embrace the memory of youth

Leaving the mourning hall, I passed the lively crowd, and they were all playing their roles well. I didn't say goodbye to the elders one by one, and walked towards the fourth uncle's house.

On the way to my fourth uncle's house, the cold wind was biting my bones. I crossed my hands on my chest to protect the heat in my body from being blown away by the cold wind. I suddenly became afraid of facing Liu Bing. I came to the fourth uncle's yard, I hesitated, and I turned to go to my home again, when a voice suddenly came from behind, "Brother Liu Yu, where are you going? Why don't you come in when you come back? I've been waiting for you for a long time."

It was Liu Bing's voice, and I explained, "Ah, uh, I left something at my grandma's house, I have to go get it"

"I'll go with you, anyway, without you, I'd be bored here"

"No, no, I can do it by myself. You are tired after working all day, and you are still messing around with me like this. You go back to rest first, and I will come over after I get my things."

"No, I want to go with you," he said coquettishly.

"Forget it, anyway, I don't need the things tonight, I'll go there tomorrow and get them back," I said helplessly.

I left him and walked into my fourth uncle's house. As soon as I entered the house, Xiong Hua glanced at me, snorted and turned my eyes to the TV. I leaned over to him and said, "You're not still angry with me, are you? A generous person like you shouldn’t take me seriously, our brother Xiong is a very generous person.”

"The stomach is indeed big enough, but Xiaoyu, you don't have to talk to Fatty Xiong in such a low-key manner. He's just as generous as he is, and other girls are better than him." Zike, who was beside him, made a voice.

"The dead monkey didn't brush his teeth in the morning, why is his mouth so smelly?" Xiong Hua said annoyed.

"What's wrong with my bad mouth, I don't want to kiss you again"

"Okay, Brother Xiong, don't be angry, okay?" I held Xiong Hua's hand and said.

"Whether you vomit or not, I get goosebumps all over the floor, so I won't care about a crybaby like you," Xiong Hua said contemptuously.

"Just don't care about it, hehe, then I'll sleep with you tonight."

Xiong Hua stared at me with wide eyes. At this moment, I could feel Liu Bing's displeasure. Touching his forehead, he said suspiciously, "I don't have a high fever, why are you talking nonsense?"

"I'm not sick. Don't you guys have to go back in two days? I don't have time to accompany you during the day. Only at night can I talk to you. Tonight I will sleep with you and talk to you more. Tomorrow night I will Sleeping with Zike, will you get the best of both worlds soon?"

"No" they both said in unison.

"why"

"There are so many whys, you think you are compiling a hundred thousand whys," Xiong Hua said impatiently.

"Agreed" Zike raised his hand and said.

"You're all here, see what I brought you." The fourth uncle raised the bag in his hand and said to us.

"What?" We all showed expressions of surprise.

"Dumplings, your boy is in charge of cooking in the kitchen, go quickly," the fourth uncle directed me and said.

"Why do you call me? There are so many people here," I said dissatisfied.

"Uncle, let me go. Brother Liu Yu has been busy all day today, let him rest for a while." Liu Bing took the bag from Fourth Uncle's hand and walked straight towards the kitchen.

"You kid learn from Bingbing, work hard, don't always ask you to do small things and bargain with me"

Half an hour later, Liu Bing brought out the cooked dumplings one by one, and my bowl had the largest portion. I might be too hungry, so I finished the dumplings in the bowl within a few minutes. After eating, they all returned I went to the room, leaving only Liu Bing and I to clean up the mess. It seemed that every time it was me and him, the atmosphere became awkward, and no one spoke.

Back in the room, he didn't hug me as habitually as before, he just lay down quietly, I could hear his breathing, very calm, but I could feel the magnificence in his heart, without his body Surrounded by the heat, I felt a bit of coolness and loneliness.

"Bingbing come and hug me, I'm cold" I made a sound in the dark night, breaking the tranquility.

He didn't move, but his shaking body stimulated my body, I turned around and hugged him, he cried even harder, I hurriedly said comfortingly, "Bingbing don't cry, please?"

"Brother Liu Yu, please don't treat me like this, don't avoid me, don't leave me, I'm really afraid of you like this, I'm full of you now, I miss you when I eat, I miss you when I go to work, I miss you when I drive, I beg you , don't hide from me, okay?" he cried.

"Bingbing, you think too much, I didn't want to hide from you, we are the best buddies."

"When you saw me, you said you were going to get things from grandma's house, and when you came back, you said you wanted to sleep with Big Brother Xiong and the others. Why are you hiding? Although I can't turn my head around sometimes, I can still see it. Are you going to hide from me just because I like you? Is it wrong to like someone?"

I let go of him, lay down side by side with him, and said lightly, "It's not wrong to like someone, but it's a mistake for you to like me. I'm born gay. I can't help myself when I like men, but you are different. You If you have a wife and children, you have to take this responsibility."

"I know, I will too, I just want you to be happy every day"

"As long as you treat your family responsibly, I will be happy, understand?"

"Um"

"Then you still come here and hug me, I'm really cold"

He quickly turned around and hugged me, this familiar heat wrapped me warmly, and we kept doing this until dawn.

In the early morning of the next day, I rushed to the mourning hall of my grandma early. It was already a lively scene. Today, distant relatives came to mourn. them.

At noon, Wang Zilan's family showed up. According to our local customs, they should not show up until tomorrow. I watched their family walking towards me in a daze. I first said hello to her parents. He has the same face as money.

Her mother was all smiles when she saw it. They knew that I didn't have time to accompany them, so they went to the grandma's mourning hall to burn a few sticks of incense, and then found a corner and sat down.

The night was the trick of last night again. The mage and the death band performed in turn, and a few unreliable distant relatives sang a few popular songs. I couldn't stand their out of place performances, so I walked to my grandma's mourning hall alone .

There was a figure illuminated by candlelight inside. I walked in and saw that it was my uncle.

"Uncle, why are you here alone?"

"I don't really like the lively scene outside. How nice it is that you are quiet and accompanied by your grandma," he said clearly.

"I don't like outside shows very much. Sometimes I really miss my childhood. At that time, you often carried me outside to play. I remember once you carried me on your back and fell into the field. Both of you were covered in mud and water. You were afraid that grandma would know. So I took me back to the river to take a bath, but my grandma found out.”

"You still have the nerve to say that time, your grandma said she was going to beat me, so you quickly found a stick for her," he said aggrievedly.

"Haha~~ Who told you not to carry me well and send me to the fields?"

"It's not bad to say that you are a white-eyed wolf. If I hadn't carried you on my back every day, I would be a few centimeters shorter than you now," he said innocently.

I chattered with him a few words and left alone. The next day, the foreign guests came to mourn my grandma. This time my task was still to receive the guests. The fourth uncle came over early. He didn’t have the old hippie smile. Very serious, I just bowed deeply like receiving other guests, and then Zike and Xiong Hua appeared together, they are people who understand the world, they wear plain makeup, and Zike usually wears colorful clothes , I have known him for so long and saw him dressed in black for the first time.

After that came Liu Bing's family. This was the third time I saw their whole family appear in front of me when I came back. I said hello to them shallowly.

Today's foreign guests plus close and distant relatives from the previous two days gathered forty or fifty tables. This time, the small village was completely lively. The empty space in the village was filled with tables for eating and drinking. When it opened at noon, Like a vegetable market, it is very lively.

After today is the day when grandma was buried in the earth. With a heavy heart, I followed the crowd to Zushan in grandma's village. Perhaps this mountain has not been visited for a long time, and it is full of weeds. It is still blue in winter. , we arrived at the pit that had already been dug. The mage came one step earlier, walked around the pit, and chanted some incomprehensible spells. This process took nearly an hour, and then put grandma’s coffin in In the pit, maybe I have become numb, and the tears in my eyes did not come out. Although I know that I will never hear grandma nagging me again in this life, I wish grandma deeply from the bottom of my heart, you have a good journey .