Me and Boss Bear

The continuous rainy days in Xiamen seem to have brought the city into a cold winter ahead of schedule.The pattering rain makes people restless, and there will be a traffic jam sooner or later, which is really helpless.

The matter of Lu Wei has been bothering Lao Liu for the past few days, and there is still not much smile on his face.Seeing Lao Liu like this made me feel very uncomfortable.

Driving on the road in the evening, the road was blocked tightly.The entire road is full of cars, but they are all waiting in an orderly manner.I sat in the car and watched Lao Liu frowning tightly, holding the steering wheel gently with both hands, and never opened his mouth to say anything. Such a rare atmosphere really made me breathless.

"Go back to your rental house tomorrow and live for two days!" After a long time, Lao Liu broke the silence.

"Huh? Why?"

"My son is on vacation tomorrow, he will come back to my place for two days, and then he will go back to his mother's place."

"Oh. That's right, it's the students' holiday, and it seems that A Bing is about to go home for the holiday."

I turned my head to look at the hustle and bustle of the city outside the window, casually talking to Lao Liu and the other, the atmosphere was very dull.

"That..." I turned my head and looked at Lao Liu again, but I wanted to swallow the words back.

"Huh? What?"

"How about Lu Wei?"

After hearing this, Lao Liu turned his eyes to the front again and exhaled through his nose. "It's okay, he doesn't want to go back, but his father's attitude and tone are even more unrelenting!"

As he spoke, Lao Liu opened the car window, lit a cigarette, and handed me the whole pack of cigarettes.

Lao Liu has already said so, I think it is better not to ask further.I took the cigarette and took out one, lit it, and put the pack of cigarettes into the box on the car.

When they got home in the evening, the two of them made a simple dinner.Lao Liu went to take a shower, then lay on the bed and watched TV, while I opened the closet, packed two pieces of clothes and prepared to take them back to the rental house.

I don't know why, but I always have an inexplicable feeling in my heart, astringent, sour, I think about it, but I really can't explain it clearly.In the dead of night, Lao Liu and I lay hugging each other on the bed, I buried my head in his arms, put my arms around my waist and hugged him, feeling the warmth from his body.

"Would you be sad if Lu Wei left?" I broke the silence of the night and asked softly.

Old Liu was silent for a while, took a few breaths through his nose, and the warm air flowed on my hair. "I don't know either……"

"Are you going to be sad?" I said silently again.

"Why do you say that?"

"It's nothing, it's just a feeling..."

Old Liu turned over, hugged me into his arms, and kissed my forehead. "Xiao Lin, don't think about it. You know that I love you. Although I'm worrying about Lu Wei now, you should understand that I don't treat him like that..."

"I know..." I gently covered Lao Liu's lips with my hands, stopping his words.

Lao Liu smiled, and kissed my forehead. The slight smile made me feel very sweet.

"I think it's hard for us to be together!"

"Well, it's not easy! How much has your kid made me suffer?!"

"Let you suffer? How can I have that ability?! Huh? What's the matter? I don't seem to be happy to hear you say that!"

After hearing this, Lao Liu burst out laughing with a "puchi", and rubbed my head on his chest...

Lu Wei also came to work during the day, but his mental state and concentration were really not satisfactory. Old Liu could only helplessly shake his head silently when he saw it. It was also very unpleasant immediately.

I can feel the feeling that my freedom is restricted.It is indeed a painful thing to force myself to do things according to the wishes of my parents and accept their arrangements to live a life I don't want.We all know that parents are for the best of their children, but because of this, they live in a life that they don't like, and it is inevitable that they will feel deeply lonely and helpless.

From the looks of it, Lu Wei and his father haven't settled the matter yet, if things go on like this, it won't be far from Lu Wei's real departure.I don't know why I have such an idea, but I do keep saying this to myself in my heart.

Early in the morning, I carried a small handbag and returned to my rental house. Every time I came back, I would feel inexplicable emotion.This is my "ancestral nest" in Xiamen. Every time I come back, I feel very at ease. I always feel that in Xiamen, even if there is no place to stay, this place will always belong to me...even though I rented it.

The last time I came back was more than a week ago, I just came back to clean it.So, after I put away the clothes, I cleaned the house briefly.I went out for a day, and when I came back, it was already evening. What should I do for tonight's dinner?It's been a long time since I've had dinner alone.

A phone call came from A Bing. Could it be that this kid is on vacation too?I answered the phone with doubts.

"Hi! Brother, what are you doing?" Ah Bing's energetic voice came from the phone immediately.

"No reason, I see you haven't come to clean the house for me for a long time, come back to clean the house, and you are about to go out and finish dinner."

"Hey, I knew it! Just wait, I will bring some snacks to find you later! Wait at home!"

"Ah?! Why are you running here now? You..."

Before he finished speaking, Ah Bing had already hung up the phone, and I looked at the phone speechless for a while.It seems that this kid is really on vacation. Looking at the calendar, it's almost this time.Old Liu, he should be with him now, right?I don't know if he has eaten or not.

While sitting on the sofa watching TV, Ah Bing opened the door with his key and came in cheerfully carrying a big bag of food.

"What is it? Such a big bag." I put down the TV remote control, got up and walked over.

"Hehe, look, a dozen beers and a big bag of barbecue!"

I looked at A Bing helplessly, and frowned in protest, "Is your brain flooded? You're going to eat this for dinner!?"

"Yes what's the matter?"

"Can you eat enough? This is a recreational snack! You still eat this as a meal?!" After speaking, I glanced at him.

"Hey, it's okay! If you really can't do it, if you get hungry later, you can go buy some food by yourself."

The two of them barbecued together, had a dozen beers, and had a great time eating.It's just that I think this is a small snack for children, and I'm really not very hungry.Ah Bing ate it to his heart's content. I don't like to eat a bag of barbecue, so Ah Bing ate most of the bag.

"Brother, I'm going out, I won't come back tonight." A Bing finished his last sip of beer, wiped his mouth and said to me.

"Not coming back? Where are you going?"

"Go online with your friends at an Internet cafe."

"On the Internet last night?"

"Well, yes!" The boy said with confidence.

"Your holiday?"

"That's right! The luggage is still at the school. I plan to go home in two days. Let's play for two days before talking about it." After speaking, Ah Bing smiled at me.

"Go to an Internet cafe, waste money! My computer will let you surf the Internet."

A Bing suddenly became unhappy, and said with pouted lips, "I don't want it, I'm going to play games, your computer and internet speed..."

"Come on, go if you want, anyway, I can't control you once you're on vacation!" After I finished speaking, I started to clean up the mess on the table, and A Bing grinned, put his satchel on his back and rushed out the door.

After packing up, I looked at my watch, it was only a little past seven.I made a cup of tea, sat down on the sofa, turned on the TV, there was nothing to see, and suddenly felt bored in every possible way. I didn't expect that when I was alone, without Lao Liu by my side, I would feel so empty and panic.

Suddenly another phone call came from Lao Liu. I was pleasantly surprised and answered the phone immediately.

"Little Lin, what are you doing?"

"No reason. I made a cup of tea and watched TV. Without you by my side, I feel empty and flustered." I told the truth.

"Hey hey hey! Do you know me now?" Old Liu smiled proudly, which made me sigh.

"have you eaten?"

"I ate it, but... it's the same as if I didn't eat it..."

"Huh? What does that mean?"

"Hehe, it's nothing. Why do you call me when you have time? Why don't you accompany your son?"

"I'm going out for dinner with him, you can come too."...

The wind is really blowing today, and it's quite cold.I took a taxi and drove to the restaurant.Lao Liu asked me to have dinner with their father and son. I really felt that it was inappropriate. After all, it was the dinner of his father and son, but Lao Liu insisted that it was okay. He used to take his son to eat with his colleagues.

When we arrived at the restaurant, Lao Liu and his son had just arrived, so we met face to face.His son went to the bathroom, and Lao Liu and I sat down to order food first.

"I really feel awkward, why do you have to let me do it?"

"What are you afraid of?! I miss you. Aren't you full? Let's eat some more together!" After speaking, Lao Liu grinned at me.

After a while, his son came back.This kid is more sunny than Ah Bing. I have seen him before, and now he seems to be a little fatter, but he is still not as good as his father...

"Son, this is Dad's colleague named Uncle Lin!"

"Oh, hello, Uncle Lin."

I was speechless for a moment, and secretly glanced at Old Liu, then smiled again, "Hehe, don't, I'm not yet [-], not much older than you, just call me Big Brother Lin."

Such a dinner made me suddenly feel that there was a gap between me and Lao Liu. With his son around, I couldn't say anything, I could only talk about work, which made me regret coming over for a meal even more.At the same time, I felt uncomfortable. I felt that my relationship with Lao Liu was so secret in front of his son. Of course, this was necessary.

It is precisely because of this that I really feel that I have done something wrong, which is very shameful.Perhaps in the eyes and heart of his son, Lao Liu is a successful and great good father. He would never have thought that such a good father would have such a relationship with me.

Looking at that innocent and sunny smiling face, I felt a sense of guilt, and his "Brother Lin" every now and then filled me with embarrassment, but I didn't dare to express it.

"Dad, I saw a lot of clothes in the closet at home! Some of them don't look like what you're wearing, they're much younger than what you're wearing!"

Lao Liu and I petrified in an instant, my heart rose to my throat, and I almost broke out in a cold sweat.

"Oh, I saw it when I was shopping for clothes before, and I bought it when I thought it was pretty good. I felt that I would look younger in it. Hahaha, my dad also pursues fashion."

Listening to Lao Liu's lies, I feel even more unspeakably uncomfortable.Looking at the old Liu father and son, my heart suddenly became confused. If I knew my father and other men... I dare not think about it.

After dinner, Lao Liu wanted to drive me back to my residence, but I refused, so he had no choice but to go home with his son.The inexplicable meal made me feel full of entanglement.My heart seemed to be covered by dark clouds, gray, and I returned to the rental house listlessly.

I don't know if I'm thinking about it, but that lovely sunny face always comes to my mind.I finally got through one difficulty after another with Lao Liu, but when the word "family" was mentioned, I was immediately confused.Am I all right cranky?Are you struggling with this unnecessary worry?

Feeling irritable, I took out the cigarette in my pocket and took out a cigarette, held it in my mouth, and when I fumbled for the lighter, I suddenly remembered the face in my heart, that kind and warm face, and remembered my favorite relative...

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"You kid is smoking more and more energetic?!"...

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"I told you not to smoke, you just ignored it, right?!"

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The corner of my mouth curled up, I smiled alone and shook my head, then put down the lighter I had found, and put the cigarette already in my mouth back into the cigarette case.

Lao Liu, did I overthink it?Or am I bringing too many concerns into account?Your son is very good, very sunny, very cute, you are a very successful father, a very good father.Just today, I suddenly had a feeling. This feeling may be light or heavy... I feel that there is a sudden pressure when I am with you...

It was getting late, and the yawns started one after another, so I turned off the TV, shrank my body into the bed, and got ready to sleep.But at this time, a text message came to my mobile phone, and it was Lao Liu again, asking me if I was asleep.I smiled slightly, and made a phone call, but it took a long time for Lao Liu to answer.

"Why so long?" I asked suspiciously.

"The phone was muted, my son was asleep, and I ran to the balcony to answer the phone."

"It's so late, why are you still texting me?"

"I just received a text message from Lu Wei, he said...he is going back to Singapore..."

Old Liu said it clearly, after I heard it, I was stunned for an instant...