Fat Guangge's happy time

The twelve o'clock bell has already rang, and it is already the early morning of the first day of the new year.There is no snow at this time of year, the night sky is clear, bright moon, bright stars.Sima Xi breathed the cold and fresh air in the courtyard, and looked up at the distant sky.In the vast Milky Way, I don't know how many Cowherd and Weaver Girl are facing each other far away.Where does the bright morning star lead the confused people to go?

Sima Xi tried to recall what happened in the past, but was surprised to find that the college classmate he had a crush on, now his appearance is blurred, whether he is handsome or ugly, tall or short, he can't remember at all.why?But does it matter?Does it make sense to your life?

The long road of life, where is the way back?His father has always imposed his unfulfilled dreams on himself; for many years, he has lived like a shadow.As a comrade, I have always been troubled by inner anxiety, and I never dare to let go of my heart easily.But all of this was disrupted by Fatty Guang. As time went on, and the longer the contact between the two, Sima Xi felt that his concentration was slowly fading away.

Dad, you have always hoped that I would be a successful person who is indomitable and glorious, but, you know, I am just a child who is lonely and has nothing to rely on.You taught me knowledge, taught me to be self-respecting and self-improving, and taught me to be polite, but you never cared about my feelings, my feelings.Did you really love me, or just your dreams?How much I long for a true love, a person who truly loves me, who understands and cares for each other.The lover who will accompany you for a lifetime, can I have it in this life?

Sima Xi looked at the sky in confusion, a meteor flew across the sky, dragged the light trail, and slid down, until it slid down to the bottom of Sima Xi's heart.Like lightning, it illuminates Sima Xi's world; like a flying arrow, it pierces Sima Xi's heart.The stabbing pain of sobriety made Sima Xi tremble all over.

Yes, Brother Guang, I am not only satisfied with you, but just being a brother!

Sima Xi returned to the house.The fat man had not slept soundly, and his thick leg was already outside the quilt.Sima Xi put it back, then stretched out his hand to touch Fatty's bare dick, it was still a soft lump.He tightened the quilt tightly, then took out the fat man's naked pocket, took out a cigarette, and lit it.Sima Xi didn't know how to smoke at all, and the inferior smoke was inhaled into his throat, causing Sima Xi to cough unceasingly.The anguish in his heart still hovered.

It's not that Sima Xi has never heard of the matter of breaking up with a straight man. Maybe such a straight man is not very straight.But my brother Guang has been married three times.I touched his body several times, but Fatty's bare body didn't respond.It seems that Brother Guang is really a straight man.Could it be that in this life, I can only be brothers with him?Even if he puts aside his feelings, in order to satisfy his desire, even if he no longer gets married, he can still find a chicken to solve it.But what should I do, should I find another man by myself?No, never!It is impossible for me to love brother Guang, but have sex with other men without emotion.Such a thing, I absolutely cannot accept.

Brother Guang, where do you want me, Sima Xi, to go?If the two of us continue like this, I will definitely lose control of myself, and I can't help myself like today.

I remembered the pain when Fatty found out that he was gay and left without saying goodbye.Sima Xi felt sore in his heart.Moonlight came in from the window, covering Fatty Guang's dreamland.The fat man was snoring lightly, with a slight smile on his chubby round face.What kind of dream is he having?Such simple, honest and cute, soft cheeks, round lips slightly open, like the ripe red apples in autumn, with a crack in their mature grins, exuding a seductive fragrance, which makes people want to lean on them involuntarily. , take a bite.

Sima Xi raised his head and looked at the bright moon in the sky outside the window, and sighed: I originally set my heart on the bright moon, but the bright moon shines on the ditch! (Note 1)

Note 1: There are different sources of this poem.meaning is:

Elegant explanation: Luohua intends to fall in love with running water, while flowing water has no intention of falling in love with falling flowers.

Vulgar explanation: I wanted to pee on you, but you didn't pee on me.

Simple explanation: I talk to you, but you don't talk to me.