dance like a butterfly

The old horse looks to be in his 50s, and although he is not very talkative, he looks very friendly.He is taller than his elder brother, with wheat-colored skin, big hands and feet, and he is quick in his hands and feet, and he is willing to work hard.Besides working, it seems that the only hobby is playing chess.

In the countryside of Hua County, there are many men like Lao Ma.

Two days later, Lao Ma started working with three workers.

That night, I told my elder brother that I had already found a rental house and bought some things, and I would move there the next day.The eldest brother stretched his face and remained silent for a long time.After moving there, I met Lao Ma and saw a stone table made of cement in the yard of Lao Ma's house. There was a chess scale engraved on the table. After he pulled Lao Ma to fight a few games, he stopped talking.

The materials were delivered one after another.

No matter what kind of work you do, the quality must be guaranteed first, and then there is a taboo that you can’t make the best use of it. In addition to being careful and skilled, Lao Ma will also use up the finished cement before finishing each job, and smooth out the materials brought in. Neatly.After several days of continuous observation, I don't think it is necessary to watch every second like a supervisor.But the eldest brother, ever since he had Lao Ma as his precious companion, he went to work with Lao Ma almost every day.In this way, I'd save a lot of worry.When the old horse was working, the eldest brother squatted aside and smoked, chatting up a few words with the old horse from time to time, talking about innocuous topics, and making some harmless jokes.Often when my eldest brother comes back, I have already prepared a meal and watch TV waiting.

Those few days were all right.

When alone, memory is like a machine that is turned on, and those clips with Lao Han will be played repeatedly.The way Lao Han talks, walks, and stares at me, when I am in a daze, will warmly freeze on the opposite wall.When packing the travel bag, I found a white short-sleeved shirt and a pair of white socks of Old Han.When no one was around, touching these two objects and smelling the fibers on them deeply, I felt itchy like thousands of ants crawling back and forth.My heart felt tense again and again, and I wished I could take some time to go to Xi'an to have a look at him without anyone noticing, and then sneak back in the middle of the night when no one was around.

For fear of disturbing him, I never dared to take the initiative to call him.More often, I would hold my phone in a daze and foolishly wait for Lao Han's call.Although I also know that my phone rings on time at nine o'clock in the morning and seven o'clock in the evening every day.

Lao Han said that for this election, one is Liu Chaoqi, one is Wang Bingkun, one is Li Xiaohu, and the other is Zhang Dehai.

I let out a sigh of relief: Fortunately, there is no Zhang Wenqing.

Yinshuifang is a large village with a population of more than 5000. It is not surprising that five people are running for the post of village head.

Except for Zhang Dehai, I have never met the other three people, let alone dealt with them, so I have no impression at all.On the first day of the Lunar New Year, I can still recall the scene of Zhang Dehai standing in front of his house together with Lao Han to pay New Year greetings to the martyrs.I'm not familiar with the other three, so it's hard to say. As far as Zhang Dehai is concerned, based on my intuition, I don't think he can pose a threat to Lao Han this time.

When I reported the progress of the decoration here to Lao Han, Lao Han always smiled and comforted me and said: Look, my brother is not a child after all, but a college student is different.Then he would persuade me again, don't worry, take your time.When I can't make up my mind about some small details, he will say, you discuss it with your elder brother, and try to listen to his advice as much as possible before making a decision. He often seldom participates in his own opinions.I know what Lao Han meant, it's not that he has no ideas, he clearly wants me to respect my elder brother more, that's all.When I feel that there is no one around him, and my eldest brother is not by my side, I will act like a baby, and ask with a playful smile, brother, do you miss me?He made a sound, straightened his tone and said, why do I miss you, I would rather miss a puppy than you.I showed a smiling face, and immediately barked a few times, saying, there is a puppy that wants to eat.Lao Han will immediately say, Puppy, Puppy, take a good rest first, wait for you to finish decorating the house, wait for my affairs to come to an end, gather energy, and let the pup eat deliciously.

I never told Lao Han about moving out of the hotel.I don't want him to worry about me.Whenever he asked if the food in the hotel was good, I would use my imagination to say what I had for breakfast, what I had for lunch, what I had for dinner, and there were very few times when the food was the same, and I still didn’t forget to poke my mouth a few times at the end A few words of praise.

Before I met Lao Han, I often went on business trips, and I deeply realized that no matter how good the food outside is, it is not as refreshing as homemade food.When my elder brother came back to eat, he saw the dishes on the table, and after taking a few bites, he would often ask me: "Is this dish delicious? Why don't you show your skill at home? When and where did you learn it? "

I said casually, "Every time I go home, my second sister-in-law is in pain, so how can I have a chance to make a fuss?"

Suddenly felt a slip of the tongue, immediately shut up.

Thinking of the nervous and bewildered look of the second sister-in-law when I called me last time, and thinking of the decisiveness of the second brother, I couldn't help but feel sad.

The eldest brother didn't wink, but still asked, "Do you cook for Lao Han every day?"

In order to avoid too much friction, I will quickly brush it off with other words.After trying my cooking skills, my eldest brother no longer asks to go out to eat in a restaurant. The big deal is that I haven’t eaten braised pork trotters for a long time, sweet and sour pork ribs, and spicy shrimp. I usually try my best. Serve these dishes to him in one meal.

Suddenly, Lao Zuo sent a message asking if I had returned to Xi'an.

Although Lao Han repeatedly asked me to keep this matter secret, I thought about it and told Lao Zuo the truth.Lao Zuo replied, "Okay, I'll go to see you on National Day."

Thinking of Lao Zuo coming so far, I couldn't bear it, so I called him, "Brother, forget it, my elder brother is here, and seeing you coming, I don't know what nonsense to talk about."

Lao Zuo insisted, "Here you are, my big brother, even if you spit on our faces, don't worry about it."

After speaking, he laughed himself first.

On the afternoon of National Day, Lao Zuo really drove to Tianshui in his car.

The eldest brother saw that Lao Zuo was holding two bottles of Xifeng wine and two good cat cigarettes and handed them over to him, he had already smiled, "Old Zuo still remembers me!"

Lao Zuo said, "What is the elder brother talking about? Every time I go back to Hua County, I often trouble my elder brother and sister-in-law. It goes without saying that my elder brother is so far away here looking after Xiaojun."

I lifted the bowl from the plate on the table, opened a bottle of red wine, and urged Lao Zuo to wash his hands to eat, "You must be hungry, you must be in a hurry and didn't care about eating well."

Old Zuo rolled up his sleeves, washed his hands and said with a smile, "Leave it alone, I will come, I will come. You have worked hard enough to decorate the house here. Why do you cook so many dishes? I just thought of coming here to invite You and elder brother go out to a restaurant and have something good."

While eating, Lao Zuo asked about the renovation of the house, and said, "You can stay here with peace of mind. If there is any problem, if Lao Han can't take care of you, just talk to me."

As he spoke, he took out an ICBC card from his jacket pocket and handed it over, "You take this, there is 5 yuan in it, and it's my heart."

I waved my hands repeatedly and pushed him back, "Enough, enough. It's really enough, I won't lie to you."

Lao Zuo resolutely refused, "I know you are very strong, but after all, this is not Xi'an, and you have no relatives here for no reason. You take it first. Money is nothing but good. With it , no matter what you do, you won’t panic.”

"I……",

As soon as I spoke, my voice suddenly became a little hoarse.

Maybe Lao Zuo heard it, and stopped talking, and buried his head to eat.

The eldest brother glanced at the bank card on the table, and said with a smile, "Old Zuo, you have treated our third child very well. After that, I may have to ask you to help me when I build a house in the future."

Lao Zuo said, "Brother just speak up when the time comes."

After eating, Lao Zuo competed with me to clean up the dishes, he pushed me aside, "You take a rest, I'll come, I'll come."

As soon as I turned around, I found that my elder brother had already run away and disappeared. Maybe, he went to play chess with the old horse.

After tidying up, I will go out for a walk with Lao Zuo.After leaving the village and heading west along Binhe Road, I didn't know what to say, so I casually asked Lao Zuo how many days off he would have, and Lao Zuo said seven days.Silently looking at the long street lamps and the two rows of tall pagoda trees on the side of the road, I suddenly had a feeling that if Lao Han and Lao Han really lived in Tianshui, it would be very inconvenient to see Lao Zuo in the future. Old Zuo, waves of guilt gave me chills.

"Brother, don't you want to find someone new for you?"

I gathered my courage and looked at him.

"What are you looking for? I don't want to hurt others anymore." Lao Zuo sighed.

"Harmful? Why is it harmful?"

I'm surprised that Lao Zuo actually said that finding someone he likes is harming others!

"Isn't it?"

Lao Zuo stopped in his tracks, his generous figure blocking the cool autumn wind blowing towards me.

"Xiaohui, think about it, if I hadn't been pestering you hard at the beginning, you might have had a very easy life. Love doesn't have to be completely burning yourself, but it can also illuminate others. Back then, if I hadn't been so hard You won't feel so uncomfortable if you pester you!"

My face burned up, "It's all because I was ignorant at the time, don't worry about it!"

Old Zuo smiled, "What are you fussing about? I don't care about you. I have long regarded you as my own brother."

Lao Zuo sighed again, "Hey! Looking back, I think it's really not easy for you and Lao Han. Especially you, for what you pursued so hard, who lost less than anyone else? How old are you? So, you have to cherish what you got now, and don’t ask Lao Han to lose anything for you. People like us can’t afford to be hurt anymore!”

On the long road, although the lights are brightly lit, there is endless cool wind blowing over, which wakes me up and confuses me.There was a trace of warmth, but it slowly came from Lao Zuo's side.

I couldn't help asking, "Then, that time when I went to Yuxiangmen's house and saw that 'Hongxing Erke', is this really the relationship between you and him?"

"'Hongxingerke', Yuxiangmen house," Lao Zuo raised his head and thought for a while, then suddenly smiled, "Haha, really not. That was a Shandong recruit I took over from the army before, and he came to visit me specially when he passed by Xi'an. You You know, I rarely let people come to my house, unless they are comrades-in-arms or relatives."

Seeing that I was silent, Lao Zuo said again, "This kind of feeling in my whole life used to be on you alone. Since you followed Lao Han, I don't think about it anymore. I only want to treat you as a relative Brother, I don't want to see you suffer and suffer, and I will be happy when you are happy, so you have to be good in the future, and do everything well."

I couldn't bear it any longer, and threw myself on his shoulder, tears welling up in my eyes, "Brother, I was the one who hurt you. I was ignorant before. If it wasn't for me, you and your sister-in-law wouldn't be divorced, and you wouldn't be now... "

Lao Zuo smiled, "Don't be like this, Xiaohui, people are growing up. In fact, Lao Han is also a very good person. You see, no matter what, you have come all the way. It's amazing." It's easy. So, I will be desperate to let you two have a good time and always be good."

Lao Zuo gently pushed me away, took out a tissue and handed it over.

This night, Lao Zuo didn't go to the hotel to stay, but slept on the sofa all night.I want to change him to sleep on the bed, but he refuses to live or die.

Listening to the steady snoring of Lao Zuo and Big Brother one after another, I couldn't sleep half the night. Guilt and self-blame were like sea water at high tide and low tide, pushing me up and throwing me down.

I heard that there is a kind of flower called Tumi, which is the last flowering plant in spring. Once Tumi is over, there will be no more flowers in the whole spring.

Everyone has an acre of land in his heart, and everyone has a dream in his heart. Some people plant peaches, some plums, some laugh at the spring breeze blowing all over the world, and pear blossoms bloom all over the world. Pure white tea.