final destination

?Two years later, Jianjie and Chen Wendong lived together in Shanghai, but their life was very ordinary, without any disturbance.

I remember that at that time, it was a cold winter. After Uncle Feng passed away, Chen Wendong asked Jianjie to go back to Shanghai with him several times, but Jianjie refused to leave, saying that this place was very important to him.

Afterwards, Jianjie started to go to work, but he had no intention of working, because he often fell into a sluggish state, could not get out of Uncle Feng's shadow, and showed sadness from time to time. Chen Wendong was aware of these details, so he always Never left.

Jianjie asked: "It's almost Chinese New Year, aren't you going back to Shanghai? There are some things you need to deal with over there?"

Chen Wendong replied: "I can't let you go, if you insist on staying here, then I can only give up there."

Involuntarily, Jianjie argued with him for a few words, but in the end he couldn't get over it, so he let him go.

When the Chinese New Year was approaching, Yi Ling brought Xiaobao to visit in advance, and felt that the family was a little popular, so Jianjie seemed very happy, and he no longer looked lifeless.However, they were about to leave after staying for a few days, which made Jianjie feel extremely disappointed, because he had no children and no spiritual sustenance, so he felt very melancholy, and always felt that something was missing around him.

Since the Chinese New Year, Jianjie has missed Uncle Feng even more. Sometimes he didn’t respond to calling him a few times. Seeing that he was always absent-minded, Chen Wendong stayed with him and chatted with him more. leave by yourself...

At that time, Jianjie wandered in confusion all day long. Although he couldn't let go of this place, it was even more difficult to face it. Thinking of the days when there would be no more Uncle Feng, he didn't know how to live in the future.

In the end, for some reason, Jian Jie vaguely agreed. At that time, Chen Wendong didn't know how happy he was. He took some time to bring everything Jian Jie could bring, including his people, to Shanghai.

After settling down, I thought that Jianjie would be able to forget the past lightly when he lived here, but he didn't expect that all his sorrows turned into infinite thoughts, and he was always thinking about someone.For a long time, Chen Wendong wanted to do something to Jianjie. He stretched out his hand many times to touch him, but he still couldn't do it.

Until now, although the two have lived together for more than two years, there is a faint barrier between them, making it difficult for them to bond together.

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One morning, just after dawn, Chen Wendong got up to take a shower, then went outside the house to stretch his waist twice, while breathing the fresh air, feeling comfortable, he took a pot to water the flowers and plants, looking so leisurely.

At this time, he was already 47 and [-] years old, his appearance had not changed much, his face was still resolute, and his body was strong.But what is a little different is that his slightly raised belly has begun to gain a little weight. He was sunny and handsome when he was young, but now he deliberately wears a short mustache, which makes him look more sexy and charming.

And there was another person in the room, and he gradually woke up, and after washing up, he went to sit in the living room.Silently, he seemed to be missing something again, and then he took out a few stacks of photos and began to look through them one by one.

The more he looked at it, the deeper he got into it. Touching the photo in his hand, it felt like he was touching that person, his eyes full of meaning.

I don't know how much time has passed, Chen Wendong walked in and saw this scene and said: "Your uncle is no longer here, let's look forward, don't always live in the pain of the past."

In the past, when Jian Jie heard such words, he would definitely feel sad and turn into grief and indignation, but in the past two years, he has received too much love from Chen Wendong, no matter what he said, Jian Jie couldn't get angry.

However, if a person is always secretly sad, another person who cares about him will also feel sad after seeing it.

Seeing Jian Jie glanced at him, and then slightly lowered his head, Chen Wendong couldn't help but took the photo in his hand: "Look, my brother has finally grown a few white hairs, and his skin has begun to wrinkle, don't you like this type? "

Hearing this, Jian Jie couldn't help trembling in his heart, as if this remark touched something, he was thinking, all along, Chen Wendong gave all his love to himself, but he gave all his love to Uncle Feng, he felt, I owe Chen Wendong too much, and I am afraid that I will not be able to repay it in my life.

After a long time, Jian Jie said with guilt: "Brother Dong, did I take away all the happiness in your life?"

"Don't say that, my brother's language just now is a bit heavy, don't take it to heart, all this is my brother's willingness..." Before he finished speaking, Chen Wendong seemed to think of something, and quickly changed his words: "But you said That's right, you owe brother a lifetime of happiness, and it will take a lifetime of love to repay it."

Hearing this recitation, Jian Jie didn't know how to answer for a moment. Just when he was in a daze, Chen Wendong couldn't help it anymore, hugged him and kissed him forcefully, fearing that he would resist, and pressed him hard on the sofa , so that Jianjie couldn't move.

After the kiss, Chen Wendong exuded a thick and intoxicating breath, fondling Jianjie lovingly, as if prying open his heart and letting him accommodate himself.

At first, Jianjie resisted a little, but gradually, for some reason, he softened and closed his eyes to enjoy it.

I deeply remember that this feeling of kissing and hugging is so warm, warm and sweet.Jianjie is nostalgic. A long time ago, whenever Uncle Feng and Lao Zhao's desires arose, he pressed himself down and kissed him...

Seeing that Jianjie did not resist, Chen Wendong was no longer so rude, and the tip of his tongue began to become soft. He was so passionately involved in the kiss, as if he had forgotten time and everything, and was completely immersed in it.

Yes, at this moment, he didn't want to wait anymore, because waiting for a day meant losing a day, and how long he waited meant losing a long time.

Although the two were tightly entangled together, they didn't take a step further. I don't know how long this state will last.In the end, Chen Wendong raised his head slightly, but after a while, he couldn't help but kiss again. Jian Jie still didn't resist, he felt that his saliva was almost sucked dry.

After a long time, Chen Wendong reluctantly broke away from Jianjie's lips. He propped his elbows and asked in anticipation, "Can I sleep with you tonight?"

"Let's talk about it tonight!" After finishing speaking, he got up.

Although Jian Jie did not readily agree, Chen Wendong was very happy after hearing this, because Jian Jie did not refuse outright.

Silently, the two sat like this, which made the atmosphere a little strange. At this time, Chen Wendong, like a child who just fell in love, was still immersed in the wonderful feeling he had just experienced.

"I'm going to make some breakfast!"

"Let brother come, you sit down!"

Seeing that he entered the kitchen after finishing speaking, Jianjie let him go.

This night, after the two of them had dinner, Jianjie went to take a shower not long after, and when his hair was dry, he said, "I'm going back to my room first."

"Okay." The meaning of these words seemed to be more obvious, Chen Wendong smiled happily, and he said in a hurry: "Then brother also go to take a bath first!"

Half an hour later, Chen Wendong was wearing pajamas, stroking the short hair on his head, he had already entered the door and said: "Brother came in!"

Walking slowly to the bed, Chen Wendong hugged Jianjie in his arms without saying a word, and now he was afraid that he would be driven out, so he refused to leave again.

Soon, the two were entwined, and while kissing, Chen Wendong seemed a little restless because of his excitement, which made Jianjie feel even more intense, and couldn't help but hug him back.In a certain situation, when Jian Jie's eyes fell on Chen Wendong's body, his brain became hot and his heart beat faster, as if there was something stronger in his body, wanting to break through the cage of his body and get out of his body.

For more than two years, Jianjie's heart has been closed, and he has never encountered this matter again. He often feels empty, lonely, and unbearable, as if he is about to rust.

At this moment, Chen Wendong finally opened his heart and ignited his desire for love, which Jianjie could no longer resist.

This night, after a violent storm, Chen Wendong was satisfied like never before, and he was still in a state of enjoyment for a long time.As for Jianjie, he also experienced that wonderful moment again. At this time, he was lying on his side, looking a little tired, and was being hugged tightly by Chen Wendong behind him, without a single crack.

"Brother finally waited until this day."

Turning around slowly, the two looked at each other. Chen Wendong's eyes were full of deep love, which seemed to shoot deeply into Jianjie's mind.Only then did Jianjie feel that the person in front of him loved him so much. It turned out that he had been waiting all these years and never gave up.

This made Jianjie feel more guilty, and he couldn't help asking: "Brother Dong, why do you still love me as much as before? All these years, you know that I love someone else..."

"Because you are kind, kind-hearted, and very persistent in love. I really appreciate your inseparable relationship with Uncle Feng, and I don't mind at all. In a person's life, how many people have loved and been separated from each other? It's normal, there are some people who love or sell themselves, and have slept with hundreds of people in their lives, and this is the reality."

Now, Chen Wendong is in a good mood, holding Jianjie's hand and he is always reluctant to let go. He said again: "I don't expect it, a person has only loved one person in his life, that's only in fantasy novels. As long as From now on, if you can let go of the past, you can stay with brother, and we can love each other forever, even if brother dies, he will have no regrets."

At some point, Jian Jie stretched out his hand and put it under Chen Wendong's liquid, the feeling of being caught by his liquid hair was very soft and warm.For some reason, since the scene just happened, Jianjie had a complicated thought in his head, and he said very suddenly: "Brother Dong, I want to go back to Guangzhou tomorrow."

In the past two years or so, Chen Wendong can also see that Jianjie has a very big knot in his heart, which makes him fall into a certain kind of feeling all the time, and he can't get out of it. Maybe he has to face it to solve it?Seeing that he still couldn't let it go, Chen Wendong didn't stop him, but replied: "Okay, I will go back to Guangzhou with you tomorrow. In fact, my brother misses that place quite a bit."

Jian Jie originally wanted to go back alone, but he still felt difficult to face after thinking about it. When Chen Wendong said that he wanted to be together, he took back what he wanted to say.

"Ok!"

After confirming, Chen Wendong hugged Jianjie even tighter, and kissed him deeply, before saying in satisfaction: "Let's go to bed early tonight, and wake up early tomorrow!"

Even though that was the case, late at night, the two of them still couldn't fall asleep for a long time, each having their own concerns.Feeling that Chen Wendong hugged him tightly again, as if he wanted to hug him into his body, Jianjie suddenly asked, "Brother Dong, why are you still up?"

"You didn't fall asleep either, did you? Brother still can't bear to sleep."

"What are you reluctant to do? I won't run away, so go to sleep!"

The next morning, just after dawn, Chen Wendong woke up, but he didn't get up, and stretched out his hand to caress Jianjie's body twice, as if he was still dreaming and couldn't believe it.Gradually, Jian Jie also woke up, and when he opened his slightly closed eyes, Chen Wendong asked, "Did you sleep well last night?"

"very good!"

"Brother also slept very soundly. I fell asleep as soon as I closed my eyes last night. I have never slept so comfortably. I used to suffer from insomnia for a long time."

"Really? Over the past two years, I have often suffered from insomnia, but last night was a little different. I slept until dawn."

"Hehe, you can sleep in my brother's arms with peace of mind in the future when you will be with me!"

Wen chatted for a few words before the two got up and started to set off after breakfast.

...............

I remember that these two days were in the late autumn season, the sun was shining brightly, the air was neither cold nor hot, but cool and refreshing.

It was evening when they came to Guangzhou again. Jianjie and Chen Wendong first went to find a place to live. After settling down in a high-end and luxurious commercial house, they didn't go anywhere.

The next day, after lunch, Jianjie said to Chen Wendong: "Brother Dong, I want to go to a place. You can wait for me here today, okay?"

Seeing that Jianjie has made up his mind and cannot be resisted, Chen Wendong wanted to say something, but finally he could only agree: "Okay, if there is anything, please contact me at any time."

"Well, I will, don't worry too much."

After finishing speaking, Jian Jie walked out, his heart was constantly ups and downs, and he couldn't keep calm, but he didn't stop, and still rushed in the direction where he had lived for more than 20 years.

In the room, Chen Wendong smoked two or three cigarettes within an hour. Under such circumstances, without Jianjie by his side, he felt that every second passed was so long.

In the end, desperate, he went outside, quickly stopped a taxi, and then went to the house to check, but Jianjie was not found.Chen Wendong was not discouraged, because he knew that if Jianjie hadn't come here, there would only be one place.

On the other hand, when Jianjie stepped into the park again, his body and mind trembled slightly, and a kind of long-lasting sadness instantly filled his heart.Here, there are shadows of the past everywhere, and the surrounding scenery is still as beautiful as before, without any changes, and it looks so familiar.

Walking along the gravel road, I saw an old big tree without knowing it, and there was a small gazebo beside it.With a nostalgic heart, Jian Jie walked in slowly, found a convenient place and sat down.

This place has left too many beautiful footprints, especially the kind laughter of that person, which still seems to be echoing here.Because I have experienced it, there are some profound past events that cannot be erased.Slowly, in the depths of Jianjie's mind, through the pair of eyes that miss him so much, long-lasting images began to bloom...

I vaguely remember that a long, long time ago, the middle-aged man who suddenly appeared had a straight back, a slightly fat body, wearing a white vest, a resolute Chinese character face, and short hair standing upright. , those slightly squinted eyes revealed a kind gaze, which looked so charming, and what he said had a magnetic guttural voice: "Young man, is there anything on your mind?"

Seeing someone talking and coming towards him, the young man seemed a little nervous. He looked around, but he was still not sure: "Uncle, are you talking to me?"

The middle-aged man sat next to him for some unknown reason, and said, "You are the only one here, so of course I was talking to you."

This made the young man unprepared for a moment, and he said without measure: "Uncle, besides me, isn't there you here? Why did you appear here for no reason?"

Seeing that he was a little flustered, the middle-aged man explained the purpose of coming: "I was playing chess with my old friend just now, and he left. I saw that you little guy seemed to have a lot of troubles on his mind, and you didn't leave after sitting for a long time, so I came here to ask."

At that time, the young man was at a loss about life and was still lost. He pretended to be strong with a sad look and said, "It's really nothing, thank you uncle for your concern!"

The middle-aged man seems to be very good at judging people, he guessed: "The boy is quite polite, hehe, if the uncle's guess is correct, you must have encountered a lot of setbacks and are under great pressure."

The young man couldn't help but move his brows twice when he was told the truth from the center. He looked innocent and curious and said, "Uncle, you really know how to read faces, how do you know?"

"The expression on your face is shown, how can the uncle know how to look at the face? Hehe!" The middle-aged man smiled so brightly and kindly, but what he said was very profound: "Life is a detour. There are twists and turns, and there will always be setbacks along the way, experience confusion, overcoming difficulties, and the joys, sorrows, sorrows and joys that are inherent in birth...the bits and pieces together enrich life.”

"Oh!"

The young man didn't quite understand: he just felt that this elder was always mysterious, and he came over and said these things to him for no reason, but it felt very close to him, and he didn't have any intention of harming anyone.

"Does the boy smoke?"

"Don't smoke!"

"Well, good boy!"

With a "click", the lighter caught fire, and the middle-aged man asked again, "What's the boy's name?"

"My name is Li Jianjie, the uncle can call me Xiaojian!" For some reason, the young man would tell the stranger his name and asked him to call himself 'Xiaojian'.

"Li Jianjie...Xiaojian...haha! The name is quite interesting, you can call me Uncle Feng!" The middle-aged man also introduced.

"Uncle is not yet Uncle's age, so I'd better call you Uncle Feng."

"Hehe, I see that you are seventeen or eighteen years old, and your uncle is more than thirty years older than you. But hearing the boy called uncle, I feel much younger."

After getting acquainted with each other, the young people shared with the middle-aged people all the difficulties they encountered and the confusion in their hearts.After the middle-aged man heard this, he felt a little moved and felt distressed: "It's really hard for the child. It's really not easy to go out to work at a young age. It's really not easy at such a young age. You have to bear a huge burden."

"Xiaojian, you are a very sensible and kind-hearted boy! You are still young and your abilities are limited. Don't just carry too much load. It's easy to lose yourself." Smoking a cigarette, the middle-aged People said some encouraging words: "You can put aside the things you can't think of for a while, but don't throw them away. The boat will be straight when it reaches the bridge. Don't shrink back easily for the current confusion and setbacks you encounter. , Believe in yourself, uncle also believes that you are capable."

At that time, the sun was gradually setting, and when it was about to separate, the young man had already become attached to the middle-aged man. He wanted to cry, but he couldn't cry, because some things in his heart couldn't be said, which made him sulk instead.Yes, he was extremely reluctant, afraid that after separation, he would never meet this person again in the vast crowd.

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Scenes from the past appeared in front of his eyes. Seeing the two distant figures gradually become blurred, Jianjie couldn't hold back the thoughts in his heart anymore. Catch it back bit by bit.However, he stretched out his trembling hand, and slowly retracted it, because those phantoms were just afterimages blooming in his subconscious.

Quietly, Jian Jie raised his head and looked at a piece of blue sky, his eyes were slightly wet, and he said with great nostalgia in his heart: "Uncle, I miss you."

Silently, a light breeze blew around, maybe Uncle Feng also wanted Jianjie, he seemed to turn into a wisp of weak wind, passing through Jianjie's body and mind.

Jianjie couldn't help but pause, and suddenly, a middle-aged man's voice sounded in his ear: "Are you really here?"

Turning his head slightly, what he saw was Chen Wendong, Jianjie recovered and asked, "Brother Dong, why are you here?"

After approaching, Chen Wendong said what was in his heart: "Brother misses you, come and take a look if you are not at ease, I never thought you were really here."

"Hehe!" Jian Jie smiled, he was a little surprised: "You actually managed to find this place..."

"Brother went to that house to look for you, if you are not here, then here, sure enough!"

Afterwards, the two sat on the stone bench. In such a situation, Jian Jie couldn't help but share the past with Chen Wendong. He said everything he remembered or profound, even a small thing.

Being able to tell all this in detail, Chen Wendong felt faintly that Jian Jie had opened up his heart.Otherwise, he will keep it in his heart like before, and will never say it out.

Perhaps, in the love between young and old, the old one dies first, and the living people will always miss or refer to those who were alive. This is the final destination, the final fate of young and old love, right?

Seeing that Jianjie began to let go slowly, the more he talked, the more comfortable he became, with a faint smile on his face, Chen Wendong was also happy to keep listening.He always believed that one day, Jianjie would love himself completely, and he would love him very deeply, down to his bones.

(season finale)

Deep reflection: This book is finally finished,