dance like a butterfly

True Love Bar, with Cecilia Cheung's "Star Language Wish" floating gently, the thick sadness spread in the air, I ordered hot juice, lit a cigarette, and looked at the Xiao Xiaoqiu scenery outside the window with empty eyes.Pedestrians are in a hurry on the street, and the traffic is like weaving.

"Looking at you, but powerless, let you disappear at the end of the world. I can't find a strong reason, I can't feel your tenderness anymore, tell me that the starry sky is over there, is there an end there? The heartache is so painful that I can't help it." Breathe, I can't find the trace you left behind, I just stare at you, but I can't do anything, let you disappear at the end of the world."

I must tell Lao Zuo that I have gone far away and don't wait for me any longer.

Sensing someone behind me, I turned around to see that Lao Zuo had quietly stood behind me.His originally black face was tinged with gray, although the attire was still neat, and the frustration that could not be concealed was fully revealed.He was wearing a black turtleneck sweater over a brown casual outfit.The sudden combination of sorrow and joy made his eyes sparkle, concern, anxiety, and anticipation repeated reincarnation in an instant.I nodded to him, he stretched out his hand to hold my hand, I retracted my hand, he opened his mouth to say something, but he didn't say anything after all, his eyes dimmed, he went over and sat opposite me.

Neither of us spoke, I silently looked at this person who had been with me for a year, but I never gave him any affection.Perhaps, I am very familiar with his body, and I am familiar with the moles on his body and where they are located, but, except for a little bit of passion at the moment of rendezvous, my feelings have never stayed on him for a moment.But he has done so much for me, ranging from housework to basic necessities of life, he doesn't care about any of them.He once loved me with all his heart, and now he is still obsessed with it and unable to extricate himself, I suddenly feel so shameful.

The song in the bar was changed to "lonely": onlonely, lonely, lonely.onlonelyloneyinmylife

I don't know, I really don't know, when will this kind of love be broken in Lao Zuo's heart.Only by letting go of his concern for me, can he find himself again and start a new life.There must be a powerful and stubborn demon in his heart, and I must find a way to defeat it.

"Xiaohui, did Lao Han bully you?" Before I could speak, Lao Zuo asked.

The waiter brought two bottles of Budweiser, two bottles of Hans Chalet, a fruit plate, and a plate of dessert.

The waiter wanted to open the wine, but I blocked it, waved my hand, and the waiter left.I stood up and poured wine for Lao Zuo. In my impression, this seemed to be the first time I poured wine for him since I met him.Lao Zuo was obviously surprised to enjoy such treatment, stood up hurriedly, smiled humbly and came to grab the bottle in my hand, and I saw two hands with Band-Aids on the backs of both hands.The moment he lifted himself up, he looked over his turtleneck sweater and saw four scars on his neck, extending from the collar of the sweater to unknown places.Judging from the distance of the scar, it is obvious that it is a nail mark that was scratched by someone. Is it Tian Zhenzhen?

I didn't argue with the old left anymore, he wants to pour the wine.I said, "Last night, did you fight with your wife?"

Lao Zuo smiled sadly and said: "Don't talk about me. You haven't said yet, is it because Lao Han bullied you, and how did he bully you? If he really bullied you, I will go to him to argue, you bumpkin!"

"He didn't bully me." I got straight to the point.Why did Lao Han bully me? It would be good if I didn't bully him!But how can he be willing to bully me, how can I have the heart to bully him.

"That... Obviously, when Lao Zuo first received my call, he took it as a fluke. He hoped that Lao Han and I would break up immediately, but he was afraid that I would be wronged. How distressed he was if I was wronged!

"I want to know, last night, you said that Zhang Wenqing should be careful. What happened? Was your injury caused by your wife or Zhang Wenqing?" I went straight to the point.

Hearing this, Lao Zuo's expression darkened.Looking at the bar, his voice also lowered, as if he was talking to that table: "Last night, my wife and I had a quarrel over our business."

I can imagine how mad Tian Zhenzhen would be.How could a strong woman like Tian Zhenzhen swallow such anger?I couldn't see if there were any other scars on Lao Zuo's body. According to Lao Zuo's temperament, he definitely didn't do anything, and let the woman spoil him.Then, what kind of treaty will Tian Zhenzhen discuss with Lao Zuo? I don't know, although I have never had real comradely feelings for Lao Zuo, at this moment, I can't help feeling sorry for Lao Zuo.

"Brother Zuo! Live well with your sister-in-law!" I looked at his listless look and advised him.However, I personally feel that such words are so pale and powerless to Lao Zuo, just like when the flood floods, I only grab a handful of soil to block it.Now that Tian Zhenzhen has understood Lao Zuo's sexual orientation and does not intend to divorce, it is very difficult for Lao Zuo to find a friend he likes.Unless, Lao Zuo is really divorced and would rather demolish ten temples than destroy a family, is it possible for me to persuade Lao Zuo to divorce?Besides, the children are so old, and the husband and wife both have such decent jobs. If you want to live a peaceful life, you must give in to Lao Zuo!But, can Lao Zuo give in willingly?

Lao Zuo didn't speak, but looked up at me.

"Brother Zuo, now, you should think more about yourself." I said this sincerely.Lao Zuo still had erratic eyes. When he saw me, he still had the same eyes as when we first met. My heart trembled. I was very worried. What I said was the same as if I hadn’t said anything. "Brother Zuo, what do you want to do in your life? From the initial food and clothing to the later spiritual pursuit, don't you have to start practically? I have to admit that I, Xiaohui, do things that are not interesting. To put it bluntly, even at the very least Thanksgiving Dade, not in front of you."

After hearing this sentence, Lao Zuo stretched out his hand and grabbed my hand.I wanted to retract my hand, but he still grabbed him: "Xiaohui, I don't want you to be grateful to Dade, as long as I like you, you don't have to like me, but I can't help myself not liking you! We are together , you may not feel happy, but when I love you, I feel very happy!" Hearing his unreasonable words, my head suddenly became dizzy.

I don't know how the feeling of the old left is formed, and it is still so deep-rooted.However, I still tried to stop him from thinking about it. He had to adjust his living conditions. Anyway, I still have Lao Han now. If he doesn't even have a wife, what should I do?As long as he can return to the family, what's the point of being called heartless and unjust?

"Brother Zuo, keep your eyes open. I get along very well with Lao Han now. We can't break up. You have to figure out where you want to go. You don't have to worry about me. I can't come back to you again. On that day, even if Lao Han doesn't want me, I won't be able to come to you!" When I said this, my tone was very strong.

Lao Zuo's eyes, like a flame that had just come to an end, were quickly dimmed when they encountered a wet and sharp cold wind. I saw that he was holding back something, so I began to bite his lip.I stood up, I don't want to waste any more, don't ask about Zhang Wenqing, isn't there still Lao Han?

I took out two bills from my wallet, and I pressed them under the cup, not intending to say goodbye to Lao Zuo, so I twisted my body to leave, and the words were not speculative.

"Wait a minute!" Lao Zuo stood up.I just stood there with my back to him, and I wasn't going to look back at him even though I wanted to comfort him.

"In the past, Zhang Wenqing just played tricks to ruin our self-esteem. Now I don't know why, but he took the initiative to call my family members. My family members don't seem to hate him anymore, but they just scold Lao Han. I think this phenomenon is very strange. I can't tell what it is, but I don't feel normal, so it's inconvenient to ask. Last time I was drunk, I was at his house, and he touched me. You have to be careful of him."

It happened that Lao Han called and asked me where I was.I said: "Brother, I'm walking outside, I'll go back, you wait a minute." Lao Han said hurriedly, he had arrived at my door, and the doorbell rang for a long time and no one opened the door.

When I called Lao Han, I was definitely full of smiles. On the one hand, I was really happy to receive Lao Han’s call. On the other hand, I wanted to show Lao Zuo a show. happiness.I turned my face, and the old Zuo was looking at me with very sour eyes.

Seeing him looking at me, I quickly withdrew my smile like a face-changing actor.

With a twist, he strode out of the True Love Bar.