

"Tian'er! See what I caught for you!"

With a fish in my left hand and a pair of rabbit ears in my right, I went home happily.

I was lucky today. On the way home, I met a hare. Everyone said that the gray-haired rabbit ran fast. I saw it today, and it was really extraordinary. I grabbed it with great strength, and it made me covered in dust.

Holding this fat rabbit in my hand, I feel so fulfilled. I thought in my heart, should I use it to bake and eat it? Or take it back to play in the field? Looking at this wild game, I swallowed my saliva, okay I want to try the roasted rabbit meat.

There was no movement in the house, as if no one was there. Mother should still be in town at this time, but Tian'er should be back.

"Tianer?"

There is still no movement! It is estimated that this kid went back to the house to sleep.

I put the rabbit into the old cage outside the house, put the fish in the kitchen, and ran into the back room excitedly.

Not in the house! Why hasn’t Tian’er come back today? I walked to the side of the kang, wanting to lie down and sleep for a while. Hey! What’s on the table?

"Only brother can take it apart, only mother can take it apart, only Xiaolu can take it apart."

I read the words on the envelope and opened the one written by Akita.

Brother, when you read this letter, I have already left this village, please forgive me for being so selfish, I hope you can forgive me for leaving without saying goodbye, this is a choice I have to make. Fragmentary memories in my mind It is destroying my nerves from time to time, I can't go on like this, I want to get my memory back.

Thank you for taking care of me for so long. I will never forget this beautiful memory. Because it was the best time of my life.

Brother, do you know? I am very happy and happy when I am with you. I don’t know why, but I am so stingy with your concern. I can’t see you being nice to other people. Every smile of hers will take away my broken heart, maybe I am selfish, I don't want to share your love with others. Because I like you. I like your honesty, your cuteness, and your fatness I like to hug you and gradually fall asleep, I like your love for me, I like your silly words, I like your meticulous care, I like everything about you.

Are you surprised when you see this? Are you disappointed with me? Are you feeling terrible? Are you feeling sick?

That's right, I like boys, I fell in love with my brother, I can't control my feelings, and most of them are just the sprouts in my heart, I don't know how many times at night, when you are asleep, I look at your face , so perfect, even your snoring sounds so pleasant, I can't help but want to kiss you, but I dare not, I am afraid that you will find out, and you will never talk to me again.

I know you love me very much, and this love is only between brothers. How I wish this kind of love can be the same as you love Xiaolu! And that can only be a kind of reluctance. Realized in fantasy. Xiaolu will be back in a few days, I know you like Xiaolu very much, I don’t want to get involved, I hope you are doing well, hold Xiaolu tightly, don’t miss this good girl, and don’t treat her badly Well, because she is also my best friend.

Don't worry about me, I will live a good life, I can take care of myself, please rest assured.

I know that when you saved my life, you spent all the money you saved from marrying your wife on me. I am speechless. My life was saved by you, and it is yours. Don't worry, I will definitely come back one day ,Come back to repay you and mother, no matter what I do, I am willing, as long as you can forgive me, understand me, and don't mind me.

By the way, I borrowed 200 yuan from Uncle Li. I need to use it to buy tickets and live. I have to pay him back first.

The other two letters on the table are from my mother and Xiaolu, hand them to them for me, and return the mp3 to Xiaolu.

The photo in the envelope is for you. It was secretly taken by Xiaolu last time. It is the only photo I have. I hope it can bring you some good memories.Please don't be sad, I will be fine, and you will be the same, okay? When I come back next time, you must give me a healthy and happy brother. Be sure to promise me!

Love your brother forever, Akita.

The letter paper was a little wrinkled, and it was covered with tears after being sealed. My eyes were blurred, and the tears covered my vision. I closed my eyes tightly, and two teardrops of heartache slid down my face , it dripped onto my feet, and it hurt me so much. I can't tell what I feel at this moment, it's like a dream.

Brother! Why are you so stupid! Don’t you know how much I like you in my heart! This feeling surpasses brotherhood! It has become love! It’s just that I buried it deeply in my heart! I’m afraid that you will Ignore me! I thought you liked Xiaolu! So you have always liked me! But why didn’t you tell me earlier! I like Xiaolu! But do you know! I like you more! If you let me Know earlier! I will never let you go! Now you are leaving so silently! How can you be so cruel and leave me alone? What do you want me to do? What do you want your mother to do? Where should I find you? No one talks to me every night! No one sings to me! No one listens to me snoring! No one fights with me! No one hugs me to sleep! How can you let me sleep !The first ray of sunshine when I woke up in the morning! But without you sleeping beside me! How empty my heart would be! Brother! I beg you! Come back soon! I miss you so much!

Glancing at the mp3 on the table, I tremblingly folded this precious letter, and carefully put it in the drawer.

I took out the small hang tag in my pocket, with a bright autumn character on it, which was given to me by Tian Er last night, and it seemed to still have his temperature on it. I held him tightly and pressed it to my chest. Tian Er, at this moment where will you be