lonely three people

After Christmas Eve is Christmas, but fortunately the company finally let me go.

2011.12.25 Christmas, an extraordinary day.

Back home with a head of snow, he turned the key and opened the door. As usual, Cheng Yang always ran to the door as soon as he heard the sound of the key.

"I'm cold." Cheng Yang waited at the door in his shorts, took my backpack and hung it up. It feels so good to have someone waiting for me to get off work every day.I want to hug Cheng Yang who is almost naked, but I am afraid that the cold will infect him.

Cheng Yang was busy with the final process of dinner in the kitchen. After changing his clothes and washing his snow-wet hair, he sat quietly in the room waiting for dinner.

I noticed that there were a few pieces of document paper and a file bag next to Cheng Yang's computer, and Cheng Yang also talked to me about some things about his graduation thesis during the meal.

Time flies so fast, when spring blooms again in the north, it will be Cheng Yang's graduation season, he will be an "adult", he will find a job, he will become an employee of a certain company, do he still have to take off his sportswear and wear it? Wearing a white shirt and suit, I have never seen Cheng Yang like that.

Perhaps because he was not satisfied with the cooking skills of the dinner, Cheng Yang went to the kitchen with a plate of eggs and insisted on refilling the pot because the taste was too bland.

I don't think it matters, anyway, I'm not picky eaters, and I'm content with someone cooking it for me, so why would I be picky and picky, and put rice into my mouth while waiting for Cheng Yang.

Cheng Yang’s computer was facing me, and the game on the screen was forced to quit because Cheng Yang was cooking for a long time. The computer screen that quit the game displayed a webpage with a very clear picture, which is A red building, (Shanghai World Expo China Pavilion) I recognize, is it Shanghai again!Did Cheng Yang search for it?

"Let's watch some funny variety shows." Cheng Yang entered the room, maybe he wanted to interrupt, put down the hot dishes and immediately went to close the webpage on his computer, and searched for the variety shows we often watch together.

"Why didn't you wait for me to heat up the dishes! I'll get you another bowl of rice." Cheng Yang took my bowl, and it turned out that I had already eaten all the rice in the bowl while he was cooking the eggs again, maybe is hungry.

This episode of the variety show is ugly, and I have no desire to watch it at all, I feel this way just by watching it.

Um?At the dinner table, Cheng Yang's cell phone turned on, and the content of the incoming message was displayed on the screen.

(Miss you, want to have dinner with you, watch a movie...) The sender is an unfamiliar number.

This... makes me feel bad, I feel glaring.Naturally, he reached out to pick up Cheng Yang's mobile phone, pressed the read button, and what came into view were many short messages sent to Cheng Yang by the same person.

Cheng Yang stood in front of me with a bowl in his hand, staring at me blankly. I knew it was because I was holding his mobile phone.

"Why stand there stupidly, give me the rice." Pressed the back button, and then pressed the lock screen button, and put Cheng Yang's phone back on the table.

I ate very slowly. In fact, I was already full, but I just didn't want to put down the dishes.

Cheng Yang just took two bites and didn't continue to eat, but looked at me carefully, feeling a little hesitant to speak.

"If you don't want to eat, go and play for a while, don't block me from watching the show... If you are hungry at night, you are not allowed to eat snacks"

"Oh." After agreeing, Cheng Yang picked up the mobile phone on the table and obediently went to bed, playing with the mobile phone.

I watched the show but didn't know what I was doing, because I was distracted and my mind was a little messed up.

Sitting in front of the computer screen and constantly refreshing the screen with the mouse, he continued in a daze, Cheng Yang hugged my neck from behind, pressed against my face, and I said to him: "Let's play games."

"I don't want to fight anymore, I've been playing all day." Cheng Yang still supported my back.

"Do you want me to play a game with you? Or should I take you downstairs to go shopping?"

Cheng Yang didn't answer my question.

"How about going to the supermarket to buy snacks or go to the movies?"

Cheng Yang still didn't speak, just hugged me quietly.

"Why don't we find a monkey and let's go sing? Don't you just want me to accompany you to have a good time at Christmas!" Untied Cheng Yang's hand from my neck, and took his hand from my back to mine side.

"What's wrong?" Cheng Yang stood beside me pouted, holding hands with me.

"I don't want to go anywhere, I just want you to sit with me for a while" holding back such words to me.

"Hehe, okay." He dragged Cheng Yang to sit on the bed.

A little quiet, kissed Cheng Yang's lips.

"Honey, I'm a little scared" Cheng Yang played with my hand.

"Huh? What are you afraid of?" I don't understand.

"You're so normal, so quiet, so quiet scares me"

Very speechless, what should I do, how can it be considered normal!They were silent again for a long time.

"Call me a few words... or or... or whatever, but don't hold back in your heart, okay? The more normal you behave at this time, the more scared I am, so yell at me or It's okay to quarrel with me."

A tear fell on the bed sheet between me and Cheng Yang, it was mine, at this moment I can no longer pretend to be calm, and I can no longer control myself.

Cheng Yang repeatedly pressed the tear mark on the bed sheet with his fingertips, did he think he could take back that tear for me?

Not knowing what to say, at a loss, she just sat there stupidly, staring at Cheng Yang's face intently.

"What's wrong with you?" Cheng Yang asked me this time, and I remained silent.

Cheng Yang moved closer to me, put his arms around my waist, and looked at each other, "Can you talk to me, just say something... go to the supermarket, go to the movies... er, call the monkey, let's go Sing, karaoke, okay husband?"

Cheng Yang shook my body, told me a lot but I couldn't listen, let him shake and talk.

Dear, now I fall in love with you, but, is it too late? When you loved me, I failed to fall in love with you in time. When you gradually disappointed me, I fell in love with you slowly. Is it because you have lost interest in me, and you no longer need me so firmly, I think so now "Cheng Yang, don't move, let me take a good look at you" interrupted Cheng Yang's movement of shaking me, both hands Holding Cheng Yang's face, fleshy, with crystals hanging from the long eyelashes of the two big eyes.

Cheng Yang cried, tears flowed onto my hands, and he kept saying "I'm sorry, sorry, no, it's not what you think, the message was really just sent to me by him, not what you thought Like that, husband..."

I smiled, the smile must be ugly, because it was squeezed out, "Shhh... now I just want to take a good look at you again"

"No, why do you say that, look at it later, look at it later, please don't talk like that, it's too scary, I'm scared, okay, your tone..." Cheng Yang seemed to have suddenly realized something, big Shouting, since this is the case, I have indeed made a decision.

I still held Cheng Yang's face with both hands and opened my mouth. I wanted to say three words (I love you), but my throat seemed to be blocked and I couldn't make any sound no matter what.

"Husband! Don't think about it, my husband. It's not what you think. Please give up your current thoughts and stop thinking about it." Cheng Yang seemed to know what I was thinking.

I hugged Cheng Yang's face hard and pulled him in front of me. I kissed his mouth and sucked it hard. I couldn't say I love him, so I kissed him hard.

"Mushan left a bill before leaving. I have been very tired for the past two years, and I was overwhelmed by all kinds of bills. Seeing that I am almost 30 years old, I have to go home and ask my mother for money to pay us. The room fee...Cheng Yang, I...maybe very...very...I like you very much, I just want to say that I picked up the remittance slip you sent to Wenbo, and I pretended I didn't see it and threw it away as waste paper ...Cheng Yang, you have two online accounts, I don't know! Your mobile phone has been vibrating for two years... I have been pretending to be indifferent, I don't care, I can pretend that I don't know if you go to bars or something , because, without Lin Mushan and without you in my world, I really have nothing. For myself, I am also afraid of being alone, so I am really willing to be a blind man with my eyes open and my ears covered. Deaf..."

"Don't talk about husband, I know there are some things I should have told you earlier, but trust me, I love you" Cheng Yang lay on my chest, whether it was tears or snot wet my chest.

"I made you cry again, don't cry, remember how you promised me before, how you promised me after the phone call with Wenbo that time." He helped Cheng Yang and let him sit in front of me.

Cheng Yang thought for a few seconds, then suddenly shook his head violently, and looked into my eyes in shock, "No, no, Chen Xiangfang, you can't make such a decision, no, husband, please don't have that idea, okay?"

"You said that if you contact him again, you will leave by yourself... right, I will help you remember." No more tears flowed from my eyes, just like Cheng Yang knew me, just like every Leo, Once a decision is made in the heart, it will not change.