dance like a butterfly

I knelt down on my knees, and I hugged him tightly, shouting repeatedly: "Dad, Dad, Dad..."

However, Dad didn't respond at all.

From the corner of his mouth, bright red blood was still oozing out slowly.

Old Han said loudly: "What are you doing? Hurry up, send him to the hospital!"

Time was tighter than anything else, and the tense atmosphere just now disappeared in an instant.

With a lot of hands and feet, Dad was carried to Lao Han's car outside the door, and Lao Zuo followed closely behind Lao Han.

When he arrived at the county hospital, Lao Zuo was the first to rush down to the emergency department.

In the emergency room, the doctor looked into Dad's eyes, measured his heart rate and pulse, shook his head and said, "Go back and take care of the funeral!"

I burst into tears with a "wow--".

The second brother was more like a deflated ball, slumped on the ground, hitting his head with both hands, tears streaming down his face.

Tracing back to the source, I can't blame my second brother for my father's death.It's me, it's my father who loves me the most, this youngest son is mad at him to death!

I am a disdainful person!

When my father was alive, how many times, when the folks praised me for my promise to be admitted to college, even though my father vaguely said that I was blindfolded, the smile on the corners of his eyes and brows could not be concealed.

When the folks heard that I bought a house in the city and had a job that paid a lot of money, they told my dad, look how capable your third child is, and I will bring you back to the city soon. When the young girl became a daughter-in-law, my father said, who would look up to him, the mud on his heels hasn't been washed yet.

But after all, year after year, my father saw that I still had no partner and had no intention of getting married, so he persuaded me that we are rural people, don't think too much, the boss is not young, and we should start a family.

How he looks forward to holding my child, this is the last and greatest wish of his life!People say that we kiss each other from generation to generation. If I really have a child, I don't know how it hurts him.

In the past, the folks always said when teaching their children, you must study hard, and you will be as promising as the third son of the old Hong family in the future, but now, I have no idea...

The eldest brother didn't say a word when he learned the reason of his father's death. When he saw Lao Han, he still nodded politely. I expected his reaction.But not long after, he returned to the city of Xi'an, and Lao Han also introduced him to a lot of contract work, this is a later story.

Maybe it was out of guilt, or maybe it was because of the persuasion of the second sister-in-law. When he was attending to his father's funeral, he saw Lao Zuo and Lao Han rushing in and out, but the second brother always ignored him, as if he hadn't seen him.

Perhaps because of the heavy rain that day, the villagers thought that the father who suffered from cerebral infarction died of illness. Except for a few insiders, despite the earth-shaking disturbance at home, the villagers did not see any gossip.

Lao Zuo chatted with the old people in the village with good cigarettes and wine, asked about the nostalgia, and asked how to hold the most decent ceremony for his father.

The old tunes of Huaxian County, plays from the Provincial Academy of Traditional Chinese Opera, and movies were invited one by one.

Ordinarily, the neighbors will come forward to help any of our families celebrate weddings and funerals.In addition to greeting the folks with the unchanging Xifeng Cellar for six years and King Furong, Lao Han also invited a service team to come. He said: "Xiaojun is not at home all day, and the folks can come to give his brothers face." , don’t dare to bother everyone, everyone just eat and drink well.”

My father's grave has been dug.Lao Han gave each of the six best craftsmen in the village a pack of cigarettes, plus 500 yuan per person to have the tomb bricked up to the top; The inside and outside are also painted.

On the day of the funeral, Zhang Wenqing came over with two vans, carrying out the most exquisite paperwork, brand-new mourning clothes, and boxes of firecrackers one by one.

This is the largest and most organized funeral in my village since I can remember.

On the first seven nights, as soon as the spectators left, the second elder brother said to me nonchalantly, "What are you going to do when you come down?"

I was stunned, I didn't understand what the second brother wanted to say.

Old Han cleared his throat, handed over a cigarette and said, "Second Brother, you might as well speak up if you have something to say."

The second brother took the first gear, and the cigarette fell to the ground.

The second sister-in-law said unhappily to the second brother: "What kind of muscle do you have again? His grandfather has just been buried in the ground, and you don't want to tell people to calm down?"

"I've made up my mind, third child, since you are still entangled with these people, don't blame me for being ruthless and disregarding my brother's feelings. I am out of sight and out of mind. From now on, we brothers will make a clean break!"

It turns out that the second brother only meets me these few days and doesn't greet me, and he is holding back in his heart because of this!

However, how can the family relationship of decades be broken?I was so aggrieved that I didn't know what to do.

Suddenly remembered what Lao Han said on the road a few days ago, he said no matter what happens in the future, don't leave him.

Isn't it?Isn't it?Lao Han had long realized the consequences of his brothers leaving the city in anger.In my heart, I never thought of cutting off the relationship with my family, let alone leaving Lao Han sincerely, and what the second brother said really put me in a dilemma!

This is my home!It is the hometown where I grew up for decades!My mother left me many years ago, and my father has been suffering from illnesses. Now that my father has just died, but my second brother said such birthright words, why doesn't it make me feel like a knife is piercing my heart? !

Could it be that the brotherhood of decades is broken today?Without my hometown in Huaxian, without my relatives in Huaxian, why don't I wander outside like a piece of rootless duckweed? !

The second sister-in-law said that the second brother said: "Why are you so cruel? It is said that even if the brother breaks the bones, the tendons are still connected. If you talk to his third father like this, you are not afraid of people saying you are not kind, but I am afraid... "

The second brother rudely interrupted the second sister-in-law: "What's wrong? People walk the road by themselves. He can't blame others for taking the road to this point. I have made up my mind. From now on, there will be no brother like him. I will follow him." He is beneficial but not harmful! Who likes to do it!"

Seeing that the words were not speculative, Lao Han said: "Second sister-in-law, thank you for still favoring Xiaojun at this time. I, Han Jun, also understand your wishes. Come, Xiaojun," Lao Han pulled me, "Give it to the second brother Sister-in-law kowtow!"

My understanding and gratitude to my second sister-in-law accumulated for a long time, and I took advantage of the situation and lay down on the ground.

"Tom tom tom", the three knocks knocked my head so that gold stars popped in my head.

The second sister-in-law rushed over, and stopped her tearfully, "Don't do this, don't do this, his third father!"

Lao Han didn't care about the second brother turning his face away, he bowed deeply and solemnly to the second brother and second sister-in-law three times behind me.

Old Zuo couldn't get anything to say, and he couldn't stop sighing.

Old Han said in a loud voice: "Second brother, it doesn't matter if you don't recognize Xiaojun as a younger brother. Xiaojun will always treat you as his elder brother and the second sister-in-law as his own sister. If you don't understand the reasoning, if you don't pick it up, you can't understand it. It's wrong." That’s right, that’s right, I, like Xiaojun, regard you as my dearest relatives, if anything happens to me in the future, and I, Han Jun, can be of use to me, just open your mouth!”

The second brother turned his face away, kicked over a small stool in front of him, gritted his teeth and said a word: "Get lost!"

Near midnight, the cool wind blows the wheat ears at the foot of the mountain, a crescent moon hangs in the middle of the sky, and the dim light shines on a rushing river next to it.

Next to my mother's old grave is my father's new grave. Where the wind blows, the mud mixes with the smell of wheat grass.

I fell on my knees.

I have no more tears.

Over the past few days, my head has been numb, and I have too many thoughts, no matter how much I think, it is useless.All I know is that I was kicked out by my second brother, and from now on, I, Hong Xiaojun, will never have a home again.Although Hua County is not far from the provincial capital, it is no longer a place where I come whenever I want.I also know that from now on, the cold food during the Qingming Festival will only come to the place where my parents are lying now.My parents brought me up through hardships, but I failed to support them. In the end, I pissed my old father to death. I can’t even imagine whether my father would be willing to take Meng Po soup by the Naihe Bridge and forget me willingly. Such a "payback"!

The faint Nanshan is quiet and quiet, without giving me the slightest reminder, the sound of rushing water can't take away my thousands of regrets, and no one can shake off the melancholy that has swelled into a tsunami in my heart, only Lao Han next to me, squatting on the ground , Gently wiped the mud on Dad's inscription with the palm of his hand.

"Let's go, Xiaohui, let's go with Lao Han, be careful not to catch a cold, ah, be obedient!"

Old Zuo patted me on the shoulder.

Yes, even if I stay here, Dad will never wake up again, and will never call me by my name lovingly again.

Between heaven and earth, there has been an eternal separation. On the home-looking platform, one day, I will be like my parents, ashes return to ashes, ashes return to ashes, and I can’t grasp the things in the nether world. Only Lao Han can grasp it. There is only a slim but hopeful tomorrow.