love on the other side

I arrived in Chengdu, a city full of lights and feasting.

Wandering aimlessly in the streets has become my habit.Going straight along the highway, I don't know where it will lead.Squeezed in the bustling crowd, I was knocked left and right, and I didn't realize it.I took off my coat and put it on my shoulders, letting the evening wind caress my chest.I learned to drink and also learned to smoke.My clothes are so dirty I can't remember how long I haven't washed them, my beard is pulled and my hair is messy.When I was tired, I just squatted on the side of the street and poured myself wine one mouthful at a time.In fact, it's not that I don't have goals, and it's not that I don't have plans. The first step of the plan is to kill that glamorous fairy tale prince.

I spread out the big characters on the road, and I can sleep with my eyes closed.A container truck stopped a few meters away, and the driver was very angry. He rushed down and kicked me violently, cursing: "Damn, I want to stay away from you, don't stain my wheels! Crazy!" Roll to the side of the road and let him drive the car over.

I also go to bars, where loud music relieves the fear of silence.There are many painful people in the bar, they use indulgence to dispel the anguish in their hearts.In addition to drinking, they also smoke K powder, take pills, and inject cocaine.They are dejected and depressed, and the world in their eyes is black and gray. Most of their topics are sex and money. Sometimes they find someone to beat up violently when they are interested, and sometimes they even cause death.I met a few of these friends in the bar, drinking with them, eating K fans, and prostitutes, I found that they are not as evil as I imagined, on the contrary, they are much more humane than those who seem to be serious .Lan Mao is the man who dyed his hair blue and painted his lips purple. He wore a ring at the corner of his mouth, saying it was a gift from his boyfriend, but now his boyfriend has a new love.He swallowed a few pills, and jumped onto the dance floor to dance wildly to loud music and enchanting lights.In the indulgence, what I saw was the tears in the corners of his eyes, and the love without conversion.Scar is another friend who got his name from a five-centimeter scar on his neck.His explanation for this is that when he had sex with his girlfriend, in order to prove how much she loved him, his girlfriend tore a piece of skin on his neck with her nails.Now his girlfriend left him, but the scar could never be removed.

When three people are together, they don't need a lot of words, as long as they do something together, they quickly become brothers.Scar had his own VIP room in the bar, and the three of us used to party there.Three whores are called to attend to Scar, and a male whore to accompany Bluefur.I often drank alone by the side. After a long time, Scar and Blue Hair were very unhappy.

"What's the matter with you? Every time I invite someone to enjoy it, I really don't give face! Are you looking down on me or what?"

I smoked some powder, drank some wine, and when I heard what he said, I rushed over to hug him and kissed his scar.Seeing me approaching aggressively, he thought I was really going to fuck him, so he pushed and kicked me away, cursing:

"Fuck you pervert! I don't play with men!"

I laughed wildly at his seriousness.I joked with him, and he got serious. The real tricky person is himself, but he doesn't know it.He thought that hugging a few women and making love to each other meant that he liked women.

Lan Mao has always been very devoted, the male prostitutes in the bar serve him submissively, his profligate screams repeat one after another, making the whole room extremely obscene.Sometimes it even made me feel like my whole body was on fire. At this time, I had to run to the bathroom to vent my desire.Occasionally I meet someone I like, and I just have sex with him, and I want to invite him to dinner and watch a movie after the end. Every time he hears my thoughts, he will be surprised and say: "No, boss, you really want to Huh?" I was completely disappointed by this sentence.

After a few days in this decadent life, I saw my body was bruised and my face was withered.Looking at the strange face in the mirror, I suddenly screamed.The neighbors know who I am and don't ask.I kept yelling and yelling until I was tired and fell asleep on the bed like a pig.I knew in my heart that I couldn't go on like this.