dance like a butterfly

Originally, I didn't think there was anything inappropriate in my language and behavior. I was really surprised when I heard Lao Han say that today.

The love for the same sex is originally a distorted and deformed love. Although I am not the one who is wrong, I have been suppressing it to prevent myself from being regarded as a different kind by others. However, if Lao Han said something like this, it still hit me more or less. me.

I always thought that I hid myself very tightly, but today, it seems that it is not the same thing at all.

Seeing my depression, Lao Han kept silent.

I know, he's waiting for my reaction.

If I don't speak again, he will stop on this topic and never open his mouth again.

"Brother, what you said is very good and profound. I am savoring and understanding your words, and I am also reflecting on myself."

"Okay, that's good. I'm afraid what I say will hurt you."

Lao Han sat up and gently stroked my face.

His fingers are very light, like a breeze gently stroking the light yellow grass that only emerges from the ground in spring, and I feel numb in my heart.

"This is what I think. In order for us to get along more harmoniously and get along for a longer time in the future, we all have to pay attention to our words and deeds, and don't let people see gossip about us."

Lao Han looked into my eyes meaningfully.

"Hehe, how do you say this, is it family training?" I teased him.

"Xiaohui, don't make fun of me like this, brother, I'm serious now. I hope we have a long, long road ahead, can you understand brother? Besides, I believe that as long as you want to do it, it will be good for you Speaking, there is no difficulty.

I quickly thought of Lao Han's identity. After all, he is also a figure in his territory.

There was nothing wrong with him saying that.

Seeing me smiling slightly, Lao Han continued: "Xiaohui, brother is a rough man with a straight temper. But, I have never said such things to anyone, and I can't find anyone to say them. All I say are If you're heartbroken, you can understand, right?"

My heart warmed up.

It's not just Lao Han, I often feel aggrieved and don't know who to tell my heart to.

A person is not a container that can only enter and exit.If everything is put inside, it will be suffocated for a long time.

"Brother, I'll listen to you." I put my hand on Lao Han's and rubbed it lightly.

Lighting two cigarettes at the same time, Lao Han put one in his mouth for me.

"Xiaohui, from now on, you must treat brother as your own brother, and I will treat you as my own relative."

After hearing his words, I felt complicated.

Seeing that I didn't make a clear statement, Lao Han was a little nervous, but he didn't speak, and just looked at me with fixed eyes.

"I think, I can do it." I don't know how I said that, I feel silly listening to it.

However, Lao Han took advantage of this sentence very much.

"Xiaohui, I can't care if you had friends before or not. But if you promise me today, you can't break your promise." After speaking, he put his hand on my chest.

"Furthermore, we can't be just brothers, but comrades and lovers." Lao Han immediately added.

For the last four words, his tone was very heavy.

I couldn't help giving Lao Han a hug in return.

I also understand that when Lao Han said such words, it was definitely not a momentary fever.

Comrades and lovers, these heavy four words contain so much helplessness, depression, hesitation, and hope.

What kind of a road of no return is this, if you take this road, you are doomed to suffer, from hell to heaven, and then to the torture of reality. pain?

It is too difficult.

Lao Han put my palm on his chest.

He wanted me to understand that he was speaking from the bottom of his heart.

After a while, Lao Han continued: "Xiaohui, I also knew two people before, but how stupid they were at that time. At that time, it seemed that it was purely for venting personality and depression. Although there were some connections intermittently, that was all in the past. It's over, it's all over."

I didn't interrupt and listened to him continue.

"At this age, I thought I was just like this. Who knows, I met you by accident. You awakened my initial feeling. I was surprised by myself, haha."

Old Han held me tightly in his arms.

I gently put him on the bed and looked at this man who opened his heart to me again.

Could it be that this is the lover that God loves me and sends me?

I used to watch "A Chinese Journey to the West" and the provocative dialogue between Zixia Fairy and Zhizunbao on the city wall, and my heart became numb and tight. I saw Monkey King blowing a breath to cover the curiosity of the spectators below the city. The envy and happiness in my heart lingered for a long time when the pair of lovers kissed each other, and looking at Lao Han now, this feeling enveloped me again.

"Brother, you are mine too, mine, no one is allowed to compete with me!"

I don't think so, I shed tears, one by one dripping on Lao Han's body.

One dropped at the corner of Lao Han's mouth and slowly slipped into his mouth.

He licked the drop of water with the tip of his tongue, turned over and pressed me under him, kissed my face frantically, and kissed my tear-filled eyes.

Lao Han said, "Xiaohui, you may not understand why I still have to see you tonight."

I stopped kissing him and opened my eyes wide.

Lao Han is a person who doesn't give up until he has finished what he has to say. After he speaks out, he will definitely feel relieved.

"I just thought, I finally met you, so I can't miss it. There are so many people in the world, if I act late, maybe it will be difficult to find you, or even never found again.!"

"After that night, you didn't call me. I guessed many possible reasons, and then I stopped guessing. It was too brain-intensive and meaningless. Since I met you again today, I will fight for it. Don't think of me as the kind of stupid big brother who is hotheaded for a while." He continued.

I'm speechless.

What can i say?All his words tonight are my dream lover, in my dream.

According to my deliberate request, I said it along my mind.Although Lao Han didn't use the language of poetry, didn't he want to express the same meaning?

"Brother, I understand what you said. I'm not a stupid person. I know what it means to reciprocate. If you can be honest with me, I won't neglect you."

I kissed the tip of his nose, sure.

However, at this moment, a gray shadow of a person flashed across my heart.

I was obviously lacking confidence.

Not even the momentary change in my face escaped his attention.

Lao Han sat up and took my hand: "Xiaohui, tell me something. Don't hide it, you know, some things, everyone is very selfish."

I don't understand how old Han guessed me when he said such a thing.

I sincerely said: "Brother, don't think about it, you have to believe that my feelings for you are true, and my attitude towards you is also serious. This is enough."

Old Han was still worried, "Xiaohui, if there is something wrong, don't wrong yourself. I can't handle your past affairs, but it will be different in the future. I can't just watch you suffer or be bullied."

I don't know what happened, that night, I was like a mother-in-law, and Lao Han's words made my tears flow down again.

Lao Han didn't speak anymore, he hugged me, pressed his face tightly against mine, and wiped my tears with his face.

At some point, there were tears in his eyes.