love on the other side

I could no longer control my desires, and hid in the small space of the train toilet, thinking that time would calm me down, but it never succeeded.So, I simply did it. Accompanied by a burst of extreme pleasure, I turned around and supported the wall with one hand, panting. My whole body felt extremely relaxed, as if a heavy burden had been lifted.

I went back to the officer in good spirits, when he woke up.

"Did you sleep well last night?" I asked.

"I didn't sleep much, I just closed my eyes for a while."

"I woke up and found myself lying on top of you, I'm so sorry!"

He didn't speak, just smiled slightly.

Near noon, I proposed to draw a portrait of him, but he refused in all possible ways, and finally he couldn't persuade me, so he had to reluctantly cooperate.He looked at the scenery outside the window for a while, and looked back with a smile for a while. His hands rested on his chin for a while, and put them between his legs for a while, and he looked very uncomfortable.Other people on the train seemed to be very interested in this matter, and they all came over to observe, and some pointed out.This made the officer even more embarrassed.

When I handed him the painted portrait, he looked at it for a long time, frowned, and asked:

"Is this me? Why does it look like a child?"

I smiled lightly and said to him, "That's what you look like to me."

In fact, no matter who I paint portraits, I like to childish them. I like the cleanliness and purity of children.

The people next to him laughed, and the officer held his chin with his hand and couldn't help laughing.

In order to thank me, he invited me to the restaurant for lunch at noon.We talked a lot in the dining room, and he started telling funny stories about his youth as a soldier, which always made me laugh.He said that his wife was married to him by his parents. When he came home one day, his parents let him into the room. When he opened the door, he saw his wife lying on the bed.In this way, they had their first son, and when I think about the time when my father and my mother were married and gave birth to me, I feel that what he said is so close to me.I like this father more and more, and I wish I were his son.Usually taciturn, I also began to tell him about my unfortunate experience.

After my father died, my mother remarried. Because of financial difficulties, my sister was sold to a hotel in the town as a pawn. Then my mother and stepfather left me and went away. There was no news, and I had to work as an apprentice in a shampoo shop.But the encounter in the shampoo shop is another gray memory. I can’t even talk about those dirty and filthy things.

"Anyway," I said, "I have to get out of the shampoo shop and start a new life."

"Why did you choose to go to Nanchang?" asked the officer.

"I don't know. I decided to go to Nanchang when I came to the train station. I can only see walking."

When the conductor came to check the ticket, it was quickly discovered that I hadn't bought a ticket.Just when I was feeling uneasy, the officer took out the money and said to the conductor, "give him a replacement ticket."

"Thank you, sir."

Again he said nothing, just smiled.

"I apologize to you too much, sir, I don't know if there is a chance to pay back."

He looked at me with gentle eyes, and then said kindly: "If you have any difficulties in the future, you can come to me." He said, and handed me a business card with "Colonel Fulinbo" written on it.I suddenly had a sore nose and tears fell.

The colonel patted me on the shoulder and encouraged me:

"Good boy, don't cry! This is just a small setback in life, and there is still a long way to go in the future. Be a man and be strong, you know?"

This, I think, is what a father should say to his children.It's a pity that my father passed away too early, otherwise, I would not shed tears easily at this time.The inner touch can't be expressed in words at all. It's like you suddenly meet the warm sunshine after a long search in the cold world. People who have never experienced it never know what lack means.

But as the train slowly entered Nanchang, strong sadness began to pervade my body.As soon as the train arrives at the station, the colonel and I will be separated, and I will be an orphan again, continuing my wandering journey.

I don't know if the colonel saw what was on my mind, but it was at the last moment that he asked the question I had been expecting.When we came out of the train station with our luggage on our backs and were about to part ways, he suddenly asked, "Have you found a place to live?"

It's not that I made up a lie to get him to take me in. In fact, I really have nowhere to go.The original plan was that if I couldn't find a hotel, I would build a floor under the overpass. This is nothing new to me.But when asked about it, I didn't tell the truth right away. I didn't want the colonel to feel how eager I was to go home with him.However, I couldn't find a reason to cheat, and I wanted to tell him from the bottom of my heart that I had nowhere to go.The result of the entanglement was that the other party found out that I was ashamed of being homeless.

"Or, live in our house first, you are not familiar with the place..."

At that moment, my happiness surpassed all the joys I had experienced in the past.I saw that the gorgeous sunset began to spread continuously, until the whole sky was dyed orange, and the world became transparent, bright, and filled with happy colors.

I nodded, everything was so natural.

The colonel put his hands on my shoulders like a big brother, led me forward, and whispered in my ear: "The children will be very happy to see you!"