Before you wake up, love well

"Let me tell you my story. After listening to this story, you will be relieved of many things."

"Well, tell me, I like to hear other people's stories, especially ones as enigmatic as yourself."

"A mysterious character, huh, am I? It's just that I don't like being known by too many people. It is very dangerous for a person who has no secret to be completely naked in front of others, because you may be attacked by unexpected attacks at any time, and you are Someone worthy of my trust, isn't it?"

she laughs.Said, "You put this high hat on me, how can I tell your story? Come on, while you talk, I eat boiled fish. When you finish telling the story, I think this I have wiped out all the pots of boiled fish."

"It's okay, it's not enough, let's have another pot. I started to tell my story: I was born in a small city in the north. I was happy for a short time when I was young. But I was still young at that time. In fact, the so-called happiness was in my head. There are not too many traces in it. From the time I was sensible, my father was often not at home, and my mother took care of everything in the house. After a long time, I got used to the life of two people, and even imagined a happy life for a family of three. But Every time my father comes back, I feel uncomfortable. I don't know what he is usually busy with. But I know that he doesn't come back, not because he is too busy with work. But I often think, such a relationship between two people The day is also very good.

"It's been a long time, and I can occasionally see my mother crying alone. But when two people meet, they quarrel. Later, my mother told me that your father has another woman outside. I told my mother at that time, then you divorce, we The two lived together. My mother said, I thought about it, but you are still young, and divorce will have a great impact on you, so let's just let it go and wait until you are admitted to university.

"At that time, I only had one thought, which was that I could grow up quickly and get admitted to a university. I could take my mother away from this man who broke her heart. I have been studying very hard, and I was admitted to a good junior high school, and I was admitted to the city. I was admitted to a prestigious high school, and then I was admitted to a prestigious university. I thought everything would change, but apart from the change in my fate, my mother's life remained the same.

"Maybe because of my childhood life, I had a lot of psychological problems. I often felt insecure. When I was 22 years old, I found that I didn't like girls, but the kind of honest and burly boys."

"What, are you gay?" She was concentrating on biting the fish steak, and when I said this, the fish steak on her chopsticks fell onto the tray.

"What's wrong? Are you prejudiced against gays?"

"No, no, there is no prejudice, I just think that homosexuality is sissy, and the behavior is very feminine. I didn't expect a man like you to be gay."

"Don't be misled by movies, TV or similar novels. Most of the people I know in the circle are normal men with the temperament that men should have. It is not ruled out that there are feminine ones, but that It's just gender role misalignment, not real homosexuality. And not many people like feminine men. We're not demons, we just choose differently from the average person."

"Ok, you'd better tell your story first, I'll organize my thoughts, what happened next?"

"What kind of thoughts do you adjust when I tell the story? Hehe. When I graduated from college, I completely disregarded the dissuasion of my brothers, friends and teachers, and gave up the opportunity to stay in the newspaper group in that city. I resolutely returned to the small town where I was born as a A high school teacher. And it’s just because my mother said: Son, you should come back to work.”