dance like a butterfly

all endings are written

All the tears have also set off

But I suddenly forgot how it started

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In the experience of youth, like many people, I cannot have the experience of youth.If I can go back to that moment many years ago again, I think, I will definitely not run away.I deeply know that without Lao Han, without this lover who makes me feel confident, the rest of my life will be as tasteless as a meal without salt, and I will be more like a zombie without a soul and lose its direction .However, at the beginning, apart from following the inertia of my character, did I have any other choice?

Won't the eldest brother and the second brother go back to Hua County directly?Will they go to Lao Han?They are all hot-tempered, will they fight when they meet each other?

In other words, the eldest brother and the second brother swallowed their anger and returned to Hua County full of shame and anger. What would they do to the second sister-in-law?What will happen at home?

Back then, why didn't Lao Han ask for my opinion, instead of insisting on calling his brothers to Xi'an city?

Also, that Zhang Ergou, doesn't it mean that he won't spread the word like a free advertisement?How will Lao Han stay in the village and stand in front of people in the future?

I don't think it doesn't matter. Thinking about it, I feel chills on my back.

Well, all of this, let me bear it alone.I'm leaving this place and never coming back, making it all a dead end.Old Han, even if you can't see me anymore, and you can't leave me anymore, it's better than you being notorious and unable to gain a foothold in the village!Well, then, let me leave here, far away, and never come back!Never come back!

Suddenly, a clip flashed in front of my eyes, not good!Xueping saw me on the platform just now!

That being said, I can't sit on this train either!

I have to get out of the car now!

My head was heavy and my heart was ashamed. After crying, the tears on my face hugged me tightly. I raised my palm and rubbed my face. The cheek that was beaten by the second brother still hurt.

The flight attendant came to exchange tickets.Asked her if she could get off at Lintong, she said that Lintong does not rely on the station, and the next stop will be Weinan directly.

Weinan, Hua County!

My heart tightened: Fate is really something I have to believe in. When I was planning to leave here, it made me finally stand and look at the place where I was born!Yes, it turned out that everything about me was arranged, and no matter what, Ren could not escape someone's capricious hands.I smiled wryly, all this is too cruel!Who am I hindering? Didn't I just love a man?If I love a man, who am I hindering?Why make our lives so difficult, and make me suffer so much at a young age?

Hua County, you are now a hard and long thorn, firmly stretching down my throat, stuck in the place where my heart beats!

Huaxian, you are the most powerful and deepest pain right now, spreading from every place I can perceive, involving every nerve that is still active in my veins!

Buildings, trees, vehicles, and people all straightened and slanted outside the car window, and quickly retreated backwards.

I suddenly envied them.If I were like them and one of them, it seems that I would not have to go into exile today, and I might die in peace.

This flash of thought immediately made me ashamed again, no, I am not them, I am Xiaohui, I am Xiaohui who loves Lao Han, and Lao Han also loves me!I am destined to be an out-and-out comrade!Perhaps the fate of comrades is like mine, who can't see the light because they are different, and they are destined to cover up. If they are discovered one day, they are destined to live in the eyes of others, and they are as hard to hide as a rat crossing the street!

Chanba Park floated past my eyes like a green dream.

I close my eyes, and I know that on the long river bank, the shady willows are like clusters of green mist, the luxuriant river surface is wide and calm, and the golden clouds in the west are reflected on it .

In ancient times, if someone traveled far away, his relatives and friends would farewell for them on the Baqiao and fold willows to see them off.The willow branch is dipped in clear water and sprinkled on the travelers' shoes, sleeves, face, hair, wishing them a safe journey, and reminding them of their hometown at all times, so that they can return as soon as possible.

However, today, I passed the Baqiao for the last time, but I went to an indefinite black ending, and there was no possibility of returning.

Farewell, the ancient city of Xi'an, the city I have worked hard for many years and intend to stay forever!

Farewell, Lao Han, my love, it’s not that I don’t love you, it’s not that I don’t love you deeply, the matter has come to this point, I have to leave for you, if there is an afterlife, then please don’t change your appearance, no matter in the distance Whether it is a village or a bustling city, I can recognize you in a crowd at a glance!

The train shook slightly, slowed down, and stopped at Weinan Station.

I stood up and got off with a few passengers.

Although Weinan City has a population of 600 million, it is a prefecture-level city after all.Although there is a saying in Weinan that "the main roads of the Three Qin Dynasties and the thoroughfare of the eight provinces", the railway station on Jiefang Road is a third-class station. It has been rarely renovated for decades, which seems very inconsistent with the economic strategy of the Western Development. Old, old and small are its distinctive features.

Quickly through the underground passage.

Near the exit, I suddenly felt a little strange.

"Isn't that him? It's Xiaohui!"

Even though I was walking quickly with my head down, I heard a familiar voice shouting in front of me.

Suddenly looked up, it was Xueping!

"That's all right now, Old Han, he's here!"

Chen Hanzhang was standing side by side with a young man who was not tall but strong, and he was also looking sideways.They were wearing uniforms, which really stood out in the crowd.

Standing right in the middle of them is the one I will never forget for the rest of my life!

Because it was against the light, I couldn't see Lao Han's expression clearly. He didn't speak, and stood firmly between Xueping and them.

Seeing a group of them standing in the middle of the exit outside the barrier, the passengers showed their tickets to the ticket inspector one by one, turned sideways, and walked out through the gap between them.

Obviously, they seem to think that I have no way out, and they are also waiting for me to go out obediently.

I froze for a second, turned around, took a step, and ran deep into the underground passage as fast as I could.

There was a commotion behind him.

I have no time to distinguish what these people are shouting.

As long as there is a train still stopping at the station, even for a moment, I plan to jump on it immediately, and disappear among the wild geese like a feihong!