dance like a butterfly

I believe every word Lao Han said to me now, just like believing that all love is pure in the beginning.

My old Han didn't know, he never thought that Chen Hanzhang had already said a lot of things that shouldn't be said in front of Lin Wenlong, and told a lot of secrets that should belong only to the two of them.He didn't even think that Chen Hanzhang hid it from him so deeply that he didn't even mention any intimate conversation with Captain Lin in front of him, let alone that he had regarded a physical sacrifice as a part of his life. One of the rocker words like that.

This is also one of the reasons why Lao Han looked down on Chen Hanzhang from the bottom of his heart.

When Captain Lin said the words "behave well", my old Han couldn't turn his head around, and understood the true meaning of this sentence!

Old Han was stunned.

Lin Wenlong became displeased.He knew that he was a little impatient, and that a soldier's incomprehensible non-cooperation made him somewhat unhappy.

Chen Hanzhang is right, the person in front of him is somewhat "ignorant of current affairs"!But at the same time, the more difficult it was to succeed, the more exciting it was for Lin Wenlong.Grabbing the thing that felt good, he felt that he had already started to react.snort!Just a little mouse, in front of an old house cat, let me see how fast and far you can run?

The two of them didn't speak anymore, and every subtle movement showed the thoughts from the bottom of their hearts.

Old Han was shocked and scared, but the first thing he thought of at the moment was Chen Hanzhang.I am not as good as Chen Hanzhang, and I am not the squad leader. I am not as promising as Chen Hanzhang, and I am not as talented as him.I came from the countryside, but things were exposed. At worst, I would go back and forth from where I came from, and at worst, I would dig food from the ground with my back to the sky and the loess behind.As for Chen Hanzhang, from now on, isn't everything over?In any case, you can't help but consider your sweetheart!

Old Han's heart was anxious, he was anxious because he had harmed Chen Hanzhang, and he wished to slap himself hard.What is Chen Hanzhang doing at home right now?Is it in front of parents?Joke with neighbors?Have a drink with Fa Xiao?Or winking with the girl you love?

Thinking that he might be in love with the girl without knowing it, Lao Han's heart ached.

Back in the dormitory that night, Lao Han couldn't sleep again.Tossing and turning on the bed, no matter whether his eyes were opened or closed, Chen Hanzhang's smiling face was always in front of him, and it was the love that touched his heart that he could never get rid of when they were together.Captain Lin's actions today were like a thriller, making him sweat nervously.Now, how he wished to see Chen Hanzhang standing in front of him.Only with Chen Hanzhang in his arms at this moment, how at ease is he!

At noon the next day, while everyone was having dinner, he went to the company headquarters to find a correspondent who was also from Xi'an, and asked him for help. He wanted to call Chen Hanzhang.When Chen Hanzhang left, he left a number for Lao Han, saying that he could call this number if he had anything to do.The number belonged to Chen Hanzhang's father's work unit. Chen Hanzhang said that important matters must be told to him immediately.

The operator in the switchboard room was a female soldier. When he heard "Hello, Chief, where do you want?", Lao Han suddenly realized, yes, this is the military line, and it needs to be transferred to the local line.While hesitating, he kept thinking in his mind how to explain this important event that had affected the two of them for the rest of their lives.Of course, this matter cannot be heard by outsiders as a whole.

The female operator gave Lao Han a smile: "I got through, but no one answered!"

yes.It's not a private call, and it's normal that there is no one at noon.

While eating dinner, Lao Han went to the company headquarters again. Like last time, the phone was connected, but no one answered. Only then did Lao Han remember that everyone had gone home from get off work.

Lao Han started to write a letter to Chen Hanzhang, but after finishing writing the letter, he felt that it was inappropriate to hand it out.If such a literal thing falls into the hands of others, wouldn’t it give people an excuse?

My old Han was helpless, and he fell into deep depression.

I can imagine what kind of suffering my family Lao Han had at that time, he was suffering unprecedented pain.On the one hand, this pain comes from the deep and affectionate longing for Chen Hanzhang, and on the other hand, it is full of worries about his future.My old Han didn't think about himself at this time, nor could he see his future.

Hearing this, my heart ached and I forgot the sour feeling in my heart.I finally realized how much anxiety and pain my willful "breakup" in Hua County had brought to Lao Han.A burst of guilt welled up in my heart: When will I change my bad habit of making me petty at every turn, so that my old Han won't feel sad for me anymore!

I leaned on Old Han's shoulder, and stretched out my hand to gently stroke his furry chest.

"Did you ever think at that time that it was a great honor to be chosen by Commander Lin, and that it would bring a turning point in your life?",

I know I shouldn't talk to my old Han like this, but I still can't help asking him.Young people, there are not many people who have no vanity and no mentality of climbing the dragon and the phoenix.Everyone knows that in order to make friends with their immediate superiors and to have a good future for the rest of their lives, how many people have sharpened their heads to sneak into the chief's arms, and use all tricks to climb up even if they step on other people's shoulders!

Lao Han looked at me as if he saw an alien all of a sudden.He gave me a blank look, for a long time, and sighed: "Is brother that kind of person? If he is that kind of person, can you still like brother so much? You really know how to ask!".

I didn't get angry because of Lao Han's glaring eyes at this time, I kissed him hard on the cheek, and even smiled and touched his green stubble under the light.

This man named Han Jun was met and obtained by me. What is there to be dissatisfied in my life?I know that at that time, Lao Han's feelings for Chen Hanzhang were already very sincere.Although he felt that Chen Hanzhang would get married and it was impossible to stay with him forever, he had already developed a deep dependence on Chen Hanzhang both physically and psychologically.Lao Han said that he hopes that the relationship with Chen Hanzhang can last forever, as long as it can.

I also deeply understand why Lao Han has been reluctant to talk about his past.It's not that he's trying to hide something from me, it's just that it's a painful unraveling.

However, on this night, he completely peeled off this layer of scars and told me every detail of his emotions in the past. He wanted me to watch his wounds heal again and integrate with me in the process .He wants me to know that his love affair with Chen Hanzhang has long been completed, and now only he and I truly have each other.

However, Lao Lin's intervention at that time undoubtedly became an insurmountable obstacle for Lao Han who was fighting alone.It was the first time for Lao Lin to clearly express his meaning. Fortunately, he gave Lao Han a buffer time and let Lao Han make up his own mind.

After dinner on the third day, as soon as Lao Han went out, he was stopped by Commander Lin's orderly: "You are Han Jun, come with me!"

"What's the matter?" Lao Han didn't know the soldier.

"Leader Lin called you, you go for a while." The orderly said.

Lao Han's heart lifted, and he knew that it was time for him to face this problem alone.

When we arrived at the office of the regiment headquarters, head Lin was very polite, with a very kind smile on his face.When there were no outsiders in the room, Captain Lin asked Lao Han to sit down. After pouring Lao Han a glass of water, he sat on the sofa opposite Lao Han and looked at Lao Han.

Lin Wenlong didn't belong to that kind of handsome mature man, but he wasn't ugly at all. At the age of 37 or [-], he is slightly thinner than Chen Hanzhang, but he is very strong.His eyes are big and always firm and shining, giving people a sense of persecution.But now he looked at Lao Han gently, as if they had just met for the first time and planned to be friends for life.

"Why are you nervous? Afraid I'll eat you?" Captain Lin laughed seeing Lao Han still standing there stupidly without taking a seat.

Old Han was very nervous, he didn't dare to sit down.

"Sit down and drink water!" Commander Lin lit a cigarette. The simple and honest appearance of this soldier was very attractive to him, a regiment leader who was born in an academy.

Old Han still didn't move, he stood up straight as if he was in a queue, as if he was about to hold his head up and his chest up for inspection.

"I don't have anything else to do with you, just to communicate with the superiors and subordinates. Why do you make it as serious as going to a military court? It's not that time yet! You are with Chen Hanzhang, isn't it the same? "Old Lin was a little displeased.What a little donkey!

court martial?My god, what kind of court-martial am I going to for this shit?I am not a criminal!Head Lin didn't mention Chen Hanzhang. When he mentioned Chen Hanzhang, Lao Han blurted out: "You are the head of the group, but he is not."

"What's wrong with me? What's wrong with him? He can be your friend if he's not the head of the group, but I can't do it if I'm the head of the group? To find a friend, you have to choose someone who isn't the head of the group? This is really fresh!"

Seeing Lao Han rebutting him in a low voice, and refuting so naively, Captain Lin couldn't help but laugh.

"Have you written a letter to Chen Hanzhang? Have you called him? Have you been under pressure for the past two days? What are you going to do?" Seeing Lao Han blushing again and being speechless, he knew his time had come.

Lao Han glanced at Lao Lin, who was looking at him unblinkingly, but he immediately avoided it without saying a word.You know what I think and do?Lao Han felt as if he was standing there naked, feeling uncomfortable.Then I thought about it again: as long as you can let Chen Hanzhang go, you can deal with it as you like.

Old Han blushed and poked there like a puppet.Now I am fish, and man is a cutting board.After several days of thinking, Lao Han suddenly realized what rights really mean.In that era when politics determined everything, my poor old Han had no choice.Isn't it just this stinky meat?Don't you just want to play with me?As long as you can let Chen Hanzhang go, let go of this person who has occupied my whole body and mind, what do you want, I admit it!

Seeing that Lao Han's expression was not right, Lao Lin felt ecstasy in his heart, but at the same time, he was also a little disappointed.As a mature man, he has passed the age of purely physical venting, but he felt that for the first time in his life, he fell in love with a man, a cute little soldier like a little stubborn donkey.

He stood up, opened the door of the suite directly, and said back, "Come with me."

Lao Han hesitated for a moment, then followed in.

Lao Lin turned on the lamp in the room, and he planned to take a good look at what this soldier was worth his attention. He wanted to see if this young man who was so passionate with Chen Hanzhang on the hillside was worth what he had been thinking about for so long!