dance like a butterfly

There will always be many complicated things in life, piled up in front of your eyes like a pair of messes, and you need to sort them out.It depends on how you calm down and what means you use.

On the one hand, I would like to thank Guo Jingqi.It was this Guo Jingqi that allowed me to see my own emotional direction, and made my mind clear when choosing my own path of love.

On the other hand, his presence also disturbed me.

Xueping's call made me know that Lao Han is still decorating our new house.That is to say, Lao Han has no intention of giving up on me at all.

Didn't Xueping already say that?Are you saying that Lao Han is listless in his work now?Said that Lao Han has looked thinner?That is to say, our Cold War is only a thin layer of window paper left.

The question is, who will pierce this layer of paper?

I don't know, anyway, I can't get rid of this face.

I covered my face, it was a little hot.

Guo Jingqi's alcohol capacity is very good, the 54% Xifeng wine soon bottomed out, and the second bottle was almost finished.

To be honest, I like drinking, and I also like people who can drink, and I prefer refreshing northerners.

Northerners rarely drink alcohol.The climate is dry and cold in winter.In the harsh natural living conditions, wine is often the first choice to drive out the cold.The wine culture also endows northerners with a frank character, that kind of masculine sharpness and straightforwardness.

After drinking three rounds and eating five flavors, Guo Jingqi said: "My friend, I really miss you these few years."

I smiled and said, "I miss you too."

Don't want to be fake.However, this kind of thinking now is not a desire to meet, but a retrospect to memory.It's like looking at an old photo and just remembering that time, but never thinking about revisiting it.After all, Guo Jingqi is already my past tense, just a milestone of my life.

Hearing what I said, Guo Jingqi must have misunderstood the meaning, so she stretched out her hand to wrap my shoulders, and leaned over with her dark red face.

To be honest, if there is no lesson from Lao Zuo, if there is no life-and-death love with Lao Han, the appearance of Guo Jingqi may ignite the flame in my heart again.Because his double eyelids are really beautiful, his eyes are so affectionate at this moment, his lips are thick and pouty so sexy, and his stubble that shows his skin enriches his charm of a mature man.

The strong masculinity he pressed over really made me almost unable to hold back, he was my first lover, and he came from such a far away place, from a foreign land where my heart was racing wildly!

In this private room, after drinking, it may be difficult for anyone to refuse such a temptation!

However, I must control myself!Although there is a sudden strong emotion in my heart that wants to gain the upper hand and make me give up resisting, I have to say to myself: "Lao Han is still waiting for you, Lao Han is your brother, even though he is a bit too much for you, But, he really wants to be with you!"

I leaned my body back.

Guo Jingqi took advantage of the wine and said, "What's the matter? Are you ignoring old friends?"

"I didn't ignore you." I smiled.

"Then you still dodge?"

"Isn't it good for us to do this? How can I prove that I haven't forgotten you?" I was still laughing.

"You, is someone there?" Guo Jingqi paused and asked.

I do not know how to answer.

someone?What Guo Jingqi asked was whether I belonged.

Yes, I have a crush on Lao Han.I like his age, like his man's appearance, although compared with Guo Jingqi, his size is much smaller, but different feelings have the same wildness!I'm obsessed with that bold outline.

However, thinking of Lao Han slapping me twice, and thinking of the scene at that time, I couldn't help feeling sad.

Seeing that I didn't answer him, Guo Jingqi was obviously at a loss.

I gritted my teeth, sighed, and asked him how the past few years have been.

It turned out that he also came out of school last year and opened a feed factory with a few former comrades-in-arms. This time he came to Xi'an to investigate the Shaanxi market.

"Friend," he called out.

When Guo Jingqi read the word "friend", his very Xinjiang accent made me feel very comfortable.

"My friend, when I think of Xi'an, I think of you. I found you after traveling through many places. I thought I could renew my relationship."

After speaking, he grinned.

He said that the impression I made on him three years ago was so good that I have never forgotten it.He only received one reply to the letter he wrote to me, even though I had already expressed the meaning that it was impossible to be together, he still had hope at that time, he believed that mountains and rivers would meet again.

I smiled and shook my head.

The life I long for is to stay with my lover all day long, I hope to see him every day, I need to greet each other all day long, the kind of lonely and sleepless love that looks across the world, maybe it will be more unforgettable, both I can't bear the loss of looking at each other with tears when we are separated.

I began to tell Guo Jingqi my understanding of gay life.

I started to tell him about the feelings I had for him.

I want to thank him for the kindness he still has for me.

I also briefly described my relationship with Lao Han to him.I didn't mention the quarrel to him.

Among them, I have never mentioned Lao Zuo.

After hearing this, Guo Jingqi's expression darkened. Not long after, he raised his head and said, "My friend, thank you, you haven't forgotten me these past few years. Since you already have that kind of friend who you can spend your whole life with, I still want to Bless you. May you grow old together! I am very envious!"

This is the first clear blessing I have received since I met Lao Han, but it came from Guo Jingqi.

Like a glass filled with red wine in an instant, I feel satisfied.

However, Guo Jingqi said again: "I really don't know what the person who is with you now looks like. I want to meet him. What if you lie to me?"

I smiled wryly and thought to myself: See Lao Han, what are you doing seeing him?For people like Lao Han, let alone you go to see him, if you know that I am alone in the room with you, what might happen?What's more, now I don't know how to meet him with both face and resentment.

"How about this, you can see me when you have a chance in the future. Didn't you say that you may come here often in the future? Don't be in a hurry!"

Walking out of the hotel, Guo Jingqi said, "My friend, won't you let me go to your house to make an appointment? Maybe I need you to help me with my business in Xi'an in the future."

Thinking that it was his first visit to Xi'an, and he was unfamiliar with the place, he hesitated a little, and I nodded.

I don't want the appearance of Guo Jingqi to cast any shadow on my relationship with Lao Han.

In the car, I thought repeatedly, if Lao Han knew that I was with Guo Jingqi today, how would I give him a reasonable explanation.So, I kept praying in my heart, God bless, let Guo Jingqi's career get on the right track as soon as possible, smooth sailing, don't come to me again in the future.

However, if Guo Jingqi really came to him, wouldn't I have to help him as much as I can?

Thinking of this, I regretted a little, and regretted agreeing to him to visit my house.Not for anything else, I'm just afraid that Lao Han will be jealous.

But the words have already been spoken, and it would be too mother-in-law to change the words now, and it would definitely make Guo Jingqi think of Xi'an people.

I couldn't help but keep scolding myself for being a pig.

Thinking about it again, isn't it said that a gentleman is magnanimous?Anyway, from now on, the relationship between Guo Jingqi and I is innocent, and we haven't done anything wrong, so what are we afraid of?

Going to Yuxiangmen's house, Guo Jingqi glanced here and there, and laughed: "My friend, your home is very warm!"

I smiled politely.What is Yuxiangmen, the houses in Yaxinyuan Community are beautiful!Thinking of Yaxin Garden and Lao Han, although I yearn for it very much, I feel a little blocked in my heart.

My mood fluctuated between high and low, and I was smoking and drinking water with Guo Jingqi in the living room and gossiping, when I heard someone outside knocking on the door, knocking twice, and then started ringing the doorbell.

Who will come at this time?

I was a little surprised, how could anyone know that I was back?I just stepped in the door without much effort!

Looking through the door opening, Zhang Wenqing was actually standing outside the door.

ghost!I cursed in my heart, and I had to open the door for him with a smile on my face.

After opening the door, Zhang Wenqing said, "Xiaohui is back, why didn't he say hello, who is in your room?"

After finishing speaking, he leaned forward and looked in with his eyes wide open.

Zhang Wenqing's actions were too impolite. I said, "A former client, a friend from out of town. Do you have anything to do?"

Zhang Wenqing said with a smile: "Why do customers come to the house? Don't you know that your brother cares about your interactions with others?"

I blocked Zhang Wenqing at the door, not intending to let him in: "Oh, who is my brother? I don't seem to know."

Since Zhang Wenqing said that you, Old Han, cared so much about my relationship, I became even more angry now, and my stubbornness rushed forward: "He is really lenient!"

Who knows, just after I finished saying this, the opposite door opened, followed by a roar: "Who cares?"

My god, it turned out to be Lao Han!With a livid face and an unshaven beard, he shouted, "Who are you talking about?"

Before I could react, Lao Han grabbed my neckline.

I didn't pay attention, and Lao Han pulled me into Zhang Wenqing's house, and he knocked on the door with a bang.