Sadness on the Left Bank

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The moonlight of the summer night was lazily sprinkled on the floor.I didn't turn on the light, I was lying on the sofa alone, hugging the computer, the whole room was shaking slowly and sadly.This is how I always pass the time before bed.I don't like watching TV, it's too noisy.I don't like going to nightclubs, it's too noisy.Usually after get off work, home is my world alone.Cook, eat, clean up, take a shower, listen to music, and then get into the warm bed and fall asleep.However, every time before I go to bed, I still have a habit of checking my phone, and there are always a few missed calls and a few text messages.I laughed, these sisters didn't forget to invite me no matter what.Not even once have I been to one of their rich night parties.Most of the time, I am still used to living alone.My life, home, and company are completely two points and one line.I'm not pretending to be reserved, I just don't like lively scenes.However, I still can't refuse the company's occasional parties or entertainment.For three years, I still live quietly like this.Step into the office building with a smile every day, swipe the card, and go to work.Swipe your card and get off work.Sometimes, I also receive flowers, greeting cards and the like. The longest time was when someone sent me flowers for half a year in a row.I still don't have any attitude, and hand it over to the sisters in the company.Later I heard that he was a handsome chef of a western food restaurant.The sisters said it was a pity.But I don't think so.Since then, I have never stepped into that western restaurant again.I'm not in the mood to provoke anyone.

Our company is mainly engaged in cross-border trade, and its market prospects occupy the forefront of the world. In the past few years, we will expand our business projects.Therefore, a large-scale personnel transfer in the company recently.I was transferred to the market development department as a department manager.This is a matter of course, without any further explanation.In the past few years, I have worked hard, and I have done a good job in the planning department, and many proposals have been accepted as key projects.The economic benefits brought to the company are obvious to all.Later, Mr. Zhao from the planning department personally organized a farewell banquet for me.He said that I am the pride of the planning department and hoped that I would have greater development in the new field.Mr. Zhao is in his 40s. He is a very nice person with strong abilities, but he is not good at dealing with interpersonal relationships. He has no chance of promotion so far.I feel a little sorry.However, I am very grateful to him for his cultivation and support.At the party, Xiao Lu adjusted his gold-rimmed glasses with Baidu, and confessed to me loudly. He said he had a crush on me for three years, but he was too familiar to chase after me.He said sorry.I smiled and said, it's okay now.Then, everyone burst into laughter.He blushed and stammered, forget it.Suddenly, I don't know what's wrong, I feel a little uncomfortable in my heart.I was completely moved.With alcohol, Xiaoyue kept nagging, saying that I was not sincere.Never put a group of them in their eyes.Never participate in private parties, do not take the initiative to invite sisters to the house as a guest.Didn't care about anyone's feelings.I didn't make a sound.She silently bit her lip, tears streaming down her face.In the past three years, I have felt pain in my heart, but I can't say it.In the past three years, I have ignored the people around me for a man named Xiao Zhe.Not knowing where the courage came from, I stood up suddenly, picked up a glass of red wine, and poured it on my head without hesitation.I should live more soberly, shouldn't I?