lonely three people

"I met him for the first time three years ago. He was tall and dressed in a straight suit... If anyone in my world could get infinitely close to God, it would be him." I still clearly remember that it was May [-], [-].

"Bang!" The beer lid popped up, and the monkey poured wine into his glass, "Is it Cheng Yang?"

I shook my head, "He's an uncle... a middle-aged man who is like a spring breeze, with a cool smell all over his body, a thick and gentle voice, in his early 30s, his name is Lin Mushan... But I didn't know his name on the first day. "

"You have really strong taste, hiss... 30 years old, hehe"

"You don't understand our aesthetics. At that time, I was going to catch a bus. He blocked my way with one arm, stared straight at me, and said (hello, leave a number) is a complete break. He broke into my life, and he also broke into my life." The things that happened a few years ago seemed to happen yesterday, and I remembered them again.

"He... oh, his name is Lin Mushan, right? He's also a fat man?" The monkey tapped the table lightly with his fingers, probably because he was imagining that scene.

"Yes, you should have seen it. He used to pick me up at the door of the company." I'm not sure if the monkey has paid attention.

"Oh oh oh, that black Toyota car, I remembered, there was always a black Toyota car to pick you up for a while, but I never saw the driver get out of the car."

"Go ahead" the monkey filled his glass again, as if my story was his appetizer.

……

"He hugged me, kissed me, yelled that he loved me on the Badaling Great Wall surrounded by tourists, he chose a bold and domineering way to express his love to me...you can imagine how I felt at that time No, no, can you imagine my surprise at that time! No, I was too excited at the time, Mrs...." I kept turning the beef on the grill, because I was a little incoherent, a little unable to express, and some Even if the matter is brought up after a long time, it is still difficult to restrain and there will be a little excitement.

The monkey was silent for a short while, then slammed down the wine in the glass. It seemed that he had calmed down his emotions on purpose. He raised his head and smiled, "I understand, I know how it feels... just like when I was with my girlfriend before. Holding hands on the street, hugging on the bus, the more people there are, the more I like to show affection... In fact, it is the sense of happiness, the leak of happiness after two people are together, I always want the whole world to know that we are in love ...I get it, it feels good."

Indeed, I was very happy at that time, and I really felt that happiness was overflowing.

Opening another bottle of beer, the monkey continued: "However, there are differences. I would be very happy if I hold the hand of the girl I love, but if I change to your point of view, I can openly hold another man's hand." It should be happier than holding hands between men and women, after all, you have to overcome more eyes and your own psychology, I can really understand your feelings at that time, it is really rare for you to be together."

This is the monkey, he can always understand my thoughts very smartly and easily.

The waiter at the cashier in the distance has been lying on the counter for a long time without looking up. Looking around, there are only me and the monkey in the barbecue restaurant. I drink half a glass of Coke when my mouth is dry, and the beer under the monkey's feet is also drunk There is half a box.

The story is very long. It turns out that I still have so many memories when I mention Mushan. It turns out that I feel relaxed and even proud when I tell the story for the first time. Why be proud!Because I have loved, because the monkey will listen very attentively, and he will be silent.

"Monkey, some people think we are sick, and some people think we should go to the doctor, but some things are born with you, do you understand, and you, what do you think?" I want to know what the monkey thinks of me The story of my world, I have to ask here, if he feels disgusted, there is no need to continue telling the story.

"Although I don't understand why you guys don't like girls, but I don't object, but I will support it, because I am a good friend with you, because I heard the relationship between you and Mushan, it is love... not at all. Lost in the love between me and my ex-girlfriend, huh, ashamed," the monkey shook his "monkey head" and said.

"Ashamed of what?"

"Why do I feel that the love in your world exceeds normal love? It's unscientific, haha." The monkey drank a big gulp of wine, opened three bottles of wine and put them on the table. "Direction!" The monkey called my name .

"Um"

"Sometimes I hate you a lot. The girls at work are always around you. When you go on a blind date with me, the other party won't even look at me. You guys even gave me the nickname (monkey), hehe, But there is no way, girls now like you who are cold and dumb, and I have to follow you to get close to girls... When I guessed that you don't like girls, I felt so happy in my heart. I feel like all the female colleagues in the company will be mine in the end, ha.” Monkey laughed to himself, and his laughter left me speechless. He laughed every day, but I never thought that he would have so many psychological thoughts, and he would call him the most nicknames It's me.

I belong to the person who hides his scars and hides them from others, but the monkey belongs to the person who smiles when others expose his scars.

I am gay, I will feel depressed, live unhappy, and put myself in a cover, but the monkey is not tall, looks... There is a large patch of vitiligo around the whole mouth, but he is optimistic, he is always Laughing.

"In the company, you will think that we are useless! Relying on background family affairs, relying on parents, right! You look down on us from the bottom of your heart, right! Sometimes I hate myself, I hate myself for being late at the company, I hate that the leader only Believe in you, I will give you various jobs... Finally, I found out that you don't like girls, heh, I thought I would at least beat you in love, but I seem to have lost to you again .I followed her to the southern city, and loved her foolishly for three years. When it was time to talk about marriage, I told me that I was not the person she liked, and that she didn't love me..."

Monkey is a very nice person. I always think that if any girl follows him, she will be happy. He is good and will love others. The most important thing is that he can live and save money, and he will hold his girlfriend as a treasure in his palm. I must be afraid of my daughter-in-law.But the most important thing now is that every girl will run away when she sees him, even if she doesn't look at his size or anything else, just look at the mark of vitiligo on his mouth and run away.

"The more you don't want to see girls, there are girls who come to chat with you and laugh with you. Even if you are a different kind, Lin Mushan likes you, and Cheng Yang...Although you haven't told the story between Cheng Yang and you, I I know that Cheng Yang loves you very much... the three of us went to sing, I saw Cheng Yang secretly holding your hand, when playing games with Cheng Yang at your house, Cheng Yang was always distracted to see what you were doing, he was The scene of waiting for you to get off work at the gate of the company, the scared look you get when you are angry, and even every look he looks at you... I am not jealous but envious, and even hope to exchange with you, I will be a different kind and give you this painted face" Monkey pointed The mark of vitiligo on my mouth, and a smile on my face, and only this time I found that there was helplessness in his smile.

Reaching out for the beer bottle beside the monkey table, "Let me have a few drinks with you, we brothers have never had a drink together before."

I just grabbed the beer bottle but was caught by the monkey, he didn't let me take the wine, "Forget it, people don't know me, don't you know you, you are too controlling, your life is so strict that you have never Once you get drunk, you never lose your mind once, and there is no need to change what you insist on at will.”

I shrugged my shoulders and let go of my hand, "Stop talking nonsense, don't pretend to know me well, how can there be so much reason, I didn't drink alcohol before because I was a little allergic to alcohol... I'm afraid I'll look ashamed if I drink it That's all, huh"

"You should stay awake, I need you, and you will have to carry me back when I drink too much, haha" the monkey smiled, but suddenly seemed to think of something, "Direction, you used to save me when I drank too much, you Go pick me up, anyway, when I woke up, I was lying in your house, did you do anything to me while I was drunk? I am also a fat man... As the saying goes, the first thing you get is the moon, I went to your bed Don't you covet me?"

I almost spit out a mouthful of sauerkraut, and rolled my eyes, "I have a bottom line, not to mention that I have no feelings for primates with hairy faces and thunderous mouths."

"Then I'm relieved, you won't lie."

"Actually, I'm not sure. If I sleep in a daze and hug you as Cheng Yang, it's not impossible to move my hands and feet."

"If you like me, tell me directly, don't be sneaky."

"Hehe, go to hell, I won't even look back if you chase me for two kilometers with bare buttocks."

The same is true for friends, they can make jokes, cover their shortcomings, don’t need to involve interests, don’t need to agree with each other as long as they share the same smell, cry and laugh together, fight together when they’re crazy, brothers and sisters.

"You miss Cheng Yang very much. That kid looks very happy. Why can't he miss you so much? Tell me about Cheng Yang, tell me how you bullied him, and why did you leave?"

Do you want to say Cheng Yang!I don't know either, Cheng Yang always says he loves me, but what does he love about me, what is there in me that deserves his love, what can I do.