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My story is nothing grand, and there is no vow of eternal love, just a touch of heavy memory, just a long and melancholy wait.

That year, Yan Jiasheng went to Guangzhou to go to high school, and I was still studying in the third grade of junior high school five miles away from Yanjiaping. Since he got in the car and left that day, I felt like I was missing something. He seemed to take away what was empty. After school, I often sat alone on the big rock on the hillside on the left side of the entrance of the village in a daze, sometimes thinking of what Yan Jiasheng had said to me and giggling silly.

One day, my mother thought I was not feeling well, so she forced me to go to see a doctor. After I tried my best to resist, my mother thought that I was going against the evil spirits, and invited a ghost to go home and make a big fuss. Fan, I kept hiding in the room and didn't go out. The hag finished casting the 'ghost' and left, so I walked out of the room.

At this time, I didn’t know what a comrade was, but I only knew that I liked the feeling when I was with Yan Jiasheng. I don’t know when I just follow him, I will have a very solid and warm feeling, and his casual greetings will also make me feel happy. It was very heartwarming, but this feeling disappeared after he left. At this time, there was another feeling, hesitation, anticipation, hesitation because I didn't know when we would see each other again, and anticipation because I hoped to be with him again.

He left for a month, and we had no contact at all. One day after school, I finally couldn't bear to go to his home to inquire about him. His parents kicked me out on the grounds that they wouldn't let me disturb his studies. Didn't tell me any news about him, I kind of hated myself why I forgot to ask him for an address so that I could write a letter and send it, and when I got home disappointed, I locked myself in the room, for no reason, It's a letter to him, I want to tell him how much I miss him at this moment, this is the first letter I write to him, I don't know where to mail the letter.

"Brother Sheng, let me say hello before I write. You have been away from Yanjiaping for a while, how are you doing recently? Are you tired of studying in Guangzhou! Will you think of me? I think of you every day these days, hehe! Really I really want to. The village of Yanjiaping feels empty without you. Brother Sheng, I think I’m in love with you. Although it’s ridiculous, I can’t control myself. I’m sorry! Please forgive me, By the way, it’s autumn now, pay attention to your body, don’t forget to add clothes when the weather is cold, let’s stop writing when it’s done!——Miaozi

92/10/20 "

After I finished writing the letter, I folded it and stuffed it into an envelope. On the envelope was only written the four words 'Yanjiajia's acceptance', without a zip code or address, and I stuck it in my notebook.

Every day after school, I secretly went outside his house to take a look. Every time the door was closed, every time I would hallucinate that Yan Jiasheng would open the door and come out from there, but the hallucination was always an hallucination.

At the end of the year, the school was about to have a holiday, everyone was cleaning, and all the students were very happy about the holiday, while I was cleaning the glass on the window with a rag in my hand, suddenly "Min Miao, you have a letter"

I turned around, and the head teacher was holding the letter to me in his hand. My heart was shocked on the spot. I guessed that it was the letter from Yan Jiasheng. After receiving it, "Thank you teacher"

Seeing the mailing address and my name displayed in neat handwriting on the envelope, yes, it was really him, I put the letter in my pocket, and continued to wipe the glass, my heart was as sweet as honey, and the action of cleaning the window was also obvious It's almost here, I feel like I can't wait, the news that I've been waiting for for almost half a year is finally here.

After school, I was running on the way home, holding the letter from Yan Jiasheng tightly in my hand. I ran wildly and didn’t go home. I arrived at the old place where I watched the sunrise with him, on the big rock on the mountain next to the entrance of the village. After sitting down, I opened it with trembling hands, and the shadow of the fair word came into view. After reading it, my tears welled up, and I actually stood up with my hands crossed by my mouth, "Yan Jiasheng!" A cry, a cry of exhaustion, and tears came even more violently after shouting.

When it was dark, I went down the mountain and went home. Just after entering the door, I said, "Miao... have you gone crazy again? You don't know how to go home after school."

"No... it's a holiday, I went to play with my classmates." I lied a little, turned around and entered the room, for fear that my mother would find out that I cried just now, so I had to avoid her.

I put the schoolbag on the table, and the letter was in the notebook with the one I wrote to him half a year ago. Crying doesn’t mean I’m sad, crying doesn’t mean I’m sad, I cry because I’m moved, I cry Because he was happy, he didn't forget me, and that alone was enough.

"Miao! Come out to eat!"

"coming!"

For dinner, sweet potato porridge is no exception. The dish is still Chinese cabbage, but I am full. "Mom! Can I continue to study in high school?" After I was full, I asked my mother such a question.

My mother thought about it for a long time, and the corners of her eyes were a little wet. I thought it would be difficult for her to answer my question, because the environment at home simply did not allow it. A hen that lays eggs has no other income at all.I knew exactly why my mother was crying, so I said, "Mom! Don't be sad, I'm just talking! Actually, I'm not a student at all!"

My mother still didn't smile, and she was cleaning up the dishes with an ugly face. At this time, I hated myself why I made my mother feel uncomfortable, and even more hated the "father" who abandoned us irresponsibly, and let my mother bear the burden of the family alone. My mother only asked me to take a shower and go to bed early, and didn't tell me anything else. She also took a shower early and went back to the room.

It was a bit cold in winter, I boiled a pot of hot water in the kitchen, took a shower, and went back to the main room, the light in my mother’s room was turned off, when I passed by the door of her room, I heard the sound of sobbing, I must be my mother crying up.I didn't knock on the door or call her. I knew that no matter what I said or did at this time, my mother would not answer me and would not stop being sad.

After returning to the room, I didn’t immediately get under the covers. I took out the letter from Yan Jiasheng from the notebook on the desk and read it over and over again. Waking up is already lunch time.

After dinner, I went back to my room and took out the letter I wrote to Yan Jiasheng a few months ago. I wrote the address and zip code. I decided to send this letter to Yan Jiasheng. I put the letter in my pocket and slipped out of the house. , holding my only savings of [-] cents in my hand to buy stamps, I came to the post office, and within a few minutes of entering, I came out disappointed, because my money could not buy a stamp sent to Guangzhou, It was only two cents short, and the letter was not delivered, so I had no choice but to go home.

Speaking of this, I took off my glasses, my eye sockets were a little wet, I rubbed my eyes, and sighed long.

"What's the content of Mr. Yan's letter to you?" Tang Zhicheng looked sad.

"Is there any water? I'm thirsty"

"I'll pour it for you!" Tang Zhicheng stood up, picked up the glass and poured me a glass of boiled water.

He sat down and stared at me, and I took a sip of my saliva." One sentence in his letter was "there is no evidence for the geese to come, and the road away is hard to return to. I totally thought he felt the same way about me, and this letter changed my life forever"