Qiyue Ruomeng

"Nan Ziruo, I like you." I bit my lip and said cruelly.

"..." Nan Ziruo looked at me in surprise, but said nothing.

"Nan Ziruo, I told you that there is no other meaning. I never thought of disturbing your life with Chi Ai. I just don't want to lie to myself. I like you very much. I have liked you for a long time. From the first time After the monthly exam, I was sure that I liked you because of your concern and your hug. I have no courage, and I have never dared to tell you. Listening to you talking about your love with her, I feel really sad. Today It feels much better to say it, you don't need to give me any answer, I love you is my business, it has nothing to do with you. You still have your life, so please live happily. I bless you and Chi Ai. " When I said this, I said it in the calmest tone.After speaking, tears fell down uncontrollably.

Time seemed to have stopped, Nan Ziruo had no expression on his face.I don't know if she will get bored with me or what will happen after she knows that I like her, I know that Nan Ziruo will say everything.

"It's late, go to sleep." I smiled wryly.Then covered the quilt, turned around, not daring to look at Nan Ziruo again.

"Qiyue, I don't know if I did something to make you misunderstand. I have always regarded you as my best friend, and I have never thought about being with you. Because you are so good, I don't think I am worthy I love you. I'm sorry, Qiyue, you have always been my best friend." Nan Ziruo said with a sigh.

The tears couldn't stop flowing, and I didn't say anything, knowing that she didn't want to embarrass me too much by her tactful refusal.I laughed in my heart that I was too stupid, love really hurts.

After the final exam, Nan Ziruo and I never saw each other again.Maybe she was afraid of embarrassment, so she didn't live in the school these days.I also readily accept that my character has always been like this. My stubborn self only allows myself to be sad for one night, and a new day is a new beginning.

On the day I got the notice, I didn't go to school, I asked my dad to get it.Because I returned to country Y where I stayed for five years.Right now I need to be alone.This summer, the top 10 students in arts and sciences can choose whether to go back to school to make up lessons, and other students have to make up lessons. This is the school's practice.

I don't want to go back to school because I'm afraid of seeing her.Chi Ai's grades are not bad, but she should not be in the top ten in the exam, so she has to make up lessons. I think Nan Ziruo will definitely accompany her to make up lessons.So let's stay in country Y alone, I can just think about how to go in the future.

Watching the rain outside the window is just right for me.

"Hello, Dad?" Looking at the rain scene outside the window, holding a book of English poetry in his hand, Dad's call came.

"Qiyue, a boy named Zuo Xuan came to your house to look for you. I gave him your phone number from country Y. He should call you. Dad will tell you. Remember when you are tired from playing. Come back soon." Dad's voice came from the other side of the ocean, suddenly his nose became sour, and after meeting Nan Ziruo, I cried more and more.

"Okay, Dad, I understand." I hung up the phone, and then looked down at the English poetry book, which was already wet.

After hanging up on Dad's phone, Zuo Xuan called in not long after.

"Qiyue, why did you go abroad? Can you take care of yourself in such poor health?" Zuo Xuan's anxious voice was still full of concern.

"Don't worry about me. I've been in country Y for five years. I can't take care of myself if I live alone." I chuckled.

"When will you be back?" Zuo Xuan asked.

"The summer vacation is over, I still want to go on a trip to relax." I want to improve my ability to communicate with others, I don't want to be that boring Lin Qiyue.Even I started to hate myself like that.

"Then you must call me when you come back, and I will pick you up." Zuo Xuan still said gently.

"Okay." He hung up the phone and began to search for where he was going.

I haven't contacted Nan Ziruo this summer vacation. She doesn't know my foreign mobile phone number. I don't think she would contact me even if she knew.

During this time, I learned many stories about same-sex love.Foreign countries are relatively open, and many people accept this kind of thing, unlike domestic people who think it is a disease.

The last stop of the summer vacation, I went to a small town with beautiful mountains and rivers.That small town is like a paradise, with large grasslands, forests and waterfalls.I'm really obsessed with this place, I thought a few times to just stay in this place.

Along the way, I met a lot of people, and I became a lot more cheerful.Many unhappy things began to slowly let go.