bear hand

Looking at Lu Chen in front of me, I don't know what to say, everything I did today was for him, but did I pay too much?It's true that he likes me, but it's just between friends. He is a straight man, and straight men can't be touched.I firmly believe in this sentence, but what am I doing today?

Lu Chen walked up to me and looked at me.Not a word. "Is that person dead?" Lu Chen nodded, tears rolled in his eyes, it was the first time he looked at him closely at such a close distance, his face was not round, with a light beard, like a woman The same white skin, maybe this face will belong to a certain woman in the future. Thinking of this, I also thought that the distance between us is not only a few centimeters, but also the gap between homosexuality and heterosexuality that can never be crossed. He can't cross the river, and I can't cross it.It can only stay like this forever.Maybe this is good for each other. I turned my head and walked to the edge of the cliff. Although the back mountain is not high, the possibility of jumping from here and surviving is not high. I regret what I did today, but I can't stand the life in prison. .Maybe death is the best relief

Lu Chen, seeing my intention, hugged me from behind.He hugged tightly, without too many nasty words, but simply said three words: "Surrender yourself."

Me: "Yeah, surrender? It's easy to say. But you know me"

Lu Chen: "Yes, I know you well, you like freedom and don't like being controlled by others"

Me: "Then why did you tell me to surrender yourself?"

Lu Chen: "You like men, and I am one of them"

I:"!!"

Lu Chen: "I knew it a long time ago, but I just didn't want to accept it. I'm a normal person, and I really can't accept that."

Me: "That's not better, if I leave, no one will pester you anymore, and I'm relieved"

Lu Chen: "But today I need some time, I believe that time can change me, I believe that one day I will fall in love with you, so you have to live"

I slapped him straight across the face

Me: "You fucking came here just to tell me this? I don't need your pity. What I did today is completely displeased with me. The relationship with you is not as sentimental as you. I like men. Really, but don't think that I like you because I follow you all day, there are more good men in the world than you, no one I have ever slept with is better than you, "

Lu Chen: ""

I:""

Lu Chen: "Do you still remember what you promised me on my birthday?"

I:""

Lu Chen: "You said that you owe me a birthday present, which is a wish. Well, my wish is that you can live."

After Lu Chen said these words, he went down the mountain. I never thought that I would tell Lu Chen that the man I had slept with was better than him?I'm still a bear! ! !I got so angry today, I don't know why, maybe I expected too much, I want to hear Lu Chen say that he loves me.But if what he said today is changed to the usual one, I might be very happy.but today is different

After peace of mind, I still decided to fulfill his wish and live. I decided to surrender to the local police station. No matter how many years the sentence will be, I will live a good life.