What world is Lixiang in today?

The light in the office without any natural light is very dark, only the writing desk with an extra lamp is slightly brighter. The man sitting there has short fluffy brown hair and pale skin that is almost bloodless. The iris-colored pupils covered by thick bandages are like a bottomless abyss, no one can clearly see the emotions hidden under those pupils.

He is the leader of portmafia,? The 22-year-old young man looks much younger than the impression given by this name,? But when he glances at you with those shining eyes, you will be shocked Will realize that he is a well-deserved mafia, whether he was born that way or has lived in the dark for so long that he has become one with it—

He is darkness,? He is death.

"Dazai."

The leader raised his head from the piles of documents. Before him was a scene that he had seen for several years like a day. Central Plains also had a rare vacation. Yin went to convey orders, and Dun Jun also went on a mission. This dark gangster exploded with red He should be the only one in the room with Hei.

But he heard an unexpected, familiar yet unfamiliar voice.

"Dazai."

Beside the leader is a mysterious man, with short wine-red hair, messy stubble on his chin, and gray-blue eyes as cold as ice.

No one knows where he came from, no one knows his name, only know that the leader called him "Oda Zuo"

Some people speculate that he is a new superpower discovered by the leader. His ability may be invisibility or teleportation,? Because someone saw him suddenly appearing and disappearing suddenly? Some people speculated that he had actually been following the leader as a secret method before,? It's just that what's happening now, the reason they don't know makes him have to show up to protect the leader.

No one will explain all these speculations to them, because no one dares to take the initiative to ask the leader. When asking another cadre who has been closely guarding the leader for a long time, the other party just reprimands people not to talk about the leader's plan. .

So the mysterious man remained with the mafia leader as a puzzle.

"Won't you take a break?"

Odasaku looked at the young man who was standing in front of the desk like a statue, except flipping files and writing notes, as if he hadn't even blinked his eyes, couldn't help asking.

The person who heard this didn't make any substantive actions, and just replied softly: "Well, I will take a rest after dealing with these."

Oda Saku knew that his persuasion had failed. Ever since he was born from the Holy Grail and came to the side of the "leader of mafia", he didn't seem to have seen this person take a rest. Going to the rooftop for a walk and then being dragged down by Nakahara Nakaya, who was furious. The cotton candy-like bedding and the bed curtains with exquisite tassels seemed to be just a part of the decorations in the room that had no real function, and had never been used. Pass.

He wanted to help with some things, but it was useless. The official documents on the leader's desk were taken away and sent in piles one after another. With his level, he could do nothing but add chaos.

He never seemed to know that this person could do this. The speed of approving a document was not even enough for him to read the first three lines. Working day and night without sleep made him, who has become an inhuman, feel it just by looking at it. tired.

"Let me get you a glass of water," he said.

"I want to drink coffee, pure coffee." The leader replied with a smile after hearing this.

"You've already drank three cups of coffee today, and your stomach won't be able to take it anymore." Odasaku frowned in disapproval. No matter which world he was in, this person never seemed to take his body seriously. "I'm going to get a glass of warm water."

The leader raised his head, as if he wanted to say something, but he gave up, and looked at the document in his hand while answering: "...OK."

Odasaku felt a dull pain in his heart for no reason, he never thought that this child should be so sensible, he should be more lively and love to act like a baby.

But he didn't know what he could do. He looked at the leader in front of him, and felt that there was a world away between him and him.

——No, they are indeed separated by a world so far away that Odasaku feels uncomfortable. He has never been so far away from that child named Osamu Dazai. Even at the moment of his death, he can relax He touched the softest part of the child's heart.

But at this moment, he felt that he was standing on the other side of the abyss looking at this person. The only bridge had been cut off. Through the thick fog, he couldn't even see the other person's figure clearly. He was indeed still on that cliff.

"Dazai."

he shouted.

The leader at work froze and asked without raising his head, "What's wrong?"

"...No, nothing."

Oda Saku swallowed all the concerns and worries he wanted to say, swallowed all the questions he wanted to ask, but Ruyan poured a cup of warm water and placed it on the leader's table.

Too much pity would just cause unnecessary shaking, he knew that.

The leader stands on the roof of the mafia building, overlooking the bottom, and in about 10 minutes a certain slug will find out his sneaking behavior, and then come to take him away from this position that is simply a target for snipers.

In fact, he would not be killed by those snipers. If he was so easy to die as the leader of Mafia, then he would have died countless times.

He is the leader of mafia, ruling the night of this city and dominating the entire dark society.

Perhaps Mr. Mori is right, he is indeed a natural mafia, and the greatest sorrow of his enemy is that as his enemy, there is no detail that can escape his clever calculations, even Zhongyuan Zhong, who can be called an old enemy, has to Acknowledging that nothing would go wrong as long as he followed his plan.

Of course not, because all of this has been planned four years ago, or earlier——

He looked at the last gleam of orange-red light on the distant sea level.

It's so beautiful, he thought, how long has it been since he gazed at the world for a while?

Then he remembered something, the same golden-red dusk, the afterglow of the setting sun filled the bungalow, rendering the atmosphere ambiguous and warm, as if there had never been a death fight there, just like the people lying there Not dying.

He suddenly felt the pain, the pain from the heart burned this broken soul like a flame, he heard his soul crying, screaming, questioning why he had to see this scene, questioning why he had to To bear such a pain that does not belong to me.

— Pain that does not belong to me.

But does it really not belong to him?

— the moment of salvation belongs.

But is it really saved?

--I……

But I didn't get anything.

— No, I... did get it.

Perhaps he is the only one who has been redeemed?

At least every second of his life now makes sense to him.

—for, only, the world where that person lives and writes novels.

It makes sense——

As long as you think like this, you can hold on, no matter how difficult or painful it is.

"Dazai."

The leader heard a familiar voice coming from behind, and Odasaku was standing there, his shadow reflected in his gray-blue eyes.

"Ah, Oda Tsukuru." He turned around, raised the corners of his mouth to show a smile, but he didn't seem to be able to laugh like he remembered, so he had to put away his smile to avoid being seen by the other party Distorted expression.

Odasaku walked up to him and said, "The sunset is so beautiful."

"Yeah, the scenery from here is beautiful." He also looked at the peripheral vision again, but unfortunately, when he turned his head, the last ray of red sun had disappeared on the sea level, leaving only Burning general cloud.

"Yeah." Oda Saku agreed, and then stood beside him so quietly.

"Ah, it might be a good choice to die with the sun at dusk, isn't it, Odasaku." The leader said, with a viscous and dense sadness in his tone.

"...Ah, I think so, it sounds very romantic." Odasaku replied, "But the sun will rise again tomorrow."

"That's right, the sun won't die." The leader then laughed, that kind of sinister smile, as if he was laughing at something, "Ah, the only one who dies in the end is me—"

"Isn't it pretty good?" He turned his head and looked at Oda Zuku. When the light became dimmer, the people in front of him would light up like flashes—those golden, dazzling particles seemed to show him Already a fact of the dead.

"..." Odasaku seemed to want to say something, but he held back.

The leader reluctantly bent his eyebrows at him.

Yes, that's it, don't say it, this distance is the limit——

If you get any closer—

I will become not me.

Lupine's Bar is, as always, huddled in the corner like a badger's den.

The leader stood in front of the door, gently touching the hanging bell at the door, creating the feeling of constantly opening and closing the door as if many people were coming in and out.

Odasaku was standing beside him, and he asked, "Aren't you going in?"

The leader shook his head: "There are people inside."

"Ah, so you don't go in?" Odasaku naturally knew who was in the bar, so he asked again.

"No need." The leader laughed, and Odasaku realized that this was the first time he saw such a normal smile on this person in such a long time, "It's no longer necessary."

"Is that so..." Odasaku didn't ask any more questions.

"You can take a walk with me." The leader turned around and walked in the opposite direction from the bar.

Odasaku was a little surprised, this seemed to be the first time the leader took the initiative to invite him to go with him - he had indeed stayed by this person's side for a while before, but the other party just didn't refuse his approach.

So he said, "Okay."

The leader walked forward naturally, and Oda Saku followed. He didn't care much about where he went, because he knew that the leader must be very skillful in avoiding surveillance, and it didn't matter even if someone attacked him. He was no longer a human being. On the contrary, it has stronger strength than before.

So the two walked quietly, all the way to the beach.

"It's almost dusk again..." the leader sighed.

"Ah." Odasaku couldn't help but reached out and rubbed the fluffy curly hair of the leader, "You haven't had a good rest for many days, do you want to rest for a while?"

"I'm resting right now." The leader smiled, "If that doesn't count, what else can I do?"

Odasaku felt that this person was unexpectedly lively today, he thought for a while, and then said: "Tell me anything, about you."

"Well, since you've said that, let me talk about it~" The leader started the conversation, just like when Oda Sakunosuke and Dazai Osamu were in the bar.

"Listen to me, I didn't bring Akutagawa-kun back four years ago! When I went to find him, he left his sister and ran to take revenge, so I gave Silver who was almost dead Bring it back."

"Well, my decision is really correct!" His tone was a bit smug, "It's so cute, as expected, such a pretty little girl shouldn't be a martial artist, isn't she grown up now? Is she a slim beauty!"

If other mafia members saw such a leader, they would probably be so shocked that they would faint, because at this moment, this incarnation of darkness, which frightened countless people, was gesticulating and talking like a child.

Odasaku just nodded calmly, and gave a pertinent evaluation: "Gin is indeed beautiful, but she also has a good training in gymnastics."

"There's nothing I can do about it~" the leader muttered, "Xiaoyin is my secretary after all, if she doesn't practice any physical skills, she probably won't be able to survive from the very beginning."

"Yes, it's really hard work."

"But Akutagawa will definitely be super difficult to teach compared to Atsushi-kun." The leader changed the subject, "Akatsuki's child is really obedient, although he is a bit dead-headed and has a knot in his heart, but he will definitely be able to untie it later. "

"...Really." Odasaku nodded, "He is indeed a good boy."

"Right, right, and Jinghua, she is a very likable child in essence. As long as she leaves mafia, she will probably have a good life. When she is able to join the detective agency, I will prepare for her." It was a pretty nice initiation ceremony.”

"You want her to leave mafia?" Odasaku was a little surprised.

"That's right, that child is not suitable for this place. She only stayed here for Dunjun. If Dunjun left, she would have no reason to stay." The leader said quite amazing words, "In fact, Dunjun is not suitable Mafia, but if you bring Akutagawa-kun into mafia, there will be no possibility of leaving.”

"Did you bring them into mafia just to make them leave?" Oda Saku didn't think of this, "Then what will mafia do after that?"

In fact, he didn't care too much about mafia, he just cared about the mafia leader in front of him.

"Not really, I just did this for today's arrival—" The leader looked indifferent, as if what he said was not a topic related to the future of Mafia, "Will there be Slug and Sister Hongye in the future, leave it to them Alright!"

"..."

Odasaku was silent for a while, then stopped talking.

"By the way, Akutagawa-kun seems to have met a very good senior, and he gets along well with the detective agency~" The leader was indeed in a good mood, "I was worried that he would be directly sent to the police/station."

In Akutagawa's words, he really doesn't seem like someone who can stand on the side of saving people, Oda Saku thought.

But compared to the leader who was in a good mood, he felt indescribably bitter. That feeling of sadness clenched his heart that had actually stopped a long time ago, making him speechless.

"Gin won't stay in Mafia after that, I've arranged a few places to go, she's smart enough to understand what I mean, and she can go back to Akutagawa after she settles down.",

"Also, over there at the orphanage..."

"Dazai."

Odasaku interrupted him, raised his head, stared into Dazai's eyes, "What about you?"

"what?"

"Tell me about yourself." Odasaku said to him, "Tell me about yourself, Dazai."

"They're all going towards tomorrow, so their past is in the past, what about you?"

Oda Saku had understood that this was the last chance, so he had to say everything he wanted to say—otherwise he would never be able to forgive himself.

"I want to know your story."

"I--"

"I want to hear your voice."

The leader froze.

He takes a step back.

I can't get any closer, if I get any closer, I won't be me——

But who is "I"?

He lowered his head, mist formed in his eyes.

"It's hard work..." he said, and the cheerful tone just now fell like a bird that has been shot. Falling into a long sleep—wearied from ages ago."

Lead the organization without you to fight against mimic, inherit the mantle of Mr. Mori, fight against everything in sight, and continuously expand the strength of mafia——

I don't know how long ago I was so tired that I didn't even want to move my fingers.

Even so, he continued, he was no longer the Dazai Osamu who longed for someone to understand him, but an empty shell that even killed loneliness itself.

It was not until the arrival of Oda Tsukuru that the dead souls gradually woke up, and the lonely cry that had been sealed up sounded again——

Because of the existence of Oda Saku, he will change back to "Dazai Osamu".

Because Oda Saku can always see through his hard shell and see the "Osamu Dazai" that even he himself can't get back.

The voice choked up.

"Don't say it, Odasaku, don't say that, don't say—"

Only you, don't pity me, if even you think I need pity, if even you think that everything I do is meaningless—

that's really pointless

"I see."

Odasaku responded by opening his arms and hugging the crying child in front of him.

"So, let's go together, in the evening - to embrace the last sunset."

What exactly is Odasaku to Mr. Shoto?

Is everything really worth it?

Does everything you guard really make sense?

What have you been doing so far?

I don't understand, I don't understand all this.

The feeling of killing yourself with your own hands is really painful. The suffocation of denying redemption with your own hands has already drowned this body. The leader who lives to death doesn't even know what he is. There is no light in front of him, and the light is killed by him up.

Who am I?

I don't understand, but none of this matters, because at the moment the decision is made, the meaning itself doesn't matter.

only one person--

Only this man—

He called him, "Dazai."

In his eyes, he will always be just Dazai.

That's great, that's great.

At the end of his life where he could not see a ray of light, the light that came to him with such an abrupt and unreasonable gesture.

He knew that the Oda work in front of him was no longer an Oda work, but just some fragments left by a dead person who was entrusted with his thoughts, like the last ray of light left by the setting sun.

Yes, light.

He cannot die with the sun, because the sun will rise tomorrow.

But he can die with the last afterglow.

"It's finally here—"

Dazai stood on the edge of the top floor of the Mafia building, a place where he could step into the last ray of sunset after one step, holding a gleaming golden cup in his hand.

"By the way, if I use this Holy Grail to make a wish to disappear, Odasaku will disappear too?" He said in a normal tone as if he was asking about the content of the dinner, "Is this considered a martyrdom?"

"I think so." Odasaku replied with an unbelievably gentle tone. He raised his hand to undo the bandage on the leader's face. The leader didn't move, and let him remove the layers of wrapping, revealing a beautiful half of his face. .

"That's right, then it's not bad to die for love with Oda." He smiled, and those iris-colored eyes were as clear as running water.

He stroked the golden cup lightly.

"So, please let me disappear from this world—"

"A complete disappearance, a disappearance that no one will remember, and even the traces of existence are all ground away, allowing me to usher in a truly peaceful eternal sleep—"

Just like a certain "heroic spirit" that shouldn't have existed in this world, its existence was wiped out.

Because everything has been arranged, the world will automatically fill in this gap, he will become a vague shadow, and will be erased from everyone's memory by time in the end, so as to obtain true tranquility.

This is where he is going.

The Holy Grail shone with dazzling light, and Dazai's figure gradually became lighter. At the same time, golden particles appeared on the body of Odasaku in front of him.

He said, "Dazai."

"Ah."

"Dazai."

"Ok!"

"... Dazai." He held out his hand.

"Um……"

Osamu Dazai put his hand up.

They took a step forward and disappeared into the evening air with the last rays of the setting sun.

The child named Dazai killed himself at the age of 15 and became the man who was later called the leader.

But at the very end, he got a new life.

Even if there is only such a short moment, it brings a happy ending to a long and painful life.

A fragmented and lonely soul is redeemed by a wrong existence that should not have been born, just like the fairy tale written by Andersen that makes people cry while smiling.

Osamu Dazai, together with his sun, obtained eternal happiness in the most beautiful evening in the world.

The author has something to say: It’s a side story, actually inspired by the comments of the little princess of the Stark family, it probably means that the leader Zai personally destroys the Holy Grail and makes the heroic spirit Oda disappear. It was originally like this, but in the end it was written like this , probably feeling sorry for Dazai...

Couldn't help it, so that's it.

I feel that the sword is not the knife, the sugar is not sugary, but I still sent it out. I don’t know if I have written the feeling in my heart.

The next chapter officially enters the new world.

I was almost healed until today, but in the end, Tanjiro turned into the king of ghosts again. It was absolutely impossible, and I went crazy again.

So no misery, I'm here to take your ghost head!Ha ha!

【胡言乱语】感谢在2020-03-24?19:47:08~2020-03-27?22:19:59期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angels who threw mines: Fujimaru Tachika? 3; Hongjing Boyi? 1;

Thanks to the little angels of the irrigation nutrient solution: 100 bottles of Yunzhi; 80 bottles of Cherry Blossoms; 1 bottle of Wuguang, Fujimaru Tachika, and pulse;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!