lonely three people

After the rain in the city, you can't smell the smell of nature, at most it is the earthy smell made by road dust.

It was cool at night, and I walked with Cheng Yang in the 80s community where I rented a house. The simple street lamps installed in the middle of the utility poles gave off a dim light, and the old ones seemed to be on strike at any time.

Very silent, "Do I really have to go?" I finally couldn't bear to ask until I approached the gate of the community.

Cheng Yang slowed down his pace. In fact, he walked very slowly. He didn't answer me or even look at me.

"If you have to leave..." I didn't know what to say, I really wanted to keep him but I didn't know how to organize my words, and I was even afraid that what I thought was to keep him said something different, so I just said something half talk.

"Let's give it a hug." Finally, he left the community and stood on the side of the road. Cheng Yang opened his arms to me, pursed his lips and squeezed a relieved smile.

It is very easy to take a taxi at this time and this place, but I wish there were no empty taxis passing by and no parting.

While embracing, I saw a dazzling green light approaching at the end of the road.

Without letting go of the arm holding Cheng Yang, he held him firmly in his arms until the green light passed by us. I find it annoying that the green indicator light of taxis in city H is empty.

"I missed it." When Cheng Yang looked up, the empty car had already gone a long way.

"Well, wait a little longer" Can I hug again when the next empty car comes over, so that he can miss it again!

"Do you still remember the day when we first met, I couldn't get a taxi at the intersection, and you sat on the steps beside me and watched my jokes, heh, where did that intersection come from?" Cheng Yang mentioned the scene of the first meeting .

"Intersection of Twelfth Street and Pedestrian Street" I will never forget that intersection. I sat on the steps in front of the hotel and looked at the opposite. Wearing those jeans that made me think he had a great figure, I think I fell in love with him by then.

"You..." Cheng Yang hesitated to speak.

"I love you, heh, do you want to ask me if I love you?"

"hehe"

"In the past, as long as it was very quiet, or when you couldn't find something to talk about, you would be used to asking me this question. I even guessed it from your expression and eyes."

Cheng Yang turned his head, not knowing what he was thinking, "Habits have become subconscious, but think about the truth in the past, now those are not important, I understand, and I won't be entangled in a sentence or a few words." It’s gone.” Cheng Yang, who hadn’t seen me for a few months, gave me the feeling that he was much quieter and less talkative, and it was a bit difficult to face. Is he still the innocent Cheng Yang who is happy, lively, and dreaming?

In a few words, a taxi stopped in front of us. Maybe there was not much work at night, but the driver was very enthusiastic, and even dragged his body to open the co-pilot's door.

"gone"

"Hmm" handed the backpack to Cheng Yang who was already sitting in the passenger seat.At the moment when I let go of the backpack, at the moment when the strap of the backpack slipped off my palm, I was afraid, afraid that I would live a lonely life again, afraid that I would never hear his voice again, afraid that he would not be by my side, afraid I can no longer live a life of firewood, rice, oil, salt, soy sauce, vinegar and tea with him. I am afraid that I will lose him in my life from now on.

"哐" the car door closed, numb, staring blankly at Cheng Yang who was trying hard to smile at me in the car.

Without a second of hesitation at all, I didn't hear the sound of the taxi driver stepping on the gas pedal. Under the slightly displeased and surprised eyes of the driver and Cheng Yang's surprised eyes, I opened the door.

The driver didn't understand "You..."

"He's not leaving, I'll pay you the fare" I pulled Cheng Yang out like crazy, I wanted him to get out of the car, I wanted him to stay by my side.

"What are you doing, are you crazy?" Cheng Yang was dragged out of the car in a daze by me.

The taxi driver took the fare I paid him and walked away, probably calling me a sb in his heart, alas, this is the second time I have pulled the taxi door for no reason today... Sb is just sb.

"You have money and nowhere to spend it. I'm already in the car, I..." Cheng Yang said to me a little unhappy.

"I can't bear you" interrupted Cheng Yang's whole sentence, he was stunned, and at this time I was already in tears.

In the community, Cheng Yang and I sat in the viewing pavilion that had been in disrepair for a long time. Thinking about the surrounding area, this is the only place where we can sit and chat after it rains.

"Silly husband, you said too many things I couldn't imagine today, are you really reluctant?"

Squinting at the top of the head, sitting in the pavilion, I could just see the leaky balcony of my house opposite, "This is your home, where are you going! It's so late, we should go home, our home."

"This...is it really my home?" Cheng Yang seemed to be asking me, but it didn't seem like he was asking me.

"You don't think so?"

Cheng Yang picked up his backpack again and stood up, "Fool husband, I have to go back to school to prepare a lot of things. I have revised my thesis again and again, and I will graduate in two months. Let's go, send me off. I'll be back tomorrow."

"What time is it?"

"Early in the morning, make sure husband, you can see me as soon as you open your eyes, okay?" Cheng Yang rode on my lap, hugged me and kissed me.

I don't know whether Cheng Yang really went back to school to revise his thesis, because after he left, he sent me text messages all night, until I saw the dawn and was so sleepy that I couldn't open my eyes and couldn't pick up the cell phone next to my pillow.

He said I could see him when I opened my eyes and all I could do was wait in my sleep.