bitter fireworks

Some people say that if you have loved, you will have no regrets. You only want to have it once, whether it is forever or not.Maybe this sentence is true for some people, but I don’t think so. I am born with a single muscle, especially infatuated. As long as I fall in love, I will love without hesitation. In the end, if I lose it, it will hurt the most. That, so I don’t talk about love lightly, because love is the double meaning of happiness and pain, once you lose it, your pain will be unbearable...

After returning home from Xiaopeng, I was in a state of despair all day long.Liu Wang has gone to Shenzhen, and he still wants to find his mother. I hope he can get his wish. I will go to Shenzhen after I rest, and I will contact him then!After he left, I am now a lonely family. I can only talk to people over the phone if I have any pain or suffering. I will never talk about my family members. Coming out of the closet, except for the parents, no one else knows.

During this period, I met Wu Wei again. He stopped working in Guangdong and started a business at home. He heard that the business was very good. He planned to marry Chen Li at the end of the year. I chatted with him about a few years ago in Guangzhou. I drank with him, and he was still so nice, calling me a good brother, and I also thank him for his care and help when I was in Guangzhou.Seeing that he is flourishing and his business is booming, I am also sincerely happy!

Zhichun’s child is two years old, and his fireworks business is booming, and his products have entered the Russian market. Seeing him now, I only have the friendship of a brother and a close friend, and I hope from the bottom of my heart that he will live well and that the family will be safe. Live happily!He is like a fish in water in terms of money and material things, and his fortune is prosperous, but when he was drinking with me again, he still didn’t let me go completely, his eyes still looked at me so affectionately, and he wanted to give me something, but I refused up!I'm just his brother and friend now!

My mother's health is not bad, and I don't need to bear it right now, she can still support herself, but I still give some of the money to her. Although she doesn't need it, as a son, this is the filial piety I should do.My brother, sister-in-law and his family are also living a good life, very happy, which makes me feel at ease and happy!

The most unexpected person is Li Yang, Brother Li!I contacted and communicated with him through QQ, because the number of my mobile phone is always changing, and it is difficult for those who do not contact him often to know my mobile phone number. Only QQ can not change.

Brother Li is the most unfortunate person. He told me that in the past few years, due to his loneliness, he likes to meet friends with sex online, such as college students, civil servants, soldiers, policemen, and many other industries.One time, he failed to take safety measures and won the bid. After the high-risk sexual behavior, he always had a fever and cough on the third day, and the injections and medicines did not work. After ten days, he went for a checkup and was told that he might It was HIV, and the blood test was positive, exceeding 1.0. Later, Brother Li went to a specialized institution to diagnose him. In the end, he still had AIDS.

Now he is still a virus carrier and has to go for laboratory tests and examinations every once in a while, but now he still has no other complications, his immunity has not been destroyed by the virus, and his work and life are still the same as ordinary people.

On the other side of the phone, Brother Li asked with a wry smile if I would still dare to see him, would I dare to drink and eat with him, and I agreed to see him at that time.

I still shook hands with Brother Li and had dinner together. Brother Li really lost a lot of weight and was haggard, probably due to mental and physical pressure.Seeing him like this, my heart hurts, but there is nothing I can do to help him. Brother Li is actually a very good person, just because he is gay, and as a gay, he does not have a fixed sexual partner. Life is built into it!So I personally still think that when we are lonely, empty and physically unbearable, it is best to take safety measures, which is good for ourselves and others. If we unfortunately get some disease, it is best not to cheat with revenge Others, if they are unlucky, why bring others together?You must know how to be kind to others and cherish yourself. Of course, those who can clean themselves and love themselves are even better!To live in this world, we must understand positive energy and spread positive energy!If everyone thinks and acts in the wrong direction, then the world is not in chaos!

After returning from Brother Li, I thought about it a lot, and now many people and the media like to associate AIDS with homosexuality, as if homosexuality is labeled as AIDS, I am very disgusted and angry about this!Don't heterosexuals have AIDS?But as a person in our circle, I still hope that we can clean up our bodies and love ourselves, even if we want to have sex, we must take safety measures!Stop being talked about by the media...

Personally, I absolutely do not discriminate against AIDS patients, and I don't mind sharing meals and shaking hands with them!

After resting at home for a few months, old classmates and good friends almost met and chatted.While lamenting that the years are not forgiving, I also found that I was really out. I was almost in my third year, and it was time to plan for my future.People like us, except for our different sexual orientation, are the same as others, so why not be proactive and work hard?Life must go on, struggle is endless!

Xiaopeng and I have been on the phone all the time, almost every day. He misses me very much and said he would come to Shenzhen to see me. I am naturally very happy, but will he come alone or with Chen Xiao?I don't know yet, I am looking forward to his arrival, and I really miss him very much!

But just when he was about to come to Shenzhen, I unexpectedly received a call from Chen Xiao. This call made me sad, regretted, and hard to let go!

(To be continued)